My deskmate is actually my yandere reader.

"Chiren, why did we become like this..." Kurose Izumi murmured softly, her head lowered, her face filled with complex emotions.

Just saying that one sentence took him all his strength; he had been trying his best to suppress the surging emotions in his heart.

He knew perfectly well that his current situation with Shiraishi Chiren was no different from that of arguing.

"Quan, don't think so much, okay? I already said..."

Kurose Izumi suddenly raised her head, looked at Shiraishi Chiren, and interrupted painfully, "Chiren, tell me, what are you hiding? Please, don't go on like this, it's not good for any of us."

His voice trembled as he said this, as did his heart.

Kurose Izumi could no longer tolerate the atmosphere.

He wanted to know what Shiraishi Chiren was hiding and why he couldn't tell her.

Why should he believe it, yet have to show such a sad and embarrassed expression?

just like……

It was as if Shiraishi Chiren had done something that he could not forgive.

"..."

Chiharu Shiraishi stared at Izumi Kurose in silence, unable to respond to his words.

"Tell me, okay? Tell me everything you've been hiding from me, everything you feel guilty about, okay?"

Kurose Izumi looked at her with an almost sorrowful gaze, as if she were drowning and unable to breathe.

"I... don't know how to say it." Shiraishi Chiren lowered her head, her eyes filled with unspeakable sorrow.

She unconsciously pursed her lips and clenched her hands.

But it was just holding on tightly.

There, there should have been a hand, a little bigger than hers, intertwined with hers and held tightly, just like always.

But now, my empty hands can no longer feel that warmth, solidity, and peace of mind...

"Just tell me... that you're Kuchiki Touko, isn't that enough?" Kurose Izumi looked at Shiraishi Chiren and suddenly smiled bitterly.

During those two sleepless nights, he finally understood.

The person he exchanged messages with that night was not Hirasawa Shinbu, but Shiraishi Chiren.

How could he not tell the difference?

Although Hirasawa Masato appeared to be in a hurry in the afternoon, he became evasive when questioned afterwards.

In fact, many times if you think about it, you can find out what's wrong.

Hirasawa Shinbu had said long ago that he could find out Kuchiki Touko's identity within a week, but nothing came of it after that.

Then, she desperately tried to tell him something.

From this point on, Shiraishi Chiren suddenly started sending messages and her attitude became strange...

Also, she's good with computers, she likes black, she's very capable, she's very special...

Most importantly—why did Shiraishi Chire happen to be nowhere to be seen or have left for some reason when Kuchiki Touko appeared?

When Kuchiki Touko went out to buy groceries, Shiraishi Chiren came to his rescue and offered her a helping hand.

Kuchiki Touko launched a night attack, and Shiraishi Chiren was injured, but the police station had no leads for a long time;

Fuyuko Kuchiki asked to meet him again, while Chire Shiraishi stayed with her mother.

Speaking of this, Kurose Izumi received a message from Shiraishi's mother last night, and learned that Shiraishi Chirei had returned home in the evening.

Shiraishi Chiren knew about this—which was the key reason why she gave up struggling.

In fact, she had already told her mother in advance that if Kurose Izumi asked, she should say that she had been there all day that day.

Unexpectedly, Shiraishi's mother suddenly changed her mind.

Perhaps this is also a punishment imposed on her for her dissatisfaction.

In order to coerce Izumi Kurose, Chire Shiraishi used her mother as a tool, saying she wanted to meet her, but then leaving early afterward.

"Qian Lian." (Important Note: If readers cannot open the old domain txt80.com, they can access this site through the alternative domain txt8080.com.)

Kurose Izumi looked at Shiraishi Chiren with sorrow and said, word by word, "Remember, the person named Kurose Izumi is not a fool, but she is foolishly believing in the person named Shiraishi Chiren because I love you."

If it weren't for the experiences of the past few days, Izumi Kurose wouldn't have suspected that Chire Shiraishi was Touko Kuchiki.

There was no particular reason, just because I loved her deeply.

People who fall in love are very blind.

118. The Bewildered Kurose Izumi (Bonus Chapter for the Alliance Leader)

These words struck Shiraishi Chiren's heart like a heavy hammer.

Only then did she finally give up her futile struggle.

"Yes, I am Kuchiki Fuyuko."

Upon seeing Shiraishi Chiren admit it, Kurose Izumi's face couldn't help but show despair and disbelief.

He rolled his throat, trying to say something, but it was as if someone was choking him, and he couldn't say anything.

"...Why did you do this?"

After a long while, he managed to squeeze out a trembling sentence from his dry throat.

Kurose Izumi looked at Shiraishi Chiren with a dull and desperate gaze. The world before her seemed to have lost its color, becoming empty and uninteresting.

The beauty of the past has shattered and come to an end.

At the moment when the image of "Kushiki Touko" overlapped with that of Shiraishi Chiren, no one knew how much pain he was in.

The emotions that had been suppressed for so long erupted at this moment. Boundless bitterness and a sense of betrayal overwhelmed Kurose Izumi, consuming him completely.

It was as if I had been isolated from the world, and all the sounds around me had disappeared.

The colors that the eyes could see were taken away, breathing stopped, and the hands and feet began to tremble uncontrollably.

—The feeling of being betrayed by her beloved was so painful that Izumi Kurose could hardly breathe and could hardly bear it.

When confronted with his question, Shiraishi Chiren merely moved her lips and uttered something even more unacceptable to him:

"I... just love you from the bottom of my heart, hopelessly."

ridiculous.

That's absolutely ridiculous.

At this point, how could Izumi Kurose believe Chire Shiraishi's words?

Wasn't everything she built all for the ending of "The Abyss of Youth"?

Isn't that how things started?

What special thing or quality does he have that makes someone as dazzling and outstanding as Shiraishi Chire fall in love with him?

Kurose Izumi told herself in her heart—the dream is over.

Everything that happened between him and Shiraishi Chire was nothing more than a beautiful dream.

The reality is that Shiraishi Chiren deceived and manipulated him, without considering his feelings.

If you love him, why do things that will make him sad and desperate?

Kurose Izumi could not understand Shiraishi Chiren's love, nor could she comprehend it.

The kind of love he understands is not making the other person feel embarrassed or doing things they don't want to do.

Shiraishi Chiren is twisted. She doesn't love herself; she only loves what she writes.

Thinking of this, Kurose Izumi raised her head, took a deep breath, and forcefully suppressed the surging emotions in her heart.

"Two days, I'll give you two days to move out!"

At this moment, Kurose Izumi's voice was no longer sorrowful or trembling, but calm.

—But it was eerily calm.

Those overwhelming emotions were all subdued, as if they had never been stirred up at all.

"spring……"

"Move away."

Kurose Izumi ruthlessly interrupted Shiraishi Chire—he didn't even know how many times he had interrupted her today.

In the past, he would patiently listen to Shiraishi Chiren finish speaking.

But now, he no longer has that thought.

"Quan, don't do this."

Shiraishi Chiren shook her head and reached out to grab Kurose Izumi's hand, but he stepped back to avoid her.

This action surprised her.

click-

At the same time, something shattered in the darkness.

Perhaps their relationship has developed cracks; or perhaps, a heart has broken.

"Let's give each other some time to calm down," Kurose Izumi said, then turned and walked away into the reddening sky.

Shiraishi Chiren watched the departing figure, her expression as forlorn and lonely as his.

"Forgive me, Izumi, I... I really just... love you..."

The murmured self-talk was scattered and blurred by a sudden gust of wind.

Who hasn’t heard this whisper?

Even she herself couldn't listen.

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