After rebirth, I found out that I have a childhood sweetheart

"Youxi has changed a lot. She used to be very quiet. She was not talkative even in front of me and Ah Fang, not to mention when she was in a bad mood."

"No, that was only in front of you and Ah Fang."

Lin Youxi smiled and said, "When Ah Fang and I are alone together, we still talk a lot."

Xia Yuan looked like she was crying, "Youxi, you have been together with Ah Fang for so long without telling me, and I only found out about these things later..."

"Alright, alright! Stop changing the subject." Mei Fang was a little impatient. "Tell me what you two were arguing about. I like to hear about this kind of topic the most."

"Afang, go to hell!"

Amid the jubilation and playfulness of the group, Xia Yuan and Lin Youxi quietly told Mei Fang about the secret that had been kept secret three years ago.

【three years ago】

During that time, Xia Yuan had a very bad physics test, and Lin Youxi was sitting in front of her in that test.

When handing in the paper, Lin Youxi discovered that Xia Yuan had not noticed that there were two physics questions on the other side. In order to make her less embarrassed, Lin Youxi crossed out the answers to her last two questions and comforted Xia Yuan by telling her that those two questions were difficult.

Xia Yuan had relaxed a little with Lin Youxi's comfort, but when she asked Mei Fang for super Afang energy to seek comfort at night, she accidentally learned from Mei Fang that he and Lin Youxi had done the same last two physics questions the day before. She immediately realized that Lin Youxi must have deliberately not written the correct answers to give her a break.

So the next day when the three of them rode their bicycles to school together, they parked the bikes and Xia Yuan stopped Mei Fang and signaled him to go first.

"Afang, can you please go to the classroom first? Youxi and I have something to talk about."

"Um, it's okay... You can't say anything in front of me?"

"Of course it's a girl's secret, go away."

Xia Yuan pushed Mei Fang forward. Mei Fang looked at Lin Youxi, then shook her head to remind her not to mention persuading Xia Yuan to leave the science experiment class.

Previously, Mei Fang and Lin Youxi had a small quarrel over whether Xia Yuan should continue to attend the science experimental class, but they soon reconciled. This was a small episode.

The two looked at each other tacitly, and Lin Youxi nodded in agreement.

After waiting for Mei Fang to walk away, Xia Yuan approached Lin Youxi and asked:

"Youxi... Let me ask you, how many points do you think you could have gotten in yesterday's physics test?"

Lin Youxi seemed a little confused. "The monthly exam is over, so why are you still bringing this up?"

"No...I can't go, Youxi, really."

Xia Yuan responded to Lin Youxi's words with a smile, "I know I'm not good at physics, so I work very hard. I want to work very hard. I can allow you to dislike me, but——"

The look she gave Lin Youxi gradually changed from a smile to seriousness and solemnity.

"I really don't need...I don't need you to pity me like this."

"I don't--"

Lin Youxi shook her head. At this moment, she was not as mature and steady as she would be three years later. Her voice was so soft that it was directly covered by Xia Yuan's voice.

"Is it so fun to play with my mood by looking down on me?"

"I trusted you so much... I was so foolish as to think that you could make mistakes sometimes."

As Xia Yuan was talking, her eyes started to turn red:

"But now I finally understand that you and I are completely different... A girl like me simply cannot stand with you and Ah Fang."

Although Lin Youxi still listened to Xia Yuan almost everything at this time, she couldn't keep calm and ignore Xiao Qingmei's words.

She pursed her lips and then spoke:

"Yuanyuan, you just have a temporary setback in your studies... From childhood to adulthood, you have been better than me in every way, so why are you saying such self-deprecating words?"

"This is not a temporary failure. After entering junior high school, the three of us knew it in our hearts. It's just that you and Ah Fang understand me and are unwilling to say it out loud."

Xia Yuan muttered, trembling as he spoke word by word:

"I also know what you wanted to tell me before the exam yesterday. You wanted me to give up studying physics and give up taking the science experimental class, right?"

"I……"

That's what she was planning to say to Xia Yuan at that time, but she held back in the end.

After the exam, she saw Yuanyuan suffering so much and talked about it with Mei Fang, hoping that Mei Fang would go with her to persuade Xia Yuan not to stick to science.

However, the mature Mei Fang could understand Xia Yuan's feelings better than Lin Youxi. He knew that Xia Yuan didn't want to be left behind, and he also knew the feelings that Xia Yuan had for him.

However, apart from Mei Fang, Xia Yuan and Lin Youxi only had vague feelings of love at that time. Neither of the two girls would point out their feelings for each other. They were not as shameless as Mei Fang who would directly confirm that she liked him, so there was some misunderstanding between them.

Seeing that Lin Youxi's thoughts were revealed by Xia Yuan, Xia Yuan continued to express his emotions.

"But I can tell you very clearly - I don't want to give up physics, not because I like it so much or how much I love learning, but because I don't want to lose to you."

Lin Youxi looked up at Xia Yuan in surprise, and continued to listen to Xia Yuan express his feelings:

"I especially don't want to...lose to you in front of Ah Fang."

"Because I like Ah Fang. I want to be with him forever."

Xia Yuan stared at Lin Youxi quietly, "And... I know you like him too, right?"

"I……"

Lin Youxi is not good at expressing his true thoughts in front of other people, not even in front of his former best friend Xia Yuan - especially on the topic of Mei Fang.

Xia Yuan looked at Lin Youxi who was hesitant and unable to express his feelings, and suddenly wanted to take advantage of this momentum to continue to oppress Lin Youxi.

"Then let me ask you another way. Between Ah Fang and me, which one do you value more?"

"You are my best friends, why do you have to distinguish between the important and the unimportant——"

"Are you asking even though you already know the answer? Because you can only have one girlfriend!"

Xia Yuan got angry at Lin Youxi, which was rare. "If you insist on me leaving the science lab class, then just tell me in person that you don't like Ah Fang! Can you do it?"

Lin Youxi looked at Xia Yuan's red eyes. She looked like a wet little rabbit.

Xia Yuan looked at Lin Youxi's lonely and sad expression. She was like a homeless stray cat.

They stared at each other like this for a few seconds before Xia Yuan calmed down and spoke silently:

And the hurtful words she said afterwards made her feel guilty until now.

"Youxi... We have known each other for so long, from childhood to adulthood, I will give you everything I have, and I will share everything with you."

"Even my friend Fang was someone I shared with you when we were in kindergarten..."

"I want you to give Ah Fang to me now, can you do it?"

Lin Youxi raised his head and spoke to Xia Yuan word by word.

"I'm sorry...Yuanyuan..."

"I know you've always been good to me."

"You're my best friend too."

"I will give you whatever you want, and I will do it for you."

She clutched the corner of her clothes tightly, resisting Xia Yuan, the childhood sweetheart she had admired and loved the most since she was a child:

"But only Ah Fang... only Ah Fang can't do it."

"Afang is not only your friend, but also your childhood sweetheart."

"He is mine... and also my childhood sweetheart."

Lin Youxi revealed her true feelings under Xia Yuan's almost suffocating pressure, and this heart-to-heart talk also brought her unprecedented growth.

But the price of growth is often painful.

Xia Yuan got an affirmative answer from Lin Youxi.

Although this answer was within her expectations, it was also a sad thing.

The sad thing here is that she may never be able to continue to be friends with Lin Youxi.

"That's why I said... your letting me take the exam was just a charity and a false gesture to me."

Xia Yuan wiped away her tears, then clenched her fists tightly and said to Lin Youxi tremblingly:

"I don't need your charity, nor do I need your hypocrisy."

"Since everyone likes Ah Fang, no one should dwell on our past relationship anymore."

"Anyway, I won't let go."

"I won't expect you to let go, even if..."

"Even if in the end, we can no longer be friends."

"Yuanyuan, don't be like this... Why are you saying that? Didn't we say we would always be friends—"

Lin Youxi, who is aloof in front of others, only shows her fragile and lonely side in front of Xia Yuanmei. She tried to go up and hold Xia Yuan's hand, but was pushed away by Xia Yuan.

She used too much force, and Xia Yuan slapped Lin Youxi's back of the hand hard, making a snapping sound, leaving some red marks on the back of her hand.

Of course, Xia Yuan herself had no intention of using any force. She regretted it after she finished taking the photo and almost reached out to rub it.

But at this time, she couldn't convince herself to go up and apologize. In the end, she just hummed a few times and then walked forward without looking back.

Turning her back, Xia Yuan recalled the little things she had spent with Lin Youxi and Mei Fang in the past. When she thought that their friendship would be broken from now on, she felt indescribably uncomfortable in her heart. A mixture of regret, pain and sadness lingered around her. She walked towards the classroom, sobbing and shedding tears.

……

Mei Fang listened quietly to Xia Yuan and Lin Youxi adding their comments about what happened at that time. Although the two felt only shame and nostalgia when they recalled the past, that was not the tone of Mei Fang's voice at all.

"So you guys had such a fierce quarrel that time! So I was going to lose one of you... or even both of you."

"Why would both be lost?"

Xia Yuan held Mei Fang's arm and said, "Isn't it true that at least one of Youxi and I will win?"

"How is that possible? You two have such a good relationship. Even if you win, as long as you look at me, you will think of the one you abandoned." Mei Fang also frowned and said, "Besides, I am not yours. If you keep fighting over me and only one of you is left, I will silently miss the other one, and then we will end up parting on bad terms. It's still the same."

"This is what everyone likes to talk about, the theory of white moonlight and cinnabar mole."

Lin Youxi leaned on Mei Fang's shoulder as she spoke, "So Yuanyuan, listen to me earlier and don't prioritize us. It would be great if we could just walk together as a threesome like this. We wouldn't have suffered so much in junior high school."

"?"

Xia Yuan and Mei Fang looked at Lin Youxi in surprise. "Youxi, do you mean that you had already decided to have a threesome at that time?"

Lin Youxi smiled and nodded, "I think it's pretty obvious to me, and I think Ah Fang has never been able to determine his feelings, so we should strike while the iron is hot and find a way to make Ah Fang accept the two of us."