I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

What is he talking about?

Am I paying attention to other people's business right now?

who is it?

I have the impression that there are a lot of... a lot of people?

It doesn't seem to be the case.

Head hurts.

I couldn't help but hold my forehead to relieve the pain, but it didn't help.

"Sheji, Sheji? What's wrong with you? Didn't you sleep well?"

"...No, it's okay." I said, pulling out my English textbook from my desk. "Maybe it's because I'm still sleepy."

And... my feet and legs are so cold. Why can't they even turn on the heating in the classroom?

"...That won't do. I have a new lesson to teach today."

"Isn't it just the past continuous tense..."

Huh? How do I know that? I was under the impression these were new classes...but I feel like I've vaguely learned a lot of them before, and they're still very familiar.

"Hmm? Have you already prepared for the lessons? Good boy, you actually sneaked out." He nudged my shoulder with his elbow. "Which cram school did you take them in? If it's convenient, tell me."

"...No, I didn't go to cram school."

"impossible."

"You two, don't whisper to each other during class—" The English teacher at the desk knocked on the blackboard with a square ruler and looked at us with an annoyed expression.

"..."

At this moment, I suddenly noticed that the list of people on duty today was written on one side of the blackboard, and the person whose turn it was was me.

"I remember I wiped the blackboard yesterday..." And...something happened...

"Wow...don't try to evade me. I was the one cleaning the blackboard yesterday," Ruiyun whispered to me. "I won't tolerate you playing dumb and trying to evade responsibility."

"...I was just saying it casually."

Since he said that, I must have remembered it wrongly.

"I've seen your tricks many times. Don't try to fool me here~" He returned to his lecture posture with a smug look on his face. "Just eat the chalk dust honestly today."

"..."

Oh, what a hassle.

飘荡

When our eyes met, before I could really observe her, she immediately avoided my gaze and slipped away from me in a panic.

I was very surprised by this. This girl's behavior gave me the feeling that she was too shy - but there was no shyness in it at all, as if she was deliberately avoiding me.

But besides being a transfer student, I don't seem to have any special status. Is there any need to avoid me? Or is there some other reason?

"Don't worry."

As if appearing out of nowhere, Ruiyun suddenly put his arm on my shoulders, looking very intimate.

"If you get touched by that girl, you just need to go to the bathroom and wash the affected area immediately, then go home and sprinkle salt..."

"Stop, stop, stop!" I pushed him away. "Are you talking about a method to exorcise evil spirits? I'm just an ordinary..."

"Don't look at her like that, she's not ordinary."

"...Really?" I immediately became interested, so I walked towards the bathroom with him - I met the girl at the door when she returned to the classroom and I was about to go out.

"Is she psychic?"

I was addicted to supernatural novels some time ago and felt very excited.

"Not really..." He sighed helplessly, "It's just that... She has several high school boyfriends and often goes out to sell herself."

"...No way?" I tried to recall the girl's outfit. "Her outfit wasn't particularly flashy, and she seemed quite quiet. She couldn't be that kind of person, could she?"

Aren’t girls like this usually good at dressing up, and are surrounded by many girls who are similar to her and form a small group?

"...they say you can't judge a book by its cover."

As he said this, he walked with me to the bathroom.

"There shouldn't be any teachers here..." he muttered to himself and took out his cell phone from his pocket.

“…The school doesn’t forbid…”

"That's why I took it out in the bathroom. In a sense, the bathroom is not under the jurisdiction of the school at all."

“…” I don’t think so.

"Okay, look at this."

"....This is..."

Although she was wearing a summer school uniform and had covered her face with her arms, judging by her figure and hairstyle, the girl in the photo on his phone was none other than the girl from earlier. Her right hand lifted the middle of her school uniform, revealing her fair skin and completely uncovered breasts.

"...Is this her..?"

I never thought that such a weak-looking girl would behave like this in front of the camera.

"That's right... You can tell from one look at those completely exposed breasts, right?" He put his phone away. "Everyone in our class knows this. So you shouldn't get too close to her, or you'll get into trouble."

"....knew."

Chapter 3: Drifting

After erasing the densely packed blackboard writing, I didn't feel any shoulder pain...it's really amazing.

However, just as I put down the eraser in my hand, a few guys suddenly came up, picked up the chalk and started writing on it.

So they interrupted my action of putting down the eraser, and I had to step back a few steps with the eraser in my hand and look at them under the podium.

"Hey, hey, I just finished wiping...Huh?"

I had a strong sense of déjà vu about what had just happened. While I was hesitating, they had already written a lot on the blackboard. The content was basically exposing someone's chaotic private life. And without having to think too hard, I knew who they were referring to.

“Is it fun to write this all day?”

"....What did you say?"

After I blurted out those words, several people turned around to look at me.

"I'm tired of reading this shit all day. It's the same old shit over and over again. You guys aren't tired writing it, but I'm tired editing it. While you're writing this, you could use the restroom for a quick cigarette... Or are the writers behind you really out of ideas?"

"Are you looking for..."

These words obviously angered the guy who was leading the group, but someone nearby stopped him, whispered a few words to him, and then they left.

"It seems that because you transferred here and I don't know your background, I didn't touch you." Ruiyun came close to me again in an instant, "But I also told you not to get involved with her..."

"I just think it's too much trouble to clean the blackboard."

"..."

"what..."

At this moment, the girl walked into the classroom shortly after the group of people left, and we met again. She looked at me as I was about to erase the writing on the blackboard, then turned and left the classroom.

"...Oh, I accidentally became a hero." He patted my shoulder, "But she didn't seem to be grateful to you..."

"I'm not asking for her thanks, it's just for myself. I hate doing unnecessary things... and I hate trouble."

I said as I erased the last word from the blackboard.

............

I seem to have done something really wrong.

The bitter taste that permeated my mouth made me realize I'd spent my lunch money on the wrong place. My stomach was still growling, but I couldn't swallow the food in front of me. It tasted so strange... like burnt rice from the previous night.

"..."

After weighing the pros and cons, I decided to throw the rice away. What I couldn't accept more than enduring a little hunger was eating this meal and then having my stomach upset and unable to eat for several days. As the saying goes, a short pain is worse than a long one, so I had no choice but to starve.

"....Feel sorry."

It’s not that I don’t cherish the ingredients that I have worked so hard to grow, but those so-called chefs have destroyed the value of your food with their magical craftsmanship.

Thinking of this, I poured the big bowl of rice into the trash can.

“Coocooco~Coocooco~”

Then, my stomach started to growl. It seemed like I wouldn't be able to get used to being hungry anytime soon... but I did have a plan for how to cope.

As the saying goes, free things are best. Well, I don't know if anyone else says that... I just said it myself. In a school where almost everything costs money, the only free thing is the water in the water dispenser. And considering it's winter, it's warm enough to drink directly. Throw in some candy from home... well, it's basically the same as eating bread.

"...That's the extent of self-deception."

Watching the sugar melting in my teacup, I couldn't help but smile bleakly. To prevent anyone from seeing my miserable state, I turned and headed towards the rooftop of the school.

Just as I was about to step onto the stairs, I felt a very weak force pulling at the corner of my clothes.

"Um?"

I turned around and saw the girl.

"...You didn't eat lunch today, did you? I accidentally saw it." Her face looked red. I couldn't tell if it was because she had used too much energy chasing me, or if it was just because she wasn't good at communicating with others. In short... just as I had guessed, she wasn't the type to be good at conversation.

Of course it can't be that kind of...

"What's going on? If not, I'm going to go...for a walk."

"I've already seen it, so there's no need to lie to cover it up..." She said, pulling out a loaf of bread from behind her. The packaging looked quite cheap. "I don't have much money for food... but I can't skip lunch. You should take this."

"...I don't need it." Even though my awkwardness was being seen, I still wanted to maintain my cool image. Besides...I didn't really want to accept other people's kindness. After all, I hadn't done anything for her, so accepting it for no reason...I couldn't do it anyway.

"You won't grow tall this way."

"...Do you have the right to say that to me?" She was not tall at all.

"Hahaha, it's okay. So if you don't want to be surpassed by me, you have to pay attention to nutrition..." She looked at the bread in her hand, "Although this doesn't provide a lot of nutrition... But it doesn't matter, something is better than nothing."

"..."

Is she introvert or outgoing? I have no idea now.

"Well, I'll accept it with gratitude," I said, taking the bread from her.

"That's right...ah, I have something else to do, so I'll leave first." She took a few steps back and ran away without looking back.

"..."

There are many things I don't understand, but there is one thing I can confirm... She's not the person the rumors say she is.

.....

"Wake up——"

...? What's going on...

"Hey, Sheji, wake up—it's time for you to clean the blackboard."

"—!"

Hearing this, I suddenly straightened my head. Then I looked down and found that there was an English book next to me. It was the first semester of eighth grade. The lesson I was studying was...

"Didn't I already have lunch?"

I suddenly turned around and said to Ruiyun beside me.

"Did you sleep yourself silly?" He tilted his head and looked at me. "We still have two classes before lunch. Did you miss breakfast? You're hungry so early."

"..."

Wait a minute...it doesn't seem like this has ever happened before. No...it doesn't seem like it hasn't happened before either.

"Ah... so annoying." I didn't want to think about it anymore, so I walked up, wiped the blackboard roughly, and walked down. Then, as soon as I got off the stage, a group of people came up.

As if I'd already anticipated this, I sat back down in my seat, watching them write something on the blackboard. But I knew without a second thought that it was definitely something bad about that girl... Hmm? How would I know that?

"...Just leave it alone." He seemed quite satisfied with this. "This isn't your business, so don't get involved."