I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"Hey, do you really want to find someone like that?" "There shouldn't be anyone like that in our class." "Can you tell me why?"

"Since you're going to join a club, why don't you consider something else?"

As soon as the get out of class was over, I was surrounded by a group of people. This was normal. After all, I was a new transfer student. Plus, what I said at the beginning naturally aroused people's curiosity.

It was the first time that the atmosphere in the classroom was so high after class.

"..."

I had nothing to do, so I just lay on the table and looked in her direction. Since she was not far away from me, I could barely hear her voice.

"You must join the music club."

"Well, I already did some research when I came here. It should be the time for the club to welcome new members..."

"I can't explain the reason in detail. Sorry, sorry~"

"The purpose can only be explained to the members. Are you interested in joining?"

"It doesn't matter if you're not good at it...it should be quick if you learn."

"...Well, going to someone else's class? That's a good idea."

She was very skilled at dealing with other people's meaningless chats, and at the same time, she tried to gauge their intentions. But until class time, she still hadn't found anyone willing to join her.

This is natural... For us, even if our grades are not as good as those of the top students, we still have hope of going to college, so we don’t have any extra energy, and our parents will not allow us to be distracted by activities that are not helpful for academic advancement.

It seems that her goal will not be achieved...

With this in mind, I took out the textbook I needed for this class.

"Well, she'll understand then."

Then you will leave with frustration, or quietly accept the fact and think seriously about further studies.

................

Faster than I thought.

I originally thought that the people around her would lose interest in her after at least the next day, but now it seems... maybe her ideas are too strange, so even though she looks easy to talk to, she basically can't get along with those people.

Of course, those guys who have only studied since they were old enough to understand and who only know how to study will not get along well with her... In other words, she chose the wrong place from the beginning.

"Go home..."

I glanced out the window and saw that the members of the Guijia Society had already left the school one after another. As one of them, of course I had to go back... Well, it wasn't that I was good at studying, but I had no other talents to show for it.

After packing up our things, it seemed that there were only two of us left in the classroom... According to the class rules, the last person to leave is responsible for locking the door.

"..."

Looking at the guy staring blankly with his face propped up with one hand, she probably doesn't know. In other words... I'd better remind her to leave.

"..."

So I turned towards her, but just as I was about to speak, I realized I didn't know her name.

"...ah..."

This is a bit awkward... If I call her name and she can't remember it, I might as well just leave. But I don't feel safe leaving her here alone...

"Well..."

What should I do? I don’t know what to do anymore, my mind is full of confusion.

"Why are you still in the classroom? Aren't you going to participate in the activities?"

However, when I was racking my brains to think of how to start a conversation, she actually took the initiative to start a conversation with me.

"Um... that..."

"Oh, he looks familiar... Ah~ Could it be the one I met this morning..."

It seems that she recognized me, although I don't know how she did it, after all, I am so inconspicuous...

"The classmate who can't see eyes!"

So this is how they remembered me... Even though they remembered me, I surprisingly couldn't feel happy.

"...Please don't call me that..." He expressed his dissatisfaction slightly, although his voice was not loud.

"Oh... don't you like this name?" She seemed to care about my reaction, and then frowned as if thinking.

Of course, who would like to be called that?

"So...unhappy classmate?"

"Crack..." I could feel the blow to my heart.

"Eh? You still don't like me? You ignored me and left this morning, looking very angry. I thought you were someone who gets angry easily."

She laughed to herself again.

...I really don't like angry people, but the way she talks, even someone who isn't angry will be irritated, right?

"...Name..." I whispered, trying to explain my name.

"Huh? What? The sound is too quiet, I can't hear it."

She said moving closer to me.

"Hmm..." I couldn't help but waver a bit at this sight. Since we were so close, I could smell her faint perfume and clearly see her collarbone... She looked beautiful.

"Uh...ah..." I realized my attention was distracted after I came to my senses, and then raised my voice slightly, "I mean, my name...I'll tell you."

Then I looked at her face.

"Ah...I see."

It seemed like he had never thought I would say that, so I felt awkward for a moment.

"Yeah...go ahead." He suppressed his frivolous expression and suddenly became serious.

So why are you getting so serious now?! Just hearing my name...

"Well, it's a bit embarrassing to say this... I'm not very good at remembering people's names, so it's rare for someone to introduce themselves to me, so I have to remember them well."

"..."

Can't remember other people's names? This is really strange... No, how should I put it... Come to think of it, this fully proves that she is a super self-centered person.

"...Whatever, my name is Mo Xiaozhi..."

"Oh, Mo...what?"

After hearing it, she was actually confused and asked again.

It's not that serious, is it?! You just mentioned it and you forgot about it? Your memory is even worse than a goldfish's!

"...Mo Xiaozhi...being in the desert..."

If I explain it this way, she should understand.

"Oh... you seemed to have said something outrageous just now. What the heck, Shi-kun!"

You said something so hurtful even though you looked so excited?! You still didn't remember my name, did you?

"...I can't be happy."

This time I was really a little angry, so I expressed my dissatisfaction without any hesitation.

"I'm sorry. But putting aside the name issue..."

Why don't you talk about it...

"...Did you come up with that introduction yourself? The one about being in the desert and realizing Xiao Zhixiang's ambition."

I did remember this sentence! Why can I remember such a long sentence but not the three words in it?

"...Well, I did make it up myself..."

“Though when I think about it, I still don’t understand why.”

...This guy has a real talent for pissing people off.

"But I can still clearly sense your talent! ....Mr. Moshizhi."

So remember my name...

"...Talent and so on...are not so bad." But since she has said so, I will just admit it.

"So, are you interested in joining the music club?"

Ah...are you going to get me to join you in the end?

The beginning of the water droplet's movement

"Maybe not many people would believe me when I mention this now, but before this, I was a person who loved to bury my head in books and was not good at communicating with others."

"Ugh..."

This is indeed surprising, because the impression this person gave me has always been that of someone who can chat with anyone.

Well, I accepted it pretty quickly. After all, I've been through this myself...

"That's really surprising."

"Right?" His smile widened, as if he were recounting a funny memory. "Honestly, it was a strange experience to be suddenly approached by someone I didn't know. Because... I was surrounded by classmates I'd known for quite some time, but I couldn't properly engage in a conversation with them, and they had no desire to talk to me. But this new guy approached me enthusiastically without hesitation... That's when I realized I could still communicate with others."

"..."

"It's irritating, though. He focuses on the unimportant, can't remember people's names, repeats the same thing over and over again, and his head is filled with common sense that doesn't quite fit in with this world. These habits are infuriating no matter how you think about it."

"what..."

To be honest, people with this personality are rare...

"But what does that matter? It doesn't hinder her goal... Rather, perhaps it's precisely because she's focused her attention and energy on one thing that she naturally overlooks things that are perfectly normal for us."

"..."

"Speaking of which, I was very curious when I first met her because I saw an expression in her eyes that I had never seen before. I was curious about what that difference was."

For some reason, I couldn't help but stop walking side by side with him, and then looked at him quietly.

As the sky gradually darkened, the temperature around me dropped slightly...The long-awaited cool breeze blew gently by.

"After solving this question..."

Is it because of the temperature or that sentence?

I actually felt... a subtle brush against my back.

"I'm really starting to like her."

Episode 6 [Memory] The Beginning of the Water Droplet's Movement

What on earth is this guy talking about? Inviting me to join the music club? But I don't have the talent for that...

"Music club...? I always feel like... I don't seem to have any shining points..." He couldn't help but turn his eyes to the side while saying this.

"Yeah, I think so too."

"...well?!"

He actually nodded in agreement! Isn't it common to offer some comfort and say, "It's not that bad, actually"?

"In that case..."

But if you think about it, it's true... I have absolutely no strengths to boast about, yet I still try to gain false comfort through this. How pathetic... Isn't this just what they call getting something for nothing? If you want to win recognition and praise from others, you can't do it without putting in the effort... And exposing your own weaknesses and incompetence and then seeking comfort, isn't that just trying to gain sympathy?

"I...I'm leaving first."

People like me...

"Oh, why do you want to leave before you can even say a few words?" She grabbed my clothes again with such force that there was no grace at all.

"Well..."

I nearly lost my balance and glared at her in dissatisfaction. However, judging by her expression, she didn't seem to notice.

"Please stay with me for a while. You don't have anything else to do anyway, right?" A bright smile appeared on her face. "So, it's okay to visit the club, right?"