I, Tomoya Aki, am not a bootlicker

Chapter 8 Paying for the Past

Kasumigaoka Utaha is the most talented girl in literature at Toyosaki Academy and the most unattainable flower in the eyes of all the other students.

She has always been ranked first in the school, but she is actually a light novel author.

Therefore, now Akitomo also admires this senior very much. She has the ability to take care of both ends and has also achieved certain results in the light novel industry.

A new light novel writer, after the huge success of his light novel titled "Love Metronome", he has accumulated considerable popularity as a newcomer in the industry.

The button that brought the two together was the book "Love Metronome".

When this light novel was serialized and released, Tomoyuki Aki was also a die-hard fan of this book.

And at a book signing event, fans met the author.

Fans recognized her as a senior at school, and thus they had some interactions.

At that time, he continued to praise the other party enthusiastically and spared no effort to promote the author of his favorite work. It is said that this move increased the sales of the work by 30%.

He also had a lot of discussions about the work. In the past, in order to repay this persistent reader, she worked hard on her work, repeatedly pondered it, and even argued with the editor, and completed the work without getting discouraged.

But on the eve of the publication of the final volume, that winter she found him with the manuscript, but he rejected her and her feelings.

Now, Tomoya Aki is a student who is working hard to prepare for the entrance exam to the University of Tokyo, and Utaha Kasumigaoka is still the one who is completing her studies while continuing her light novel writing.

They all have changed, but if you ask who has changed the most, it must be Tomoya Aki.

In the past, Tomoya Aki would not have been interested in the boring Neon history without cuteness. He even threatened to enter the University of Tokyo and announced on his blog that he would retire to prepare for the exam seriously.

In the eyes of people who know him well, these actions seem like a complete farewell to the past.

Taking light novels as an example of things I loved in the past, if it weren’t for the influence of its predecessor, the only light novels that Aki Tomoya would be interested in would be “Zero no Tsukaima” and “The Stigma of the Wind”. Unfortunately, both authors have passed away.

Tomoya Aki also understood very well why Kasumigaoka Utaha would come close to this "woodheaded" him at this time.

It comes from unwillingness, curiosity, and discomfort.

Or perhaps it is because she still cares about Tomoya Aki that Kasumigaoka Utaha appears involuntarily.

To describe her using Tomoya Aki's current words, she is not a literary talent at all, she is just a girl who is throwing a tantrum.

"Well, it's closing time..."

A somewhat timid voice sounded from the side, and Aki Tomoya looked up, only to find that there were only three of them left in the library.

Not to mention the closing time, just look at the sky getting dark outside, it’s almost time to close the school.

All club activities have ended, and quite a bit of time has passed since school was over in the afternoon.

"Sorry, can I still do the debit now?"

Aki Tomoya stood up, glanced casually at the still calm Kasumigaoka Utaha, took out his debit card and asked the librarian.

After spending a little time to complete the debit procedure, Tomoya Aki ignored Kasumigaoka Utaha and walked out with the three books.

After changing his shoes and walking out of the teaching building quickly, when Tomoya Aki pushed his bicycle out of the bicycle shed, he happened to meet Kasumigaoka Utaha at the school gate.

The students in the club have already taken the lead. After training for several hours, they do not have the extra energy to pay attention to irrelevant things.

Pushing the bicycle on the slope leaving the school, looking at the graceful figure in front of me, the subtle atmosphere between the two of them still existed.

"Ethics-kun, are you so repulsive to women from the past?"

Suddenly, the other party uttered something that made Aki Tomoya stop in his tracks.

Women in the past...

This description is not wrong, because the senior schoolmate in front of him was indeed dumped by him to some extent.

To be precise, her feelings were rejected before they even officially started.

"Senior, it's not appropriate to get angry with me."

Amaki Tomoya smiled, and the smile on his face made Kasumigaoka Utaha a little surprised.

Unlike the boy that Kasumigaoka Utaha was familiar with, the boy in front of her was completely different from before.

Even his speaking style has changed a lot. How long does it take for a boy to become mature?

This kind of question is worth exploring in depth, because if we don't add some dirty factors, it takes many factors for a boy to become mature, and it can't be described in a few words.

But what kind of feeling does Aki Tomoya give her now?

At least he is no longer the little boy who could be teased occasionally. This method is no longer suitable for Tomoya Aki.

"What do you mean by a woman from the past? Don't use such pitiful terms. If she is really a woman from the past, your actions are contrary to this statement."

So now Tomoya Aki is more willing to regard Kasumigaoka Utaha as a girl who is throwing a tantrum.

On the one hand, she was unwilling to be dumped, but on the other hand, she knew what kind of person Aki Tomoya was in the past. Under the contradiction between the two, her attitude also changed accordingly.

In fact, regarding the winter incident, Kasumigaoka Utaha is probably still struggling with it.

But at this moment, Aki Tomoya's calmness made her feel an unknown anger in her heart.

If he knew everything, would her feelings be so insignificant in the eyes of the other party that he wouldn't even take a look at them?

The sudden silence actually showed that she had already revealed her true feelings in front of Aki Tomoya, and it was easily exposed.

"Senior thought of me as someone who could work with me. Whether it was before or now, it was actually wrong."

Aki Tomoya pushed up his glasses and kept a calm smile on his face.

"The previous Aki Tomoya was a blockhead who didn't know how to make a girl happy, but the current Aki Tomoya doesn't have time to do such a luxurious thing. What a pity, senior sister."

As he said this, he described making girls happy as a luxury.

Love is definitely a beautiful and precious thing, and Akitomo is also happy to use all kinds of words of praise to describe it.

It is equal to the ideal, but can you have your cake and eat it too?

Aki Tomoyuki also wanted to answer yes, but one has to be practical. After enjoying it, Aki Tomoyuki felt that rather than the best, the most suitable might be more appropriate.

As he said, on the road of working together, the best is not necessarily the most suitable, and the most suitable is not necessarily the best.

People always feel stuck when faced with choices, and they will grow up after learning their lessons. For Tomoya Aki, he is definitely no longer suitable for doing something extravagant now.

Maybe he is a little stubborn, but he wants to pay the least price to pay for Tomoya Aki's past.

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Thank you for the monthly ticket and razor blade from [Waiting for the holiday to drink coffee]

Chapter 9 The appearance is the same as the inside

The edge of the gradually darkening sky was dragging the last cloud dyed red by the setting sun. On the slope of Toyosaki Academy, there were sparsely scattered students leaving after their club activities.

Not far from the main gate of Toyonosaki Academy, Tomoya Aki was standing there pushing his bicycle. In front of him, the senior who was known as the school's top literary talent was looking at him in some surprise.

Kasumigaoka Utaha was very surprised.

After getting to know her junior Tomoya Aki at that autograph session and then having more contact with him later, she thought she knew this boy who was full of otaku attributes well enough.

At one point, Utaha Kasumigaoka even thought that it would be extremely difficult to remove the label of otaku from Tomoya Aki.

But this boy whom she thought she was familiar with publicly announced on his blog that he chose to practice in seclusion in order to prepare for the entrance exam to the University of Tokyo.

Then he really did it, so it’s not surprising that he has such a strong ability to take action.

It’s just that there are so many unfamiliar things about Tomoya Aki now.

Especially now, the one who takes the initiative is completely Aki Tomoya.

The other party looked so calm, as if she knew everything, and this feeling made Kasumigaoka Utaha feel a little uncomfortable.

If she could have comforted herself before by saying that this guy's love-brain only existed in the two-dimensional world, now, Tomoya Aki showed that he completely understood the meaning of the original manuscript she intended to give him in winter.

That's her heart.

"To write for someone, to be honest, that person is too lucky. You can't be so entangled with that kind of person who doesn't understand romance. Be decisive and give him a slap in the face."

In fact, Tomoya Aki felt sorry for this senior. She thought she saw someone with whom she could go hand in hand, but that person actually didn't think about this at all.

But then again, both sides have their own problems.

If you look at the situation from many sides and consider all the factors, it is actually quite confusing and even a little regrettable.

Although Tomoya Aki did not show these emotions on the surface, he was very clear that if he showed any regret, the senior in front of him would notice it.

What will happen then?

This is a possible development, but Tomoya Aki has no intention of falling in love for the time being, so it would not be good to keep the other person hanging like this.

"Can I slap you?"

Kasumigaoka Utaha looked at Aki Tomoya steadily, and she looked as if she was really angry and wanted to slap him in the face.

He clearly knew that was her feeling, but he still pretended to know nothing and refused.

Why didn't you reject her outright then?

If I reject her completely, wouldn't that make her give up the idea completely?

But now, Kasumigaoka Utaha, who feels like she has been fooled, can't forget this guy, Aki Tomoya.

If Tomoya Aki now reveals his true self, then it would not be unreasonable to describe the previous events as a deception.

"If you ask me this question in person, would you be so kind as to refuse me?"

Aki Tomoya shrugged. Although he said that, if he really got slapped in the face, especially by this senior who was about to get furious, that slap would definitely not be pleasant.

Paying for the past is one thing, but to be honest, if possible, Aki Tomoya doesn't want to care about that kind of shitty past, and he even wants to curse it.

Is the second dimension good?

It must be good, it is simply loved and hated! There is a reason why people love it!

But apart from the two-dimensional world, one should at least have some understanding of the history of his own country. Now he is ready for a fierce battle to catch up on the history of Japan!

Among the "legacy" inherited by Tomoya Aki, he felt that the most useful ones were probably the blog that could be used to expand his network, and the pile of collectibles that could be resold for a good price.

"Ethics-kun, no, Tomoya Aki-kun, I underestimated you."

Kasumigaoka Utaha's eyes became sharp, as if she was looking at some disgusting insect.

An Yilun didn't know what kind of person she thought of him now, but it was highly likely that the goodwill accumulated from before had caused the other party to have some kind of illusion because of the attitude he showed now.

To be honest, it's really unpleasant to suddenly feel like a scumbag.

Aki Tomoya looked at Kasumigaoka Utaha with a deep gaze and replied calmly, "What are you talking about, Kasumigaoka-senpai?"

"Before I answer this question, is Tomoya Aki a liar?"

Kasumigaoka Utaha retracted her gaze from just now, calmed down and asked another question.

It is a bit arbitrary to regard Tomoya Aki as a liar and someone who is good at disguising himself. It would be better to listen to what this person has to say.

If everything in the past was just a disguise of this boy, Kasumigaoka Utaha would only feel that her feelings were not worth it. How sad it would be to pour her heart into a liar...

"Liar, that's an interesting way of saying it, Senior."

Aki Tomoya's eyes flashed, and he frowned slightly at the description of "liar".

This is a very easy question to analyze. Because the change was so fast and revealed an extraordinary determination, it can make people who know him feel unreal.

It only took one spring break for a staunch otaku, and he didn't even show any signs of leaving the otaku culture before that. A boy who was once so crazy about otaku culture suddenly became a person who focused on studying for the entrance exam to the University of Tokyo. What would people who know him think?

If the word "nature" is used to describe a person, then otaku is the biggest nature that Aki Tomoya has shown in the past, which can almost leave a deep-rooted impression on people.

What's more, what makes people feel unfamiliar about Tomoya Aki now is not just the otaku culture, but there are many details that make people feel weird.

Take the parents for example, their reaction was more excited than anyone else.

But subjective consciousness will make those people think it is untrue, but the objective fact is that the person standing in front of them is Tomoya Aki.

The objective facts have not changed, but the subjective consciousness feels strange, but it cannot be fully confirmed.

In the end, we follow the unity of subjectivity and objectivity. Tomoya Aki is still Tomoya Aki, the same person, but in different stages.

So it is easy for Aki Tomoya to understand Kasumigaoka Utaha's reaction now.

"An Yiren is not a liar, he is just saying goodbye to the past now. This is a more emotional way of saying it. A more reasonable way of saying it is that people are divided into different stages. To be more philosophical, it only takes a second to realize the truth."

Amaki Tomoya answered in the same way. Although he had to pay for the past, he would not slander his past.