After being attacked by the rich young ladies with hatchets, I chose to enter "sage mode".

Upon hearing this, Su Rongxue curled up on the bed and hesitated for a long time before whispering four words.

I want you...

The voice was very soft and there was no sense of coercion, but Bai Yu felt strangely as if she were prey being targeted by a hunter.

"Want me? I'm not a toy, what would you want me for?"

Bai Yu didn't quite understand the meaning behind Su Rongxue's words, "I want you."

"I just want you..."

Su Rongxue's voice remained soft and weak, revealing no change in emotion, only her usual soothing quality.

If Bai Yu couldn't understand it the first time, he would roughly understand what it meant when Su Rongxue said she wanted him a second time.

It's not hard to deduce this by simply recalling the drug that Su Rongxue forcibly injected into her body before she left in her previous life.

But Bai Yu would never agree to such a request.

If it were still the previous life, perhaps I would have chosen to agree out of habitual avoidance, and might even have made a big promise to Su Rongxue to postpone it.

But in this life, Bai Yu really didn't want to lie anymore; lies had brought him far too much pain.

"Xiaoxue, can you tell me why you want me?"

The voice gradually calmed down, and Bai Yu's words became very serious.

Su Rongxue had been enduring the painful memories of her previous two lives, and now that Bai Yu had given her a way out, she really couldn't hold back anymore.

"I just want everything about you, I only want you to like me, I only want you to be with me, I don't want you to talk to anyone else, I don't want you to leave me, I don't want you to hold someone else's hand, I don't want..."

Because Bai Yu happened to give Su Rongxue an outlet, Su Rongxue blurted out all the things she had been holding in her heart and wanted to tell him.

For her, who was already simple-minded, accepting the memories of being abandoned and betrayed in two lifetimes at once was extremely painful. The reason she didn't immediately take Bai Yu's life was because she was really afraid of losing her again. That cold, empty feeling terrified her.

Perhaps Luo Er Ai Li could accept living a happy life holding an urn, but Su Rong Xue felt that she didn't like it at all. The cold urn had no warmth at all. Wanting to hear Bai Yu speak, wanting to hold hands, wanting to hug would all be empty.

If it weren't for these thoughts binding the corrupted Su Rongxue, Bai Yu would have been found and taken away by this girl long ago.

"Xiaoxue, I don't want to lie to you, but some things feel weak and powerless to say over the phone. I'll come to see you in a few days, and I have so much to tell you then, okay?"

Chapter 83 Tears Don't Fall Easily

Hearing Bai Yu's words, Su Rongxue did not act like a yandere or make a scene, nor did she show any impulsiveness. She simply responded with a calm but unusual "hmm".

"Um..."

Her soft "hmm" made her already delicate appearance seem even more timid and cowardly.

Although Bai Yu didn't know why Su Rongxue in this life gave him a different feeling, he didn't think that Su Rongxue had memories of her previous two lives.

It wasn't that he wouldn't think about this issue at all; it's just that the memory recovery of Lin Ying and Si Yu was triggered under certain conditions. Even if Su Rongxue could have memories of her previous life, there would definitely be conditions involved.

The reason why things are a little different now is probably due to the butterfly effect brought about by her rebirth, which may have made Su Rongxue, who already loved to rely on herself, a little different.

To put it bluntly, Bai Yu hasn't thought that much about it yet. Anyway, she'll be meeting Su Rongxue eventually, and thinking about it too much is not as direct as meeting her in person.

Many things are beyond the comprehension of those directly involved, and they cannot understand them immediately.

"Xiaoxue, I have something to do right now, if you need me..."

Bai Yu wanted to say that he would go to work if he was free, but before he could finish speaking, he heard the dial tone of the phone being hung up.

This wasn't the first time Su Rongxue had hung up on him; it was the second time, and even more decisive and direct than the first time.

This situation made Bai Yu very clear that this girl must be hiding something from her, otherwise, how could the gentle, timid and cowardly girl have such a temper?

Yes, Bai Yu attributed Su Rongxue's act of hanging up the phone directly to her temper.

Although this girl is usually gentle, timid, and cute, it doesn't mean she doesn't have a little temper.

But he had no idea that Su Rongxue's behavior was not a petty temper tantrum, but rather a way to avoid hurting his struggles and to force himself to compromise.

I miss someone so much, I want to see them, I want to chat, I want to hug them, but I also know that I will definitely lose them in the future, I know that they will abandon me. That feeling is as painful as my body is still in the light but my heart has fallen into darkness.

Knowing the ending, would you still choose to continue loving?

But she didn't want to continue that tragic ending, and she didn't want to end Bai Yu's life with a knife again. Conflict, pain, torment and torture were Su Rongxue's first feelings every day when she woke up.

Already extremely introverted, she was tormented by these emotions and memories. After her rebirth, she never left the house even once, because she couldn't accept the changes that the world and her memories had brought her.

After putting down her phone, Su Rongxue would always feel sad and sit on the bed, hugging her small feet, crying quietly for a while after each phone call with Bai Yu.

She was a girl who cried easily; she couldn't help but cry even at the slightest injustice.

That was just feeling wronged, but now she's tormented by more than just feelings of grievance.

Her petite figure, hugging her legs and crying with red eyes, was truly pitiful to behold.

She reached out and gently squeezed his hand. Every time she cried, Su Rongxue would subconsciously want to hold Bai Yu's hand, but every time she grasped only emptiness.

This feeling is just like when Bai Yu left in her previous life, leaving only a box. She wanted to talk to him, hold his hand, and hug him. The emptiness never disappeared; it just kept spreading and growing.

She woke up early in the morning and cried for a while. While crying, Su Rongxue lay down and fell asleep without realizing it.

Perhaps it was because these emotions were constantly tormenting her that the girl's health had been deteriorating recently, and she was eating less and less.

A heart ailment requires a heart remedy, but Bai Yu remained unaware of the extent of the harm his departure in his previous life had caused Su Rongxue.

The feeling of entrusting your entire future to someone only to be abandoned without warning is as intense as the end of the world.

After crying herself to sleep, Su Rongxue would dream because she thought about Bai Yu every day. But most of them were nightmares, nightmares of being abandoned by Bai Yu time and time again.

So I would often wake up startled from my sleep, and once I woke up, I would be plunged into the painful memories of being abandoned in my previous life.

This cycle repeats itself every day, and her already delicate and petite appearance has been worn down to a very haggard state.

But this was Su Rongxue's choice; she chose to suppress the price she paid for wanting to overturn her erroneous thoughts once again.

She wanted to change everything, and she knew very well that she needed to make some changes, but these changes tormented her like an antidote.

Meanwhile, Bai Yu had already taken a taxi to the outside of Qing Sisi's villa area.

It's only a little past nine in the morning, but the weather is already quite uncooperative. Even though the sun hasn't come out yet, you can already feel the heat patting your cheeks.

After sending Qing Sisi a message on her phone that she had arrived, Bai Yu stood outside the gate of the villa area and waited.

Although it wasn't his first time here, getting in wasn't easy. After all, it was a villa area, and the security was much stricter than in ordinary residential areas. Without someone living there or leading the way, it was practically impossible to get in openly.

After waiting outside for about ten minutes, Bai Yu saw a figure skipping and hopping in the distance inside the villa area gate.

Her short pink hair, paired with a black and white JK uniform, black stockings, and black leather shoes, exuded youthful energy.

Even though she knew that the person she was seeing was indeed Qing Sisi, Bai Yu still couldn't help but feel a lump in her throat when she saw this girl in real life again.

The image of wanting to see her one last time but being refused entry and beaten up would involuntarily surface in my mind.

Those few steps became an eternal separation between the two.

As Qing Sisi drew closer and closer to him, waving incessantly upon seeing him, Bai Yu longed to step forward and get closer to her. However, at that moment, he found his feet to be as heavy as lead, making it impossible for him to move an inch.

He tried to smile because saying goodbye made him so happy, so happy that he couldn't express it in words, but in the end, tears came faster than smiles.

Tears slid down to his lips, the salty taste reminding him of his current wretched state.

She reached out to wipe away the tears, but the more she wiped, the faster they flowed.

The sight of him, a grown man, inexplicably bursting into tears outside the villa area attracted the attention of many passersby, but Bai Yu found that he really couldn't hold back his tears.

Perhaps this is what they mean by "a man doesn't easily shed tears"—it's just that he hasn't reached the point of true heartbreak.

Chapter 84 Holding hands again was filled with trepidation

"Senior~"

Waving her slender little hands, Qing Sisi ran with a light and cheerful gait, and the closer she got to Bai Yu, the more one could feel her excitement.

Bai Yu knew that her sudden tears would make the atmosphere awkward, so she could only cover her face with her hands and wipe her face from time to time, hoping to calm herself down quickly.

Even though none of this is the emotion Bai Yu wants to express right now, it's true that it's really hard for people to hold back when emotions come.

Standing still, waiting for Qing Sisi to get closer, the girl noticed that when she got within five meters of Bai Yu, he was covering his eyes, smiling but crying.

"Senior? What... what's wrong?"

Seeing this scene, Qing Sisi's smile froze instantly. She was completely dumbfounded. However, girls are often more perceptive than boys, so she could roughly sense Bai Yu's sadness from this close proximity.

"I'm fine, I was just a little happy to see you. Who knows why I was so happy I even cried, it's hilarious, hahaha~"

Bai Yu wiped away her tears and smiled as she looked at Qing Sisi.

From a distance, it wasn't very clear, but up close, he realized that Qing Sisi was wearing a classic black and white JK uniform, with a small pink bow hair clip on her short pink hair. She really looked like she was from an anime.

She was already very playful and cute. Perhaps it's a case of beauty being in the eye of the beholder, but Bai Yu found Qing Sisi more and more beautiful the more she looked at her.

Qing Sisi, who was being stared at by Bai Yu without looking away, gradually became a little shy. Her face flushed red as she looked away from Bai Yu's charming eyes and whispered something.

"Senior...is there...is there a problem with what I'm wearing?"

"No, it looks great."

Shaking her head, Bai Yu said firmly that it looked good.

Perhaps it was out of guilt, or perhaps it was because he had been too blunt with Qing Sisi in his previous life, but now he no longer spoke with the arrogance he had in his past life. If someone is good-looking, he says they are good-looking; if someone likes someone, he says they like someone; if someone loves someone, he says they love someone.

Sometimes, what people need is not repeated hesitation and dishonesty. If you are always concerned about saving face and are too embarrassed to face your inner feelings, you will only understand what regret is when you lose something.

"Senior, are you... are you happy or sad? Why are you still crying?"

With her lips pursed, Qing Sisi truly couldn't understand why Bai Yu could laugh and cry at the same time; it looked very strange.

Of course, it's understandable that she doesn't understand, because if she did, she wouldn't be so calm now.

"Happy? Of course I'm happy! How could I laugh if I wasn't happy?"

Seeing Bai Yu's crying and laughing expression, Qing Sisi pressed her hand to her chest. Seeing him cry made her feel sad, a kind of inexplicable sadness.

Perhaps this is empathy, or perhaps it's mutual understanding and telepathy in love; in any case, it's a strange and mysterious feeling.

"Senior, could you... could you please stop crying? It makes people want to cry too..."

Her little mouth pursed slightly, and before she could even finish speaking, her dark eyes began to redden. She really looked like she was about to cry.

Seeing Qing Sisi so sad, Bai Yu didn't know whether she should think the girl was too cute or too soft-hearted to bear seeing her sad and joyful.

In fact, you can completely feel whether someone loves you or not, and there is no reason for this feeling. Don't deceive yourself and deliberately ignore your inner feelings.

Bai Yu used to always ignore Qing Sisi's love and affection because he was always choosing to run away.