You are Toyokawa Shoko, then who am I?

The servant kept comforting himself in his heart and prayed to God with the most devout faith in his life, hoping that the young lady and the others would not find out that he had just pushed open the wooden door and saw something he shouldn't have seen.

At this moment, she saw a girl in a light blue plaid dress walking towards her.

The servant's face immediately changed. Who else could this girl be but Wakaba Mu? There weren't many guests who could walk around the Toyokawa family freely, and this girl was one of them...!

"Miss Ruoye! Master Xiang and Miss are visiting Mrs. Ruisui now. Please go to the lounge--"

Ruoye Mu nodded calmly after hearing this.

Led by a servant who looked extremely panicked for some reason, she slowly walked through the corridor. Her eyes passed by all kinds of expensive decorations and finally fell on the wooden door of a room.

In a trance.

She felt that she could sense Toyokawa Sho's presence from here.

...It must be an illusion.

Ruoye Mu murmured softly in his heart.

She had been wanting to see Toyokawa Sho for the past two days. Perhaps it was just because this longing for him grew stronger and stronger as time went by, so strong that she could no longer bear it. She felt that she would break down if she couldn't see Toyokawa Sho again, so she had this illusion.

117

Chapter 117 Ruoye Mu: Is this heaven?

Ever since the incident at Triangle Chuhua, Ruoye Mu has always looked worried.

Although Toyokawa Shoko kept comforting her that it was not her fault that day, she still felt deep down that it was her failure to show a good attitude in time that led to Toyokawa Shoko's collapse.

If things could be made clear at the beginning, or if Sankaku Hatsuka had just shut up, Toyokawa Shoko might not have known the truth, and she would not have been unable to fulfill the agreement she made with Toyokawa Sho.

With such a depressed mood, she didn't get a good rest for two consecutive days. Every time she video-called Toyokawa Sho before going to bed, she hoped to chat longer.

But she didn't want to disturb Toyokawa Sho's rest, so she would hang up the video after chatting for more than an hour each time, then look at the phone screen reluctantly, or flip through the chat history for a long time, or close her eyes and silently accept more memories from another time and space.

She had hoped to learn more about Toyokawa Sho's past by accepting his memories and find more emotional sustenance.

But as her memories continued to integrate more deeply, she discovered an unexpected singularity.

In Toyokawa Sho's world, I seem... not normal.

At least, she had never heard of any normal person having countless personalities in his heart, and no distinction between primary and secondary, all maintaining the same body to respond to stimuli from the real world.

Although she also lived in a family where she was neglected, she was at most emotionally depressed and longed for someone to help her. A situation like split personality was simply horrifying.

Wakaba Mutsu was scared about this, but she was also curious. From the memories she had received so far, whether it was Shiina Riki or others, they were basically consistent.

Even Toyokawa Sho and Toyokawa Shoko, although they have different experiences, they generally have the same personality template and share the same underlying logic. They both have their own weak sides and things they don't want to face.

Judging from this situation, I should be consistent with my other self, but why does the self in the other world have a split personality, but I don’t?

Wakaba Mutsu tried to find the answer.

As her memory gradually deepened, she realized that before she met Toyokawa Sho in another world, she had always relied on different personalities to maintain her body, and there was a corresponding personality responsible for every matter and every field.

After becoming friends with Toyokawa Sho, countless personalities began to spontaneously move in the same direction, and even formed a collective consciousness that they were willing to abide by and work hard for.

I hope Toyokawa Sho can find happiness.

When this collective consciousness emerges, the personalities have actually completed the process of becoming one.

There is no longer any distinction or barrier between them. If someone likes Toyokawa Sho the most, it is Wakaba Mu, and if it is Wakaba Mu, then he or she will definitely like Toyokawa Sho the most.

Ruo Ye Mu roughly understood the situation, but it still couldn't explain why there were differences between herself in the two worlds. She wanted to continue accepting the memory to understand the situation, but in a trance she felt a hand gently patting her shoulder in her dream.

She turned her head and her pupils slowly shrank.

She actually saw a face that looked exactly like her own.

But unlike himself, the other person's expression was very lively and smart.

The same pair of eyes, but there are like two clear springs in her eyes, and even the blinking of her eyelashes carries a delicate gleam. The tip of her upturned nose seems to be covered with icing from cherry blossom cakes, and even when she puffs out her mouth, she looks like a cute squirrel with its mouth filled with pine nuts.

She gently poked Wakaba Mu's cheek with her finger and said in an angry voice that she didn't need to know so much.

Unless, you are also willing to work hard only for Toyokawa Sho's happiness.

Instead of bringing in Shoko Toyokawa who can't even love you.

Wakaba Mu opened his mouth slightly, wanting to refute that Toyokawa Shoko also cared about him, but when he thought about what Toyokawa Shoko said to him that day, and the way Toyokawa Shoko looked at him was obviously different from Toyokawa Sho, and he didn't have that caring look in his eyes.

She had no choice but to give up her rebuttal.

Turn around and ask who the other person is.

"I am Mortis, and I am you."

Metis.

If Ye Mu remembers this name.

It was the code name that Toyokawa Sho gave to himself and Toyokawa Sho in the newly formed band after we entered high school.

“…Why don’t you let me see it?”

Wakaba Mu asked in confusion.

"Because you don't need to know, Xiao Mu,"

Metis put her hands behind her back, circled around Wakaba Mu with a playful step, and finally whispered in his ear.

"If Xiaomu is just content to stay by Xiang's side, then Xiaomu doesn't need to know the rest of the memories. Only when Xiaomu is like us, willing to fight for the same goal, and willing to work hard for the people we love most, will Xiaomu have the right to know the true content."

"Aren't you curious about why you are the only one who can recall all the memories with Xiang?"

The girl named Metis deliberately kept the secret and said, "Why did I show you the adult content, but left out some seemingly unimportant places, and even now, you, little Mu, are not allowed to visit them?"

"Ah, speaking of adults—"

Metis covered her mouth, as if someone had put a wedding ring on her finger, and jumped on the spot excitedly while speaking happily.

"Last time I came out, I kissed Xiang!"

"……when?"

Ruoye Muchi touched her mouth in a daze. She had no memory of it at all.

"That day when you slept at that woman's house, I told you in advance that I didn't like her. We were Xiang's only childhood sweethearts, right? That guy just happened to take advantage of our absence and was the most annoying."

Metis slowly approached Wakaba Mu and spoke when she was just a few inches away from her.

"By the way, Xiao Mu, do you want me to play your memories for you? If you need, I can transmit to you everything from his physical sensations, breathing, heartbeat... and even his confused eyes, everything he saw and felt at that time."

"……No……"

Ruoye Mu lowered his head, his porcelain-white cheeks flushed a little, "I... have seen it all."

After saying that, Ruoye Mu raised her eyes again and asked, but this sentence sounded more like the girl was trying to change the subject to hide her embarrassment.

"So, do I also have a split personality? If not... it's hard to explain your existence."

"What's the point of split personality? You are me, and I am you."

Metis gently held Wakaba Mu's palm and said, "If Xiang hadn't been here, perhaps this situation would have happened. We might have been in pain forever. Perhaps one of our personalities would have taken control and killed the others."

"But meeting Xiang is different. He is the meaning of our lives, the warm light, the ever-present breeze, the hero who pulls us back on track from this sick world. It was obviously just acting at the beginning, no matter what the reaction was, we were just acting."

"But whenever we felt uncomfortable during a performance, he would appear. When we were sad, he would be there to comfort us. When we were exhausted from dancing, we could rest in his arms. Even when we didn't want to study, we could see him waving at us from the window, leading us out of the dreary cage. Gradually, those emotions that should have been performed really turned into our true feelings."

"So, there was no split from the beginning. If there really was, it would have been healed by Xiang long ago."

If Ye Mu listened silently to Metis's sincere words, she could feel that there was also a feeling in her heart responding to Metis' words, and everything the other party said could find corresponding feelings in her heart.

It seems to be just as Metis said.

She and I were alone from beginning to end.

She likes Toyokawa Sho, so she will also like Toyokawa Sho.

In other words, she likes Toyokawa Sho because she likes Toyokawa Sho.

"Since... we are all one, then why do you still appear?"

Wakaba Mu still didn't understand this.

Since they are all exactly the same and there is no split personality, then isn't the appearance of Metis a contradiction?

"Haven't I already said it? The answer that Xiao Mu wants is very simple. All you have to do is make up your mind to protect Xiang's happiness. Then... we will truly be the same person."

Metis walked past Ruoye Mu with her hands behind her back, then turned lightly and whispered softly in Ruoye Mu's ear again.

"So...the first kiss I gave Xiang that day was also Xiaomu's."

"I know, Xiao Mu actually really cares... why didn't you wake up when you kissed me? Actually, Xiao Mu really wanted to do that, right? After all, you've seen so many adult memories all by yourself, so it's normal to feel a sense of longing."

Pfft!

Ruoye Mu's ears were almost heated to the point of turning into bright rubies by these words, and her entire face was covered in the pink of a cherry blossom. But when she turned around to look at Metis, she found that Metis had disappeared.

Time returns to the present.

The reason why Wakaba Mutsu came to visit the Toyokawa family this time was not only because Mori Minami heard that Toyokawa Shoko had returned to the Toyokawa family, so she urged her to go over and make friends with her again, but also because she wanted to meet Toyokawa Sho.

The only person I saw was Toyokawa Sho.

Only then could she understand more clearly what Metis said to her.

I only met Toyokawa Sho.

She felt that she had found the only place where she could relax her mind. With Shoko Toyokawa by her side, perhaps she would have the courage to have a good chat with him about what happened that day.

What Ruoye Mu didn't expect was that she had originally planned to have a good talk with Toyokawa Shoko, but after they met, it was Toyokawa Shoko who apologized to her in a soft voice.

"I'm sorry, Mu..."

"Although I've already told you this during rehearsal today, I still want to say sorry again. I shouldn't have said so many harsh words to you that day, nor should I have yelled at you so loudly, and I shouldn't have pushed back the cucumbers you brought."

"...I truly and sincerely apologize to you. It's because I've always relied on you and always felt that you were the most indispensable person to me, so I lost my temper with you so immaturely... You're not wrong, Mu, it's all my fault."

Wakaba Mu looked at Toyokawa Shoko in a daze, who was kneeling in front of her and holding her hand on her thigh pitifully, as if she would cry on the spot if he said he would not forgive her.

It feels a little unreal.

She raised her head and subconsciously looked at Toyokawa Sho who was standing next to her. Seeing Toyokawa Sho coming over and sitting next to her, she slapped Toyokawa Shoko's hand away from the back of her hand with disgust.

"Don't try to bully our Mu because she's easy to talk to. I won't allow Mu to forgive you so easily. You scolded Mu the other day and made her collapse. Do you know how much I felt for her when I saw her on the street with a bewildered look on her face?"

After saying that, Toyokawa Sho put his arm around Wakaba Mu's shoulders in front of Toyokawa Shoko and held the petite girl close to him.

Shoko Toyokawa was originally wondering if Sho Toyokawa was intentionally playing a trick with her, with one playing the bad guy and the other playing the good guy, and the two of them working together to perform a double act to comfort Wakaba Mutsu's wounded heart.

But when she saw that Toyokawa Sho was looking at her with a very obvious smug expression, Toyokawa Shoko's nerves were immediately irritated.

No matter from which angle, she could not accept this double attack from the Minotaur. Her most important half and her favorite other self came together?

What about me!?

"I was definitely at fault that day, I admit that, but that's no reason for you to hug Mu so carelessly!"

Toyokawa Shoko quickly sat on the other side of Wakaba Mutsu, trying to snatch Wakaba Mutsu from the bad guy's hands, "Mutsu is my other half!!"

"Now you know to call her half body? What were you doing earlier?"

Seeing the enemy coming at him aggressively, Master Xiang thought it was just youthful arrogance, and with a single Shadowless Palm, he repelled the evil dragon that was trying to snatch the princess away. "Instead of letting Mu suffer with you, it's better for Mu to live happily together with me. I am Mu's true half!"

“You, you——!!”

The evil dragon was really furious. The double mental blow from the minotaur made it impossible for her to remain calm. Her moves began to become disorganized and even her words became soft and weak.

"You've never said this to me so firmly!"

"You are--?"

Toyokawa Sho deliberately stretched out his voice.

“I’m so mad!!!”

Toyokawa Shoko was so angry that she almost cried, but she couldn't do anything about this bad guy. She could only hold Wakaba Mu's hand with tears in her eyes and said, "Mu, I will cherish you more carefully in the future. You, you go with him..."

"Fake tears, belated love,"

Toyokawa Sho shook his head and sighed, "It's worthless in this world."

"Are you helping me or making things worse?!"

Toyokawa Shoko said angrily, "Didn't you agree to help me comfort Mu?"