Aspiring to be a girl in a band

This sentence has become a nightmare for Su Shi these past few days.

Whenever she thinks of that sentence, she loses all interest in doing anything.

The feeling that all my efforts are destined to be in vain is absolutely awful.

If Xiangzi is really as Mu said, and there's no way he can be brought back...

What is the point of her efforts?

Su Shi lowered his head dejectedly.

Her hair covered her eyes, and she couldn't see any vitality in her entire being.

Lixi noticed Su Shi's unusual behavior, but... Lixi had also studied the "art of language," so what she blurted out was not words of comfort at all.

What's wrong with you now?

Lixi's tone was very displeased, after all, in Lixi's heart, she was the one under the most pressure.

She did apply equal pressure to every member... except for the lights.

But while she was under pressure from everyone else, she herself was also under immense pressure.

You should know that Li hope was teaching himself composition from scratch.

Lately, Lixi can't even remember if she's had a good night's sleep, and... she's even skipped class a few times.

Fortunately, her school, Hanasakigawa, was a school with an excessively free-spirited atmosphere.

Once a girl gets into this school, she's basically set for life.

As the saying goes, in Hanasaki River, you can choose not to live, but you cannot choose not to live.

Therefore, skipping class is such a trivial matter that it doesn't even qualify for a public reprimand.

……

Seeing that Su Shi didn't react, Li Xi's tone became even sterner.

“During the previous practice, I noticed that you were just going through the motions. Your level shouldn't be like this. Do you even have any motivation?”

Li hope was full of witty remarks.

Su Shi's expression was blank.

Motivation? Su Shi let out a cold laugh indifferently.

If it were before, she might have been willing to put on an act.

But now, all his efforts have been rendered futile by Mu.

She simply couldn't find any reason to continue trying.

If it weren't for the fear of being held accountable by Arakawa Kirika.

She even had the urge to quit the team.

But... on the other hand...

Su Shiqiang perked up and glanced at Li hope.

She noticed immediately the swollen bags under Lixi's eyes and the dark circles around them.

Su Shi knew very well that Li hope was the hardest working person in the band.

Therefore, Su Shi felt very sorry for Li hope.

It's unbelievable that they would put in so much effort for a band that was destined to disband.

Just like... my past self.

"Feel sorry……"

Su Shi met Li hope's eyes and then forced a smile.

She apologized to Lixi.

...Lixi's face turned slightly red.

She hadn't expected that Su Shi would apologize so directly...

She was even prepared for an argument... Su Shi's straightforward show of weakness made Li hope a little embarrassed.

So Lixi awkwardly scratched her face.

“I’m not blaming you… it’s just that… the live show is coming up soon, so we have to practice as much as we can… if we go on stage like this… it’ll definitely be a disaster.”

Lixi also reflected on it and realized that her tone just now was indeed not very good, and it didn't seem like the tone she should use when speaking to her [comrade].

Stepping onto the stage... huh.

Su Shi murmured those words.

This is the goal they have set for the time being.

They had already informed Ring several days ago, so... they definitely have to play, but...

What are you going up there for? To make a scene? Or is it a joke?

Moreover... even though Su Shi sympathizes with Li hope, she really doesn't want to work hard right now.

She no longer has any goals to achieve, and with no fighting spirit left, it's already a great favor that she hasn't even started selling.

It's really asking too much of her to continue contributing to a band that doesn't belong to her.

"Lixi, do you... really want to do a live performance?"

Su Shi let out a self-deprecating laugh, her tone somewhat powerless.

"Of course we want it...because that's what the lamp desires."

Lixi's reply was very firm.

Hope shone in her eyes; she was willing to do anything for the light.

"As expected, Lixi doesn't care about anything as long as the light is there, right?"

Su Shi put down her bass and then squatted down against the wall.

The moment those words left her lips, Su Shi regretted it a little... Pointing it out so directly would definitely make Li hope angry.

But... it doesn't matter anyway.

The current Su Shi is completely unmasked; she is her true self, somewhat selfish, malicious, and fond of scheming.

This is the truth that she revealed after she became disheartened.

Volume 1: Chapter 104 Everyone is terrible

Lixi's eyes widened in surprise; she truly hadn't expected... her thoughts to be so bluntly revealed.

But Li hope couldn't refute it.

Everything she did was indeed for the sake of the lamp.

If Lamp hadn't joined the band, she wouldn't be here at all.

At first, Li hope was indeed a little angry, but then he became helpless.

“You’re right… If it weren’t for the light, I don’t think I would have worked this hard.”

Lixi's body slumped into her seat.

Eh?

Su Shi glanced up at Li hope. She had originally thought that Li hope would get angry, or at the very least argue her point.

But... did they really just admit it so honestly?

Su Shi didn't respond further, letting the temperature in the practice room drop to freezing.

"You know... I'm not very good at talking, so I just asked directly."

Suddenly, Lixi broke the silence.

Su Shi raised her head with a hint of curiosity.

She was indeed a little concerned; at this point, what else could Lixi possibly say?

Su Shi saw that Li hope took several deep breaths before looking at her again.

"Are you... still thinking about Xiangzi?"

!

Su Shi's eyes widened.

How can this be?

Su Shi found it hard to believe that Li hope, who seemed so naive, could actually see through her thoughts.

Seeing Su Shi's surprised expression.

Lixi smiled slightly.

"So that's how it is... I didn't expect... it really is just like that bastard said."

A figure appeared in Lixi's mind.

Thinking of that person's appearance, Lixi clenched her fists immediately.

On the day Arakawa Kirika came to Ring, she held Riki in her arms the whole time.

At that moment, Arakawa Kirika whispered something in her ear.

"Be careful of Nagasaki Motoyo."

At that time, Lixi didn't understand what that sentence meant at all.

They even thought it was some kind of divisive tactic by that bastard.

But now it seems... Arakawa Kirika is reminding her that Suze's heart isn't in this band at all; everything she's done is just to... find Shoko.

……

That bastard?

Su Shi thought about it, and in her mind, the only person who could be called a bastard was probably her.