I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

By the way, because I was the deputy class monitor before, when the cultural exhibition is approaching, I will also provide appropriate assistance to Lin Yi, who is the class monitor.

"You must be very busy. You don't need to help me. Just do your own thing."

However, Lin Yi had no intention of bothering me. This uncharacteristically cold attitude towards me, as cold as the outside temperature, could be interpreted as her finding me troublesome.

I honestly wasn't sure how far I could go. And she had a vague dislike for me. I hadn't understood it before, but now I knew the reason... It was because, for some reason, I had said something quite disrespectful to her some time ago. It's been so long since then, and an apology now would seem insincere. So, it's best to let it go.

"Feeling better?"

In short, I am now following the agreement I made with Rinquanchuan at that time and taking the initiative to talk to her.

"...What do you mean?"

Her expression was as nonchalant as if she had come to class just yesterday. For a moment, I actually felt as if my memory was confused.

"...Didn't you not come yesterday? I was asking if you were feeling better."

"Well, it's fine now."

She seemed reluctant to talk about that time.

Come to think of it, it was a bit embarrassing to be seen drunk. Fortunately, she hadn't drunk anything too strong, otherwise who knows what uncharacteristic behavior she would have done.

"...Yeah..."

But I heard that it is quite difficult for the human body to eliminate substances like alcohol, so I am still a little worried.

"and..."

"and?"

"...She told me what she was thinking."

But while I was still thinking about the wine and stuff, she had already changed the subject to something that sounded like it had just happened yesterday. After all, I had just mentioned this to Rin Hanekawa yesterday.

"...Oh, I see."

Apparently, she said it last night. At this point, I can't help but admire Rin Hanekawa's remarkable initiative. Hmm... I'm a little curious about the details of their conversation. It's not that I'm interested in prying into other people's lives, but I just think these kinds of conversations are something you wouldn't normally get to know... For creative writing, they're truly rare material.

"...If I had been born earlier, I would probably have had the same idea as her."

“…”

It's rare to find someone as understanding as Rinquanchuan.

To put it bluntly, the expression on her face now was like an expression that could only be made by another her whose personality had completely reversed after the world line changed.

So, what did she say to you?

"The rest of the journey will be up to me."

"...Do you mean you want to live independently?"

Being able to express your plans so easily does require some courage.

"Huh? Why should I live independently?"

“.....???”

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Didn't those words just now come from someone who has decided to live on their own strength? They're going to find their own way.

"My relationship with my family isn't as close as a typical family... but it's not that bad. You're saying that as if I'm going to be kicked out by my parents."

Maybe I was wrong. But then I couldn't figure out what path she was going to take.

"So what path are you taking?"

"This is my own business, don't worry about it." She didn't show any intention of answering me, and I didn't expect her to answer me. "I can still handle some things on my own."

After all, we have been together for a year, and I know very well that she always keeps silent about the answers to key questions.

"...Well."

However, compared to her previous quiet self, she is now a little more cheerful. I believe that even if she encounters problems in the future, she will not be at a loss.

This should be considered a good thing.

What a joy.

"...Ugh, please don't smile at me like that...it's disgusting."

"..."

One sentence can turn my mood from warm to cold. In this sense, it seems that Rinquan River has not changed much.

But then again, am I actually smiling?... After realizing I was helping others, even though the feeling wasn't very obvious, I definitely felt happy. But why did I feel happy?

"...I told you not to laugh, but I also didn't ask you to make that expression."

"..."

Now I really want a mirror to appear in front of me so that I can see clearly what kind of expression I am thinking about the problem.

"Then what should I do..."

"Oh, well... you could try to imitate Hannibal's expression when he decided to lead his men over the mountains."

Nodding to his own words without thinking, he evokes a certain dictatorship. However, as a young person of the new era, refusing to bow to power is an important sign of resistance.

"You're putting it too hard on me."

Although a concrete image formed in my mind as soon as I said it, it was still too abstract to describe a person's face.

"In that case, call me by my name."

"...Are these two sentences related?"

I really can't connect Hannibal's expression with the name of Rinsen River. So I strongly think that there should be some transitional words between the two sentences, such as a sentence structure like "what you see is what you think of."

Ah, could it be that the expression I made when I called her name was like that? How could it be possible—I denied it from the bottom of my heart.

"Well, there's no connection."

"..."

"I just wanted to confirm the agreement we made back then."

"...We agreed that I would call you by your name, but I didn't agree that I had to call you by your name just because you asked me to."

I corrected the mistake immediately.

"But I didn't call you 'you'. Just in that sentence, there were so many 'you's'."

"...If they all change to your name, then there would be no point in me learning this character."

"It's okay, you can say it to others. Just not to me."

"..."

This is more than just asking for trouble; it's downright unreasonable. But since we've made an agreement, and the final right of interpretation still lies with her, I'll just go along with her for now.

People always get used to it anyway.

"Okay, Izumikawa - since Izumikawa likes it, then I'll call you by your name. Izumikawa, are you satisfied with this? Izumikawa, what do you think? Izumikawa -"

Suddenly I thought it was quite fun to shout like that.

Name

"I suddenly feel that if the first and last name are just two characters, there won't be so many concerns when addressing them."

It's time for a casual chat during class. Incidentally, Rinquanchuan is not in his place right now.

Perhaps it was because I'd called her name so many times. Her expression at that moment was quite unusual. While shame was evident, a closer look revealed a more complex veil. However, that expression didn't last long. She quickly turned away from me, refusing to respond no matter how I called her.

Of course, when calling her, you should call her by her name.

Since she wanted this, I also tried my best to satisfy her. From another perspective, perhaps she was too satisfied that she didn't dare to face me.

Anyway, she ran out of the classroom as soon as the get out of class was over, not even giving me time to call her back. But I couldn't call her "Izumakawa" in front of everyone, so I had to give up.

"Um?"

Ye Hui, who was standing next to me, seemed to notice that I was talking to her, so she turned her gaze from her phone screen to me.

Of course, Ye Hui was only checking his phone to check on the progress of the class activities, not like me, who pulled out his phone in the classroom just to play games. The class activities were about to begin preparations in a few days, which was like a disguised vacation. Even so, he couldn't stay home and still had to come to school to prepare for the activities.

"Hey, take you, Ye Hui, for example. I've called your name many times, and I don't think it's anything special. Others didn't take it too seriously when they heard it."

"is that so...?"

She doesn't seem to have any awareness of this yet.

"Of course... a three-character name like mine is a bit troublesome to pronounce. So, you can omit the surname and just call me by my given name—"Sheji" or something like that. It's very easy to pronounce, and I even think I can call it a few times."

I'm not shy or anything, and I even feel that I deserve to be called that.

"Ah... This word is very common in classical Chinese, so both you and the people who call you can't help but think of it as classical Chinese... In other words, because of this, you don't have a strong sense of identity with your own name?"

"Oh, that's a good summary." I nodded with satisfaction. "Although I don't know what my family was thinking when they chose the name...but these three words are still very nice when written and pronounced."

At least it has a lot of strokes and looks very stylish when arranged on paper. The disadvantage is that not everyone can pronounce it.

"Sheji, do you care about names?"

"Of course I do. Because a name reflects the parents' expectations for their children..." Of course, those parents who deliberately choose weird names don't count. "I can already feel my parents' expectations of me from my own name..."

"Huh? The name 'Sheji' means to have the country and the world in mind?" she guessed.

"Of course not. Although 社治 generally refers to a country, I think my name should be analyzed separately."

He explained, shaking his head.

"'She' means soil, and 'ji' means rice. Soil and rice are very common in our daily lives, so this name reflects my hope that I will be as ordinary as soil and rice."

And in fact, I did it. There is no more ordinary person like me in the world, which is a good thing.

"But 'She' and 'Ji' clearly refer to the God of Earth and the God of Grain. I think your parents used this word because they hope you can become an outstanding person." Ye Hui continued to refute.

But I'm not some god... no matter how hard I try, it still won't work. So I think my parents didn't really think about it when they named me.

"In that case, why not just take the name 'Yi Yiming' from 'A Ming Jing Jing'? It's simple and easy to understand, and it has only a few strokes." The key is that I know a lot of people. And by making their expectations so clear, I might even be able to sense what they expect of me.

"Well... why are we suddenly talking about names?" She seemed a little lost for words, so she turned to asking my purpose. "Now that the name has been decided, it can't be changed casually."

"Nothing, I just can't figure out what the "Izumikawa" in Miss Rin's name means."

It's not enough to just be easy to pronounce, and I always feel that the combination of these two words is more like a place name or a surname.

"...Well...it's probably a play on the idea of ​​'all rivers flow eastward to the sea,' and springs ultimately converge into the sea. I hope Rin can be as broad-minded as the sea, yet as delicate and gentle as the springs...right?"

Having seen Linquanchuan's usual behavior, Yehui, who said this, couldn't help but doubt his own words. Actually, it wasn't a big deal; Linquanchuan's personality simply didn't match Yehui's explanation. However, while her heart couldn't be as broad as Haichuan's, her breasts could still be as petite as Quanshui's.

"I think we should contact her family to find out about the situation."

"What? Is there something special going on at Rin's house?"

"Of course, she's the eldest daughter, which means her family is very rich, right?" I said, pulling out my phone. "And the word 'quan', besides being able to mean things like water, is actually an ancient term for money."

"ha...."

Judging from her expression, she seemed to have guessed what I was going to say, but she didn't seem to agree with what I said.

"So, given the nature of wealthy people, perhaps they wanted to use this name to attract wealth. Money flowing into their home like a river, that explanation makes sense, right?"

"...Rin-chan will definitely be angry if she hears this. Anyone would be angry if someone described her parents as money-hungry people."

"Then don't let her know." She hadn't come back yet anyway. "Well, since we can't discuss names anymore, let's talk about her sister Rin Yukawa."

"We have been taken care of by her, so please don't speak ill of her."

"It's just a name, it's not a bad thing." However, it is not clear whether discussing other people's names is impolite.

"You seemed to have already said..."

"Just analyzing it." I waved my hand to tell her not to worry. "As long as it's not discovered, it doesn't count. It's okay."

"Oh, really..." It seemed like she no longer wanted to argue with me.