People are in Mygo, and I can write their personalities.

"And... even if it's a mistake for my dead mother to stay with me in this way, I accept it... just like you said, I don't feel like I'm rescuing my mother from you right now. I'm only making this choice for myself, and I'd rather keep making this mistake."

“I didn’t say you can’t do that~” Nanami Natsuki smiled. “What’s wrong with doing something wrong? At least you know you’re not doing the right thing. You do it not because you think it’s right, but because you know what tangible benefits you can gain from doing it.”

"Compared to selfishly doing things that others consider immoral and incorrect, I personally think that those who think they are great and righteous and can use correctness to cover up whatever the outcome is are ridiculous."

"Come on, Xiao Xiang, tell me loudly, why do you want to find your mother?"

"..."

"Tell me, there's nothing wrong with doing the wrong thing. Look at me, when have I ever claimed to be righteous?"

"...I...I want a mother who can listen to my complaints and give me advice to stay by my side forever."

"Very good." Nanami Natsuki nodded in satisfaction. "Then why did you ask me to help Xiaomu with her illness?"

"Of course, it's because she's my best..."

"Hmm?" Nanami Natsuki drawled, startling Shoko, who was used to being tortured, causing him to shrink back and immediately swallow back the words he had just spoken.

"I...I did it because I wanted to..."

What do you want?

"I want to put my mind at ease... Waaah..." After saying this, Xiangzi immediately felt ashamed because she knew that Mu had heard her words while sitting silently on the sofa in the distance, holding a doll and lost in thought.

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"See, isn't that enough? You should thank me. I'm the one who made you realize that you're not actually a good person. And Xiao Xiang, look, isn't it easy to admit that the purpose of your actions wasn't so noble?"

"Compared to being bound by so-called correctness—even if that correctness is distorted and disguised by yourself—don't you think that doing what you want to do and achieving the results you wanted to achieve in the first place is more like being an ordinary human being?"

"Human? You mean...doing this makes you more like a normal person?"

"Isn't that right? Speaking of which... Xiao Xiang, are you mistaken about something?" Nanami Natsuki scoffed. Although her words were always full of twisted logic, they left Xiangzi with no way to refute them. "Being swayed by the correctness and legitimacy that you hold in your heart, doing what you think is right but not getting the right result, that's the root cause of why you feel like you're not living like a human being."

“You’re not a saint, so how can you force yourself to believe that everything you do is right? You’re not becoming human, you’re becoming a god.”

"You'll go crazy if you keep going like this, because the initial intention you have in doing something and the result you produce may always be the opposite, and you may not even understand why this difference occurs."

"But if you can realize that everything you do isn't necessarily right, but rather stems from a heartfelt desire to fulfill your inner desires, achieve personal satisfaction, or even vent certain emotions... you'll find that even if you don't accomplish something, you won't be too disappointed or frustrated."

Why?

"Because you know that it's just that you didn't complete the task you were supposed to complete. You just need to make a more comprehensive plan, learn more about other people, and put more effort into this next time."

"Instead of doing something and then feeling self-satisfied, only to have others resent you and you then pretend to be nice by saying things like, 'I was clearly right, I was doing it all for their own good, why doesn't anyone understand me? Why does the world target poor me?'"

"...To be honest, humans are creatures with desires and emotions, and as a human being, you need to admit that you won't always be a good kid. As long as you don't cross the legal line, having some wrong thoughts, some selfish ideas, and some intentional acts of revenge when you're emotionally charged...that's all acceptable."

"I...but I am the eldest daughter of the Toyokawa family, I can't do that..."

"The Toyokawa family? Don't make your sister Yue laugh!" Nanami Natsuki scoffed. "You know what kind of family your Toyokawa family is. Do you think you have to maintain a noble heart just because you're the eldest daughter of the Toyokawa family? Who are you trying to fool?!"

"Even someone as cute, smart, and perfect as me doesn't shy away from showing my evil side, does she?"

"Is...is that so? Natsuki, are you really not lying to me? Doesn't anyone think I'm a terrible person?"

"I think you're a really awful person right now. You've messed up so many people's lives like a troublemaker, yet you're still pretending to be high and mighty. You're even more of a devil than me, Xiao Xiang. At least I'm not doing things to hurt them under the guise of doing what's best for them."

"Waaah...you, you shouldn't say anymore."

Shoko Toyokawa was very conflicted because she truly felt that what she had always upheld was crumbling, and her personality seemed to be changing from what it used to be.

But at the same time, she also felt that she was not so confused anymore, which was a... very strange feeling.

Before that, she had been hesitant about everything she did until her mother appeared and gave her direction.

So that's how it is... Toyokawa Shoko seemed to understand, because before her mother appeared, her firm belief that whatever she did was right had begun to waver.

Although she still couldn't fully admit that her inner beliefs were ignoring the facts, her mother's appearance filled the void in her heart, making her believe in her mother instead of herself.

From beginning to end... she acted with the belief that everything she did was right...

"Now for the last question." Nanami Natsuki didn't know what Shoko was thinking; she was only judging the tone of the conversation by the other's expression. "Shoko, what exactly makes you want to reunite Crychic with Suze and the others? And what makes you want Riki to come back?"

"I...I did it for myself."

At this moment, Toyokawa Shoko realized that she was actually a very selfish person, but because an even more selfish and despicable "role model" was right in front of her, the girl seemed to feel less guilty about her despicable state.

There was even a strong sense of exhilaration: "I need to bring them back to be my friends. I love the feeling of everyone surrounding me, believing in me, and placing their hopes on me. I crave everyone's love... Haha... I'm such a selfish person, Natsuki."

"How come I never realized I was so selfish before? What do you mean by taking care of my father... I was just resentful. Later, I refused to go home and work hard there, just to make my dad feel guilty by putting on a pitiful act."

“I could have just turned around and gone home. I didn’t have any real survival crisis at all… and everyone in Crychic felt the same way. I didn’t actually need to leave them, but I did it anyway because at that time I felt… everything I did was right, and they would understand me.”

"Ha... What a mess! I'm absolutely terrible. If I had handled Chu Hua's situation better, she wouldn't be in this state now... And Mu, I felt that rushing in would cause more problems, and I kept convincing myself otherwise..."

"I just didn't know what to do, but I just ran away... and even thought that was the right thing to do."

"Yes... I just do things in the name of being right. I do everything with the question of whether it is right or wrong in mind. I don't think about what I want to get. I only want to get the results that I think are right and reasonable. I haven't thought about anything else."

"Hehe, that's more like it, Xiao Xiang. Look at you... aren't you perfectly normal like this?"

"..."

A final hint of stubbornness flashed in Toyokawa Shoko's eyes, which then turned into honesty with herself, "Yeah...why didn't it have to be like this from the beginning? I'm not some god who can save everyone."

"If I had been able to admit my incompetence back then and express my desires to them, perhaps things wouldn't have turned out this way."

"I've had enough... I've really had enough of this torturous life. What kind of good kid am I... Waaah... I'm clearly more selfish and arrogant than all of Lixi and the others combined..."

Chapter 111 Toyokawa Shoko: I'm worse than anyone else now! (7000 words)

"Go back, Xiao Xiang, and Xiao Mu, you too."

Without Toyokawa Shoko's knowledge, Nanami Natsuki had already transferred the real Metis into the doll, while the original Mutsu had now returned to her original body.

However, before Xiangzi left, Nanami Natsuki pulled Xiangzi back from her impending breakthrough and whispered, "Here's some extra information for you... actually... your maternal grandfather, like your father, also married into the family, so you actually have a lot of say in your family~"

"……Thanks."

Shoko Toyokawa left with mixed feelings. Of course, at the same time she left, Mutsu and Metis (whom Shoko saw as just a doll mother who had fallen into a deep sleep) also left.

However, none of the three—Xiangzi, Xiaomu, and Metis, who were pretending to be dead—spoke first. After all, after such a complicated situation, no one knew how to deal with their future.

However, as someone whose way of thinking had undergone a dramatic change, Toyokawa Shoko's thoughts were still much clearer than the other two.

"Mu, you want to reform the band, right?"

"Ah."

"Actually, I also want to reform the band." Xiangzi didn't explain why she wanted to do so. She felt that whether the reason was reasonable was no longer important. What mattered was that she wanted to do it and achieve this result. "In that case, Mu, can you help me? After all, I can only rely on you now."

Although what she said was similar to what she had said before, this time Xiangzi realized that... what she was saying was actually a form of moral blackmail.

How many times has she used the same methods to get others to do things for her? She really can't remember... But what's wrong with admitting it now? At least Toyokawa Shoko doesn't think it's so terrible to do some things that aren't so righteous and honorable occasionally.

After all, Nanami Natsuki is there to back everything up. When it comes to being the worst... who can compare to that brat?

"I...I will."

Ruoye Mu hesitated for a moment, then stopped and nodded in a calm tone, turning slightly to look behind him—in the direction of Nanami Natsuki's house.

She didn't understand...

In fact, she heard everything that happened tonight, including Chu Hua's somewhat uncomfortable actions and the conversation between Natsuki and Sho.

But she couldn't understand why Xiang would eventually succumb to such terrifying words. She couldn't quite understand the girl beside her, just as Xiang often couldn't understand her either.

Moreover, Ruoye Mu always felt that Xiangzi beside her had become a different person, as if some kind of shackles binding the other person had been broken.

“I can’t let Lixi keep using my talent. It’s mine, and she shouldn’t go astray. I will help her.”

"..."

"Mu, I'll be reorganizing my previously created but unreleased works over the next few days. Tomorrow, I hope you can come with us to meet up with the others, and we'll discuss how to completely reorganize Crychic."

"...Huh? But... Su Shi already said..."

"She will listen to me."

"...What about Aine-chan?"

"For her, leaving is a better option... no, she has no choice but to leave."

"..."

Things are really different now.

Ruoye Mu looked at Xiangzi beside her with some complicated feelings. She felt that this girl, who had been playing with her since childhood, seemed to be showing a quality she had never seen before—evil.

Although this kind of evil is not a great crime, it simply shows Xiang's intention to exploit Su Shi and his rejection of Ai Yin. But before that, Xiang would never have deliberately shown this in front of her.

Even such a simple change has already made Wakaba Mutsu feel a sense of fear. She now even wants to leave Sho's side, turn around and go back to Natsuki's house to ask Nanami Natsuki what she should do.

"Xiang, what's wrong?"

"I?"

Toyokawa Shoko paused for a moment after hearing Wakaba Mutsu's slightly trembling voice, then shook her head with a wry smile, "It's nothing, Mutsu, I'm just a little too tired."

Xiangzi glanced at the Toyokawa family's luxury car approaching from afar, and his expression changed slightly. "Mu, how about I give you a ride home?"

"……Need not."

"OK then."

Xiangzi knew that Mu seemed to be somewhat resistant to her. While she felt a little lonely, she was also surprisingly relaxed.

After getting into the car and placing her "sleeping" mother aside, Toyokawa Shoko told the driver that they could go, then closed her eyes and sat peacefully in the back seat, lost in thought.

The first thing that came to her mind was the worried and fearful look in Mu's eyes when she looked at her, and the second was the look of longing in Hatsuka's eyes when she looked at Nanami Natsuki.

There's nothing unacceptable about it... As long as you put yourself in a position where you don't need to be right all the time, Xiangzi will find that everyone is just doing what they want to do, nothing more.

She herself was completely contradictory; what she truly wanted to do was the opposite of what she was doing.

—It was all because of her proud self-esteem that bound her and prevented her from doing things that she felt were wrong.

But is what one believes to be right necessarily right? Moreover... what she really wanted was a warm home like before, not to force herself to endure hardship out of a sense of morality, or to try to influence her father with "correctness."

This is too tiring... especially when Xiangzi discovers that the elders who taught her these family etiquette and moral values ​​were actually a group of despicable people.

'The Toyokawa family? Don't make your sister Yue laugh!'

These words, full of undisguised sarcasm and ridicule, echoed in Xiangzi's mind again, giving her the illusion that someone should have said this to her long ago.

And thinking back carefully to her maternal grandfather and her father... it seems that both of them were trapped in the same pathetic and ridiculous self-imposed constraints as she had been in the past.