Ark, they don't revolve around you

Zhuang Ning knew that person was himself, his past self, and everything was just as he remembered.

Ma Ling was stunned, but he didn't mind the insults from "Zhuang Ning" just now. Instead, he burst into laughter.

"Zhuang Ning" was not good at horse riding and looked very embarrassed: "Don't laugh, big sister, come here, we are being hunted!"

"Doctor, you looked great just now."

"You're not that good at fighting." He was so shaken that he doubted his life. He took the reins of the horse with one hand, and the horse became docile, showing that he was an excellent animal tamer.

There was a lone smoke in the desert, and two people were running in the desert until night fell.

Zhuang Ning, like a wandering ghost, watched this scene with an expressionless face.

He still couldn't interfere and all he could do was just watch.

Scenes flashed by.

There are two people lying on the snow with their backs to each other. Because the whole world is full of malice, they are probably the only ones who can huddle together for warmth.

"Doctor, it's really good for you to be here."

I don't know what he was thinking, but Ling smiled and said, "Even if you are fake, I am happy."

There is a scene where the two of them are looking at the stars in the dark.

"When we reach the railings of Shangshu, everything is over?"

"Yes, it will be fine once we get to Shangshu."

There were two people sitting on a boat in the south of the Yangtze River, the waves were sparkling, and he was at a loss as to what to think.

Zhuang Ning looked for a long time before he realized that the journey between him and Ling was so long?

But that's why he feels disgusted.

After walking through one corner of memory after another, at a certain moment, Zhuang Ning came to a peach forest.

The peach blossoms are in full bloom and the fallen petals are colorful.

He slowly walked through the peach forest, out of the cave, and finally saw the light.

Finally, it was no longer that infuriating memory, and he saw Ling’s true face.

The girl was holding a wine cup, drinking alone here. It was already dark. She looked up at the night sky, and saw only a solitary moon hanging high in the sky, with full moonlight.

Zhuang Ning sat down beside her.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, Doctor." Ling smiled, "Would you like a drink?"

"No need."

"The reason why you saw those memory fragments was because of me." Ling explained to him.

"Ah."

"Wouldn't you say a little more?" Ling sighed dully, "I'll be leaving soon."

"Are you going to disappear too? Are you being as unreasonable as Nian?"

"This is not unreasonable." Ling's expression showed no sadness or joy, "This is fate."

Zhuang Ning was as silent as a piece of wood, but he could actually see something from the girl's eyes.

If I had forgiven her as expected, perhaps she wouldn't be so depressed.

After all, this world shows you your past. As long as you can endure it and forgive her, you should be able to bring Ling back, right?

But Zhuang Ning remained silent for a long time.

It was so long that the hot wine had cooled down before he met Ling's gaze, as if he had been accumulating energy for a long time.

He spoke calmly, without any ups and downs, like the waves on the water: "I forgive you... Even if I said so, you probably wouldn't believe it, Ling."

"You are too smart. No one can fool you. At least I certainly can't."

The past he had just seen passed before his eyes, and his heart was touched, like hitting the clear surface of a lake with a stone, causing ripples in his mind.

His thoughts weren’t that complicated before. In fact, he just wanted a family.

Most people refused. If not, Zhuang Ning probably wouldn't have been so discouraged, right?

But that was not unacceptable. At least now Zhuang Ning could say that he didn't mind.

Only the order is different.

Even if you can have no resentment towards others, you can let go of ignoring them and pretend to please them!

But when I think about the person in front of me who is always so carefree, and thinks that maybe once you forgive her, she will really feel relieved.

Even Zhuang Ning didn't want to accept it.

——Yes, from a certain moment on, he began to hate Ling.

It's like a child hating another child. Even though he knows that he is taking his anger out on another child and that this resentment should never be directed at him, he still says:

"I don't forgive you."

Unlike the sentence "I will remember it" to Nian, this was a very straightforward confession, like a knife.

Ling's expression was slightly dull.

She finally couldn't maintain the ease of drinking alone under the moon, and a bitter, unimaginable smile appeared on her face.

"How heartless."

"Yeah, I think so too." Zhuang Ning looked down at her, "I originally wanted to say that I forgive you, but when the words came to my lips, I couldn't say them."

He looked out at this paradise, at peace with the world: "So just tell the truth, Ling."

"No matter what I do, you won't choose to forgive me?"

"Yes." Zhuang Ning's tone was particularly sincere.

"Sure enough, you can't forgive betrayal." Ling sighed.

"It has nothing to do with betrayal. This is not the first time I have been betrayed." Zhuang Ning was silent for a long time and laughed softly.

This was the first time he laughed since entering this world, as if he was laughing at Ling, or as if he was mocking his past self.

"I just simply think...why should I forgive?"

"If you replay our experiences, you will know how much I hate myself back then."

"I hate that part of myself, I hate being weak, but I can't get rid of it."

"People always need to have something to rely on, and I chose to believe in you..." Zhuang Ning rarely expressed his true feelings.

The atmosphere is so beautiful, the cold and lonely night, the bright full moon, and the beautiful fairies, it's like a fantasy.

He brought out the part of himself that was hidden.

He is neither Zhuang Ning, who is like an evil spirit who does everything he can, nor Zhuang Ning, who is like a saint who only desires the unification of Terra, integrates existing resources, and targets all possible enemies.

It has nothing to do with these grand or evil thoughts, there is only one idea that is so ordinary that it cannot be more ordinary.

Come back home.

He looked at Ling and Ling looked at him.

As if waking up from a dream, a few tears were left.

At the same time, the whole world was in turmoil.

"You don't want to lie to me, even if I can just treat this as a dream?"

"But since it's a dream, you'll wake up eventually, Ling." Zhuang Ning shook his head.

He turned around, and suddenly, a pair of arms embraced him.

The hands were a little cold, and Ling seemed to wake up.

"Well, I still can't disappear." She suppressed her tears, "My Tao heart has been disturbed, I can't let you go no matter what."

Zhuang Ning found that she seemed to want to hear this answer more, because at this moment, Ling agreed to leave this world with him.

Sui is indeed a cunning person. If Zhuang Ning really expresses his understanding, Ling will probably disappear because of the temporary satisfaction.

On the contrary, it was this rejection... maybe even Sui didn't expect that Zhuang Ning would be so determined.

The ground beneath my feet was shaking continuously, and the Peach Blossom Land collapsed. There has never been an ideal hometown that can be isolated from the rest of the world in this world.

……

……

Zhuang Ning almost forgot how much time had passed.

But when he came to his senses, he had already sent away one fragment after another.

Sui did not interfere again, but Zhuang Ning could feel his gaze. After Zhuang Ning sent away half of the fragments, the giant beast lay down and no longer made any mocking remarks or obstructions.

Therefore, the subsequent progress was so smooth that it is not even worth mentioning.

I just don’t know if it’s because of Zhuang Ning’s subconscious mind that he always sees some weird things.

Not only is there The Three Kingdoms and Journey to the West, there is even Jin Ping Mei.

After all, it was harmless, so Zhuang Ning didn't mind it too much.

Under the night sky, Zhongyue exhaled: "Really? Have they all returned?"

"Now only your second brother and Jie are left."

"Thank you."

"This is just a necessary constraint," Zhuang Ning said, no longer pretending to be a modest gentleman.

"But who has a flawless heart? In the end, we can only see what the other person does."

Zhongyue didn't mind and waved his hand: "See you in real life, Doctor."

Zhuang Ning exhaled his last breath, knowing that he should go find the person he least wanted to see in a sense.

In the final light, he saw a bamboo forest.

There was a man in black clothes under the bamboo leaves, setting up a chessboard and holding a black piece. He smiled at Zhuang Ning when he saw him.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time."