Girls und War

She checked the time and saw that it was already late.

Half a day passed by unknowingly.

Xia Shu smiled helplessly and walked towards his class.

Looking down at the snacks in the paper bag, she thought about which ones to give to the other little girls and which ones to eat herself.

Just as he was thinking about it, Xia Shu vaguely saw a figure in the shade behind the building.

Somewhat familiar.

She leaned against the wall, her hands behind her back, and drew circles on the ground with her toes.

But his face was hidden in the shadows and could not be seen at all.

That carefully braided hair and training suit with unique lace, who else could it be but Mi Yu?

Xia Shu walked over with a smile on his face.

"Mi Yu, why are you here alone?" She asked Mi Yu as she approached.

When Miyu heard Xia Shu's voice, she suddenly became flustered.

She hurriedly rubbed the ground in front of her with her feet and wiped her face with her hands.

Xia Shu walked over to Mi Yu with some confusion.

She raised her face and gave Xia Shu a smile.

"What's wrong with you?" Xia Shu asked.

"Ah? Nothing happened?" Mi Yu looked innocent.

But those red eyes were too obvious.

"Are you crying?" Xia Shu showed a concerned expression.

"No." Miyu smiled and waved her hands, saying, "There's sand in my eyes."

"You must have cried." Xia Shu insisted.

Even though she was slow-witted, she could clearly feel that something was wrong with Mi Yu.

"Have you said everything?" Mi Yu turned around and wanted to leave.

Natsuki grabbed her hand.

"What's wrong with you, Miyu?" Xia Shu's tone gradually became gentle, "If you have anything, you can tell me, I will help you."

Mi Yu lowered her head and said nothing.

"Why are you hiding in the corner and crying secretly?" Xia Shu continued.

"Don't bother me." Mi Yu's voice was as low as a mosquito's.

"I saw it, how could I just ignore it?"

Mi Yu turned her head away, looking even more puzzled.

Xia Shu's voice also became softer.

She said softly, "Don't keep painful things in your heart. It will only make you feel worse. Even if it's just a talk, it will always make you feel better."

"……What……"

"Hmm?" Xia Shu didn't hear clearly what she said.

"What do you know?"

Miyu suddenly yelled loudly, startling Xia Shu.

At that time, she also saw Mi Yu's expression.

Miyu raised her head and looked at Xia Shu.

His face was full of tears.

Her voice was so loud that many girls in the distance heard it, but they didn't know what was going on.

Xia Shu had a bewildered expression, not knowing why she suddenly attacked him.

"Miyu...you..."

"You keep asking, asking, and asking! How do you want me to answer? Is that what you want to hear? Okay! I'll tell you! I don't want to be like this anymore! I'm in pain!" Miyu looked at Xia Shu and roared out what was in his heart.

"You're so gentle and so nice to everyone—I'm so jealous! I just don't want you to be like this. I'm so selfish. I just want you to be nice only to me!

"Why are you so nice? Can't you just stop caring about me and stop visiting me?

"I just can't accept the fact that you're nice to other people too! You're the only thing left in my heart! Every time I see everyone talking to you, I get angry—"

"Please leave me! Can you please stop smiling at me? I'm afraid I'm really going crazy! I'm going crazy!

"You're so kind! Just do good things from the beginning and don't come around me!

"Why are you so selfish! Letting others fall in love with you, and then pretending not to understand anything—

“Very cunning!

"In the end, isn't it just my wishful thinking?

"Why! Why did it have to be like this? Did I do something wrong?"

Her painful expression made Xia Shu unable to look directly at her.

Xia Shu unconsciously loosened his grip.

"Too cunning..."

Mi Yu bit her lip and sat down leaning against the wall.

"Sorry……"

Natsuki didn't know why she apologized, but she just felt that she had to apologize.

Maybe I vaguely sensed the other person's feelings.

But there was no response and nothing was said.

Maybe she hadn't thought about these things, or maybe...

She didn't know how to face it.

And Mi Yu always raises hope again and again, but shatters his own hope again and again.

Then finally, she couldn't stand it anymore.

she exploded.

94. About Silence

"Sorry……"

Xia Shu apologized to Mi Yu.

So where did her apology come from?

Is it because of my own slowness?

Is it because of my own hindsight?

Or is it because I clearly guessed it but haven't given a response yet?

But what Miyu wanted to hear was not "I'm sorry."

"What do you have to feel sorry for..." Miyu looked at Xia Shu.

Those eyes were filled with sadness, helplessness, pain, and deep-seated attachment.

"You didn't do anything wrong. You just behaved well and behaved gently, and never caused trouble to others. That's why you are Xia Shu. That's why you are liked by everyone." Mi Yu's voice was soft and gentle.

"I'm the one who should say sorry. I was the one who selfishly wanted you, and I asked for too much. I was the one who was afraid of you leaving, but also begged for your gaze. I was wrong! Why are you apologizing? Are you going to strangle me to death with your tenderness?"

Natsuki just shook his head.

She didn't know what to say at this time.

She has always been a fool when it comes to love.

He is an idiot who is not much worse than Sheng.

"Can't you just let me go away? You're saying mean things to me. You're also telling me to give up on this idea." Mi Yu murmured, "I tried... I really tried to stay away from you. But you stared at me again and pulled me to your side -

"Why? Xia Shu! Why are you the only one who is nice to others?!

"I'm not that generous! I just like to hold on to what I want! I just can't share my hobbies with others! I'm just so selfish! So insidious! So disgusting!

"But why are you so generous, Xia Shu? How can you be so kind to others without caring about anything?

"You know what? I can't sleep every night. I'm afraid you know who I am.

"I'm afraid that we'll become strangers in the future, and I'm also afraid that all my feelings for you have been a one-sided illusion!

"In that case, why don't you just ignore me?

"In that case, don't let me meet you in the first place!"

Miyu shouted with all her might.

Some girls gradually appeared around and looked at the two of them with surprised and confused expressions.

Mi Yu bit her lip, turned around and ran out.

She wiped the tears from her face and ran stubbornly, not knowing where she was running to.

Xia Shu stood there in a daze for a long time.

It took a while before he came to his senses and looked around.

"Mi Yu?" She looked around, but there were girls from other classes around her and she didn't see Mi Yu.

A girl kindly pointed in a direction, reminding her that Miyu was running in that direction.

She quickly chased after him.

"What's going on?" a girl asked in a low voice.

"Confession failed?"

"do not know."

"Aren't they in the same class?"

"Well...Brother Shu, it's always like this."

"I don't dare to confess now."

"Yeah yeah……"

The girls chattered and gossiped about Natsuki.

A short-haired girl with an expressionless face stood beside him, lowered her head, and turned away.

Xia Shu chased in the direction where Mi Yu ran, but did not see anyone.

Mi Yu ran forward aimlessly, not knowing where she was going.

Those words, spoken out, hurt others and yourself.

She regretted it the moment she said it.

But once words are spoken, they are like spilled water. How can they be taken back?

The pain follows me everywhere, and a certain heart-wrenching feeling becomes more and more profound.

She is afraid.

She was afraid that from now on, Xia Shu would never treat her the same way as before.

She was afraid that she would lose even the chance to be friends.

Sometimes, what Miyu wants is not Xia Shu’s love.

Maybe what she wants is comfort, a feeling of peace of mind.