If I don't capture the girl, I will die

But now it's no longer possible. Yukinoshita Yukino will not deceive herself.

This problem must be faced squarely.

So what went wrong between her and Ji Qi?

Just do a simple question and answer it yourself.

"First of all, what is my relationship with him?"

"Friends, members of the same society."

this is correct.

After spending so much time together and getting to know each other, they can be said to be friends.

"Secondly, what is the definition of a friend?"

"The general definition is that they have a good relationship with each other, have a common language and communicate frequently, and are comfortable with each other. My definition is that they understand and respect each other and can consciously give each other help to the best of their ability when they need each other."

So, is there anything wrong with what she has been doing lately?

No.

Whether it's making breakfast for him in the morning, making lunch boxes at noon, correcting his character problems, feeding the cat and cleaning at his house, or going home together under the same umbrella today, it's all normal. Maybe none of these behaviors are normal in the eyes of others, but she thinks they are normal.

Because helping others is just a side job, it won't cause trouble to her life or waste much time. It fits her definition of helping friends to the best of their ability. Yukinoshita never cares about the opinions of people she doesn't care about.

The two of them initially started helping each other with their studies because of the entrustment.

"Third question, why didn't you do the same to Yuigahama-san?"

"Because she's not a friend? Or does she not need help?"

Gradually, we found out where the abnormality was.

In the dimly lit room, Yukinoshita's brows knitted together in confusion. People who didn't know the truth would probably be shocked to see her talking to herself in this environment, and it's not impossible to think that Yukinoshita is crazy...

Are she friends with Yuigahama Yui?

Faced with this question, Yukinoshita was a little hesitant. The relationship between her and Yuigahama Yui certainly did not meet her literal definition of friends. So were they friends?

It should be.

Although she had never mentioned it explicitly to Himechi, and she had been talking about it all the time, and was not very good at dealing with her outspokenness, she did not hate spending time with Yuigahama.

As conclusions were drawn, new questions also emerged.

She understood the problem without having to say it out loud.

The difference in attitude towards the two people.

Whether you admit it or not, the depth of feelings between people varies, and equality does not exist at all.

However, Yukinoshita, who has had no friends who are different from ordinary people for a long time, came up with a different answer.

"He is special? In other words... I have feelings for him that are more than just friendship?"

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Chapter 230 So, Yukinoshita decided?

After saying that, in the pitch-black environment, Yukinoshita tilted her head in confusion.

Then, as she figured it out, her navy blue pupils, which gave people a stern and cold feeling, shrank slightly.

The two are of the same age and have no blood relationship. So what is the relationship between a man and a woman beyond friendship?

It's obvious.

To be honest, Yukinoshita's love experience can be said to be zero, zero, non-existent. Not to mention love, Yukinoshita has never had the experience of liking someone since she was born. Well, maybe there was one time when she was a child, but now she has thrown this idea into the sewer. But not having love experience does not mean that she knows nothing. On the contrary, if you just talk about the literal meaning of theory, she can talk about it very well. It is no problem to fool most people.

Really? That’s it…

Everything has been answered.

Recalling the emotions described in the literary works she had read, Yukinoshita placed her fair and smooth hand on her chest.

It's no different from what the text describes.

She should probably, perhaps, like him - or should it be more appropriate to change "like" to "feeling good"? Yukinoshita didn't know which one to use to express it better. Although this was the answer obtained by the process of elimination, in fact, rather than the process of elimination, it is better to say that she had a premonition in her heart a long time ago. This is just the most appropriate way to accurately understand her feelings.

Yukinoshita's expression now is more of a loss and confusion than the shyness of an average little girl. Ah, she is definitely a little shy.

Yukinoshita, feeling confused, continued to think.

Put aside other emotions first and make a completely objective evaluation.

What kind of person is Ji Qi? Why does she like him?

His first impression is undoubtedly that of a person who is so ordinary that he cannot be more ordinary.

This is really strange. Obviously, he is of superior height, temperament, and appearance in Japan, but when combined together, he gives people this strange feeling. Thinking from another angle, this may also be considered one of the characteristics? Now it is much better than when the two first met. At least she will not ignore him anymore.

In terms of appearance, Yukinoshita wouldn't say that she completely ignores other people's appearance, but her requirements are not high, as long as they are passable, she is satisfied. Ji Qi undoubtedly meets this standard.

The second is the issue of character, personality and ability.

Apart from the fact that she often tells lies for no money and is shameless, Yukinoshita undoubtedly likes Ji Qi's personality. Needless to say, although she is still a high school student in terms of age, she is very mature and steady in her dealings with others. The maturity here does not refer to the omnipotence of other peers who pretend to attract attention, but are actually strong on the outside but weak on the inside. It is the true maturity.

Know exactly what you should do, and be even more clear about what you shouldn't do and what you don't have to do.

Furthermore, one’s character is also worth trusting.

After such a long time, she had heard more or less about the situation in Ji Qi's family.

Unfortunately, his parents died young, and he, who had just entered high school, had to take care of his sister, who was not related to him by blood and locked herself in her room all day long. He had no complaints for more than a year, which already shows some problems.

In Tokyo, without any financial support from elders, everything has to be done by yourself. What does that mean for a high school student? What does he need to do?

Tuition, daily living expenses, transportation costs, and a reserve fund for emergencies. In addition, he also has to take care of his sister. Is it fortunate that he still has a house that he doesn't have to pay rent? You know, rent in Tokyo is notoriously expensive.

If she doesn't rely on her family, she might be overwhelmed. Of course, it's not impossible.

He did all of this well. And he did it very well.

Yukinoshita now knows that he has done a lot of things.

——Working part-time, writing novels, drawing comics…

The most important thing is that he succeeded. What's even more exaggerated is that while he did so many things, his academic performance soared like a rocket. Now he is on par with her.

This speaks to the other party’s abilities and talents.

Put yourself in her shoes. If she were in the same situation, could she do better than the other person?

The answer is, no.

At this point, she had to admit that Ji Qi was much more talented than her.

In front of other people, Yukinoshita never lies and always speaks the truth, especially when facing herself.

To sum up, objectively speaking, he is definitely excellent. Putting aside the halo of his family, 95% of his peers in Japan cannot compare to him.

So, it is normal for her to fall in love with the other person?

When I think about it this way, I always feel something is weird, as if something is wrong.

She liked him for these reasons, of course, but there was more of another reason.

Huh? Did she consider everything based on her love for him?

This feeling is very strange.

Relief, sighs, joy, and all kinds of emotions intertwined together, making it difficult for Yukinoshita to describe what she felt specifically. In short, it was very complicated.

The living room is quiet.

The moonlight, like satin, shines through the French windows onto the floor.

A faint blush appeared on her fair face. After thinking for a long time and even realizing that it might affect major events in her life, Yukinoshita stood up and wanted to go to the front to turn on the light, but she tripped over the cord of the hair dryer in the dark.

Ah, I didn't blow dry my hair...

Never mind, it doesn’t matter today.

Putting the hair dryer back in its place, Yukinoshita turned on the light in the living room.

Then, he walked into the bathroom.

Suddenly, she thought of another question.

Will the other party like her?

When others question her, or when she wants to emphasize the credibility of her words, she can say "I am cute" and "I am beautiful" without any hesitation. Yukinoshita is still very confident about her appearance. Because in the normal human aesthetic, she is indeed very beautiful.

But let’s be honest…

After thinking everything through and facing this problem again, Yukinoshita was surprisingly nervous, which was unusual for her.

For the first time, she understood how her former suitor felt towards her.

However, this mood only lasted for a short time.

In the mirror, the girl with a heart-beating face had a barely noticeable pink on her cheeks.

Every bit of their time together appeared in the girl's mind like transparent bubbles, brilliant and incomparable. In the end, all the memories turned into his face, face, face.

Then, it disappeared.

For some reason, the girl in front of the mirror lowered her head and covered her face.

……

Chapter 231 No matter when, Yukinoshita will always stick to herself

Suddenly, I wanted to see him.

Meet the man who occasionally appears in people's sight, but returns to his own little world in an instant, like a dream. Well, in the ancient legends of Europe, he is like the ghost of a noble lady, sometimes you can see him, sometimes you can't.

But there is no reason, so forget it.

It is said that love is impulsive, blind, and will make people change their partner. But even if she made her feelings clear through repeated self-questions and answers, the awkward personality that Yukinoshita has developed over the past decade will not change in a short time.

She is still the one who has clear beliefs and works hard for them. At the same time, she is a girl with strong self-awareness, does not lie, does not care about other people's opinions, and has good action ability.

In other words, it’s not that there will be no change, but that the relationship between the two has not reached that point yet.

After washing her face, Yukinoshita left the bathroom and began to bustle around the apartment according to the daily schedule she had set for herself.

but……

When studying after dinner, Yukinoshita was always absent-minded and couldn't concentrate on the book.

As expected, love will affect studies, right?

On the desk in her boudoir, Yukinoshita held her forehead in pain. She didn't want her grades to drop!

According to her previous condition, she could completely sink into it in ten minutes at most. But today, it took more than half an hour. Moreover, this state could not be changed by human will. I really didn't know what to say to her.

"What is that guy doing now?"

It’s not about studying anyway.

Generally speaking, his schedule is about two hours behind mine.

Thinking of this, Yukinoshita smiled silently and focused her attention on the textbooks and notes in front of her.

Just now she couldn't calm down because of him, but in a moment, because of him, she studied more quickly and attentively than usual.

Two hours passed in a flash.

It is ten o'clock now. Most of the lights in the houses of the neighbors are still on. In modern cities, even elementary school students rarely go to bed on time at this time.