A miraculous doctor descended from the heavens.

Gu Feng unfolded the letter with trembling hands. The familiar, delicate handwriting came into view, and the mottled, long-dried tear stains on the letter made his heart clench.

In a daze, he seemed to see Peng Liangpei sitting by the window, writing these words while shedding tears.

枫：

My dear, by the time you read this letter, I will probably be in a faraway foreign land.

As I write this letter to you, your voice and smile appear before my eyes again, reminding me of the day we first met.

Do you know what? I felt so embarrassed and helpless on the bus that day.

That sleazy man made me tremble with anger, but I dared not utter a sound.

Not a single person on the bus was willing to stand up and say a word for me.

At that moment, I was truly heartbroken and furious.

Just when I was about to despair of this cold and indifferent world, you appeared and rekindled a glimmer of light in my heart.

Haha, thinking back to the pen you handed me, and the "bloodshed" I caused later, I still feel a little uneasy when I think about it.

I can't believe that I, who wouldn't even step on an ant, could actually stab someone so badly.

But that person... he was truly despicable, and he really brought it upon himself.

From that moment on, your image was deeply etched in my heart.

That day, I really wanted to thank you in person.

Seeing that person was bleeding so much, and with their people all around, I was really scared.

As soon as the bus stopped, I slipped away. Darling, please forgive my cowardice, okay? Because later, I finally tasted the bitter fruit of my timidity—not being able to say "thank you" to you in person became a knot in my heart.

Every time I see the pen cap you left behind, I'm reminded of the time you saved me, and I feel incredibly guilty.

Later, I mustered up my courage, put my hair up, wore a hat and sunglasses, and took that bus several times, but I never saw you again.

After that, I thought I would never see you again, and it would probably be another regret in my life. But fate is kind after all, and that day, I met you again.

When I ran to the pavilion to take shelter from the rain, all the boys looked at me with burning eyes.

You alone, like a crane standing among chickens, stood quietly in a corner, ignoring my presence.

My confidence was really shaken at the time.

But when I saw your face clearly, I was overjoyed—because you are the benefactor I had been searching for everywhere.

I'm not good with words, but I tried every way to strike up a conversation with you, and that's when I finally learned that the person who had always been on my mind was named Gu Feng.

If it's a bit of a stretch to consider the incident on the bus as a favor, then after you brought my father, who had done something shameful, back to life, it's not at all like that.

I was so ashamed of what I did, but you never looked at me differently because of it.

To my surprise, from that day on, my heart began to fall for you little by little...

As your classmate and deskmate, being able to be so close to you, smelling your reassuring scent all the time, and seeing your handsome profile.

Do you know? Back then, a smile from you, a casual glance, or a careless remark could send shivers down my spine.

Because of your appearance, I finally understood the meaning of love for the first time in my life, tasted the feeling of love, knew what the expectation of love is, and also experienced the hardship, sweetness, and heartache of love.

Yet I was so willing, without any regrets, to be immersed in this relationship that I knew might have no future.

Your kiss was like a lock, locking my heart away.

From that moment on, I could only see you, and I could no longer see anyone else.

I love your gentleness towards me, and I also love the way you look when I "bully" you, both aggrieved and happy.

Even though I know there are other women around you, I still can't control my heart. I always want to get closer to you little by little, regardless of anything else, like I'm bewitched.

Until that day, in front of the police station, you kissed that woman passionately, the woman I had always known existed.

Do you know what? In that instant, it felt like my heart was being ripped apart.

I felt the air around me being sucked away bit by bit, so thin that I couldn't breathe.

The pain and bitterness in my heart caused those fragile tears to well up uncontrollably.

I'm sorry, darling.

That scene was so bloody that I can no longer convince myself that I don't care if there are other people around you.

Because I love you, I really care, I care so much.

And I could only watch helplessly as you embraced and kissed someone else deeply, completely powerless to do anything about it.

After falling in love with you, I became more and more selfish.

My possessiveness makes me want to have your heart all to myself, I just want you to have only me in your heart...

Once, ten times, twenty times, thirty times... countless times, no matter how much I give in your eyes, you still seem unable to see my efforts.

When you're with someone you like, you can't see or hear anything else.

My heart and eyes are only for the other person. You can't see me.

I've been deceiving myself, making up all sorts of fake reasons for myself.

Because I can't bring myself to do it, I can't bear to.

I can't bear to part with you, I can't bear to part with this relationship that seems to be coming to an end before it even really started.

Every day, I am tormented by the interplay of pain and pleasure.

When I see you, with you by my side, I am happy; but when you are not here, I am in pain...

Feng, I really love you so much.

Since I met you, I've been having the same dream.

I dreamt that we had both graduated, and I was wearing a white wedding dress, holding your hand as we walked into the hall.

I'll give you lots and lots of children, and in our little courtyard, I'll stand by, smiling as I watch you and our children play on the swings...

But I know how naive and childish my dream is, because it will probably never come true.

Now that I think about it, when exactly did I fall in love with you?

I've been pondering this for a long time, but I still can't figure out how all of this happened.

Maybe it was the time you saved me on the bus.

Perhaps it was that rainy day, the moment I saw you in the pavilion.

Perhaps it was that moment when we fell on the horizontal bar and you landed on top of me.

Maybe it was that day in the movie theater, when you kissed me for the first time and hugged me for the first time.

Perhaps it was fate's arrangement that I fell in love with you the moment our eyes met for the first time.

Thinking back on every moment we spent together, tears keep falling.

When I reminisce, my heart feels like it's being gripped tightly. The more I think about it, the tighter the grip becomes, and the more it hurts and the more painful it becomes.

Tears blurred my vision; sobs made it hard to breathe; and heartache left me feeling utterly helpless.

I hate myself, I hate that I can't be ruthless enough to sever this relationship.

My heart can't lie to itself. If I truly love you, I must give you freedom and accept the presence of other women in your life. Even though I know that loving you is like a moth drawn to a flame, and even if I get burned and scarred, I will still rush headlong into your glow without regret.

Love is such a torturous thing.

When I was sick that day, I even thought about just dying quietly.

Death would probably free one from all suffering.

But when I woke up and saw you just sitting there by my bedside, taking care of me, I felt so happy, and I didn't want to die at all.

The past few days have probably been the happiest time of my life.

With you watching over me and spoiling me, I feel so warm nestled in your arms.

If I hadn't accidentally glimpsed the plane ticket in the drawer, I would have completely forgotten that I was leaving today.

This is probably what people mean by "being so happy that one forgets one's homeland".

Dreams are so beautiful, breathtakingly beautiful, yet equally heartbreaking. Because dreams, sooner or later, will end.

Now, I have to face reality again.

From the moment I met you, I knew you didn't belong to me; there were other women around you.

But when I saw you again at school, I couldn't help myself, and without hesitation, I ran towards you.

Even if time could turn back and everything could start over, I think I would still do the same thing: run to your side without a second thought and throw myself into your arms.

Feng, I don't hate you, I never have.

Whether in the past or now.

Although I've said that I hate you, what I really want to say is that I love you.

Now, I wish time could turn back to the past.

During class, I can see you with just a casual turn of my head.

Do you know how happy I was during those days? My heart was always heavy with a sense of peace and contentment, and I always had sweet dreams at night.

The clock on the wall ticked away.

My steps toward leaving have already begun, and I can no longer stop.

My father was shouting at me from the living room, urging me to hurry up, saying that if I didn't leave soon I would miss my flight.

It's really time to go.

Even though I'm a thousand times reluctant to leave, I still have to go.

Although you've had other women around you for a long time, for some reason, I just can't bring myself to hate you, nor do I think you're fickle or promiscuous.

In my heart, you have always been so perfect, like my guardian angel.

My dear, even though I'm leaving, please don't be sad for me, okay?

I just want a change of environment, a change of way of life, a change of... world without you.

Honey, please give me some time, okay?

I want to calm down and think things through properly, and see how much you really mean to me.

If you're truly irreplaceable, then I'll succumb to you, I'll drown in you, and even if it's a cliff, I'll jump with you. But now, please allow me to struggle a little longer, okay?

Caterpillars must take the final step to emerge from their cocoons and become butterflies.

Maple, just let me complete that final ascension by myself.

My dear, it's really time to go. There are so many things I want to say to you, so many thoughts and feelings, but there's just not enough time.

My dear, I'm leaving. Promise me you'll take good care of yourself without me by your side. Cheer up, don't be sad. Because if you're not doing well, it will make me even sadder.

Darling, this is the last time I'll call you that.

Take care, please take good care of yourself.

The person who loves you: Pei