I was the one who was causing the collapse of the iron.

"No one needs to be responsible for the lives of others, and there is no need to regard the death of others as one's own fault. This is not kindness but arrogance."

"Please, stop talking!"

The power of discipline burst out from Aponya, and a strange light appeared in the woman's dim eyes.

Then she rolled her eyes and fell down limply once again.

"No, you come here to cause trouble for me!"

Seeing Xu Nuo supporting the collapsed nun, Mebius put his hands on his hips and spoke in a sullen manner.

"It's just to verify some conjectures. Besides, this woman tends to get stuck in a rut. Let's give her a good night's sleep."

"So why on earth did she faint?"

"She used her powers on me. It looks like she needs to be taught a lesson. Although mental abilities are powerful, they can't be used carelessly like this. Something bad could happen."

"I think you are simply attracted by Da Lei. Humph, isn't there enough food at home for you?"

"You're always hoping that I'll bring back more women, right? Helping me find women doesn't conflict with being jealous."

Xu Nuo smiled, then spoke seriously.

"But I still want to emphasize one point. I'm actually not interested in women."

Mebius rolled her eyes, looking as if she didn't believe you. She waved her hand impatiently, signaling the man to go play by himself and not disturb her.

Xu Nuo carried Aponia away, leaving only Mebius and Padochilice in the room.

Woo...it's over. As expected, the boss only likes big ones and has no interest in me.

If it breaks, I won't become a consumable on the lab bench, will I? I don't want that!

"You are..."

"I, I'm Padufils, I also want to join the Fire Moths and fight against Honkai together with you!"

"Okay, come over here for a physical examination and let's see your qualifications, little guinea pig."

The corners of Mebius' mouth slightly raised, revealing a somewhat evil smile on his face.

If a researcher from the First Institute saw this familiar smile, he would know that someone was about to be in trouble again, but Padofelice was still thinking about the meaning of the name "little white mouse".

Chapter 386 What is your belief?

Please, don't give up hope for life, please, don't be defeated by the disease, please, live on with strength!

The woman knelt on the ground, clasped her fists in front of her chest, lowered her head and spoke devoutly.

She didn't know whether the gods heard her begging, she only knew that from that day on, the condition of those seriously ill children miraculously began to improve.

And no child in the nursing home fell ill due to illness anymore.

The gods must have heard my prayers and bestowed a miracle on the devout believers.

But as time passed, more and more children began to become silent. They didn't speak, cry or make a fuss, and they didn't even eat. They always looked at the other children around them with bloodthirsty eyes. They... didn't grow up.

Until finally, a fire mercilessly devoured everything.

Aponya opened her eyes suddenly, the woman gasped for breath, the scenes in her dream were vivid and clear, it didn't seem like a dream.

"Hey, you're awake, are you okay? Did I disturb you?"

A bright voice sounded, and Aponiya looked up when she heard it, and then saw a girl with pink hair sitting next to her.

It wasn't Sakura whom I had met before, but another strange girl whom I didn't know.

The girl had a bright smile on her face, and her eyes revealed a little worry when she looked at her. When she noticed that she had been silent, she reached out and touched her head.

"Are you okay? God, you are so mean. Can't you be gentle with such a cute girl?"

My lord?

A hint of confusion and trance flashed across Aponya's face, and then the scene in her dream appeared before her again.

Haven't I noticed before? Those children who were obviously abnormal, those children who hadn't changed at all over the years, those children who always hid in the dark room.

I should have noticed it, but I always ignored it for various reasons.

They are just not well yet, they are just too weak...

Yes, I have long been addicted to the power I possess. I feel that I am omnipotent with the commandments, and I even feel that I am God himself.

Their fate had already been determined, they would all die, and the one who killed them was not someone else, but themselves, themselves... They were the culprit behind all these disasters and tragedies.

Thinking of this, Abonya was overwhelmed with grief. The woman held her face and couldn't stop crying.

This made Alicia look a little flustered. She raised her hand to wipe the woman's tears and at the same time began to comfort her.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying all of a sudden? It's okay. No one will bully you anymore. As for God, I'll find a way. At most, I can just sacrifice myself."

Aponya just shook her head, a look of despair and bitterness on her face.

"For someone as sinful as me, whatever punishment I receive is what I deserve. Why do you still want to control me?"

"Hey, how can you say that about yourself? Don't take God's words to heart. He is just saying one thing and thinking another. I know what happened to you. You just made a choice that most people would make. Good deeds should not be criticized like this."

"I know you want to please your new sister, but you don't have to bring me up. I didn't bully Miss Abonya. I just made her face reality. After all, dreams always have to end."

A bent finger tapped Alicia's head, causing the latter to let out a lovely cry.

The man that Abonya regarded as a nightmare appeared in front of her again. After seeing him, the woman couldn't help but curl up her body and tremble.

Some distant and vague images emerged in her mind, but when she tried to recall them carefully, she could not remember them at all. She only felt as if her soul had fallen into a bottomless dark abyss, and she felt only biting cold and despair.

"Are you forgetful or have you forgotten again? You know that using your ability on me will backfire, but you still dare to use it on me."

"me……"

Aponia opened her mouth, then realized that this seemed to be the second time she used her ability on the man in front of her.

She seemed to see something each time she used her ability, but...what did she see?

After a moment of thinking, the woman felt a piercing pain in her head.

"You still dare to think about it? Your brain has sealed off these memories to protect your consciousness. You are still thinking about it now. You are a psychic after all, don't you even understand such a simple truth?"

"I...no one taught me this."

Aponya responded in a low voice, the woman lowered her head, looking a little aggrieved.

She has always been exploring and using the abilities she has on her own, and she really knows nothing about some specific related knowledge.

"In this universe, mortals are weak and fragile. Some beings can destroy your fragile spiritual consciousness just by looking at them with your naked eyes. Not to mention trying to spy on the other party's true appearance on the spiritual level. I can only say that it's fortunate that the target of your spying was me, otherwise you would die without knowing how you died."

"A sinner like me...I'll just die if I die."

Aponia murmured softly, and it was obvious that women nowadays did not have much fear of death.

In other words, she could no longer find the meaning of continuing to live.

"You are a devout believer, aren't you? How come you have prayed to God your whole life, and now that God appears before you, you want to die?"

Abonya's gaze was a little evasive, but Xu Nuo took a step forward, pinched the other's chin, and forced the other to look at him.

The woman's eyes lost their luster. She was forced to raise her graceful jaw and slightly open her thin lips. She looked at the man while making a painful sound.

But the man went a step further, opened his palms and ruthlessly strangled the woman's neck, making her cry mournfully like a dying swan.

Alicia seemed to feel a little sorry for the other person, but she also knew that Xu Nuo would not really kill her, so in the end she did nothing.

"Or is your faith also false? Your so-called faith is nothing more than hoping that the gods will satisfy your selfish desires? If the gods cannot fulfill your wishes, you will turn against them and resent them?"

"Tell me Aponya, what exactly is your faith?"

Chapter 387 You Are Not My God

My faith...what exactly is my faith?

God has never saved me, or I once thought that God had saved me, but this salvation was the source of all disasters.

If I didn't master the power of the precepts, would those children have had a better ending?

No, the fate of those who suffer from Honkai disease has actually been determined, and no matter whether you intervene or not, you cannot change their ending.

Begging God is not for the purpose of getting a response from God, nor is it for satisfying one's own selfish desires, but just to pray for a miracle.

In order to give their good wishes a place to rest, they place their hopes on the illusory gods.

The god that Aponia believed in was never a being with a specific image. If anything, what she believed in was only beauty and hope.

"You are not my god!"

After taking a deep breath, the woman's originally somewhat confused eyes regained some clarity.

She began to struggle, but unexpectedly, the man's hand holding her neck did not seem to have much strength, and she easily broke free.

Covering her neck, Abonya moved back a distance and stared at the man standing in front of her. Although the fear in her heart could not be dispelled, she still bravely said those words loudly.

"I don't know what you are, but you are definitely not my god! I don't agree with your words either, because to me, those are just heretical teachings from the outside world!"

"That's right, so what exactly is your belief?"

"Faith is nothing more than a name. I just hope that the world can become a better place, with fewer wars, famines, and homeless children. I want all children to have a home and see smiles on their faces. I just..."

As Abonya spoke, he hugged himself tightly, with a bitter smile on his face.

"But I can't do all this. I know that my power is very small. Even if I have the power of the commandments, I still can't do this. I am just a mortal, not a high god. But I was immersed in the power I had, and I regarded myself as a god, thus committing an unforgivable sin."

"So do you still want to die now?"

"I know what you want to say, and I also know your purpose. The Fire Moth wants to use my power, right?"

Aponia raised her head, and this time the woman was able to look the man in front of her calmly.

Although her soul was still instinctively afraid, at least she was no longer confused.

"The power of the spiritual system is very useful and powerful. My power can even help to suppress the Honkai Disease to a certain extent. I am very useful to you, right?"

In response, Xu Nuo just smiled, seeming a little undeniable.

"I am willing to join you, join the Fire Moth. I want to use my power to help more people and atone for my sins. But what kind of organization is the Fire Moth? Is it good or evil? I will use my own eyes to tell."

"Welcome, from now on we are companions!"

The person who was most happy about Aponia's joining was Alicia.

The girl stepped forward enthusiastically and shook the other's hand, but Abonya was still a little uncomfortable with this.

After all, no matter how you look at it, Alicia is a little too enthusiastic about herself, so it looks strange.

Moreover, because of many previous experiences, Aponia really couldn't muster much good feelings towards Xu Nuo. Coupled with the aggressiveness shown by the woman named Mebius, she also had a bad impression of the Fire Moth.

Not to mention, Aponya has not forgotten how this man teased her on Dusk Street.

Even now, when the other person's eyes fell on him, Abonya still seemed a little unnatural, as if he was completely exposed in front of the other person.

Abonya was still somewhat confident in her own charm. She knew very well how many disasters had been caused by this awful body that had nothing to do with purity.

She also felt very helpless about this.

At times like this, maybe you should be grateful for the power you have, otherwise you might have become a canary in a rich man's cage.

But now... my fate seems to be no different from the tragic experiences I once imagined.

It’s just that the man in front of her shouldn’t be as vulgar as he was before on Dusk Street.

Well, it doesn’t look too bad…

No, what are you thinking about? Abonya, although you have decided to stay in this organization, you should at least retain your basic self and dignity.

Besides, there is no way to confirm whether the Fire Moth is indeed a righteous organization.

With this strange thought, is she planning to become this man's woman, or is she trying to use her body to fight for power?

Aponia thought of another girl with gorgeous pink hair, and her sister who was suffering from Honkai disease.

It may not necessarily be a struggle for power, it may also be helplessness.

If I were on the dusk street...

No, there is no if in this world, just like fallen flowers cannot return to the branches.

"It's actually possible..."