I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

She seemed to make a sound of disgust.

"That's no reason not to swing," she yelled at me. "What if you hit it?"

"...That's a huge coincidence, isn't it?" I said, glancing at the bat in my hand. "And there's a chance I might miss."

"That's no reason not to swing!"

"What on earth do you want to express?!"

I'm really impatient.

"..." She was stunned for a moment, then she smiled, which looked quite handsome.

"I tell you!" she yelled at me, "no matter if it's a hardship or just some messy annoyance..."

Talking about the other baseball, "It's just like this baseball! It's definitely going to fly towards you. If it hits you, something serious will happen."

.....

"So... in order to avoid getting hurt, just go and solve this problem. What you need to do now is..."

As she spoke, she made the motion of preparing to throw the ball.

"Just put all this mess..."

For some reason... I suddenly started to get nervous, and my heart started beating faster. Before I knew it, I was already preparing to hit the ball.

"Knock him away!"

I couldn't see the trajectory clearly and there was no time to react.

But I still go by my feeling...or subconsciously.

He swung the bat in his hand with force.

Then, as I felt the tremors in my hands, a familiar voice sounded in my ears.

"Bang!"

Some things... are just incredible.

My mind went blank and all I could see was smoke floating in the sky.

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"It flew... very far."

She looked behind her.

"Isn't this wonderful?"

Then he turned around and smiled at me.

“…I actually hit it…” It was obviously the first time.

"Well, that means you're lucky." He patted my shoulder and said, "Keep going, little brother. There will be more difficulties in the future."

"...Well, as much as I hate to admit it...it's true."

It's like a baseball that might suddenly fly at you at any moment.

"Haha... Well then..." she said, taking the bat back from my hand, "That's all for today... Bye."

"...Okay, bye."

I watched her leave.

What a cool attitude... Well, it's getting late... I turned and left.

When I went to the river to pick up my schoolbag, I found a baseball that had flown there at some point.

“…Really…”

I reached out and picked it up.

If only every hassle could be replaced with a baseball...after all, all it takes is a hit.

We who hold the bat...when faced with those troubles, we don't have to worry about anything else, just swing the bat.

Because trouble... is right in front of us!

I threw the baseball in my hand towards the river.

That's the direction I'm going to knock away trouble.

The so-called Yiren

Maybe we all have someone we like.

It was as if it was an agreement.

They had never been noticed before, but finally came into everyone's sight.

Even though I don't think they did it on purpose, I'm still very touched... Just like the snowflakes falling on their own, although they don't have any special meaning, they always bring different feelings to others.

Reach out and grab this ethereal snow-white creature.

"The willow catkins are blown by the wind...?"

I glanced at the flying catkins outside the window.

Close your eyes and face the gentle sunlight outside the window.

Chapter 0 Maybe we all have someone we like

It's incredible...

Close your eyes and face the gentle sunlight outside the window...it will feel wonderful.

I feel like I can see the color of sunlight... Is it orange? It's such a friendly color...

When I opened my eyes, the scenery before me was covered with a layer of green... How strange...

But...it's also interesting to observe objects in this state.

Is that why he does this so often?

And now... is he doing the same? Maybe... maybe, at this moment, he is also closing his eyes and feeling the warm sunlight.

It’s so nice... No matter the season or him, they are both very gentle.

But...this tenderness is like sunshine, it will not belong to just one person, nor will it be just for one person.

That's why so many people like sunshine...

"So I'm not the only one who likes him."

"..."

It's a bit...hard to accept.

I always feel that if I do something similar to him, I will understand him more or less...

No...I guess I still can't...

Whether it was his leaving or his hug, I just couldn't understand it.

Just like I can’t know the composition of sunlight, I can never understand him.

However, just as not understanding the composition of sunlight does not prevent you from liking it.

Just because I don't understand him doesn't stop me from liking him.

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It's incredible...

I always feel like...someone is doing the same thing as me...

Well, the world is so big after all, and it's not hard to just close your eyes and look out the window, so there are definitely people like me out there...

"..."

I leaned my back against the table behind me and stretched.

The seat behind me...was empty, but it was occupied for a while...

Once you get used to it... you'll start to feel uncomfortable.

Even though it's been several months, I still can't completely forget her.

After all...after all, that kind of thing happened...

"It seems like I was confessed to."

This thought suddenly popped up... What do you mean by seemingly... That's a complete confession...

But I refused.

"call..."

There's nothing I can do about it... If I have to say whether I like her or not... I definitely like her. How could I not like a girl like that...

But...just like I like sunshine, although I like it, I can't have it for a long time.

Because... didn't I write that line?

I have always been in the shadows

"Even touching the warm sunlight feels scorching."

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"Hmm~Hmm... Hmm~Hmm~"

I unconsciously hummed the melody that suddenly appeared in my mind.

It sounded so familiar that I couldn't remember where I had heard it before.

Ah...I remember now.

Sure enough, it's related to him... After all, he wrote the lyrics.

Did he hear us singing his own song? I didn't see him at the time...

If you didn't hear it...it would be a shame.

Because we changed the final lyrics a bit in order to surprise him.

"Then let me hug you."

"Become your own shadow under the sunshine"

But...it seems there's more than one shadow to take shelter in.

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I often look out the window because I always feel like I'm looking for... or rather, searching for something.

But I don’t know exactly what to look for.

For no apparent reason, I often looked out the window...not only during class time, but also at home.

If you distract yourself even a little, your eyes will already be staring out the window.

I... maybe I forgot something again...

Forgot the person I had been looking forward to seeing.

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Come to think of it...he seems to be looking out the window a lot.

That’s right... After all, for him, the things in class should be very boring.

But... I always feel that when he is in a daze, he seems to be looking for something.

What is it...

It was time to go home from school, but I didn't leave my seat.

Because I know that he hasn't left at this moment.