I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

But looking at her happy expression at this moment...it seems that she is also very happy to be called young...

"Ahaha..." I didn't know how to answer and looked at Rinquangawa awkwardly.

She had an indifferent expression on her face.

Is she the kind of person who is very self-aware and scorns other people's praise?

"I'm her mother. Although she's indeed very young, calling her her older sister is a bit of an exaggeration... Ling Shen just fell asleep after taking some medicine. I'm sorry... I didn't know you would come to visit her. I thought she wouldn't be able to make friends here."

After saying that, he walked into the house.

I hesitated and didn't take a step forward.

"Oh, it's my mother-in-law... Auntie. I really couldn't tell if she hadn't told me... Well, if Lingcan is already asleep, I think it's better for us not to disturb her..."

That slip of the tongue just now was really... What was I thinking...

"Don't say that." She turned around. "It's better to meet her and talk to her, because you may not see her again for a while."

"Ugh?"

I suddenly didn't understand what this sentence meant.

"Why...why...why can't I see her? Could it be...is she seriously ill?"

Before I realized the stupidity of that statement, Rinquanchuan had already stepped on me.

An unintentional mistake... An unintentional mistake...

"That's not the case. It has nothing to do with Lingcan's illness. I decided this after discussing it with her father."

"Um...uh?"

When I heard it was about their family, I hesitated whether to ask for the reason.

However, Lingcan's mother didn't seem to intend to hide it from us.

"Because if nothing unexpected happens, Lingcan will go live abroad with me in a few days."

Chapter 9: A Feeling That Is Hard to Feel

"Hey."

Rinquanchuan, who had been silent since leaving Lingsan's house, suddenly spoke when we walked to the street to wait for the driver.

"Ok?"

I gave a brief yes, not very enthusiastic about the conversation that followed.

"say."

She looked at the street in the distance where there were not many pedestrians.

"Uh..."

What are you talking about... This guy is really...

I hesitated for a moment and said to Rinsen River:

"talk."

Then he received an angry left hook from her.

"It hurts, it hurts... Why did you hit me all of a sudden?"

I quickly rubbed my aching cheek.

Actually, I do know the reason...but even if you let me speak, I don't have much to say.

"Oh, don't you understand?"

She pulled her fist back and looked at me. "Don't you have anything to say about her leaving?"

"..." I continued rubbing my cheek, "It seems... uh, what do you want to say?"

I passed the question to Rinsenkawa.

"Huh..." She sighed, "I always feel a little unacceptable."

"What's so unacceptable about this..."

I looked at Rinquanchuan's hand carefully...it didn't seem like he had any intention of hitting me.

"Oh, how can you say that?"

“…Hey…”

I sighed, "First of all, this is someone else's family's business."

“…”

That’s right, once this premise is stated, there’s nothing more to say.

"Secondly, from Lingcan's personal perspective, I don't think it's a good idea for me to be here alone. Wouldn't it be nice to be able to live with my parents? Besides, didn't her mother say that..."

"It's always inconvenient to be alone outside. If the neighbors hadn't helped, no one would have known that the child was sick. It's too dangerous. Besides, we were already worried about her being alone outside. We felt that we couldn't let her live alone anymore."

She said so herself.

The reason is of course irrefutable, and it is also for Lingcan's safety.

Although I don't understand how Lingcan's parents agreed to let her stay alone, but since they have decided to accompany her, what can I say?

"That being said..."

Rinzenkawa's eyes turned serious.

"After all, we should consider Lingcan's opinion."

"..."

After saying this, I noticed that Lingcan's mother did not tell Lingcan that she was going abroad.

“What does this matter…”

"Are you stupid?" Lin Quanchuan's eyes suddenly returned to their original indifference.

"...ha?"

"A guy with Lingcan's personality couldn't have been left here, right?"

I think I understand a little bit...

"Could it be that...she herself asked to live alone?"

"Well, I think so."

Linquanchuan's tone wasn't very certain, it seemed she was just guessing.

Wait...if that's the case...then Lingcan is really amazing...she volunteered to live alone in a foreign country?

A bit too independent...

"Even so... I think it's no big deal to let her go back... Parents won't harm their children..."

"Oh." Rinquanchuan suddenly interrupted me.

“...What’s wrong...” I was a little confused.

".....(stare....)"

She stared at me for a moment, long enough for my cheeks to heat up and for me to wonder if I had said anything wrong.

"What a free man..."

She muttered something under her breath and suddenly turned her head to the other side.

The car to pick her up has arrived.

"Uh...see you tomorrow then."

I noticed the car horns.

"..."

She didn't say anything, just looked at me and walked towards the car.

What...at least say goodbye or something...

...........................

"What a free man..."

What does this sentence mean...

“Ahh…I can’t stand it…”

Each one of them is asking me to guess what they are thinking... How can I possibly know? It's really asking too much..

They say I'm a free man... How can I be a free man? Every day I'm controlled by an institution called a school. Freedom...

It seems that people cannot understand each other and can only rely on their own wishful thinking.

But you will always guess wrong this way, and you can't easily verify whether your answer is correct.

Even if your answer is close to correct, there will always be errors, and this error will increase faster or slower with repeated guesses.

In short, it is impossible and unacceptable to speculate on other people's inner thoughts.

"Ah... This is really difficult..."

I scratched the back of my head, feeling like I was still a mess inside.

If you think about it carefully, there always seems to be a conflict between the opinions of parents and their children, and parents tend to prefer their children to obey them.

The reason is simple. Since children are born and raised by their parents, it is natural for them to listen to their parents.

However, should this be called "wishful thinking"?

As a person, you should have the right to make your own choices.

However, children are often deprived of this right when something happens.

Just because they are children, they immediately lose their qualifications as complete human beings when facing their parents.

When parents face their children, they are often not as polite as they are to people around them. They also rarely consider, or even do not consider, their children's opinions.

Moreover, you always wishfully think that you are right.

It feels so unreasonable...

"Is that so..."

I said it unconsciously.

I now have some idea as to why Rinsenkawa reacted like that and called me a "free man".

If I'm just guessing...

Maybe it’s because my parents didn’t care about me that much.

Compared to Rinquanchuan, who was disciplined by strong parents, I really seemed like a free man.

If you look at Aya-san from Rinsenkawa's perspective, you will unconsciously connect your own experiences with Aya-san.

But in the end, this was just her guess.

If you want to know the real answer...that is, what Lingcan thinks, you have to ask her herself...

"......"

I stopped.

It was another rush hour after work.

There were more and more pedestrians coming and going, including many parents with children.

With sad and slightly angry expressions on their faces, they said things like "Stop making trouble" and "Be obedient" to the crying children.

Young children always like to make unreasonable requests, mostly for their own satisfaction, such as asking for a lot of toys or snacks.

We have already grown out of our childish appearance and body, but have our thoughts really gotten out of the childish realm?

Or... is it just unreasonable behavior to defend one's rights?

This kind of thing... is simply incomprehensible.