I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

She slowly closed her eyes, and the story that was regretful but still happy emerged in her mind.

Well, wait for me. I am now going back to where the story began, and of course I want to meet you again in the story.

The lack of contact information and the length of time weren't issues at all. As for why I felt this way... maybe it was just wishful thinking on my part.

"Wait...the story between us..."

She muttered to herself, and when she became slightly aware of Ming Xinxi's presence beside her, she decisively took back the second half of her words.

"Um?"

In fact, Ming Xinxi, who was concentrating on listening to music, did not notice Xiaohui's mumbling.

"It's okay..." She pretended to sleep and slowly leaned her head on Ming Xinxi beside her.

It's just a small story that happened to me...I haven't admitted that it's over yet.

A cycle of similar plots

Since we're suggesting going to an air-conditioned mall, why not just stay home from the start? Home is obviously much more comfortable than the outdoors. And I hate crowded places anyway.

However, the answer to my question from my senior was...

"Wouldn't it be boring to stay home alone?"

It was this kind of full-of-life answer. It was clearly nonchalant and matter-of-fact, but it caused quite a bit of pain to a homebody like me.

Yes, yes, yes, I feel really sorry for not feeling bored when I’m alone at home.

But if you think about it a little, you can understand it.

I still remember the first time I met my senior, he went to the bookstore under the scorching sun just to find a book. In other words, if this guy doesn't have something he wants to do, he will do something boring.

But I'm different. I don't have any free time at all, because my so-called extracurricular life is all spent on games... So it seems that I am definitely much better than my seniors.

I was just born at the wrong time, living in a world that dislikes otaku... well, to say dislike is an overstatement; the more accurate term is "prejudice." And it's precisely because of these various prejudices that everyone lives in a different world, completely unwilling to understand each other.

But if you think about it carefully, this is acceptable... People who are destined not to understand each other should try to reduce contact as much as possible to avoid hurting each other.

It is better for the world to be peaceful.

Episode 2: A cycle of similar plots

"You've been yawning since the moment you entered the mall. Are you that sleepy?"

"No... because it's too boring."

As a shopping destination, shopping malls naturally aim for customer flow, so it's impossible to set up dedicated areas for customers to rest. Even if there were, customers wouldn't feel comfortable... It has to be said that in the pursuit of profit, merchants have lost their basic humanitarian sentiments.

Well, let’s put these aside for now.

The situation I was facing was actually a bit difficult to talk about. In the reading area surrounded by naughty children, I couldn't understand how the senior could blend in with them with such a calm face and read a book by himself.

"..."

Watching my seniors so engrossed, I could only take a look at which books were freely available... after all, some had to be paid in full if they were opened. Didn't we agree not to force purchases or sales?

What is this...

As I flipped through a simplified version of a classic, tears gradually welled up in the corners of my eyes, and then my mouth opened uncontrollably... When I was bored, I yawned one after another, and this state reminded me of myself when I was still in class.

"How could it be boring?"

"If you want to read, you can go to the library..."

Not only is the environment quieter, but there are also a wider variety of books... and the quality is much higher than these.

“Actually, I don’t want to read a book…”

I always feel that his words with a book in hand are not convincing. Maybe he is just trying to cover up his childish behavior... I can still understand this.

"Well, what do you want to see?"

I should cooperate with his performance and not turn a blind eye.

"...Well, it's not simply connected to the aforementioned incident, so it's definitely not for the sake of seeing anything. But as for the purpose, perhaps there's some special psychological factor at play...so it's probably no different in essence."

“…”

I seem to understand a little bit how Liu Yan usually listens to me... He doesn't understand at all.

"Senior, could you please be more straightforward?"

"Oh..." He seemed to realize that what he just said was a bit complicated. "To put it simply, I want to see how lucky I am."

"...Luck...Are you waiting to pick up money?"

But it can’t be near here, it’s more likely to be in the shopping area.

"It's more important than picking up money..." He closed the book in his hand and returned it to its original place. "But it's really not good to stay here. Let's go somewhere else."

"..."

I have no idea what this guy is talking about... But since he wants to leave, I don't have any objection.

"Speaking of which, do you believe in fate in this world? Or is there really a 'law of attraction'... As long as you keep hoping, there will definitely be a feeling guiding you. As long as you follow that feeling, you will definitely achieve your desired goal."

"I guess I believe it."

I've experienced this before. When I pray sincerely and with a strong desire to an unknown source, guidance does appear, and what follows that guidance... is what's called a "miracle."

"When I open my eyes, I will find her figure in the crowd..."

Finally, she actually showed up.

"I believe it too." The senior didn't look at me when he said this.

After he said this, he looked away, as if he had not said anything just now.

"Yeah..."

Well, I'll just give him my blessing and hope that what he wishes for can come true.

....................

"Wake up, we're almost there."

Li Yinghui, who had fallen asleep on Ming Xinxi's shoulder, suddenly woke up from her sleep as if she felt something, and then found that the scenery outside the window had become a familiar scenery.

It's been so long, but it seems like not much has changed...

Sighing like this, she tried to wake up Xiao Qian who was sleeping beside her.

"Well...I'm not fat..."

"No one said you were fat. Hurry up and open your eyes." He pinched Xiao Qian's face and said, "We're here."

"Eh...? Where is this... I just dreamed that I was traveling..."

After waking up from the dream, Ming Xinxi, who was already a little confused in life, became even more reckless. For a while, she couldn't figure out the difference between reality and the dream.

"It's not a dream. You are traveling now...but your destination is not some famous tourist attraction, but my home."

After correcting Ming Xinxi, Xiaohui began to rummage through her luggage.

"It'll be there soon."

.....................

Some past events really cannot be looked back.

It’s just that some things cannot be recalled not because remembering them too clearly would cause secondary damage to the mind, but because they are too boring and it would be a waste of time to recall them.

That's right, I don't want to recall how I spent that terrible day with my senior... I left the house at around nine in the morning and went to the mall, and then stayed there for several hours, and didn't leave until three thirty in the afternoon.

We had lunch at the mall...and I paid for the senior's lunch.

"Ah, I didn't think too much about it when I came out, so I didn't bring my wallet."

"Oh, it's inconvenient to hold the phone."

"Even if I had a cell phone, I wouldn't have any money in my bank card."

I can't understand how he could say these words without any emotion in his heart... I have never seen such a shameless person!

All in all, this incident was an acceptable sideshow to my otherwise carefree and relaxing vacation. After all, it was only the first day of vacation, so there was no point in wasting a little time on my senior.

...even though that's what I thought at the time.

............

While I was subconsciously pondering what game to play first after waking up, there was a sudden knock on my door. It was then that I realized my parents were home today...but why were they calling me? Normally, they wouldn't bother me.

"Wake up Sheji, a friend is looking for you~"

...Why a friend again... Do I have a lot of friends? But when those so-called "friends" my mom knows come to visit, she always calls them by their names. But this time, she just said "friend," which means she definitely hasn't seen that person before.

"Wait a moment..."

After a brief hesitation, I decided to get up.

"Don't make others wait anxiously."

"knew..."

Could it be a salesman pretending to be my friend?

After a quick wash, I started walking downstairs and found...Senior Sun sitting on the sofa in the living room.

Still dressed the same as yesterday, he waved to me when he saw me, then gave me a friendly, but to me extremely troublesome smile.

"Hey, Sheji, I'm here to play with you again."

“…”

Even though I rubbed my eyes vigorously, I still ruled out the possibility that I hadn't really woken up yet.

Well... after I had planned what to do for the day, my senior who treated me as a "friend" showed up again without realizing it and successfully ruined my plan.

"Play...? Where to play..."

Don’t tell me that we still have to go shopping in the mall. I will never go this time.

"Just wander around. It's not good to just stay at home."

It appeared! Words that were extremely devastating to me appeared!

"Yeah, it's not good to stay at home." My mother suddenly appeared from nowhere and repeated what my senior had just said, "Since your friends asked you to go out and play, why not go out and see."

"..."

That's right, it's not because I have to do what he suggested. It's because parents will force their children to do it because the suggestion suits their own ideas, without considering my feelings at all.

"...Okay, okay..."

I didn't want to waste my energy on meaningless resistance, so I followed the advice of my predecessors... and once again wandered aimlessly into the world under the scorching sun.

....................

...It's a very strong feeling.

The thing I have been looking forward to has never been so clear, and an indescribable feeling lingers in my heart.

Even though I couldn't explain it clearly, I felt like I knew what to do... As long as I did it, the guy I wanted to see would definitely appear in front of me.

Ah...but why do I have to see him?

I obviously shouldn't meet him again...but I still can't help but want to look for him.

Ridiculous? Or contradictory?

There are so many unclear things that it will probably take a lot of time to sort them out... Well, let's just keep looking forward to it and try to get back to a normal mood.

"Xiaohui, I'm ready~"

Xiao Qian's voice came from behind me, and it seemed that she was looking forward to this shopping trip.

"Okay, okay, I'll take you there right away."

I hope...my feeling is not wrong.