I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

But...what should I write?

When I picked up the pen, I found that my mind was blank and I had no inspiration at all.

"Well... maybe it's because I'm too tired..."

I muttered to myself and opened an icon on the computer desktop.

Listening to the uplifting music, I feel full of energy...

Oh, is this the power of music? Now that you are full of energy, let’s start!

"Heading to...Gibraltar testing station."

Chapter 9: Inspiration

"Isn't that too much?"

Even though these were harsh words, they sounded like coquettish words coming from Xiaoye's mouth.

"Ah... just relaxing once in a while..."

I waved my hand, but my eyes remained on the screen.

"Didn't we agree to update it as soon as the cultural exhibition was over? It's been several days now. If I hadn't come to check it out, I wouldn't have known you were playing games here."

Xiaoye said this and hit me twice on the back with very little force.

Come on... I can't concentrate on playing the game... This is a decisive game.

"Is it almost over?"

She leaned over from behind me.

"Ah... maybe."

Because this game has a very mysterious "overtime" rule, I don't know how long it will be delayed.

"Will you please write it right away after you finish this game?"

She seemed to have forgiven me and sighed helplessly.

"Ah... this is a bit difficult..."

After all, I don’t have much inspiration... This kind of thing can’t be forced.

"why?"

She asked me in a puzzled tone.

I wanted to answer Xiaoye, but I suddenly heard a voice saying, "Liujinwakaiyakulie!" So without thinking, I opened the voice channel and shouted:

"Because...Aaaaaah, Genji's using his ultimate! Run! 76, don't hit him! He can bounce back with his E!"

Then I felt a hard hit on the back of my head.

....Am I going too far?

...........................

"I was wrong. I apologize. I shouldn't have ignored you while playing games."

I apologized to Xiaoye in a tiger-falling manner.

"This is not the point..." Xiaoye looked at me and frowned.

Sigh... this look... is my current action actually super lame?

"There's no need to apologize to me. The most important thing is to update your novel as soon as possible..."

As she spoke, she looked at me again, with a hint of dissatisfaction in her eyes.

"I want to, too...but I've run into some problems..."

"Huh?" She seemed surprised. "What's the problem? Are you feeling unwell?"

Ah... You are so concerned that I really don't know whether I should answer this half-baked reason... Well, after thinking about it, I decided to answer it.

"It's not a big deal, I just don't have any inspiration..."

I explained to Xiaoye with some embarrassment.

"Uh... this can't even be called a reason, right?"

"No... Inspiration is very important for an author." I said and began to guide Xiaoye, "Think carefully, have your colleagues ever encountered an author who delayed updating?"

This question seemed to successfully divert Xiaoye's attention, so she recalled it seriously.

"Come to think of it, it seems many colleagues have complained about the author delaying updates...the quality being compromised..."

"That's right." I nodded and sat up straight. "As an editor, do you know why the author exhibits these symptoms?"

“…I don’t know…”

She thought carefully for a while, shook her head gently, then smiled at me, seeming a little embarrassed.

"As an editor, I don't understand the author... I'm a little embarrassed."

Ohhhh...this reaction is super cute.

"Hehe... ahem, it's nothing. This is just reality..." I calmed down. "Editors are just there to oversee the authors' regular updates. However, authors have limited inspiration. When they don't have many manuscripts saved and their minds are lacking inspiration, but they need to write, they'll delay updates and the quality will decline."

"Oh, I see... Now that you mention it, inspiration is indeed very important..."

It seems that Xiaoye is thinking seriously.

"Yeah, that's why I have to be responsible for my readers. It's better not to force me to write when I have no inspiration."

"Oh... I see. So, how do you find inspiration?"

She suddenly asked me.

"Ah... well, I usually find inspiration from books or movies..."

I answered this and glanced at the comic book on the bed.

"Um... can you find some inspiration now? After all, the pressure over there is quite urgent. And why can't you write more drafts..."

It’s okay to look for inspiration, and I think I should be able to find it, but as for saving drafts...the biggest reason is actually that I’m too lazy to write.

"Then...then let's look for it..."

As I said this, I placed the mouse on the [Start] button.

"Wait... can I find inspiration by playing games?"

Such a murderous tone...

So I quickly put the mouse on [Return to Desktop].

"That's right... What are you going to watch for inspiration?"

"Uh..."

Why is Xiaoye a little scary at this moment... Is she the kind of person who is particularly serious about her work?

"Well...I'd better go to the movies..."

I can't just hold the book and read it, right? I'm not stupid.

"Remember to read novels with similar themes to yours, otherwise it won't be of much help, right?"

She reminded me again.

"No...that's not the case. I think a wide range of topics are helpful to me, not just the same subject."

I explained to Xiaoye feeling a little guilty...it was all nonsense.

"Is that so? Well... whatever, if it helps you..."

Phew...that's great. I was really scared by Xiaoye for no reason just now.

"So..." I thought about the movie I wanted to watch... I had no idea...

At this moment, I suddenly glanced at an icon on the desktop.

I know what to watch...

"It's noon..."

..............................

When the heroic protagonist quickly drew his gun and killed the final boss and rode away on horseback, accompanied by the brisk music of classic American westerns, his back in front of the camera looked even more handsome.

At the same time, I glanced at Xiaoye next to me.

As expected...I was fascinated by it.

"The male lead is so handsome..."

Sure enough, appearance is the first priority?

"Of course, otherwise how can I be the protagonist?"

"Drawing your gun quickly is pretty cool too! You can defeat the enemy in an instant."

....It's just a success after artistic processing...

But I didn't dare say this.

“Will there be a second part of this movie?”

When Xiaoye asked me this question, his eyes seemed to be shining and his expression was very excited.

Is your focus wrong?

"Ah... there's a second part... well, that doesn't really count..."

It's just the same actor, different role...but it doesn't matter, I can't remember the name anyway.

"Then let's take a look."

Xiaoye seemed a little impatient.

"Uh..." I searched for the second part helplessly.

...................

When the music sounded again, the two protagonists who had worked together parted ways, and their graceful departure figures were a unique scene in film history.

"Wow, there are two main characters this time... I still like the younger one, but the other one is avenging his sister... I'm really touched..."

So... you're already addicted to it... I remember you came here to urge me to write a novel, right?

“Is there a third part?”

She asked me expectantly.

Well... I can't let Xiaoye down...

“There are three parts in this series…”

I answered, searching for the movie title.

....................

When the classic music sounded, the protagonist left again with a dashing back, leaving only the rogue character cursing at him, and another classic movie ended.

And it seems like it's getting dark...

"The protagonist of this movie seems to have become a bit of a villain, but not too bad... Anyway, he's pretty cool. Hmm... I really like the ending, when the guy keeps running around in the cemetery looking for the buried gold. That shot and the background music are really great..."

Ah...I'm beginning to wonder whether you are an editor or a film critic.

"Okay, I've finished watching all three...and it's getting dark..."

Xiaoye muttered to himself and began to stand up.

"It's time for me to go."

"Oh? Aren't you staying for dinner?" I asked.

"No, I have other things to do."

...So you still have time to watch movies?

"Okay then, I'll take you there."

This time Xiaoye didn't say anything and tacitly agreed to my request to send her off.