I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

I always feel...that it doesn't feel real, like a dream, and the new semester will be starting soon.

What have I done in the past year?

...seems to have done a lot, yet seems to have done nothing.

Now... I'm only one step away from becoming an adult according to the law.

In other words...actually, I'm not that different from who I was yesterday...I feel a little relieved when I think about it.

But when I think about how my eighteen-year-old self will be no different from now, I feel sad...

Ah, there's nothing to be sad about, because people always change and mature, isn't that something we've all understood? And those who stay by my side... may not always be by my side...

"Ah....Open your mouth."

These words suddenly echoed in my ears. I opened my mouth in a daze and found a piece of cake stuffed into it.

...very delicious...

“....!”

Was that... Ye Hui's voice just now? Ye Hui actually fed me in front of everyone...

Wait, I suddenly realized that something was wrong.

"........"

What's going on... Why is the atmosphere suddenly tense...

"Ah... Let's drink to the country!"

Dad suddenly realized something and raised his glass.

Old...Dad...

"Okay!" Ye Jin also agreed.

It was indeed Ye Jin, who actually realized...

The tense atmosphere was thus eased, and Rinquanchuan Xiaoye also raised the cup in his hand... Of course, there was a drink in it, and minors are not allowed to drink alcohol, let alone girls.

"Happy birthday to you!"

Everyone shouted at me in unison... just as united as I was when I questioned them... Ahahaha, this really took a lot of effort to explain.

I said this and glanced at Ling Shen who was holding up his glass with a smile.

Oops, there's cream on my lips...

".Hey...Sheji, say something."

Ye Hui on the side reminded me.

"Oh..."

I responded listlessly, then said "Thank you...everyone..."

So he prepared to put the cup to his lips.

"What... You're so weak, you should be more excited!" Ye Jin said to me dissatisfiedly.

"..."

Okay, okay...

I had to shout out loud

“Thank you everyone and happy birthday to me!”

"This is right..."

The atmosphere returned to its original relaxed state...

Ah... How long will this situation last...

Chapter 4 Closing Remarks

Chapter 4 Closing Remarks... Let's count your wrinkles!

Come, count your sins... oh no, your coins... oh no... your wrinkles!

[This sentence contains references to "Kamen Rider W" and "Kamen Rider 000"...]

Today... the latest chapter has been declared complete... Looking back, it feels like time has flown by so quickly. It's already autumn john season... Thinking back to when I was just starting this book, it was almost this time of year. Suddenly, I realized... I've been writing for almost a year now, and I always felt like I hadn't written much... and I always thought I was just a newbie writing a book! Before I knew it, I was becoming a seasoned veteran... The salted fish is drying up!

...The sorrow comes from within, and it cannot be stopped...

Well, seeing that a chapter of less than 3,000 words that was accidentally born from an essay has developed into a work of nearly 500,000 words, I feel a sense of accomplishment.

Because I insisted on not resetting it, I can clearly see the difference between the current content and the previous content... I suddenly found that it seems that the original writing is not as good. Is it an illusion?

Let’s get back to the topic...

The title of this chapter is quite meaningful, but since it has been mentioned before, I won’t repeat it here... Anyway, don’t mind that the chapter intentionally leaves a Shura Field ending.

Actually, when I was writing this book, I couldn't quite grasp the direction... How should I put it? The title gives off a sense of decadence, and the protagonist I created is the kind of guy who rarely seems to have much energy, but who is surprisingly energetic in handling events, which creates a sense of contrast...

So I temporarily established that the protagonist has the ability to handle events... Now it seems like a good decision.

But it's very laborious... Because establishing the events is indeed easy, but how to solve them requires me to think from the male protagonist's perspective, and this kind of problem is often difficult to solve... Oh, and I also have to think about how to say it...

It is really difficult for a person to think about problems from different people's perspectives.

Next up is... the relationship between the male protagonist and the various girls, right? I remember a reader left me a message asking:

"What's the relationship between the male protagonist and Rinsenkawa? It looks weird."

I didn’t respond to this because I felt I couldn’t finish it in one sentence.

First of all...Sheji is very ordinary to Izumikawa, but it is precisely because of her ordinariness that he ignores her harmless venomous tongue and is closer to her than others. He will also complain about her, care about her, get angry with her, and tolerate her...just like an ordinary friend.

But for Rinquanchuan, who has always been isolated and not approached by others, this is very special...

As for the emotional aspect...I can only tell you that Sheji won't understand until the very end.

So, when is the last time?

...No comment.

Secondly, because Lin Quanchuan was the first girl Yi Sheji spoke to (except Ye Jin and Jiayin), and because of the first impression, he always cared about Lin Quanchuan, and they were in the same club, so it was reasonable for them to get closer.

Well, that reader has another question.

"If you don't write about love, the relationship between the male protagonist and the girl should be a little more casual, not too gentle."

...The emotions should have been written about...it's just that they are rarely described. And the protagonist is not the type who is unlovable, he just has no ideas.

It's normal for boys to be gentle to girls.

Just like when you see a cat you can’t help but scratch its chin… (don’t tell me I’m the only one like that)

A well-educated boy would never treat a girl with cold eyes or vulgar words, unless the girl is not worthy of his gentle treatment. [Yes, there is such a girl around me, hehe...]

Therefore, it is unacceptable for boys not to be gentle to girls. Even if they don’t have any such feelings, they should still be gentle to them.

But... being too gentle will indeed cause girls to misunderstand...

I'm also very conflicted about this point. After all, it has now developed into a harem, and a Shura field has appeared...

That's right, compared to you guys, I don't know how the next plot will develop...

However...a cat will not follow you just because you gently scratch its neck. Similarly...even if you are gentle to a girl, she may not fall in love with you.

So...don't think too much about it.

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This is the end of my response to the readers’ comments. Next is my time to talk nonsense...you can skip it.

When I was writing this book, I kept thinking... How should Chinese light novels be written?

Because I haven't read many light novels, and almost all of them are Japanese. Also... I've read Nisio Isin's "Monogatari" several times.

But... after reading Monogatari, why didn't I write about themes like gods, demons, and monsters? Because I also read Hyouka.

The reason I read it is because of the animation of the same name adapted from this novel. I believe most people are familiar with its exquisite production, so I won’t explain it in detail.

In short, I will take "Hyouka" as the benchmark of daily life light novels... Although doing so is always a bit one-sided, there is always a reason for it.

Because daily life is the most common, it is the most difficult to write. If you are not careful, it will lose its sense of reality, and if it is too real, it will not be interesting.

But "Hyouka" gives me an unusual feeling.

It's a story about a male protagonist who is smart but unwilling to expend energy, a girl who is curious about everything and full of energy, a friend who helps him and calls herself a database, and a girl who has a crush on the friend but is cold to the protagonist.

When they encounter some incredible things, they will ask the male protagonist to reason. The male protagonist refuses at first, but he has no resistance to the female protagonist's "I am curious".

And what we deal with is...

"In the pouring rain, there was only one person on the playground. Who was this person? What was he doing?"

It’s the same thing, a small thing, and there are no serious consequences, but it can arouse people’s curiosity. After solving it, people will have a feeling of “Oh, so that’s how it is…”

Funny, unremarkable and real.

This is what I think of as a school-themed and daily-themed light novel.

Whether it is Japanese or Chinese style, I will recommend this kind of writing style and story.

Novel...even if you add the word "light" it's still a novel!

Interestingness and storytelling are very important, and I hate things that are unrealistic... So I always feel guilty when I write these things recently...

Well, I don't want to say more... Anyway, I don't want to see light novels become "books that only sell because of illustrations."

That’s right, Wataru, even though you’re being self-deprecating like this, I still want to ask you how you plan to write the ending of “Oregairu”.

Well, my second favorite is the story of "doing the opposite of the norm".

Generally speaking, heroes are righteous, brave and selfless.

So, what if the hero is a coward? Wouldn't the story be more interesting?

Creating a twist on a stereotyped theme is indeed a very good practice... but this behavior has gradually become a trend...

Ahaha, there's nothing we can do about it. After all, there's more than one person who thought of this.

Unconsciously, "anti-routine" has also become a routine, which is really despairing...

Because no matter what, I can't escape the shadow of the routine...

But speaking of breaking the mold... I think the earliest novel should be Cervantes' Don Quixote...

It went against the mainstream of knight novels at the time and created the image of a crazy fake knight. It is an interesting work even now, not to mention at the time.

It seems that classics are indeed an insurmountable peak...

So... copying... no, borrowing is the correct and very easy shortcut to success, haha.

Well...that's it.

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

The new book I promised to read hasn't been published yet...

I feel like I've been very busy lately, but if I really want to talk about what I'm busy with, I feel like I can't put it into words... Time still slips away as usual...

The art exam is coming up soon... If everything goes well, I can go to a good university... But I still feel a little uncertain. After all... It's not as stressful as the legend says. I don't think the third year of high school is that stressful for me...

I guess I'm just too naive...

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Irrational talk is also reasoning

The reasoning is just like this