I really don't want to be reborn.

But... why is this guy named Aragaki hostile to me?

We all have long, straight black hair, so why are you hostile towards me?

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Chapter 42 Should We Be Together?

"Hello, Miss Xiaotongtong."

I am the administrator of this group 'Let's unite, homebodies', my nickname is Saori. I have approved your application. We are so similar in age and interests, I'm sure we can become good friends.

If you're interested, please attend the tea party scheduled for the next few days. I'd like to have a good chat with you, and with Mr. Black Cat..."

His eyes were fixed on his sister's pink notebook, on the few lines of text on the screen, and he thought to himself, "Kisaka Kirino, you called me here so solemnly tonight for a life consultation just for this?"

Since meeting Kuroneko, Kirino seems to have opened the door to a new world; they seem to be developing their relationship through mutual insults.

The most heartbreaking thing between people is to suffer annoyance and harm in a place where you think you should receive kindness and friendship—conversely, if they are polite to each other while annoying each other, there probably isn't much kindness and friendship left.

Kyosuke Kosaka thought that the relationship between his sister and her otaku friends could probably be summarized with this sentence: "We love each other, which is to rid the world of evil."

Oh, that sentence actually suits him and Kasumigaoka Utaha better.

Then, the black cat introduced Kirino to a otaku community she had joined, which led to tonight's events.

"His nickname is Saori... Judging from his wording, this administrator seems to be a very polite person."

Indeed, from this reply, Kousaka Kyosuke seemed to sense an aura of a sheltered young lady.

It didn't sound like something a shut-in girl who spends all day picking her toes, rubbing her feet, and eating instant noodles would say. It was too elegant, which made it seem a bit out of place. My intuition told me that this must be a beautiful young woman.

"Actually, I usually have a good impression of girls named Saori."

(Declaration: I live just to see Saori Hayami!)

Kirino Kousaka didn't understand why her brother had a Saori complex. She thought he was just being playful and said nonchalantly, "Probably. The refreshing rich girl type? I can't imagine it, because there's no one like that in my class."

He remained silent. Based on some information his sister had previously leaked, he knew that her friends were mostly the flamboyant, Shibuya-style girls—beautiful and fashionable. Birds of a feather flock together, as the saying goes.

Just like most of his real friends are literary youths.

The reason why Akagi Kohei was so close to him was naturally because they both had younger sisters...

Kyosuke pointed to the computer screen: "You want to participate?"

"...Yes, I want to go."

Although she said she wanted to go, Kirino nodded very reluctantly.

Is that what you're thinking?

My sister is really lonely.

Want to find a girl who also likes Meruru?

"It seems the black cat can no longer satisfy you, Kirino."

"Stop nagging! You come along too!"

Kyosuke pointed at himself in astonishment, his surprised expression slowly turning into a smile: "So, what's the reason?"

Kirino looked at him irritably: "What reason do we need to go to the offline event together?"

"A reason is needed."

He paused for a moment: "It's one thing at home, and it's another thing outside. I don't know the reason, but I'm very clear that you're unhappy every time we go out."

Kirino's rosy cheeks turned pale instantly.

Yes, that's true. She was unhappy every time she went out with her brother, not because she didn't like him. She liked him terribly!

Liking someone means being happy when you're together.

To love someone is to want to be with them even when you're unhappy.

Kirino believes she loves her brother.

But when she was away from her family and other people, she couldn't help but want to tell him about this incestuous love.

That kind of endurance is even more painful than holding back tears.

Cry!

But she knew that if she spoke out, their relationship would inevitably change—it could be heaven or it could be the abyss. So she timidly continued to endure, which made her suffer more and more.

That's the reason, but how can I say it out loud?

Kousaka Kyosuke stared at his sister's pale face, his eyes devoid of any emotion, and simply asked again, "Are you sure you want me to come with you?"

Kirino nodded slightly, then nodded heavily a few times, pouting as if nothing was wrong and complaining, "...Why aren't you one of those cross-dressers? If you were like Mizuho-neechan, I wouldn't have to worry so much."

As soon as he finished speaking, he was unsurprisingly hit hard on the head.

The element of cross-dressing actually began to appear in Japan in the 1990s with Ranma 1/2. After entering the 1990s, the term "new half" began to appear, which refers to comedians who deliberately dress as men and cross-dressers.

At the time, most of these people used their appearance and gender reversal as a selling point. Before 2000, cross-dressers were included in the concept of ladyboys. After that, the cross-dressing factor began to stand alone.

The male protagonist of "Pretty Face," which began serialization in Weekly Shonen Jump in 2002, is a well-known cross-dressing character. Tadakuni-chan, who likes to wear his sister's panties and bras, will probably not appear for another four years, while Kiriko-chan, who uses two swords, will probably appear for another five years (in Phantom Bullet).

Currently, the most famous crossdressing character in anime comes from the 18+ game "Otome wa Boku ni Koishiteru" released in January of this year, featuring the protagonist Miyakoji Mizuho, ​​which is why Kirino said what she did earlier.

"I never imagined you'd be so enthusiastic about crossdressing games. You're actually this kind of person."

"You're probably no better off than me if you know this!"

Kirino crossed her arms, frowned, and offered a terrible idea: "Or, I could talk to Saori and say, 'An acquaintance of mine is insisting on attending an all-girls offline gathering, and no matter how I try to persuade him, he won't listen. He looks so pitiful, could I bring him?'"

"I'll definitely be looked down upon like a paramecium then!"

Kyosuke wouldn't have it. It was a gathering of girls, and if he really went in shamelessly as this guy suggested, he'd just be asking for trouble.

"This won't do, that won't do, do I have to slap you three times, and then you come to my room in the middle of the night—"

"Shut up! Stop insulting Journey to the West! Haven't I been in your room countless times in the middle of the night?"

Unable to insult Journey to the West any further, Kirino bit her lower lip unhappily and glared at him, saying, "Then what do you suggest? Are you going to make me go alone?"

"Don't you have your black cat with you?"

He waved his hand to stop his sister, saying, "Let's talk about it on that day. Maybe I'll have something to do and won't be able to go."

"How could this happen!"

She angrily pounded the bed, extremely angry.

When that bastard says he's "having something to do," he usually means he's going out with that woman from Kasumigaoka!

She's so angry!

Kyosuke Kosaka opened his computer and wrote an interesting remark in the chat window with the head of the literature club: "Living together as a couple is not an art, it's like building the Great Wall."

Kasumigaoka Utaha's reply was also quite interesting: "Be careful someone cries down your Great Wall."

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Be cute before you eat!

Chapter Forty-Three: Grandma! I'll eat my words if she doesn't die from nursing!

"Oh, this is terrible!"

The person who had been muttering to himself early in the morning tossed and turned in bed for more than ten minutes before finally sitting up slowly to greet the morning light.

The morning light shone through the gaps in the curtains, casting a faint pink hue on the white wall, a color like the pink snowflakes in his dream last night, sometimes rapid, sometimes melodious.

Cherry blossoms in the snow, petals falling in profusion.

I dreamt of a woman, and I dreamt of marriage.

Kyosuke Kousaka dreamt that he got married, and he vaguely remembered that the bride was Akagi... Oh, I misspoke, he vaguely remembered that the bride was Kasumigaoka Utaha.

As far as the object of his affections is concerned, this is within his acceptable range. To put it bluntly, rather than saying he can accept it, it's more accurate to say that he genuinely likes Kasumigaoka Utaha as an individual. In his long life, he has encountered women who are more beautiful, have stronger temperaments, and have a more intense presence.

However, if he absolutely had to choose someone to live with, he would choose that cunning and sharp-tongued female intellectual without hesitation.

Compatibility between two people is a feeling, not a visual one.

but!

That's terrible!

The problem isn't the girl, it's the marriage itself.

He knew very well that he only had four years left, and that everything would have to start all over again after that. So Kyosuke Kosaka just wanted to enjoy these four years, to enjoy life, to enjoy his love, and to enjoy so many other things.

Unfortunately, he couldn't enjoy marriage.

Marriage is really just like that. No matter how passionate and intense the romance is, it will all fade away after three to five years. After get off work, you'll turn on the TV and watch dramas together. That's what marriage is like.

He is not interested in marriage.

He never considered this question in the world of endless cycles.

Kyosuke Kousaka seeks a pure and perfect love.

That kind of love is best described in Haruki Murakami's words.

Now, if I tell you I want strawberry cake, you drop everything, run to buy it for me, and then come back panting and say, "A-Lu! Look! Strawberry cake!"

Place it in front of me.

But I would say, "Hmph! I don't want to eat it now!"

Then they threw the cake out the window.

This is the kind of love he wants.

Kyosuke Kosaka opened the window, letting in the breeze that had lingered all night. His eyes were filled with a complex emotion: "Looking at it this way, if I want to be in a relationship but not get married, would I be considered a scumbag who plays with a young girl's feelings and body?"