I am your deceased love sustenance 1

The last time I had the same dream was when Qiansui had a fever, so what about this time?

The action of lifting the quilt was so fast that Su Shi's brain didn't have time to react. As expected, the burning feeling in his chest came from Qian Sui.

The little angel's lips opened and closed with difficulty, like a sea fish pressed on a chopping board.

The beautiful eyebrows were also furrowed, but what scared Su Shi the most was the other person's cheek.

It's so... bloodless.

"Xiao Sui? Xiao Sui! Are you okay? Don't scare your mother."

No one responded except Qiansui's difficult mumbling.

Realizing that something was wrong, Nagasaki Motoyo made a series of decisions in her mind in a very short time.

He put on his coat, covered Chitose with a blanket, put his cell phone power bank and wallet in his pocket, and quickly rushed out of the room.

Damn... Why is Xiaosui sick again... Is it because of me?

She left the child home alone without food, and she wasn't wearing much, even less because the child loved the cool air... She waited alone in the cold living room for who knows how long...

Nagasaki Suyo wanted to slap herself a few times, she knew that her series of negligence would lead to similar consequences.

She felt so sad, really.

Chitose's illness pained Sushi more than her own.

It was still early in the morning, and the light traffic meant that it was only a little before six o'clock. The busy city of Tokyo was a tireless beast that would equip Zhuge Crossbows and draw cards without restraint.

The familiar hospital, the familiar call to the doctor, Su Shi felt that the number of times he had been to the hospital in his life was not as many as this year combined.

She barely breathed a sigh of relief until Chitose was sent to the emergency room.

"It's because I was hurt again. I'm such a failure as a parent."

The director of this private hospital was an old acquaintance of Su Shi. After asking the director to take care of Qiansui, Su Shi left the hospital.

Now that you're up, you might as well work hard.

I hope I can come to see you early today.

On the way to the company, there were more pedestrians and office workers.

Su Shi was worried about Qiansui. After thinking for a long time, she dialed a phone number that was familiar but also unfamiliar to her.

"Xiao Deng? How have you been lately... Do you have time? I really need you right now."

"Eh?"

The cute penguin voice came out from the receiver, carrying the confusion and haziness of the early morning.

……

The next day will be the working day, but even on the weekend many people cannot stop and rest.

Su Shi covered her head and thought she had hypoglycemia. When she went to a roadside convenience store to buy a glass of fruit and vegetable juice, her attention was attracted by the shelf next to the cash register.

"How much is this little teddy bear?" Su Shi pursed her lips.

"Hello, ma'am. This is a free gift when you buy mints. Buy five mints and you can redeem them for a small teddy bear. What do you need..."

"Okay, add the juice to the bill."

If I give Xiaosui a teddy bear, she will definitely like it.

When getting in the car again, Su Shi recalled the phone call during the day.

Takamatsu Deng, the person she asked for help was Takamatsu Deng.

Although they haven't been in touch for a long time since junior high school, I have to say that their relationship... is the best among all their friends.

So funny…

The lantern lady is very nice. From a child's perspective, she is like a kind-hearted older sister next door.

Plus, when they're not busy at work, this group of Crychic veterans will get together to chat and relieve the stress in their lives. Well... it seems a bit too much trouble.

It was obvious that the other party had been working for such a long time before he got the day off.

In the hospital, elevator, and ward, Su Shi's walking posture was mechanical and stiff.

Outside the ward, she took a deep breath and put all the unpleasantness at work behind her.

Don’t let negative emotions scare Xiaosui anymore!

She heard laughter from inside the door. It was her age, and she was laughing so happily.

Su Shi felt a little jealous. She wasn't jealous that Xiao Sui was not the one who made her happy... that would be too weird.

"Xiao Deng, thank you for your hard work," Su Shi said politely after entering the door. She hid the toy bear behind her and prepared to give Qiansui a surprise.

"I...Su Shi, you're here."

The girl with cat ears on her head blushed and quickly took off the pendant and the cat gloves on her hands.

"Huh? Deng, what are you wearing?"

"Ah... for entertaining children, ahem."

"mom!"

Qiansui's voice on the hospital bed was much weaker than usual. She barely stretched out her hand and waved at Su Shi.

"Is Xiaosui feeling better today?"

"It's much better now. My temperature has stopped rising and is starting to drop slowly. The doctor said I caught a cold and asked if I had been to any place with high humidity," Gao Songdeng took over.

"what…"

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Su Shi swallowed back all the words he had prepared in his head.

What… Could it be that this is a condition I picked up from going to the beach? If I'm careful, it shouldn't be a problem, so…

【Is this due to my negligence?】

What kind of mother am I?

Feeling guilty and bitter, Su Shi felt that the smile on his face must not look very good right now.

She was afraid of scaring Qiansui, so she quickly turned her head and looked towards the corner.

"Mom... why are you ignoring Xiaosui... maybe... you don't like Xiaosui anymore."

Feeling the corner of her clothes being pulled, Su Shi hugged Qiansui carefully with red eyes.

Damn it, why am I almost crying again? I haven’t cried as much as in this month in my entire life.

What a shameful and failed mother.

"No, I... I just feel a little uncomfortable. I hope Xiaosui feels better."

"Mom will be with you in the hospital tonight. I'll pack you some ginseng chicken soup, okay?"

"Yeah! I like mom! I also like Aunt Deng!"

Don’t mention other people’s names at this time, it feels super weird!

"I didn't expect Su Shi to become a mother. She's the only one among us who has a child. I feel so emotional."

Deng tilted her head. She actually remembered that Su Shi had a strong motherly vibe since junior high school. She didn't expect that after becoming a mother, she became like a little daughter.

"You've worked hard today. I even took a rare day off to take care of Xiao Sui... I'll treat you to a meal when I'm free later."

"That's not necessary, alas."

Takamatsu Deng packed his belongings and prepared to leave, but Su Shi noticed that Deng's expression and tone were very strange.

Like holding back tears.

"I'm already very happy to be able to take care of Xiao Sui for once. Thank you, Su Shi... Thank you so much."

Ch155. I must make her regret it for the rest of her life!

What does the little lamp mean?

Su Shi is not clear.

She looked at the other person's slightly desolate back gradually going away, as if it was a lonely soul walking alone towards the road of destruction.

Su Shi opened his mouth, but could not utter any word as a farewell.

[What a strange aura, Xiao Deng...]

"Mom, can I really drink ginseng chicken soup today? I'll definitely recover if I drink ginseng chicken soup!"

The daughter looked at her tenderly with her big, innocent eyes. Su Shi felt absurdly that Qiansui was now very... charitable?

"Puchi, be good, Xiao Sui. Why did you say that drinking it will make you better?"

"Because every time I got sick before, I recovered after drinking ginseng chicken soup! So this time will definitely be the same!"

Every time, sick?

Ah this.

[Yes, Xiao Sui is already six years old. She... has been sick every time over the years, and I never paid any attention to it. What on earth have I done...]

I really want to make it up to you, but Su Shi has been so busy lately that he has no time to spare...even the most basic companionship seems to have become a luxury.

Nagasaki Suyo walked out of the ward with her mouth covered, her temples aching and swollen.

"Haitsuka, do you have time? Please pack me a bowl of ginseng chicken soup and send it to the hospital... Thank you for your hard work."

On the way to her mother's ward, Su Shi called Kyo Huizuka's phone number.

She walked and stopped, and at one point leaned against the wall for a long time before she regained her strength.

"No, no, I'm a mother of a child, I can't be so decadent!" Slapping her cheeks hard, Su Shi forced herself to move forward despite her fatigue.

Mother is also in the hospital, and Chitose is there too.

Why are all my family members in the hospital?

It's simply a curse.

Ugh.

……

Su Shi basically couldn't close her eyes that night. She didn't dare to relax and stayed by Qiansui's side. She hurried to work early in the morning.

On Monday, I worked overtime until ten o'clock.

Tuesday, work overtime until nine o'clock.

On Wednesday, Su Shi didn't have time to go home. He fell asleep in the office due to the worries at work and the concerns about his children.

On Thursday, Su Shi, who had barely managed to stabilize his business difficulties, finally got off work before six o'clock.

I'm going to pick up Chitose from the hospital today.

Nagasaki Suyo sat in her car, looking at the rearview mirror with a haggard face.

"Ugh…"

What saddened Su Shi the most was not only her own various dereliction of duty, but also the fact that Qiansui's appearance was becoming more and more like her when she was a child.

He also has a mother who is too busy to go home early, he also has a broken and incomplete family, and he is also... a lonely person.

But Qiansui is actually worse off than Su Shi.

Su Shi's first family broke up when she was in fifth grade. She was eleven years old that year, and Chitose is only six years old now.

You grew up without a complete family and your mother didn’t care about you... Chitose, how did you survive?

Picking up the child and taking him home took faster than he expected. Xiao Sui was drowsy and knocking her head against the wall in the back seat of the car. Su Shi was careful not to make any noise to disturb her.

The silence along the way gave Su Shi a rare chance to breathe.

It was not until she returned to her and Chitose's small house that her uneasy heart felt a little relieved.

"Xiao Sui, it's time, wake up quickly?"

"Mmm, Mommy... I'm so sleepy."

"Then let mommy carry you down."