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【Let’s go somewhere else first. 】

Goblin Slayer forcibly separated Natsuki Subaru's hands from the merchant and dragged him into a deserted alley.

Also because there was no one else around, Natsuki Subaru completely let himself go.

He hammered the wall in front of him until his hands were bloody. Big tears slid helplessly down his face. Then he knelt on the ground weakly, his knees wet with tears, and he stopped moving.

[Damn it! Damn it!!! Why? ! Why must it be Emilia!!!]

Natsuki Subaru cried loudly.

In fact, he did have such worries in his heart.

The mental stress of experiencing two deaths is not so easy to eliminate, especially since the interval between his two deaths was so close.

The result is that Natsuki Subaru begins to become sensitive to death.

He hates death and is afraid of it. If someone stands in front of him and talks about how honor is higher than death, or that you can start over anyway, so why not just die once, etc., Natsuki Subaru will seriously suggest that the other person also die once.

How can you feel the fear in Natsuki Subaru's heart if you haven't died once?

...How can you understand Natsuki Subaru’s sensitivity to death if you don’t die once?

He really felt that there was nothing wrong with the decision he made. Before leaving the mansion with Emilia, he had already told Emilia about the possible attack of the Witch Cult, and also instigated Rem to pay attention to this matter!

Together with Roswaal, the most powerful magician in the kingdom, this lineup should have been enough to deal with all difficulties.

But Emilia still died...

[Damn it! ! ! ! ]

156

Chapter 156 An unintentional mistake.

Goblin Slayer looked at Natsuki Subaru, who was lying on the ground crying.

To some extent, Goblin Slayer couldn't understand why Natsuki Subaru cared so much about Emilia, because they had only known each other for a few days, and objectively speaking, they hadn't experienced any special events that would make their relationship so unforgettable in such a short period of time.

However, Natsuki Subaru cared so much about Emilia that he lost his composure after hearing the news of Emilia's death... This almost reminded Goblin Slayer of his own childhood.

The painful experience that turned me from someone who once dreamed of being a brave man and a hero into the weirdo I am now.

【…】

Goblin Slayer wanted to comfort Natsuki Subaru, but he knew very well that this was not something he was good at.

[…What should I do next?]

He still said it, even though it couldn't be called comfort, it did divert Natsuki Subaru's attention.

[——What’s next? ]

[Yes. Next.]

Goblin Slayer squatted down, his eyes hidden behind the armor staring at Natsuki Subaru, as if observing his soul through visual contact.

[Revenge, or investigation?]

【revenge--】

When Natsuki Subaru chewed on these two words, his consciousness was taken away by the deep meaning contained in them.

Revenge...Does he want revenge?

For Emilia?!

Revenge - to sacrifice one's life and future for a person whom one has only met for a few days and with whom one has not had much communication, just to gain spiritual comfort and make the evildoer pay a price that has nothing to do with oneself...

Maybe when he finds the Gut Hunter and the Beast Master, when he raises his sword in indignation and slashes at their necks, the other party will stare with trembling eyes and ask him who he is before he dies?

Why do we hate them so much for "no reason"?

……

Revenge, that's what it should be.

Natsuki Subaru was taught from childhood not to hate others, to be tolerant and understanding.

Although he often resisted this kind of education, it must be said that it had indeed penetrated into his bones.

And compared to the issue of revenge and forgiveness, if he really wants to do something, isn't there an easier and more worthwhile way to do it?

So, do you want to use it?

Death Returns

To save Emilia...

Natsuki Subaru's mind uncontrollably flashed through scenes of his relationship with Emilia.

From their first acquaintance to their death together; from their meeting again after death to their occasional chats in the mansion.

——Well, even without talking about Rem and Ram, the name Emilia alone is attractive enough.

Natsuki Subaru smiled weakly.

[I say, Goblin Slayer, if I say I have a trick that can make everything beautiful, do you believe it? ]

If you need me to believe it.

[Wow~, you're really handsome, Goblin Slayer. It's a pity that we don't have more time to get to know each other... What a pity.]

【…】

[Haha, I think you must be very popular with girls in your original world, even if you are a weirdo in armor with a strange smell all over your body. However, I am not much behind. ]

Natsuki Subaru stopped laughing.

He sighed, then wiped his tears with the sleeve of his right hand, and said with a serious look: [In fact, I have a secret trick. As long as I use it, I can reverse all desperate situations, but the price of this trick is my death - don't worry, I won't really die, it's just that my soul will float to a period of time in the past. If I say this... can you understand? ]

【…Time magic. 】

[Yeah~, anyway, I'm glad you understand. ]

Natsuki Subaru patted his knees and stood up.

After making up his mind, he finally felt a lot more relieved.

[I have returned from death——]

Pfft!

[Eh? Goblin Slayer?! Wait! Why?! Hand, out of my body?! !]

People who die often know that it is easy to die, but difficult to die instantly.

Attention to those who want to commit suicide! What if you can take more sleeping pills and die silently in your sleep without any pain, or if you cut a big hole in the wrist artery and lie in a fish tank full of water, you will die numbly, beautifully, and artistically -

These things are all lies!

Death is a very painful thing! Unless it is done by a professional, the process of death will definitely bring great pain to the person involved!

Inoue Shinba: Isn't this... isn't this natural?!

Rimuru: Yes, death is a very painful thing. Inoue-san, you seem very excited. Do you have a story? Can you let the uncle listen to it?

Kuze Masachika: No, maybe it's because these words are so outrageous that it's hard to even complain about them. What do you mean by things that people who die frequently would know? Is there anyone who dies frequently?

Fujiwara no Moko:……

Kaguya Houraisan: ...

Kakarot: ...

Walter Young: ...

Andy: Oh? What's going on? A grievance meeting of the undead?

Nagai Kei: I didn’t expect there would be so many…

Isaac Dean: This just shows that the world is just so vast, right?

Akado: Death and Immortality - So, what is the definition of "death"?

For Natsuki Subaru in reality, without the cheat ability of "Return after Death", death means the end of everything.

The same thing is true for Natsuki Subaru's parents.

"486..."

How should I put it - seeing his son's outstanding performance in the live broadcast to the entire universe and all dimensions on the light screen, of course, made Natsuki Kenichi very happy and proud.

But what if his son’s highlight performance was achieved through suicide?

...As parents, we always have our own little thoughts.

He hopes that his son can be like the brave hero in the storybook, using his firm will and powerful external abilities to create a better future, but he also hopes that his son will not take death for granted.

Death is terrible.

Even if Kenichi Natsuki had never actually experienced death, he would have felt the same when he saw his beloved son die in the most realistic way on the screen.

Natsuki Nahoko had the same idea.

Perhaps being a mother is more emotional than being a father. Although she is happy to see her child work hard for the girl he likes, if that kind of determination to fight for the goal in his heart is exchanged for hurting himself, then Nahoko would rather her son be a stay-at-home kid forever.

Natsuki Kenichi frowned.

He is an excellent man, and he is very well regarded in his career, family, and among his relatives and friends.

But no one is perfect, and no gold is pure. He can be a good friend and a good colleague, but he is definitely not a good teacher or a good father.

He knew exactly why his son had become a stay-at-home mom—after all, he was the reason.

This also led to his poor communication with his son after his son retreated home in frustration.

However, no matter how difficult the communication was, he couldn't help but want to say something when he saw his own son on the light curtain not caring about himself.

After thinking it over again, he felt that if he went over with a stern face and frowned, he would definitely have a conflict with Subaru.

So he pretended to be angry, and with the encouragement of his wife, he made a monster-like sound and went upstairs and knocked on his son's door. Then it was time for the father and son to have an intimate conversation.

157

Chapter 157 Enlightenment.

In the light curtain, Natsuki Subaru was frightened by the sudden fall of the Goblin Slayer and fell backwards to the ground.

He was startled at first, his mind went blank, and he had no idea what was going on. Then he jumped up as if he had been electrocuted and crawled to the Goblin Slayer. He took off the Goblin Slayer's helmet and checked his breathing and heartbeat with his hands.

[Gone, gone!!]

Natsuki Subaru used all four limbs to crawl backwards.

He couldn't accept this fact.

Just now - after he said "return from death", his heart suddenly tightened, and then it seemed like a neurotic girl was muttering something frantically in his ear, and then a pair of hands pierced through his chest.

Just like the transparent arms of a ghost, they grabbed the heart of Goblin Slayer?!

Then, Goblin Slayer died.

[My, fault…? ! ! ]

Natsuki Subaru grabbed his hair with both hands.

[Is this my fault?! What on earth is that thing?! A witch?!]

He actually wanted to ask Goblin Slayer to kill him quickly and cleanly.

It would be too cruel for him to do such a thing on his own - and he doubted whether he could do it well.

After all, it would be funny if someone failed to commit suicide halfway through.

Goblin Slayer seems to have a lot of experience in this area. He is a quiet man and should agree to Natsuki Subaru's request... This is Natsuki Subaru's selfish idea.

However, he really needed a clean and, most importantly, painless death.

So, he wanted to ask Goblin Slayer for help.

Then, Goblin Slayer died.

【Ohh ...