After being attacked by the rich young ladies with hatchets, I chose to enter "sage mode".

Chapter 42 I'll Cure Your Illness

In the corridor, Bai Yu knew very well that it would be difficult for her to have a private conversation with Si Yu. Only indoors, and only in a slightly enclosed space, could she calm down and face things.

As for Lin Ying, who was standing by the door, Bai Yu saw her when she entered the room. Her eyes were filled with tears and she was biting her lip.

She felt wronged, but there was nothing she could do. This girl was good in every way, except that she thought of him far too much. Bai Yu felt guilty and remorseful towards her for this, but she still put him first.

"It's alright, Lin Ying. I'll take Sister Siyu into a room to talk alone."

Upon hearing this, Lin Ying didn't say anything wrong, but simply nodded and followed behind without uttering a word.

Si Yu, who was being held in Bai Yu's arms and struggling, showed no intention of calming down. She struggled even more while being held by him, and even kicked off her high heels.

Bai Yu carried Si Yu into her room, threw her onto the bed as soon as they entered, and then closed the door.

Lin Ying, standing outside the room, could only wait, feeling slightly uneasy. She could only wait; Bai Yu had told her what to do, and she just had to follow her instructions.

However, for Bai Yu, this situation felt like he was taking on two people at once, at least that's how he felt.

In comparison, Lin Ying, who has always known and even explained things to Si Yu, is able to understand and accept the current situation, and the probability of her not having an attack is much, much better than that of Si Yu.

Of course, another reason is that Lin Ying, like him, has memories of her previous life. The feeling of being able to regain everything that should have been lost can change a lot of people's thoughts, and Lin Ying is no exception.

With her back against the door, Bai Yu looked at Si Yu, who had been tossed onto the bed and was now lying on her back with no intention of getting up. After a couple of seconds of silence, she spoke softly.

“Sister Siyu, I know you are in pain, and I know you want to leave. But you are not bound by anything. You can choose to give me up. Perhaps you think this is irresponsible to you, but when I said it, it was probably no easier for me than it was for you.”

Covering her eyes with her hands, Si Yu lay on the bed sobbing. The rise and fall of her chest was so intense that even Bai Yu was drawn to her in this state.

However, the girl was just sobbing and sad, and didn't choose to pay attention to Bai Yu.

Bai Yu naturally knew why this was the case, but at this moment, he and Si Yu had not yet had any relationship like in their previous life, nor had they confirmed their boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, so it was not enough to completely break her down.

"Sister Siyu, I know you won't listen to me saying I like you now. You think I'm no longer trustworthy, and I know all that..."

"You don't know, you have absolutely no idea..."

Bai Yu's words, filled with remorse, were interrupted by Si Yu's choked and hoarse voice before she could finish.

However, Bai Yu believed that these were all things that were expected to happen to some extent.

When he brought Si Yu into this room, he had already prepared himself for three choices: either he would die, or she would fully understand his feelings or choose to abandon him.

Reaching for the small lock under the doorknob, Bai Yu locked it with a click and then turned to open the wardrobe next to her.

He took out a small fruit knife from the wardrobe. The knife was about half the length of a hand, and its brand-new appearance and casing indicated that it was a brand-new item. Its sharpness was also beyond question.

The reason Bai Yu hid a small knife in the wardrobe was not to do anything shameful, but simply because she was afraid that Lin Ying would notice something was wrong and worry about her.

Si Yu noticed when he took out the knife, but she showed no fear or resistance whatsoever.

At this moment, Si Yu felt so miserable that she felt it would be better to die. If Bai Yu hadn't stopped her time and time again, she might not have had to suffer so much.

I used to think I could still rely on someone, that I still had value and meaning in my life, and I even used to fantasize about our future together. But it seems that everything was just my own fantasy.

"Sister Siyu, I know how much you love me. Just as you love you, I love you too. But there are many things I need you to calm down before I can tell you. This matter is not as simple as you think."

Turning his head away, Si Yu's eyes were already dim and lifeless except for a few tears, as silent as a stagnant pool, showing no intention of paying attention to Bai Yu.

"Does not answering me mean you hate my love for you?"

After speaking, Bai Yu still received no response from Si Yu, so she picked up the fruit knife in her hand and slashed her arm.

"Please don't hate me, Siyu-jie. I feel terrible too..."

When Si Yu saw Bai Yu slash her arm with a knife without hesitation, a flicker of emotion flashed in her eyes, but in the end she still chose to remain silent and sink into despair and despair.

Seeing this, Bai Yu smiled bitterly, then slashed her arm twice more, and bloody marks quickly appeared on her arm, the overflowing blood staining the area red like artistic lines.

Despite these actions, he did not show any signs of pain. It wasn't that Bai Yu was unaware of pain, but rather that the pain was becoming less and less noticeable to him, as if he could ignore it.

Of course, the reason he took out the knife to harm himself was to make Si Yu understand that she would harm herself or even choose death without him, but it cannot be ruled out that he might also be ill.

Bai Yu moved quickly, and in no time he had made a dense array of cuts on his arm. None of the cuts were very deep, but there were so many of them.

Si Yu, who had been watching Bai Yu self-harm, remained silent with tears in her eyes, but such silence would only lead to more serious consequences.

She raised her hand and slashed down her wrist. This time, the blood gushed out like a fountain, a testament to Bai Yu's daring suicidal act.

Looking at Si Yu with tender eyes, Bai Yu didn't look at the hot blood gushing out of her wrist, but instead smiled at Si Yu.

If Si Yu could selectively ignore Bai Yu's previous actions due to her own despair, then Bai Yu's act of cutting her wrists and waiting for death, with eyes full of affection, made her unable to remain silent any longer.

"Bai Yu, what are you doing..."

A choked, anxious voice came through, and Si Yu reached out and grasped Bai Yu's wrist to press down on the blood that was gushing out.

Seeing this, Bai Yu laughed even more happily, because as long as Si Yu was willing to pay attention to her, there would at least be a breakthrough.

Chapter Forty-Three: There's Something Wrong with His Brain

"Why are you laughing? You'll die if you do that. I'm not kidding..."

Si Yu's anxious and slightly tearful voice revealed her concern and panic.

Seeing her anxious and flustered expression, Bai Yu felt a strange sense of joy, and even thought that her actions were worthwhile and nice.

By attempting suicide to elicit concern and panic from her loved ones, Bai Yu might realize, upon reflection, that something truly abnormal about her mind.

However, he clearly didn't have the energy to think about it now, because even though Si Yu held his wrist and stopped the large amount of blood from flowing out, it wasn't a complete stop. If it continued, Bai Yu would really bleed to death if he didn't call an ambulance.

"Call an ambulance, an ambulance..."

She hurriedly reached out to open the locked door, but just as Si Yu touched the doorknob, Bai Yu grabbed her hand tightly, as if she didn't want to be rescued at all.

“Sister Siyu, I swear on my death that I truly love you. Perhaps words will make everything I say in this situation seem so pale and powerless, but if you don’t believe me, then there’s no need to open the door. Opening the door is meaningless anyway.”

Upon hearing this, Si Yu's expression and actions became even more panicked than before, but she was not as strong as Bai Yu. Even though Bai Yu had lost a lot of blood, he was still not as strong as her. Her wrist was as if it were being clamped by an iron clamp and she couldn't move it at all.

"Idiot, idiot, idiot! Let go! I'll call an ambulance for you! If you keep going like this, you really...you'll die..."

Si Yu angrily yelled at Bai Yu. This was the first time she had ever scolded Bai Yu in such an angry tone. But the more she talked, the more anxious her voice became, and tears streamed down her face.

However, Bai Yu still had no intention of letting go of Si Yu's wrist, because he had not gotten the answer he wanted.

Before Si Yu came here, he had already thought it through: either he could make sure he wouldn't regret it and that Si Yu would be happy in the future, or he would be abandoned by Si Yu or leave this world himself.

Bai Yu gave himself only these few choices, and right now he's definitely leaning towards the first one.

Moreover, Si Yu clearly prefers the first option, so Bai Yu will only accept the ambulance after receiving an answer; otherwise, she will wait until she dies.

"Sister Siyu, you still don't believe that I love you very much, right? It's okay, I can wait until you believe me."

Bai Yu's words were clearly meant to pressure Si Yu, but at this moment, this was all he could do and the only solution he could think of.

Bai Yu may have nothing, and perhaps even if he speaks out, he can't prove anything, but the only thing he has, and the only chance he has, is his fate.

Therefore, all performances may seem pale, so you have to risk your life to create this opportunity, whether you succeed or fail.

"Bai Yu, I know, I know, please tell me to open the door quickly..."

"No, Sister Siyu, you're just worried that I'll die if I wait too long. You don't believe me. I can feel it. Your heart still chooses to be lonely, just as I'm afraid of losing you."

"No, Bai Yu, it's not like that. Sister believes you, she believes you. Please don't scare me like this, sister begs you..."

With a choked voice and a trembling voice filled with anxiety, Si Yu was clearly in a panic and was even begging Bai Yu to open the door.

At this moment, Bai Yu also deeply felt Si Yu's worry and concern for her, and was truly afraid that she would choose to die.

Of course, at this point, Bai Yu had already met the prerequisites for what she was about to say.

"Sister Siyu, if one day you choose not to believe me anymore, I can unconditionally leave this world in your place. It's not because I don't love you, but because I simply can't live without you. Rather than let you leave, I'd rather take your place, okay?"

Smiling as she looked at Si Yu's tear-blurred eyes, Bai Yu seemed completely unconcerned that waiting any longer would lead to her death, looking like a madwoman.

Of course, at this moment, Si Yu also thought Bai Yu was crazy, but little did she know how different she was from her previous appearance.

"Okay, okay, I'll agree to anything you want, just hurry up and let me open the door and call an ambulance, okay?"

Suppressing her panicked and anxious trembling voice, Si Yu tried to speak as gently as possible.

All of this was what Bai Yu wanted to see, and it was a gamble she took with her life.

If he hadn't won the bet, Bai Yu would have really died again in this life, and no one could guarantee whether he could have another chance, so it was truly a gamble with his life.

"Yes, Sister Siyu is the best."

Smiling, Bai Yu released Si Yu's hand as she reached out to open the door, and then, as if nothing had happened, pinched her cheek.

Si Yu had no time to care about Bai Yu pinching his cheeks; all he could think about was calling an ambulance to save him.

Upon opening the door, Lin Ying, who had been standing at the entrance, immediately saw Bai Yu's hands covered in blood, and even her clothes were stained with blood.

She lost her balance and her legs gave way, causing her to collapse onto the ground.

Upon seeing this, Si Yu urged her to call an ambulance immediately. Although they couldn't communicate verbally, Lin Ying wasn't stupid and naturally knew to call an ambulance.

Bai Yu, who had successfully calmed Si Yu down, was still smiling, but his face grew paler and paler. He took in the anxious looks of the two women. He had successfully gained an opportunity with Si Yu, but he felt nothing but guilt towards Lin Ying.

There is no absolute fairness in the world, but Bai Yu has no choice but to strive for relative fairness.

But this is not fair to Lin Ying at all, because what will happen to Lin Ying in the future if he dies?

There are always two sides to everything, and there can never be a perfect plan, which is why Bai Yu said that she was taking a gamble.

By the time the ambulance arrived, Bai Yu was already losing consciousness and felt weak all over. Lin Ying and Si Yu had to carry her downstairs beforehand.

The ambulance rushed her to the hospital for emergency treatment. Bai Yu had suffered severe blood loss and was already unconscious when she arrived.

Lin Ying and Si Yu were both crying anxiously, but neither of them were doctors, and all they could do was wait and ask the doctor for help.

Bai Yu's type O blood is relatively easy to match with. Lin Ying is also type O, and she donated blood to Bai Yu once.

Even when Bai Yu fell into a coma, she didn't worry about whether she would live or die; instead, a smile remained on her lips.

Doctors who saw him all thought he was crazy; he was laughing even after cutting his wrists.

Chapter Forty-Four: The Foolish Landlady

Time passed by, and it was already three or four in the morning when Bai Yu woke up.

The hospital was unusually quiet at this time of day; the only sounds were the dripping of IV fluids and the buzzing of old light bulbs with unstable current outside in the corridor.

Opening her eyes groggily, Bai Yu stared at the unfamiliar ceiling, unaware that she was in a hospital; her mind was still stuck in the state before she fainted.

He moved his fingers, and the icy touch made him look at the thing connected to his hand.

However, the moment Bai Yu saw the IV bottle, she also saw Lin Ying sleeping soundly next to her.