After being attacked by the rich young ladies with hatchets, I chose to enter "sage mode".

If Si Yu had given him a big scolding or pointed out how serious his mistakes were, he would have felt better. Since he was the one who had done wrong, even though he was afraid of being blamed, it would have been much better than this sudden show of concern.

But things are different now. Instead of reacting with the anger and scolding that a normal girl would do, Si Yu immediately showed concern for him.

I ask you, if someone disappoints the person they love so much and the other person doesn't blame them but instead shows concern, wouldn't they feel guilty?

At this moment, Bai Yu only had one emotion in her heart, which was filled with guilt and remorse.

Watching Si Yu walk towards the kitchen, Bai Yu felt a tightness and discomfort in her chest, as if she had suddenly committed a thousand wrongs against her, an unbearable pain.

To put it more bluntly, it's like killing your entire family unconsciously, and then suddenly waking up to find your hands covered in blood and the corpses of your loved ones on the ground. The heart-wrenching pain is indescribable.

The stinging sensation in his nose appeared at an inopportune moment. Before he could comfort Si Yu, he himself was moved to tears by guilt and heartache for Si Yu.

"Sister Siyu, I'm not hungry. I know I was wrong. You can scold me, you can hit me, but please don't look at me with such disappointment. Please give me another chance, just one more chance."

Raising her index finger, Bai Yu genuinely wanted to propose and marry Si Yu at her parents' graves this time. It wasn't just empty talk; she truly hoped Si Yu could give her another chance, her last chance.

Stopping in her tracks, Si Yu turned to look at Bai Yu, whose eyes were red-rimmed. Tears were streaming down her face, one by one, until they fell from her chin and down her neck. Her collar was also soaked with tears.

"I'm not denying you a chance. I was just worried you might be hungry after such a long flight, so I wanted to cook for you. We can talk about this after we've eaten, okay?"

With her choked voice, the repeated gestures of wiping away tears, and her words still filled with concern rather than blame, Bai Yu truly couldn't hold back this time.

The image of a grown man standing in front of a woman and suddenly bursting into tears is truly impactful.

The impact is like your strong-willed father suddenly bursting into tears in front of you.

Bai Yu has never been one to express his emotions through crying, but this time he couldn't help it. When his emotions reached a certain point, he was completely out of control. In addition, Si Yu made him feel so guilty. He started to blame himself for all his mistakes and regretted wanting to change history and start over.

"Sister Siyu, I'm so sorry, I really won't lie to you like that again, I really won't."

While crying, Bai Yu stepped forward and opened his arms to hug Si Yu, because this time he was not crying for himself, but for Si Yu because he felt wronged.

When Si Yu saw him step forward and open his arms as if to hug her, she did not open her arms to receive him. Although she had never spoken ill of Bai Yu, the grievances and discomfort in her heart were real. She just did not want to blame Bai Yu, whom she loved deeply.

Even though she didn't open her arms to receive Bai Yu's embrace, she didn't dodge. Instead, she let Bai Yu hold her in his arms.

Feeling Bai Yu's tight embrace, Si Yu could sense that his heart was revolving around her at that moment, but that didn't mean it could erase the disappointment that had accumulated in her heart time and time again.

All her expectations were met with repeated broken promises. Even though she loved Bai Yu to the core, there was still a day when she was disappointed and dared not believe anymore.

The more you believe, the more you hope and crave something, the greater the disappointment will be when you don't get what you want.

If it were anyone else, the accumulated disappointment from two lifetimes would have led them to break up with Bai Yu after one or two times. What would be the point of dating then? Anyone who wasn't a victim of injustice would genuinely hate or even find disgusting.

But Si Yu didn't imagine Bai Yu that way; instead, she chose to believe him unconditionally time and time again.

But she wasn't a devoted, obsessive type like Lin Ying, who would revolve everything around Bai Yu. Even if Bai Yu used her to gain personal benefits, she would agree without hesitation if she felt Bai Yu needed it. Even if she had a hundred reasons to resist, she wouldn't utter a single complaint, because Bai Yu was the reason she lived.

Si Yu is dependent; she can sacrifice a lot for Bai Yu, and even lower her bottom line time and time again for Bai Yu. But the balance between Bai Yu and her still exists, even if this balance is seriously unbalanced. She is not like Lin Ying, who puts Bai Yu at the center of everything.

Listening to Bai Yu's deeply apologetic apology in her ear, Si Yu didn't want to blame him. She knew what kind of person Bai Yu was, given her memories of two lifetimes. But she loved him, so she would repeatedly choose to accept these flaws that most people would find unacceptable.

That's what yandere is like. Even if you do a lot of excessive or even outrageous things, she will still choose to love you, and it's a very mindless kind of love.

Perhaps when it comes to love, the most loving and affectionate type is the yandere, who can love you to the point of losing their entire self.

However, the love of a yandere is something many people cannot bear, because such love requires sacrificing personality flaws in exchange. If you do anything that makes her suspicious, she will punish herself in ways that are unacceptable to ordinary people in order to gain her attention or to punish you.

Si Yu, Su Rongxue, Qing Sisi, Murong Liyue, and Lin Ying are all yandere. Bai Yu is well aware of this, which is why he finds it incredibly troublesome yet understands that they are deeply in love with him and unable to extricate themselves. The only thing he can do is create a balance for them to maintain their relationship.

If it weren't for the fact that all the girls were yandere, a scumbag like Bai Yu might find it easy to fall in love, but the probability of him making a woman truly love him so deeply would be extremely low.

It's true that good looks can create a good impression, as can good words and thoughtfulness. But if you never treat someone with sincerity, no matter how well you perform, you'll eventually be exposed.

To put it bluntly, a woman can misjudge you time and time again, but you can only make one mistake and have one chance.

"Don't lie to your sister. I can tell you're really hungry. Just tell me what you want to eat, okay?"

Hearing Si Yu's gentle and caring words, which made no mention of promises, Bai Yu finally understood that Si Yu had completely given up on her when it came to promises.

Perhaps a sliver of hope still lingers in one's heart, but that hope is dwindling.

Although he was very reluctant to believe that Si Yu would one day show such disappointment in some of his own character traits, he knew that it was all his own doing.

If it weren't for deep love, who would be willing to endure the company of a man who only makes empty promises? Could it be that Si Yu really couldn't find someone better to spend the rest of her life with? No, it's just that her love is too deep, too deep.

"Well... I want to eat the beef noodles that Sister Siyu cooks. I haven't had them in a long time, and I'm really craving them."

"Okay, then I'll make you your favorite beef noodles."

After saying that, Si Yu did not pull away Bai Yu's tightly hugging hand just because she was going to cook. Instead, she stood there and let him hug her, as if she was waiting for Bai Yu to have hugged her enough and be willing to let go before she went to cook.

Feeling that Si Yu didn't actively try to break free or leave her embrace because she had to cook, Bai Yu knew that Si Yu really doted on her. Even if she was more wronged than anyone else, she would still choose to spoil her.

Just as Bai Yu had always told her, this kind of pampering would eventually spoil him. Look at him now, isn't he bad? He deceives Si Yu time and time again.

Although Si Yu never uttered a word of blame towards him from the beginning, her tears were filled with disappointment and sorrow.

Many things don't need to be repeated or explained again at this moment, because there's no need to say them more. Once a promise is made, simply fulfilling it will prove that you won't deceive me again. Only by fulfilling the promise can you tell Siyu that you truly know your mistakes and can correct them.

Chapter 144 The Line Between Funerals and Weddings

Sitting at the dining table, looking at the large bowl of steaming hot beef noodles served in front of her, because Si Yu knew that Bai Yu loved beef, there was half a bowl of beef and half a bowl of noodles.

Although it wasn't the first time Bai Yu had sat in Si Yu's house eating the beef noodles she made, this time the feeling was completely different from before. It was a feeling of a sinner eating the food of a benefactor, a sense of loss and alienation.

Picking up my chopsticks, I gently picked up a mouthful of noodles. They weren't very chewy; in fact, they were a bit too soft.

But Bai Yu found the noodles exceptionally delicious, not because they were as tasty as he made them out to be, but because they contained all of Si Yu's emotions.

Bai Yu finished the large bowl of beef noodles quickly without saying a word, and Si Yu did the same.

The two of them seemed to be under a spell to silence each other. It wasn't until Bai Yu finished drinking the soup of the beef noodles and put down his chopsticks that he uttered his only words after more than five minutes of silence.

"good to eat."

The two simple words earned Si Yu a slight smile as she tilted her head back.

Seeing that Si Yu, who had been crying, finally smiled at her again, Bai Yu breathed a sigh of relief.

If this girl continued to touch him affectionately with a blank expression, Bai Yu felt he would definitely go crazy.

This wasn't exactly emotional abuse, but for someone filled with guilt, it was a hundred times more painful than emotional abuse.

"Sister Siyu, I need to go buy some things later. Can we go to Auntie and Uncle's place tomorrow?"

Nodding, Si Yu did not reply, nor did she show any joy or excitement as Bai Yu had imagined. Instead, she remained unusually calm.

Anyone with a brain could see that this was a sign that Si Yu was completely disappointed with his promise.

Although she knew perfectly well what was going on, Bai Yu was still a woman with a heart. Even if she knew it was all her fault, who would want the person they loved to lose trust in them?

With a bitter smile that looked more like a grimace, Bai Yu didn't want to waste any more time. She got up, straightened her clothes and trousers, and prepared to leave.

He was going to buy the items needed for the grave-visiting ceremony and the wedding in advance.

Only after she truly fulfilled her promise to Si Yu would she believe once again that she wasn't just a man who only knew how to talk big.

"Sister Siyu, I'm going out now. I might not be back until very late, or I might not come back at all. I'll contact you then."

After saying that, Bai Yu smiled slightly and walked straight towards the main entrance.

With a click, the door opened. Stepping out of the doorway, Bai Yu subconsciously glanced back at Si Yu, who was following her. Si Yu was standing quietly by the shoe cabinet, looking at her without any expression of joy, anger, sorrow, or happiness. All that could be seen was her hands clasped tightly together in front of her lower abdomen.

"Sister Siyu, no matter what, you must remember one thing: I...I will change, because I love you."

Bai Yu isn't someone who likes to say "I like you" or "I love you" casually, but at this moment, all he could say to Si Yu was this simple yet weighty sentence.

She gently closed the door, and Bai Yu's footsteps faded into the distance, followed by the sound of the elevator doors opening.

Standing quietly by the shoe cabinet, Si Yu remained in the same position as before, without saying a word from the time Bai Yu ate noodles until she left.

It wasn't that she really didn't want to talk to Bai Yu, but rather that she didn't know how to calm down her inner grievances and then face him with her usual smiling expression.

To put it simply, Si Yu loves Bai Yu very much, so she hopes to face Bai Yu with a smile at all times, rather than letting her emotions affect him as she is now.

From the very beginning, she could sense that Bai Yu was greatly affected by her low mood, but she really couldn't easily control herself.

There's been too much disappointment accumulated, and even if I wanted to ignore it or not think about it, it's simply impossible.

Wiping away the tears from the corners of her eyes, Si Yu tilted her head back, took a deep breath, and then turned to clean up the bowls and chopsticks left behind by Bai Yu after she finished eating noodles.

Standing downstairs in the residential area, Bai Yu didn't go to find Lin Ying right after leaving Si Yu's house. It wasn't that he didn't want to find Lin Ying, nor that he didn't miss her; it was just that now he wanted to prove that his promises weren't all lies, and that there would be no more lies.

As Bai Yu walked out of the residential area, she waved and flagged down a taxi on the roadside. She then got into the car and headed to the nearest street lined with funeral parlors.

This street is the oldest street in the northern part of the city, with a history of over a thousand years. In addition to being a tourist attraction, there is an alleyway lined with old shops selling funeral supplies.

I took a taxi to this place, got off, and walked into this alley that I was walking into for the first time. All around me were old-fashioned tile houses, and the ground was not a cement surface, but a mixture of large stone slabs and pebbles.

The first few shops you enter the alley are coffin shops, and further in are shops selling wreaths, origami figures, and other items.

What Bai Yu wanted to buy was not a coffin or a paper figure, but just some incense and paper money.

Standing in front of a funeral shop called Shipu, Bai Yu glanced at the interior decorations. It looked no different from any other funeral shop, except that the owner was nowhere to be seen.

Is the boss in?

Standing at the door, Bai Yu knocked on the wooden door beside her and called out twice into the store, but still no one answered.

Just as he was frowning, wondering if the shop owner had gone out to play cards or chat with other shop owners, an old voice suddenly rang out beside him.

"Little one, what do you want to buy?"

Upon hearing this, Bai Yu turned her head to look at a wreath on the right, and then an old man with white hair, white eyebrows and white beard with a hunched back walked out from behind the wreath.

Judging from his age, this old man was at least seventy or eighty years old, giving the impression that he was nearing the end of his life. However, the pair of small-rimmed reading glasses on his nose and the blue-green robe he wore added to his air of a storyteller.

"Sir, I just want some incense and paper money, and maybe a wreath too. Can you deliver the wreath? I can take the incense and paper money with me, but I'll need the wreath tomorrow."

"No, no, no, you can't need a wreath right now. Judging from your face, I can tell that you'll have a lot of romantic troubles in this life. The difference between a happy occasion and a tragic one is just a thought away. Remember not to buy wreaths. Even if you want to buy one, I won't sell it to you. You can buy one from other shops, just don't buy it from me, hahahaha."

First, he frowned and looked at Bai Yu, saying that he had a romantic entanglement problem. Then, the old man stroked his short, white beard and made a smiling face, giving people the feeling of an old charlatan.

But Bai Yu didn't suspect the old man of being a charlatan at all. Instead, she thought that the old man knew her situation just by looking at her. Just like her grandfather's generation said, those who hold funerals all have some kind of secrets, and even if they don't, they are people with strong fates.

"Grandpa, since you think I'm not suitable for buying wreaths, then let's not buy wreaths. Shouldn't some incense and paper money be enough?"

"Hahaha, little one, you're quite savvy. I'll only sell you six sticks of incense and candles, and two small stacks of paper money. I won't sell you any more. Do you still want to buy?"

Taking a deep breath, Bai Yu was not a superstitious person, but his intuition told him that listening to the old man in front of him was the best choice.

"purchase."

He firmly uttered the word "buy," and then the old man turned around and took two small stacks of paper money and six incense sticks from the counter behind the wreaths for him.

Reaching out to take the meager amount, I realized that anyone buying these things would never buy such a small amount; it seemed far too little and stingy.