Jobless Reincarnation: The King with a Mental Problem

【after a while】

[Trevor's Perspective]

After escaping from there with Aisha, they had no idea what to do next.

Without direction, without purpose, I simply left that place instinctively...

The wind blew past her ears, and Aisha huddled in his arms, her small body curled up in a ball.

I really didn't want anyone to bother us, so I flew deep into the oasis and landed under a tree by a lake.

I held Aisha, not knowing what to say.

Because I felt that anything I said would be an excuse, a lie, I didn't say anything, I just held her tighter...

Aisha held back her tears, gave a pitiful, bitter smile, and then looked up at me...

Those green eyes were red and swollen, and her once beautiful reddish-brown hair was soaked with what looked like tears or sweat, and was disheveled.

Her face was small, with a pointed chin, and she looked especially pitiful in the dappled sunlight filtering through the trees.

Finally... it was Aisha who spoke first...

"sorry......"

"What are you sorry for... You didn't do anything wrong..."

"No...it's all my fault..."

Aisha shook her head, then turned her face to the side, her expression darkening, not at all like a four or five-year-old child.

"Before... before all of this happened... Dad came back specifically to see me and told me to stay home obediently... but... but I ran away... causing you trouble..."

but......

When Nina and Norren said they were going to find Paul...

I looked at Norren and he looked really awkward.

Norren was so worried about his father, while I was enjoying myself at home.

To others, it seems like I don't love my father nearly as much as she does.

But that's not how it works...

I'm so worried about you...

I just didn't want the atmosphere to get too tense, so I pretended everything was fine...

So after Nina and Norren made their suggestion, I came out with them...

I was worried something had happened to you...

Aisha sat on my lap with her back to me, so I couldn't see her expression. I could only hug her from behind and listen to her cry and tell me about her grievances.

"I'd like to help too..."

She paused here, then immediately shook her head.

"No...that's just an excuse."

As she spoke, her shoulders began to tremble again.

"I just... wanted to see you sooner, wanted to spend more time with you, but now I've only caused you trouble..."

I held her small hand and rubbed it in my palm again and again. Her hand was small and cool, with slender fingers, like a newly sprouted twig.

However, I now have some calluses that only appear when practicing swordsmanship.

Every word she said struck the softest spot in my heart...

"You don't need to be so mature, you're still just a child..."

"But...you are too..."

"..."

"Besides... I'm not your biological child..."

"I told you you don't need to be so clever..."

"I know... I did the same thing before... After all, your relationship with your mother has always been so awkward."

Our family is different from other families...

Between you and your mother... you're very gentle with her, but that's about it...

Forget about love, status, or lust; they barely even speak...

I really didn't want to think about it before...

Just like you said, it's better to be a little slow...

That way we can be happy for a little longer...

"Yes... if that's the case, we can be happy for a little longer..."

She paused for a moment, and I felt my heart tighten.

"If I'm a burden to you... then we can end this inexplicable relationship..."

As soon as the words left her mouth, tears streamed down Aisha's face again, landing on her knees which she was hugging, forming dark dots.

"No! How could you be a burden?!"

I blurted it out almost without thinking, but my voice was even hoarser than I had expected.

Xia didn't respond to me, but just continued talking to herself, pouring out all the grievances she had been holding back for a long time.

"After you bought the house in Sharia, you barely lived there for more than a few days..."

My mother and I have always stayed in the world you prepared for us, always stayed at home.

I don't think that place is small, because there are always many interesting things hidden in the house.

You've prepared knowledge, stories, toys, everything for me...

When I was home alone, I searched through everything in the house, especially your study...

There's always something there that relates to you...

Looking at the portraits you drew of me as a child, and the notes you wrote about how you took care of me as a baby, makes me feel closer to you...

Her voice softened, as if she were recalling something warm.

"Looking at those things makes me so happy..."

Then that little bit of warmth faded away.

"But...not everything there brings happiness..."

I know you like that blue-haired teacher, Ms. Luo Qixi; after all, you have her portrait and figurines in your study...

I just didn't expect you to like it so much, until I saw those letters from Sister Sylphie..."

"letter?"

"Hmm... the letter you wrote is really embarrassing..."

"I'm sorry..."

Aisha seemed to laugh in exasperation and let out a sigh.

"At the time, I didn't really want to think about it, but that watermelon-headed bastard from the Kingdom of Xilong... he said some really awful things..."

She said I was just a bastard you adopted on a whim...

When you want to pursue Luo Qixi and I'm in your way, you'll just throw me away...

I was really sad at that time...

I want to say that you love me.......

Her voice suddenly rose in pitch.

"But why did Alucard come?!"

The birds in the woods were startled and flew away in a flurry.

"sorry......"

"When we were trapped in the Kingdom of Shilon, I kept fantasizing that if you found out, you would immediately come and rescue us. I waited for so, so long..."

She flung my hand aside and clutched her clothes tightly.

"In the end... everyone came... except you!!!"

"sorry......"

I wanted to apologize to Aisha, but all I could manage to utter were these three powerless words...

And Aisha rejected my apology...

"Don't say sorry... I know... Dad, you're smart and capable, you must have your reasons."

For example, your mother's and Luo Qixi's place is more dangerous, more convenient, more reasonable, etc...

But... I'm still so sad...

Because I feel that you chose to go to Senis and Lokishi instead of me...

Silly Noren was being held by Paul, and Nina was being held by Uncle Gar; they all looked so happy.

I'm so jealous, so sad...

Because I felt like I was the only one who was left behind...

You left me behind...

"sorry......"

"I was really angry at the time... I wanted to see you, to ask you face to face whether I was important to you or not."

if......

If I am an obstacle to your pursuit of happiness... I am willing to end it...

After all, Dad, you always taught me to think more about others...