Rebirth 1983: Back to the day when his wife and daughter died

"In 1978, I was eighteen years old and a second-rate boy. I usually idled around in the village.

Bai Qinghan is an educated youth who went to the countryside. He is not only highly educated, but also very beautiful. From the first moment I saw him, I was attracted to him."

"We got married in 1979. In those days innocence was very important.

Even if I secretly kissed you, I might be rewarded with a peanut, not to mention that I did something excessive.

But even though I’m a bastard, I’m not bad looking either. In addition, I have a sister who knows Bai Qinghan.

My sister also hoped that I would change after getting married, so with her help, Bai Qinghan finally chose to marry me."

"In 1980, all the educated youth here began to return to the city, but Bai Qinghan did not choose to go back.

Of course it was not because of me, because she was pregnant and our daughter Tangtang was born in the same year."

"In 1981, my personality did not change because of my marriage.

He is still an uneducated and unskilled second-rate man who spends all day away from home and does not earn any work points.

My wife and children rely entirely on some property left at home and support from my sister to barely have enough to eat.

Immediately afterwards, the family was allocated a field. But I didn’t farm at all. For the sake of my children, it naturally fell on Bai Qinghan.

"In 1982, the child was already two years old. At that time, sons were favored over daughters.

Because she is a girl, I don’t like it even more. Because I don’t work and my family doesn’t have much money.

For money, sometimes I, I often beat their mother and daughter, I am worse than a beast,"

"In 1983, this situation lasted for three years, and Bai Qinghan finally couldn't stand it anymore.

Looking at Tangtang, who had been malnourished, making her last meal,

The rice with rat poison is just pickles, not even normal vegetables.

Originally she wanted to drag me to death together,

But my daughter was so hungry at that time that she couldn't bear even coarse rice porridge.

In the end, before we started eating, our daughter died tragically in front of us.

Then Bai Qinghan gave me a sharp look,

Without hesitation, he ate rice laced with rat poison and died in front of me.

I was so stupid at the time that I didn’t even have the courage to stop him.

That look,

My daughter died in front of me, I will never forget it.

But I was afraid at that time, and I ran away in fear."

“In 1990, I was one of the first workers to start from scratch.

I am worth more than 100,000 yuan. At that time, 100,000 yuan was equivalent to several million today.

But every day before going to bed, it’s the scene before my wife and daughter died.”

“In 2005, my net worth increased hundreds of times, but I still lived in pain every day. It seemed that only working hard could numb myself.

"In 2020, I am fifty-nine years old, and now I am one of the top people in Yan City, but as soon as I close my eyes~"

"In 2022, now I am sixty-one years old. I still dare not go back. I am afraid and regret it."

"In this world, good people don't live long, and bad people cause trouble for thousands of years."

I should have eaten that bowl of rice in the first place, and I wouldn't have been in such pain. Perhaps, this was God's punishment for me."

Looking back on life, all the past,

Xu Yang looked at the sleeping pills on the table, blamed himself and suffered, and finally chose to commit suicide.

…

"Mom, Tangtang is hungry and wants to eat."

"Mom, Dad, why did you fall asleep on the table? Mom, wait for Tangtang,

When you grow up, you must protect your mother and don't let your father bully your mother again."

In Xu Yang’s ear,

There was a burst of little girl's milk sounds, as if it had been more than forty years ago.

It feels both familiar and strange.

Xu Yang felt a little stuffy in his head and was confused by the lake.

Didn't he commit suicide? Did he die?

Has he been rescued again?

Damn it, as a rich man, is it so difficult to die secretly?

The sounds in my ears became clearer and clearer. The little girl’s voice was very nice.

It's soft and glutinous, but it has an obvious feeling of weakness from hunger.

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault. Mom will cook for Tangtang."

With tears in Bai Qinghan's eyes, he rummaged around in his pocket and finally made up his mind.

"Don't hate Mom~" Her eyes were red, she knelt down and held Tangtang in her arms with her thin and slender hands.

"Mom, don't cry. Tangtang is not hungry anymore. Mom, don't cry~"

"Silly girl, okay, mommy won't cry anymore." Bai Qinghan turned her head and secretly wiped away her tears.

Although Tangtang is only three years old, she is so sensible that Bai Qinghan feels guilty.

although

My daughter is very cute and sensible, but her thin body obviously lets her know that

Can't live,

Instead of starving to death~

Not as good as~

If it were not hopeless, who would choose to die?

Even if Xu Yang gives a little hope...

Bai Qinghan looked fiercely at Xu Yang, who was lying on the table and sleeping happily.

…

At this time, Xu Yang, who had been lying on the table and had been lost in the lake for a long time, slowly opened his eyes.

His head was still aching.

But the scenery in front of him shocked his soul

This scene is so familiar, familiar people, familiar scenes,

As if engraved deep in his soul

Looking back?

It seems that I dreamed about their mother and daughter again.

"Bai Qinghan, I'm sorry..."

"Mom, Dad, wake up~"

"..."

This is not a dream...

Xu Yang suddenly woke up and looked at the dilapidated adobe house and the dilapidated wooden table with a broken leg in front of him.

He quickly glanced at his body. He saw a pair of black cloth shoes, without even a pair of socks on his feet, and then a set of linen clothes.

This...isn't this when I was young?

There are also familiar people in front of me,

I, this... am reborn,

God has eyes, I was reborn,

Bai Qinghan and his daughter Tangtang are like nightmares that have troubled him all his life.

It's his lifelong guilt. Now they are all alive, all alive,

He excitedly walked towards Bai Qinghan and Tangtang,

I want to hold my wife and daughter in my arms and never be separated again in this life.

It’s just that I haven’t taken two steps yet,

A pair of small hands stopped in front of Xu Yang, Tangtang cried and said:

"Dad, don't hit mom. It's all because I cried too much and woke dad up~"

In Xu Yang's heart, the awl pierced him, what a bastard he was,

Just waking up makes such a young daughter so afraid of her,

"Silly girl, why would dad hit mom~" Xu Yang stepped forward again, trying to explain.

I saw Bai Qinghan protecting Tangtang behind him like a calf,

He said with some fear and trembling: "Xu Yang, what do you want to do? If you dare to hit Tangtang, I will fight with you~"

Xu Yang's steps stopped where they were,

others realize,

In Bai Qinghan's eyes, he is that heinous bastard,

If we don't agree with each other, I'll beat not only my wife, but my daughter as well."

Xu Yang stopped quickly

want to explain

However, when the words came to my mouth, I was a little speechless and I didn’t know how to speak.

I have done it before,

Even a beast would have to slap his two big pussy pockets after seeing it.

How can she listen if I explain it now~

Xu Yang didn't know what to do and looked at Tangtang who was still a little scared.

His eyes were red, and he finally said tremblingly:

"Tangtang, let daddy give you a hug."

At this moment, Xu Yang really wanted to hug his daughter, who was his closest relative.

However,

Bai Qinghan looked at Xu Yang with a vigilant and shocked look,