You are Toyokawa Shoko, then who am I?

The balcony of Takamatsu Touma's house.

Toyokawa Sho leaned on the railing and sent a message to someone with his fingers lightly. The screen quickly showed that the message had been read. This speed made people wonder if the other party had been peeking at the screen.

I saw the note above turned into a message input, and after a few seconds it returned to its original state. Finally, I just called directly.

"Moses Moses."

Toyokawa Sho put the phone to his ear.

"What do you mean the whole world is full of people I need to apologize to...!"

The angry voice of Toyokawa Shoko came from the phone.

“It’s indeed a bit of an exaggeration.”

Toyokawa Sho nodded.

"you--"

Toyokawa Shoko was choked, but she couldn't do anything about it, so she curled her lips in dissatisfaction and said, "Why do I have so much to apologize for?"

"Why not? Isn't that Crychic?"

Fengchuan Xiang raised his fingers and counted slowly, the more he counted, the more disappointed he sounded. "Deng, Mu, Li Xi, and Su Shi, tell me which one you think you are worthy of."

Someone was silent.

There was no reply for a long time.

In the end, I could only mutter.

"...You are the same."

"I left the band only after I had made my point clear."

Someone was silent again.

After thinking about it carefully, it seems that the memory I saw before was true. Toyokawa Sho had no conflicts with anyone.

They both quit the band and both didn't want to cause trouble to others, but what Toyokawa Sho did was much more open than himself. Those things that he couldn't say out loud due to face were not shackles that could stop him from talking.

Something happened at home.

So I won’t be able to carry out band activities anymore.

Just two simple sentences.

Why...can't I just say it out loud?

Toyokawa Shoko walked out of the room silently, glanced at Toyokawa Kiyoshi who was sleeping soundly in the living room, helped him cover the quilt again, then picked up the key and went to the corridor alone.

She lay on the rusty railing, gazing at the Jade Rabbit surrounded by stars in the night sky. Her pupils swayed slightly, and she unconsciously recalled the day when Toyokawa Sho took her to watch the moon at the shrine.

that time.

The moonlight came closer to my eyes along the bridge woven by stars, and the broken silver light meandered on every tile on the roof. The reality that should have been filled with fatigue and numbness was added with color again because of this little date.

From small to large.

Toyokawa Shoko has lost count of how many times she has admired the moon.

But the memory of that day was so vivid that I could still recall it clearly even if I became an old grandmother. That was the only time.

Toyokawa Shoko also thought about it.

Why was the moon so romantic that day?

Later she figured it out.

It turns out that it’s not the moon that is romantic.

But the person who watches the moon with you.

Shoko Toyokawa pursed her lips silently, she clenched the phone to her ear, and expressed her confusion and bewilderment to Sho Toyokawa.

"...Why can you say it so frankly?"

"I can't be like you, who can be so frank and expose my scars to others... In this world, I feel that you are the only one who can make me give up my face and self-esteem. Only your help can I accept with peace of mind, and only in front of you can I have no scruples..."

"Apart from you... I can't... I can't be so honest with them... I can't do it now. I'm not that young lady anymore. I can't even pay the rent. How can I play in a band with you guys?"

Shoko Toyokawa's voice gradually became tearful, and crystal tears rolled in her eyes that seemed to melt.

"I know I'm asking for trouble now... I also know I was wrong and I owe them all an apology... But when the words come to my lips, I can't say them. I even think about running away, thinking that if I could just get away where they can't see me, then I can just pretend that the mistakes I made never happened..."

"But isn't this just like my bastard dad? I hated him so much for not doing anything back then, but in the end, I'm the same way... It's really so bad, so disgusting..."

"I'm even thinking now that your pride should only be put aside for me. I should be the only one who knows your fragility and weakness. These should belong only to me and be revealed only to me..."

"Let's be selfish together and forget all the heavy things together. Now... I only have you..."

Toyokawa Sho listened quietly to Toyokawa Shoko's crying story, which he didn't know how many times.

Others may not understand what Toyokawa Shoko is trying to express by saying so many meaningless words, but Master Sho, who is proficient in Toyokawa's language, can easily skip over the layers of fog and grasp the most essential point.

"Putting aside your spoiled words, in short, you didn't go to see Mu, and you didn't even contact her on your phone, right?"

Someone didn't speak.

That means it's accepted by default.

"...Do you really consider her your childhood sweetheart?"

Even though Toyokawa Sho had known that the relationship between the other party and Wakaba Mutsu was not very good, he was still shocked by Toyokawa Shoko.

He suddenly felt that the appearance of Ye Mu's second personality was very reasonable.

Dad doesn't love me, mom doesn't care about me.

The only friend she had was the one who didn't react at all after she put pressure on him. She just waited for time to reset the status bar and acted as if nothing had happened.

If it were me, I would go crazy too.

"I said so many harsh words to Mu... Now, I don't have the face to see her anymore..."

Toyokawa Shoko murmured.

"You are not ashamed to see her,"

As a peer, Master Xiang bluntly exposed someone's underlying logic, "You are just bullying Mu because she cares about you, so you treat her so fearlessly."

"...!"

Toyokawa Shoko's pupils shrank to the size of beans. These words pierced her heart. She opened her mouth to refute, but in the end she could only say weakly, "That's not the case. I am against Mu--"

"If that's not the case, then why don't you go find her? Even just send her a message on Line. You're just taking your self-esteem too seriously, Xiangzi, and that's not a good thing."

Toyokawa Sho sighed softly and pointed out Toyokawa Shoko's biggest problem now.

"You were so resolute to leave the Toyokawa family for Mr. Qinggao, even giving up your pampered life as a young lady to stay by his side wholeheartedly, waiting for him to recover. This shows that you have a strong sense of action, and you are very willing to give and sacrifice for those you cherish. You are a kind and gentle child."

"But the problem is, only my family, or in other words, me, is worthy of you lowering your head to do something, and in your eyes, other people are not worthy of you lowering your head to do anything."

Fengchuan Xiang looked down at the rain flower stone necklace that Gao Songdeng gave him, and gently held it in his palm. "I have been through the same thing before, so I can understand your situation and your feelings."

"But, Xiangzi, only a coward would take out his anger on someone who cares about him. Admitting one's mistakes isn't beneath one's dignity, but shirking responsibility is."

"I don't mind being selfish with you, but since you boasted yesterday that you would take responsibility for my life, then at least don't always ask me to help you clean up the mess you created. It's embarrassing."

Shoko Toyokawa blushed redly. She had a thousand words she wanted to say, but they were all stuck in her throat and she couldn't utter a single word.

After about a minute or two.

Her soft voice came from the phone.

"...I understand. I will find Deng to apologize. And Mu, I will find her personally."

"Are you so willing to agree?"

Toyokawa Sho was surprised, "That's a bit unexpected."

"So what do you think I'm going to do?"

Toyokawa Shoko's tone became somewhat unfriendly.

"I thought that if I gave you so many lectures when you were trying to act like a spoiled child, you would definitely get angry and start arguing with me."

Toyokawa Sho reasoned reasonably.

“…I’m not acting like a spoiled child.”

Toyokawa Shoko tried to save face, but when she saw that her words were unconvincing, she began to argue, "And in the end, I can't stand it. These are all the words you said to me, and I will remember every word in my heart."

"And... I know you're thinking about me. The performance is only a few days away, and I have to find a team member as soon as possible. To do that, both Mu and Deng are essential."

"Wouldn't it be faster to just use the Toyokawa family's power? They're just a temporary band anyway. I personally don't agree with you bringing them on stage right after you apologize."

Toyokawa Sho said, "Because it would look like you were apologizing to them just to be able to go on stage."

"……I will think about it."

Toyokawa Shoko did not agree immediately, but just said it ambiguously.

She left the Toyokawa family just to take care of Toyokawa Qingkou. Now that Toyokawa Qingkou has recovered, she can indeed go back and continue to be her eldest daughter.

But if she goes back, her dream of living with Toyokawa Shoko will be shattered, so Toyokawa Shoko doesn't want to go back for the time being.

"By the way, is it my illusion? I feel like you care about Mu more than I do..."

Toyokawa Shoko said quietly.

In fact, Toyokawa Shoko would never accept such irrelevant remarks that had nothing to do with the above text.

She is a lady who values the demeanor of a young lady. Everything she does and says must be logical and coherent (of course, this does not apply when she is forced into a corner).

However, for the past ten minutes, Toyokawa Sho's focus seemed to always be on Wakaba Mutsu, which made someone who had just taken the opportunity to confess his love yesterday unable to contain his jealousy.

After all...!

He didn't even respond to my confession!

"I've known Mu for twenty-five years. It's normal for me to care about her."

Toyokawa Sho said as a matter of course.

“…That can’t be more important than me.”

For the first time, Miss Blue Octopus felt the pressure from half of her body. In more than ten years, she had never felt the tension from Wakaba Mu so clearly. It seemed that if she didn't take the initiative at this time, she would have no chance later.

So she said earnestly, "Mu is half of you, but I am another you. In terms of relationship, I should have priority. Also, about that day... you haven't given me an answer yet."

"what?"

Toyokawa Sho didn't react.

"That's it... that's it..."

Shoko Toyokawa was too embarrassed to say it out loud. Her upbringing did not allow her to say such embarrassing words in a normal state of mind.

“…Which one is that?”

Toyokawa Sho seemed to have vaguely guessed what the other party was going to say.

Toyokawa Shoko clenched her cell phone tightly. Why didn’t she notice it? This idiot must be pretending to be stupid...!

OK……

Anyway, I've said it.

Nothing, it's just saying it a second time...

No matter what, you must give me an accurate answer this time...!

Toyokawa Shoko took a deep breath, as if she had used up all her strength, but her voice was still as thin as a mosquito, but her tone was strong and rhythmic, "It's about the confession...!!"?

what are you saying.

Toyokawa Sho was once again shocked by Toyokawa Shoko's speech.

Doesn't this person even act anymore? All he says are embarrassing things.

How should I respond?

Toyokawa Sho fell into deep thought, trying to seal the somewhat arrogant blue octopus by collecting past experiences in dealing with heavy women.

Putting aside whether he has any such thoughts about this embarrassing black history, if this girl really became his girlfriend, a certain gravity golden retriever who has clearly expressed his opposition to Toyokawa Shoko would definitely go over and start a magnetic field battle with her.

As for the dark history, if you get pressed, the only response you’ll probably get is “You still need to practice.”