I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

This must be the truth!

"puff!"

Senior Xiao Qian had this reaction.

Alas? Isn’t it?

.................

"Do you have anything to explain? It's okay to tell me. Anyway... I don't have too much time."

Li Yinghui first launched into a proud speech, then turned around and ignored him, but in her heart she was still expecting him to say what she expected.

Like an apology or something like that.

"...These past few days, I've been thinking about what happened before, and I've realized that I always end up making you angry. No matter how I think about it, I feel like I'm truly hopelessly stupid."

"Huhu... you... you still have this kind of self-awareness..."

In fact, there were some things wrong with her at that time.

"I... don't know why I made you angry. This time we met was the same..."

"Well...actually, I'm also wrong. I still need to listen to your reasons carefully. But I really can't accept the fact that you said you want to give up writing novels."

"...Why...I clearly lack writing skills and my writing style is mediocre in your eyes, so why do you still want me to keep writing?"

There was a slight fluctuation in the tone.

"You said... 'Let's become a book,' but I still don't understand what that meant... I'm sorry, I really don't understand. And when I suggested that I wanted to be the closest person to you, that I wanted to be a writer, it seemed like you were disgusted..."

"...well?"

unexpected.

Everything that happened today seemed beyond Li Yinghui's expectations.

"I...why do you think...I dislike your writing?"

There must be something wrong...

"You cried. You said I didn't understand anything... Maybe I was really too much, just a guy who simply imitated others. In the end, I still didn't find what I wanted to be, so I wanted to be like you, without making any progress at all..."

"not like this!"

Everything has been wrong since the very beginning.

What I wanted to say had clearly been conveyed. However... there was a huge difference in how they understood it.

It's just a small gap, just like two straight lines intersecting, the distance between them will become farther and farther over time.

There is some intersection, but the result is...

"What..."

At this moment, Li Yinghui, standing before the senior, seemed to have suddenly exploded, rushing forward and grabbing his collar. At such a close distance, one could clearly see the tears swaying in her eyes.

"What...what happened?"

It was unclear, but the senior vaguely felt that it was his fault.

"You...are really an idiot..."

"...Um?"

"If I tell you that I enjoy reading your articles, would you become a novelist?"

............

[Easter egg?]

This time the reaction didn't feel fake.

But why is it this kind of reaction... He doesn't seem shy at all, and all that can be felt is the anger of being slandered.

"...Anyway, calm down for a moment."

"How did you come to this conclusion?" She angrily grabbed my collar and said, "Explain it clearly to me!"

This smooth operation...it feels like this isn't her first time doing it. I really can't tell...how many times has she grabbed someone's collar like this?

"Just be patient... I just took a guess..."

He quickly waved his hands and begged for mercy.

"Guess? I think you're just guessing..." She looked down on me and let go of my hand. "Next time you have such strange thoughts, it's best not to say them in front of others, otherwise it might not be so easy to solve the problem."

It seems like he's trying to reason with me? Should I say he's worthy of being a senior...

"Have those two reached an agreement?" She seemed to be worried about the two people who were talking alone again. "I'm a little worried."

"I'm worried too..."

However, it was not the two people who were talking, but Senior Akane in front of him.

"Should we go find them?" I offered. "Maybe they're already fighting."

"Not really... What are you thinking about?" He said, gently hitting the back of my head. "There has to be a limit to nonsense."

"..."

I really still don’t understand people’s hearts.

If you care about someone, why do you act indifferent in front of others? If you like someone, why do you hide your true feelings so deeply? If you hate someone, why do you smile and remain calm?

Hiding your inner feelings not only deceives others but also deceives yourself.

During the contact just now, when I was pulled over by Senior Sister Xiao Qian, my hand suddenly touched something hard.

I was curious about what that object was.

【Know it well】

Someone you can rely on

If only I could understand the human heart.

Even if it's just a tiny bit, my choices will be significantly changed because of her.

"If I tell you that I enjoy reading your articles, would you become a novelist?"

of course.

The answer has remained the same from the beginning. I will do whatever you desire. I will be someone who follows my heart, a novelist who writes with heart, a book you can understand, someone who strives to be close to you.

But why am I saying this now? If it had happened earlier, perhaps what I do would be more in line with what I want and would be more meaningful.

Wait, she said if.

"What if..."

Sadly, that's just if.

"Ah...is that so?"

wry smile.

She was as gentle as ever, telling such gentle lies even to someone as disliked as me. It was just like the time we were together, trying to endure my own ignorance.

That's enough, no need to pretend to like it.

That false tenderness is no longer necessary for me. From that moment on, when you shed tears because of me, I lost that qualification.

"I..."

"Wait a minute!"

When I was about to say that I couldn't do it, she suddenly interrupted me.

"I haven't finished what I'm saying yet!"

Chapter 30: Someone You Can Rely On

As if to get rid of her inner shyness, she rested her forehead on the chest of the guy in front of her.

If only I could be more frank.

As she thought about this, she recalled the words she had wanted to say many times but had never said.

If I don't say it this time, I might never have the chance again. Thinking of this, she choked up and uttered something like a confession.

"You really don't understand anything... I should have known this from the beginning. You're just an idiot, an idiot who can't think about anything, an idiot who doesn't understand what I'm thinking, an insensitive idiot who only smiles when I bully him, an idiot who apologizes to me even though he's done nothing wrong, an idiot whose writing lacks a reflection of himself... In short, you're just an idiot."

"..."

The senior in front of him subconsciously wanted to apologize, but was so shocked by the next sentence that he was speechless.

"But I just happened to like you like this."

Like? Did you really hear it right?

The senior, whose mind was blank because of what he had just said, quietly accepted everything Li Yinghui said.

"I don't know why... maybe it's because I'm also a hopeless idiot..." Li Yinghui continued.

I couldn't see her face at that moment...but I could feel that those words were not what I thought, but gentle lies she told to comfort herself.

What? It turns out that I have been wrong all along?

It seems that it’s a good thing that the words just now were not said, otherwise the distance between the two of us would be even greater.

Senior at this moment.

It seemed like I hadn't felt this way for a long time. My cheeks became unusually hot, and my words were not as calm as usual.

"I... I never thought before... that someone as good as you would like me..."

I thought it was just an extremely bitter unrequited love that ended with regrets, but now it seems that is not the case.

"...How should I put it..." His mind was still blank, "I'm very happy now..."

It's been a long time since this happened.

It was like going back to those days...the time we talked. Just like she always pointed out my mistakes and corrected them...but I don't know when the wrong idea started, and it was only corrected today.

It's not too late...

"I...will be a writer."

Whatever was in my mind was said without reservation.

"I know. I knew it from that moment on." She raised her head, her tearful eyes revealing relief and joy. "You have the ability... so you can definitely do it."

“It’s still a long way off.”

"No, before I left, you had already developed your own style... You were no longer that clueless idiot who knew nothing."

It was so...

"...I've been misunderstanding this whole time."

"Why, you think I don't want you to be?"

"After all... you cried because of what I said, and you even said I didn't understand anything... I thought you didn't agree at all, and then..."

And so, I continue to complain about my non-existent mistakes until now.

Li Yinghui stared at his face quietly, her thoughts drifting back to the day they'd parted. That day, the young man had run breathlessly to say goodbye, words that had moved her to tears... But then, overwhelmed by his own unclear reaction, he ultimately gave up.

"...you still..."

But was it really just his fault? If he had been more honest, things wouldn't have turned out this way.

"What a fool..."

It's not just him, it's the same for me.

. . . . . . . . . . . .

The biggest difference between reality and fairy tales is probably that the protagonists in both stories can find happiness.

That’s what I thought.