I really don't want to be reborn.

If two people are mutually attracted, having sex right now wouldn't be a big deal. But Kyosuke feels it's too fast. Isn't the most charming thing about love that ambiguous period before the relationship is officially established?

Yes, if we still have to use pooping as an analogy, the most pleasurable time is during the brief moment before pooping, while afterwards there's a strange emptiness.

Once the relationship is established, will the romance still be as wonderful as it is now?

he does not know.

He has liked other people and been liked by others, but he has never been in a romantic relationship.

Who says you can only have a relationship if you're not a virgin?

I'm not a virgin yet!

Haven't I ever been in a relationship either?

On the other hand, men who don't have a very satisfying first night actually don't have much interest in sex or a strong need for it—and this situation arises when emotional needs outweigh physical needs.

In your usual terms, we would call him a "herbivore man".

"It's nothing, hehe, I was just a little happy. My neighbor just praised my child, saying, 'Your child is so smart!'"

"What's wrong with that? When I was a kid, wasn't I also considered a role model for everyone within a 30-mile radius? I think you should be used to it by now, right? It's a little embarrassing to say, but how was I praised today at your old ladies' well-side meeting?"

Jia Nai's mother was in a good mood and didn't bother arguing with her sharp-tongued son: "Of course I wasn't referring to you. What's so praiseworthy about you?"

"Hmm, so it's Kirino..."

Okay, okay, son, I'm so sorry for not being able to do it!

come on!

Please tell me about your daughter, whom you are very proud of.

Let's talk about it like a peddler selling melons!

"Kirino, it seems like you set a really impressive record at yesterday's club activity. You're going to be performing at the tournament, the lady next door heard that from her daughter."

Kyosuke, however, was not happy. He was only worried: "But that girl, I remember she seems to be quite busy. Does she have the time?"

"There's nothing we can do about it. They're both working really hard. Otherwise, your dad wouldn't have agreed to Kirino becoming a magazine model."

Yes, my father is indeed a conservative person.

"Didn't that child make an agreement with your father before, that while he could be willful, she also had to do well in her studies? And now they've made the same agreement—"

His mother seemed to have let something slip and quickly stopped herself, but the sudden halt in her voice made Kyosuke slowly frown: "What did we agree on now?"

"It's nothing, it's nothing!"

Mom smiled happily: "Anyway, the neighbors speak very highly of the child. He's friendly, knows how to greet people, and is just as cute as I am."

"rua!"

Yoshino's mother remained completely unmoved by his sarcastic tone and embarrassing words, continuing to praise her daughter with a pride that seemed even stronger than when Kyosuke had won first place in the entire prefecture's junior high school.

Well, that's probably the difference between sons and daughters.

Boys always seem to suffer a little more.

He listened with "uh-huh" sounds for a while, then asked if he could hang up, as he still needed to write!

"Write, write, write! All you ever do is write!"

"Dad works every day, why don't you say anything to him?"

Jia Nai's mother scoffed at her son: "The question is, what about your salary? What are you eating these days?"

"Roujiamo (Chinese hamburger)".

"Wow, is that lettuce?"

Kyosuke Kosaka was in a huge embarrassment. Most of the money he earned from submitting short stories went to his rent and utilities, and he also bought the best ingredients. He couldn't possibly expect the girl to eat vegetarian food with him, could he?

So his mother was right; he's actually struggling financially right now.

Don't panic!

The royalties from Dengeki Bunko will come next month, so we can manage.

Besides, what's wrong with me eating roujiamo (Chinese hamburger) with lettuce?

What happened? What happened?! Last week he was serving shredded potatoes!

It's clearly been upgraded this week!

Next month it will probably be ham sausages, so there's absolutely no problem!

He was just resentful because his mother kept praising Kirino. To be honest, it's not really fun for an older brother to only have his younger sister being praised all the time.

Kyosuke pondered with a complicated expression, but his mother's next words surprised him: "That kid's been having a brighter expression lately, well, I don't know if you, as his older brother, have noticed."

"what?"

"It must be that...boyfriend! Kyosuke, do you know anything about this?"

"Boy...boyfriend?"

He seemed a little dizzy, as if he had been electrocuted, and his hair stood on end slightly. He wasn't angry or jealous, but rather somewhat bewildered.

The room seemed to have turned into a ship's cabin, making me feel a little dizzy.

Does that girl he used to hug, the one he used to carry around like a mouse carrying a big rice dumpling, have a boyfriend now?

"No way……"

"Of course! She must have gotten a boyfriend, that's why she's smiling so brightly."

He ended the call, slowly lowered his hand, but his mood did not become calm and peaceful; instead, it became increasingly irritable as time went on.

Kyosuke Kosaka does not acknowledge this agitation and is unwilling to trace the source of this emotion.

In those eyes that had seen all the ways of the world, there was a hidden, distinct flutter of emotion.

That was the mortal world before it had been seen through.

With mixed feelings, Kyosuke sat there from dusk until eight o'clock, but no light could be seen because it was raining outside.

The upcoming rainy season in June holds too many thoughts.

Quiet during the day, drizzling at night.

He quickly ate something to fill his stomach, and only then did he remember that he still had his cell phone. He immediately called his sister and casually inquired about Kirino's recent situation.

Finally, he asked directly, "You're not in a relationship, right?"

"...Why would I want to be in a relationship? It's ridiculous."

The younger sister's impatient voice became somewhat innocent, like a light mist rising from a powder puff on her cheek.

"Um...it's nothing."

Stretching, Kyosuke thought for a moment and finally pulled out a game that Gennosuke Miura had been forcibly recommending: "My Brother's Panties"—he had no intention of knowing the game's full name.

Having finally completed a route before going to sleep, Kyosuke sighed as he got up, the lingering sense of accomplishment gradually turning into an indescribable emptiness.

That's right, no matter what game it is, what follows is an unusual sense of emptiness, just like a man's post-coital period, where he completely doesn't understand why he was so excited before.

I've also forgotten why I felt inexplicably palpitated and lost before.

Once you understand this, you'll realize that the initial feelings are immature, and what you have now is more important. Intimacy should be categorized, with one category on this side and another on that side, like two roads that don't interfere with each other.

He is now on the right path, so the other path seems rather desolate and barren.

So, Kirino can only be a younger sister...?

He is now sleeping soundly because June is about to begin.

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It's really hard to describe the complex feelings of wanting to part with his younger sister.

I feel terrible! I hate it! (Funny)

Sneezing more than a dozen times in a row is awful; this is probably what happens when you're never in a relationship.

I wonder who will become my first love.

(Sitting posture is dignified)

Chapter Twenty-Three: Strong Sunlight, Gentle Ripples

The sky was overcast, as if coated with a layer of OO.

June mornings come early, and Kyosuke, whose health has improved, gets up early. To avoid worrying his family and friends, he rarely stays up late these days.

Getting up early is naturally so that we can eat earlier.

There were no classes today, and Kasumigaoka Utaha seemed to be at home working on an outline. Kousaka Kyosuke decided to go out for some exercise this morning and then stay home all day.

Typing!

Writing is not only hard work, but also very lonely. Being able to endure this loneliness is the key to success, and Kyosuke Kosaka can certainly endure it. As for why the two of them don't write together, it's because they know very well that if they were together, they wouldn't have the mind to conceive a novel at all.

They tacitly kept their feelings hidden in their hearts, tacitly restrained their emotions, and then gradually let them out after a period of accumulation, just like the three cascading waves of the Yangtze River.

Compared to couples who are inseparable day and night, Kyosuke Kousaka and Utaha Kasumigaoka's current approach seems more exciting—although they don't admit they're in a relationship.

By the time the meal was ready, the sun had already risen above the horizon. He opened the window and carefully admired the sunrise. Gu Cheng wrote in "Comfort": "Don't add sugar, on the morning fence, there is a sweet, red sun."

This sweetness is really interesting. He squinted his eyes and thought about his current life, and he felt that it was sweet too.

I put the lid on the millet porridge and waited about twenty minutes before coming back. It was ready to eat then. Although it's not that you can't eat something as hot as a cat's tongue, you still need to be careful not to eat it too hot.

They are more prone to esophageal cancer.

Although Gao is unlikely to die no matter what, it's best to avoid illness if possible.

After buying some sweets from a wagashi shop called Houmura to eat with his meal, Kyosuke Kosaka felt a pang of regret that Japan didn't have Lao Gan Ma (a popular chili sauce brand). He greeted the proprietress and even winked at Guoguo, who was rubbing her eyes early in the morning.

"Guoguo is up so early?"

This very ordinary greeting actually made Guoguo's round face turn bright red, and she shyly ran back into the house, leaving Kyosuke completely confused. He wondered, "What's going on? I didn't offend her."

Guoguo's mother chuckled dryly, her gaze towards Kyosuke seemingly carrying a hint of malice and a slight scrutiny: "I guess... he's just going through puberty."

"Oh, right, my younger sister is like that too. She always does things for no apparent reason. We really need to be careful at this age..."