Why play in a band if you don't form one for life?

She recalled the contents of "Basic Hypnosis", sat down and calmed herself down.

I can only try it reluctantly.

Maya came to the window of Shiko's room. Through the glass window, she saw Shiko sitting upright on a chair with a hazy look in her eyes.

She really couldn't be disturbed.

So she gently opened the window and placed the note she had just written in the room on Shizi's desk.

Countless lights and shadows were passing by Shizi's eyes.

Last life.

At that time, "The Burial of Flillian" was a big hit, and Shizi saw a news report: someone risked his life to stop a thug who was stabbing people with a knife. In an interview, he said: "If it was the brave Xin Meier, he would do the same."

She was deeply moved: "This is a true hero."

It would be nice to be that kind of person.

Looking up, I saw the old dormitory of the university.

She is an ordinary person, nothing special, and has been spending some time in college.

After all, it is a 211 university, so the study atmosphere is pretty good. My roommates said they never studied hard, and they joked about failing every day, but they worked harder than each other. The one on the left watched online classes from Tsinghua University and Peking University and took notes every day, and the one on the right could always pull out a bunch of papers that she found from nowhere. When it comes to exam week, they all have a kind of hard work that makes them stay up all night.

This makes Shizi look like an outsider.

It’s not that she didn’t try to study hard. But after so many years of suppressing herself, she kept hearing “everything will be easy once you get to college”, and she didn’t want to study any college subjects. As a result, she became a completely different person in terms of studying.

She would not skip classes, she would go to class obediently, and would at least go to the classroom even if the class was not very good. However, whether in the class or the serious class, she would sit in the last row and play with her phone.

I couldn't concentrate at all. When the teacher was talking about something, I would unconsciously open my phone.

In the first semester, my GPA was barely in the middle range, but in the second semester, it was already in the lower middle range.

But she was no longer in the mood to care. She didn't want to follow the path her parents had been nagging her to take.

so tired.

Want to have a good rest.

Then, where is her future?

"..."Tomorrow's tomorrow!" (Towards tomorrow's stage!)

On the screen, "Bang Dream! Poppin' Dream!", commonly known as "Journey to Guam", entered the ED.

"Wash with a rag..." Shizi had tears in her eyes and shook the light stick in her hand desperately. Even if there were confused looks from the side, she didn't care.

Why, there is no complicated plot, why is it that once on stage, it can be so dazzling...

No matter how many times I see it, it always shines.

Suddenly I made a decision.

Go learn the keyboard and start over.

Be like them.

Shizi calculated that if she wanted to buy a keyboard similar to theirs, she could save up for three or four months, and that might be enough. And that didn't include other miscellaneous accessories.

So that's how it began.

If you just rely on an impulse, you generally can't last more than two or three days. The same is true for Shizi. After two or three days, he can't stand the frugal life.

Want to give up?

However, the figures of those girls appeared before her.

If I give up because of this little difficulty, what will they say when they see me?

With that kind of personality, what qualifications do I have to be their fan?

So, I persisted.

I couldn't hold on for a few days and wanted to give up.

Then, think of them again and continue.

Save again and again, the food expenses will not exceed 15 yuan a day, and the total expenses will not exceed 20 yuan.

"Should I go out to work..." She looked at her savings again and again.

My socially anxious personality instinctively rejects this option.

However, she saw Kasumi on the desktop wallpaper.

That energetic and lively smile, like a ray of starlight, fell into her eyes.

"Anyway...just try to imitate her, okay?"

Of course, it is not as easy as it sounds. But once you get used to it, it is easier than you think.

After letting Kasumi's image overlap with her own in her mind, Shiko discovered that she could actually speak normally.

"You can call it a day. Just pack up and leave. No need to say hello."

"OK, thanks……"

Although I didn’t end up having a close relationship with my colleagues and boss at work, they are pretty good people.

He actually persisted and earned a considerable income.

Shizi calculated the deposits again and again: she was getting closer to her goal step by step, there was no doubt about it.

"How much do you spend a month?" my mother asked when I was collecting my living expenses.

Shi Zi answered truthfully.

"Don't be so frugal. Saving money is useless. Only when you make a lot of money and enjoy it, you are capable..."

This sentence has become the new old three things in recent times, replacing "get into a good university".

Shizi filtered it out skillfully, responded casually and turned off the phone.

Why is there any need to tell you your true dream?

It's impossible to get support anyway.

carry on.

The material conditions were not as extreme as those of the truly poor families, but they were the limit that Shizi could endure. If material desires were not met, the only option was to increase spiritual needs.

I have more time to watch anime, listen to music, and promote gals than ever before.

After coming back from work, I still stay in the dormitory and watch anime.

A message popped up on the phone: The goods purchased online have arrived at Cainiao Station.

Shi Zi was delighted.

These days, she buys just one thing: a keyboard.

She had saved enough money, so she bought the same keyboard as the one she promoted.

It was finally delivered today.

She looked outside: it had just snowed heavily, the ground was still slippery, the weather was still very cold, and there was basically no one outside.

She shook her head and stood up.

You can't not pick up the goods. If you ask someone else to pick it up for you - what a joke, is that an option that a socially anxious person would consider?

Shizi finally carried the big box and headed back to the dormitory.

The ground was indeed very slippery. Although the snow had been swept to the side of the road, there was still a layer of ice debris on the asphalt. Shizi walked up the slope carefully, and did not dare to put the box on the ground even if it was heavy.

Just like when buying action figures, people would cherish the outer packaging. Shizi was more extreme and even cherished the outermost cardboard box.

There weren't many people on the road, but the children of the faculty and staff came out and played in the snow beside them.

A car was coming from the opposite direction, and Shizi was about to move to the side.

However, the car suddenly began to skid! Shizi instantly saw the driver's terrified look.

The car is coming towards me!

Shizi's heart skipped a beat, his adrenaline surged, and he tried hard to suppress his fatigue and tried to escape immediately.

However, when I turned around, the child who was still playing next to me seemed to be frightened and didn't move.

Without thinking too much, she let go of the box and pushed the child behind a roadside tree.

It only took a moment, and then he rushed out directly—

The wheels whistled harshly.

A dull crashing sound.

Shizi felt himself flying into the air and then falling to the ground.

My head feels dizzy.

I opened my eyes dazedly, and there seemed to be blood on the side of my head.

has it ended?

Shizi realized it belatedly.

I don't seem to feel anything. If I die, I die. It doesn't matter.

But... I have some regrets, right? I wonder if I will meet Kanade Tachibana? How about joining GDM? They are just in need of a keyboard player...

Thinking of this, Shizi thought of his keyboard again.

I haven't seen what the keyboard looks like in person yet...

Shouting. Crying.

All the sounds around me are so far away from me.

The box containing the keyboard was right next to it, with a hole in it, revealing a corner of the contents.

By the way, who did you buy the same model as?

My head was fuzzy and I couldn't remember anything.

But, it’s all the same…

My vision is becoming increasingly blurry.

Shizi knew he was going to die.

She suddenly realized that she had actually died a long time ago.

Just when I gave up the piano and followed my parents' arrangements.

From then on, she no longer lived as herself, but lived according to her parents' expectations.

but……

She used up her last bit of strength and crawled towards the keyboard.

Because of them, they gave birth to themselves.

I want to live like them.

I want to live as them.

Shizi's fingertips finally touched a corner of the keyboard before everything fell into darkness.

If, if there is an afterlife...

This second life...

She wanted to live as them, for them.

Endless starlight enveloped Shizi.

Shizi's fingers moved naturally across the keyboard, playing with his soul.

She finally understood what her own self and her own brilliance were.

She has no ego.

Her complete self had long been wiped out in the middle of the test paper.

Her brilliance now was merely the starlight borrowed from Ichiri, from Kasumi, from Karen, and from countless people who shone brighter than her.