Why wasn't I the one who got the male lead's script?

"They're fighting, and I'm responsible."

[Futaba Line] Destiny: Chapter 1: Reappearance of the Past (Part 4)

Rio Futaba has a dark secret.

When she was in junior high school, she was often humiliated by her classmates because of her figure, and gradually became inferior and introverted.

Body development is a very common thing. As long as a person is normal, he or she will always undergo secondary development. However, there are always a group of people who think that vulgarity is interesting and like to talk about it.

Apart from anything else, Futaba's figure actually developed more plump and shapely during puberty compared to her peers, with a protruding front and a curved back - probably the ideal figure recognized by women's health magazines.

But even so, it is inevitable to be maliciously humiliated.

Some boys would point at her slowly developing breasts with lewd smiles and make obscene gestures, stare at the hem of her skirt that was almost covering her knees with lustful eyes, and tell some vulgar and gangster jokes.

"Hey, you don't understand. My brother told me that that kind of place needs to be rubbed to make it bigger. Can you guess how many people have rubbed Futaba? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha? Why are you angry? No, no, we were just joking. No one really came to rub you... Hey, why are you angry? Did you get hit on the horn? Be more magnanimous, it's just a joke~"

It turns out that there are people in the world who take such malicious denigration and ridicule as teasing and jokes.

Not only that, some girls would also look her up and down with sarcastic eyes. Although they were also women, they always took a hostile perspective and deliberately thought the natural changes in her would be the worst.

"Look at her like that... I don't want to think about it that way, but she's deliberately trying to attract boys' attention, right? If she knew her breasts would be seen, why didn't she wear something thicker or looser? Ultimately, she's just enjoying the feeling... It's disgusting."

She would occasionally hear words like this inadvertently, and sometimes she would infer some clues from the micro-expressions of classmates who greeted her with a smile and then changed in an instant.

Why was she treated so harshly? Everyone knows that physical development is completely beyond subjective control.

Besides, is it wrong to have a fuller figure? Is it wrong? Is there something wrong with me just because I'm not like everyone else?

At that time, Futaba Rio couldn't come up with an answer.

At her age when her life was simply divided into two states: at home and at school, the opinions of her peers actually played a very important role in her self-awareness.

If I say that I am not affected at all by the rumors and gossips of my classmates, I would definitely be lying.

But apart from ignoring such words as much as possible, she could not resist any more - the ability of annoying teenagers to make up stories and stir up trouble is too strong.

Originally, Futaba Rio had already gotten used to it.

I'm used to people pointing fingers at my figure, and I'm also used to people staring at my chest or back with strange eyes.

Perhaps if we just view it as a normal part of our daily lives and numb ourselves to it, we will be less hurt.

After all, those people were just talking and didn't do anything actually harmful to her.

So just endure it silently and don't interact with those people.

Although that's what Futaba thought.

However, there are always one or two guys who cross the line and push their luck.

One day after school, a guy named Matsumoto from the next class came to see her.

At first, when he came up to greet her with a smile and enthusiasm, wanting to get to know Futaba, Futaba had already become a little alert in her heart involuntarily.

She had heard of this person. While he was very popular among both boys and girls, his relationship with the girl he had broken up with was very strained.

Maybe she is the type who would slander her ex in front of others even after breaking up.

Thinking of this, Futaba became a little more alert.

During the time when she was being criticized by her classmates, she became extremely cautious about social relationships and was more careful at such times.

Matsumoto has hinted several times, both explicitly and covertly, that he has intentions of pursuing Futaba, but the latter always either pretends to be confused or finds excuses to avoid him, so Matsumoto has not actually been able to do anything that crosses the line - for now.

What happens next is that Matsumoto wanted to gentlemanly send Futaba off to school and go home, but was rejected. After going back and forth like this for three or five times, he finally lost his patience one day and cursed at Futaba, saying, "Do you think you are noble? If it weren't for your figure, who would care about you?" and then left.

That day, Futaba Rio was worried that Matsumoto would bully her after this, so she was very anxious - after all, Japanese middle school students are capable of doing anything when they have nothing to do.

But it's not a good idea to keep worrying and afraid.

After the afternoon classes, a distracted Futaba made a decision.

At least you can talk to Matsumoto and ask him not to do this again in the future. That should make it clear that you don't have any feelings for him.

But when she stood in front of Matsumoto's classroom door, Matsumoto's voice made her stop herself from pushing the door open.

"Speaking of which, there's a girl in the next class with big breasts. She looks gloomy, but her figure is truly stunning... I didn't succeed in pursuing her last time, and then I tried to be a little more assertive, but she still didn't accept me. She's really short-sighted. I guess next time I have to find a few people to block her in the alley..."

Hearing this, Futaba was completely stunned. Her mind went blank, and she didn't even hear what happened next. After a while, the sound of scuffling and the clatter of tables and chairs falling from the classroom brought her back to her senses.

"……That's it."

In the open space, the gray-haired girl stood there with her head slightly lowered, adjusting the leg of her glasses and stroking the strap of her schoolbag in an unnatural manner, like a child who felt that she had done something wrong and should be punished.

"In a sense... I'm also responsible for their fight. So..."

Futaba, who was originally hesitant and unable to speak clearly, finally plucked up the courage and looked up at the boy with glasses and black hair.

"If you are indeed a relative of that classmate, please tell the school the truth. At the very least... he attacked me because he heard Matsumoto say he was going to do that to me."

“……I see.”

Hoshimi, who crossed his arms in front of him and looked at Futaba thoughtfully, nodded.

Come to think of it, he also remembered that he was originally going to be expelled from school, but later on, for some reason, he was only placed on probation.

Matsumoto, on the other hand, was not as rampant as before after that.

So there's something fishy going on here...?

——I didn't update yesterday because I finally had two days off after driving lessons to celebrate! It's definitely not because I'm bored again.jpg

[Futaba Line] Destiny: Chapter 2: Intertwined Time and Space with Him and Her (Part 1)

"So that's how it is... I understand the general situation."

Hoshimi adjusted the plain glasses on his nose slightly, recalling his past experiences and comparing them with Futaba's description - and finally came to a conclusion.

"The girl I accidentally helped back then... turned out to be Futaba."

Originally, Xingjian had the impression that she had tolerated Matsumoto for a long time in other aspects, but when he talked about doing something like blocking a girl, she could no longer hold back and exploded and started hitting him.

Actually, to be frank, this was not the main reason, but just the trigger of the incident. So after that, Xingjian did not deliberately find out who the girl who was almost harassed was, and after the incident was settled, he continued to return to his original normal life.

If I had been a little more curious at that time, maybe I could have met Futaba earlier.

So after that, would they become good friends sooner?

Xingjian shook his head as his thoughts reached this point, deciding not to think deeply about the possibility of another future for the time being.

When he raised his head again and looked at Futaba, who was still a little nervous, there were more or less complicated emotions in his eyes.

"...Futaba never told me about these things in the past."

why.

Was she worried that Hoshimi would blame her for the brawl if she found out? Or was she simply too overwhelmed with guilt to speak out?

Even if you ask her directly, that stubborn girl probably won't tell you her true thoughts frankly.

"So, what are you going to do next, Ms. Futaba?"

"I... probably am not suitable to appear in front of him. Nor am I suitable to come forward to discuss this matter... So, I hope you can tell the school the truth about this matter -"

"If I get involved as someone who is not involved, my words will be somewhat unreliable."

Xingjian interrupted Futaba's plan to find a way to escape in a deep voice.

"After all, this kind of thing is simply unbelievable unless the person himself proves it. Just relying on me to pass it on, especially as a relative of one of the parties involved—I don't think the school will believe my one-sided statement."

Furthermore, exposing yourself to others and being too involved in past events would be disastrous if your true identity was discovered or you met your past self.

"...So, I have to take the initiative to testify and explain the truth, right..."

"Well, that way, the punishment he received should be reduced... But Miss Futaba, you don't really have any obligation to do so. After all, you are also a victim. If it is difficult for you to imagine these experiences, there is actually no need to do so."

Although it may seem like some kind of inducement or provocation at first glance, Xingjian actually didn't think too much about it, and the second half of his speech was all from the heart.

He never knew what Futaba had experienced before. He just thought that her somewhat autistic, sensitive and anxious personality must have been caused by something, but he never thought that she had ever suffered such an excessive thing.

She has been growing up in an environment of body shaming. Can it be said that it is her fault that she has attracted ulterior motives from despicable hooligans and accusations from others because of her body?

The gangster's pursuit plan failed because of a small incident. In order to prevent the situation from escalating further, and not wanting to tell others about his experiences over the years, he chose to remain silent. Although it cannot be said to be completely correct, it is not completely wrong either.

All I can say is that it is human nature to protect oneself at this time.

To be honest, standing up and telling your own experience requires not only great courage, but also a rare sense of responsibility.

There was no need to force herself to be the first one to do so if she didn't want to.

“…It still doesn’t work.”

Slightly unexpected but also completely expected, the gray-haired girl spoke very firmly in a timid voice.

"If that student gets punished or even expelled just because I remain silent at this moment... that would be really useless."

"........."

Xingjian was a little surprised as he looked at the girl in front of him who was still a little immature but seemed to have taken some responsibilities on her shoulders. It took him a long time to come back to his senses.

"Although... I've never really considered myself a useful person, and I haven't accomplished anything to impress others, but... being able to do something and wanting to do it are two different things."

For the first time, the gray-haired girl looked at the boy in front of her with determination, although she was still lightly clutching the hem of her skirt because she was a little nervous.

"I will go and explain the facts to the teacher and go over the whole story."

……yes.

Although the girl in front of him was not as calm and composed as the Futaba that Xingjian knew, she was also always very unconfident in many aspects——

But she is Futaba after all.

There are some things about her that haven't changed at all since she was a child.

"...That's it."

The black-haired boy lowered his head slightly to adjust his glasses with his hand, then smiled and nodded to the girl in front of him.

"Ms. Futaba, you are a very brave and kind girl. If that guy knew, he would definitely be very grateful to you."

"……Yeah."

Futaba seemed a little uncomfortable with hearing others praising her like this. She turned her blushing face away a little awkwardly and could only accept Hoshimi's praise in this insincere way.

"I don't expect this to happen... The closer you are to the red, the more you become. That guy used to be so close to Matsumoto. If Matsumoto is like that, then he might be similar to Matsumoto."

"Almost, you mean…?"

"It's quite common to talk about girls' figures in private, which is quite vulgar."

Speaking of this, Futaba herself showed a somewhat self-deprecating smile. After all, she herself was almost used to this kind of thing - although this so-called "not being surprised" was actually not true at all.

But what can we do? This world is one that equates "universal" with "correct" in most cases.

"No, no, no...why would you think that? Of course not."

Hoshimi immediately denied Futaba's guess and shook her head like a rattle.

"That guy and Matsumoto were already on the verge of breaking up, and they didn't agree on many things, so that's not the case at all."

"Huh? How did you know that? Did he tell you?"

"Uh--"

Oops, I accidentally overexplained.

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I'm really drunk on Shuke's inexplicable sensitive words

[Futaba Line] Destiny: Chapter 2: He and She Intertwine in Time and Space (Part 2)

——Never let people from a time and space that does not belong to you discover your true identity.

This is what Miss Futaba always reminds Hoshimi before she and Hoshimi go through time and space together.

However, the current situation of the boy Xingjian is that his identity is about to be exposed to Miss Futaba from a few years ago.

"Oh no—I listened to the same person's instructions and almost fell into the hands of the same person. Is this what bad fate is?"

The young man wearing a mask and plain glasses scratched his hair embarrassedly, and then finally an idea flashed in his mind and he came up with an excuse to exonerate himself.

"If you don't think so, you can just go and find out what that boy Xingjian thinks of you, right?"

"Well……"

Futaba, who was a little surprised at first, was stunned for a moment, and then her expression became a little embarrassed.