I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"Why do you have to apologize..." she said, handing over a bottle of drink, "Here, a Coke, please."

"Thank you..." I took the bottle and took a big sip.

"I've drunk it before."

“…!”

I just squirted it out.

"Is it necessary to react so strongly?" She laughed heartily. "I was just kidding you. And do you really dislike me that much?"

"Yeah, who knows if you brushed your teeth this morning."

I said this with a look of disgust.

"I'm very hygienic," she said, standing up and holding out her hand to me.

"Let's go to the lawn."

I also took the opportunity to grab her hand.

Because this is a very normal thing...

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She is my...can we call her childhood sweetheart?

"Look, that's ice cream."

She pointed to a cloud and said to me.

He's a very lively guy, and always cheerful.

Now we are lying on the lawn together.

"...I think it looks like cotton candy."

I have a different opinion.

"Oh, cotton candy-like ice cream?"

She didn't seem to think it was a disagreement.

So...how did we come to this conclusion...

"It would be wonderful... It would be so blissful if I could live in heaven."

"What are you talking about... What will happen to my parents if that happens..."

And eating will be a big problem...

"Who cares..."

"Hmm? What did you say?"

I didn't hear clearly what she said just now.

"It's nothing... I was just thinking about it, it's no big deal, right? Besides..."

"Besides, there's no way I can actually go to heaven."

"..."

I always feel that when she said these words, there seemed to be... some regret.

"Wait a minute..." I suddenly noticed something unusual.

"What's wrong..." she turned and asked me.

"No... Can you turn your head again?"

"Why?" she asked me impatiently.

"...There's just something strange about it. Maybe I saw it wrong..."

I didn't take it to heart, but continued to lie on the lawn, staring at the clouds floating in the sky.

"Did you watch the anime that aired yesterday?"

She suddenly asked me.

"Which one?"

Because there are so many animations broadcast every day...

"That's it... the opening theme song goes like this..."

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"Hey... you've been singing since then until now..."

School is over now... How much do I like this song...

"..." She glanced at me and stopped singing. "I can't help it. After all, this is the one that impressed me the most. I've long forgotten the others."

"No way..." I felt a little unbelievable, "Yesterday's content was really exciting."

"I don't think so..." She said with a calm expression.

"You probably didn't look closely enough. The protagonist found the legendary sword and even summoned a giant robot."

"Oh... Is that so? Maybe I was watching something else and didn't see it..." She responded excitedly, "Hey, what does that robot look like? Can you draw it?"

"..."

I wanted to refuse, but she seemed interested... well, it was her fault for missing out.

"Let me be clear, my drawing might not look like it."

"Yeah, it's okay."

She had already taken out paper and pen with a smile.

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"Oh, it looks super cool..." She held up my painting and looked at it again and again, "You are so amazing, Sheji."

"...Ahaha..." I felt a little embarrassed.

"Is this... the robot that defeated the Demon King...?"

"Yeah." I nodded.

"...Can I take this painting for my collection?"

She looked at me with pleading eyes.

"..." I don't know what this means... Am I a good painter?

"Sure, it's okay. It's just a casual drawing anyway..."

"Thank you..." She smiled and put the painting in her schoolbag.

"See you tomorrow."

"...Yeah, okay..."

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Because I'm used to it, I will always arrive on time even if there is no appointment.

I found her lying on the school lawn, where I didn't know when.

"Hey." She greeted me when she saw me.

"Yo..." I walked towards her and lay down next to her.

"It's another sunny day today..."

She closed her eyes and spoke to me.

"yes..."

I also closed my eyes, lay on the lawn, and let the sun caress me... It felt great...

"And today is Saturday..."

A lazy voice came.

"yes..."

I responded lazily.

"Have you finished your homework?"

"Well... almost," I responded.

Actually, I plan to write it tomorrow.

"I haven't written anything at all..."

Her tone didn't sound particularly fearful... rather, it felt relaxed. I really envied her optimism...

"Well...actually, I didn't write it either."

I confessed.

"Ha... I knew it."

I don't think you know...

"Sheji, look, does that cloud look like a sword that summons robots?"

She seemed very excited, and kept patting my shoulders, urging me to open my eyes quickly.

When did this guy open his eyes?

"..."

I looked in that direction.

Really... kind of similar.

"Hey hey hey."

She laughed to herself and took a deep breath.

I knew what she was going to do and didn't react in any special way.

It’s time to sing...the theme song of that animation.

She really sounds nice when she sings.

The time that passes quietly is like a song, which will never come back after it passes by.

I watched the clouds slowly drifting across the sky.

Ah...it's just like this cloud.

Thinking this, I looked towards her. I wanted to see her singing, but she seemed to be immersed in singing and didn't realize I was looking at her.

So...her neck was exposed to my view.

I have the impression that she seems to have been covering this up.

Although I could see her occasionally, she always dodged me... Anyway, this time I had enough time to see her clearly.

"..."

But why do I feel like... I've seen something I'll regret?

“…Hey…”

I couldn't help but call out to her.

"Hmm?" She looked at me puzzledly.

I really want to ask, there are so many things I want to ask that I don’t know how to start.

And...it seems like she won't tell me.

"...It's alright."

I looked up at the sky and saw the clouds still floating tirelessly.

"I'll sing with you."

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