Xing Tie: After the simulation, they all wanted to lock me up in a dark room.

Chapter 15 A Cycle of Despair: Unable to Save Oneself, Unable to Save Each Other

[First Reincarnation: The fire within your body begins to burn you constantly, as if your body were stuffed into an iron furnace, the flames inside continuously heating up until they completely and utterly scorch you.]

[Having arrived in this cycle of reincarnation, you have returned to the past. You do not fully trust what that voice says, and you intend to change the ending with your own abilities because you have not seen the memories of Black Calamity's previous reincarnations.]

You went directly to Hathaway and Crydela, whom Tibo had told you about before. They didn't believe you at first, but you defeated Crydela with your superior chess skills.

Your terrifying sword aura pointed at Cerberus, and noticing her short stature, you lowered the sword slightly, placing it precisely at her neck.

Overwhelming in both chess skills and martial prowess, coupled with your revelation of the fates of all the Golden Descendants—in that cycle, none of them except Tibo became demigods. However, lacking the spark of life, they all perished in the Black Tide as mortals. The consequences of reversing the creation were thus revealed. Faced with this outcome, Bai'e questioned why you shed not a single tear, while Xi Lian believed in you and gently comforted you. Your first cycle of reincarnation failed just like that.

[Second Reincarnation. You repeat what you did in the previous reincarnation, trying your best to avoid the death of your companions, but the outcome is the same as before. Bai E questions you, while Xi Lian believes in you and comforts you.]

[The fiftieth reincarnation. No matter how you change, Wan Die and the others will still meet the same end. Bai E questions you, Xi Lian comforts you, but your heart is filled with: Why... why... the spark... it hurts so much...]

[The 106th reincarnation. Is it necessary to collect a sufficient number of embers? After more than a hundred reincarnations, you felt despair. You finally understood why Black Calamity hadn't given you his memories of previous reincarnations. He wanted you to know how difficult it was, so you would give up and return the embers to White Calamity. But you didn't give up... There are more embers... and your body aches even more...]

[The 218th cycle. On the way to collect the fire seed, you try your best to avoid harming your companions and then obtain the fire seed. However, how could they possibly hand over the fire seed because they would be unable to protect the people without divine power? All you can do is persuade them, but when that fails, you can only kill them. Xi Lian voluntarily hands over the fire seed, while Bai E stays behind.]

The fire within my body intensified, making my entire body feel like it was pressed against a red-hot iron plate—it hurt so much… but I couldn't let go, nor would I allow myself to let go of this iron plate that was constantly burning me.

[The 345th reincarnation. Reincarnation after reincarnation, you feel utterly exhausted, both physically and mentally. No matter what you say, the outcome will not change; besides Xi Lian, no one is willing to relinquish the flame.]

[It's the same process again; when trying to obtain the spark of reason, Saifeier steals it, just like in those hundreds of reincarnations.]

"Come out, stop hiding, Sai Fei'er," Chen Yue suddenly said.

"How did you find me, little white-haired girl?" Sai Fei'er emerged from her hiding place.

"Sai Fei'er, your eyes are still the same as they were in your previous reincarnation, still as bad as ever," Chen Yue said coldly.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with her eyesight; it's just that you lack self-awareness," Xia retorted from the side.

"It's the same story," Chen Yue sighed. "Let's not waste any more time and get straight to the point. I know Aglaia sent you here to distract us so that the thief, Zagres, can steal the spark of reason."

Upon hearing Chen Yue's words, Sai Fei'er instinctively uttered, "What...?"

Chen Yue blurted out, "What? You white-haired brat, how could you possibly know?"

Then Zagres appeared and said: "Kid, how did you know I was going to...?"

Zagres, who had just emerged, was also dumbfounded upon hearing Chen Yue's words.

How did he know what I was going to say? Did he have some kind of cheat code and stop acting altogether?

"I don't want to hurt you. I know exactly what you're going to do next. I hope that this time, you will hand over the fire. That way, your world can be saved."

"Hehehe... Who are you trying to fool? You little girl, you're even better at deceiving people than I, the Titan of Deception! What salvation... If you ask me, you're the biggest threat to Onpharos!"

"No matter how powerful you are, you're still just a mortal being trying to hold twelve flames? Don't be ridiculous, you'll only be devoured by the divine fire..."

Chen Yue directly revealed the fire within her body.

Seeing the fire seeds inside Chen Yue's body, especially the fire seeds of the Deceitful Titan, row upon row, like they were being sold wholesale.

Zagres was stunned.

"This is the spark within my body. I can't remember how many times I've reincarnated. Because I can't remember the numbers, I can use the power of the Deceit Titan to deceive myself, to convince myself that I've only reincarnated less than ten times," Chen Yue said calmly.

"But what's fake can't become real, and you'll be burned to ashes," Natsumi said.

"I won't burn out, so I'm not afraid," Chen Yue said, the power of the Trick Titan within him flashing continuously.

"You're a madman, you're just fooling yourself again!" Zagres looked at Chen Yue as if she were a lunatic.

"Kid, even if you do this, I will not give you the fire."

"The spark isn't in you; you're just a smokescreen. The real spark is in Sai Fei'er." Chen Yue shook her head. "It's always the same, always the same."

Hearing Chen Yue's words, Sai Feier took a step forward, "Since you know our ending, tell me, will you carve the seed of your scheme from my body?"

"I don't want to do this. I hope you can give me the flame... After all, I have always felt guilty towards you. Before I started the cycle of reincarnation, my selfishness caused the death of one of my companions, Feng Jin. I don't want my hands to be stained with the blood of my companions. Don't force me..." Chen Yue's words were filled with pleading, exhaustion, and frustration.

The same words again, why do I feel irritated? They are all my companions, not data.

"Don't underestimate me, you can't catch me... no one can catch me," Saifeier said, hands on her hips.

"You and I have said this many times in the cycle of reincarnation," Chen Yue said, shaking her head.

"I don't believe that. I don't believe you can catch up with me."

"Silence!" Xia interrupted their conversation at that moment.

"...This is the first time," Chen Yue said.

"Chen Yue, you've gone too far down this path. Have you ever considered the possibility that you're on the wrong path? For the sake of the fact that you, like me, love the Earth Beasts, turn back. I don't care how many times you try, because one thing is clear: the methods of the savior in your heart have begun to become distorted. Those hardships have almost twisted you into someone no different from the cold-hearted god you speak of."

You're now so fed up that you can't help but see us as insignificant ants, but your conscience tells you you can't. These two emotions will drive you mad. Look at yourself now; you're probably neither human nor ghost.

"Heh..." Saifei sneered, "Every day I wonder what kind of demon could burn my hometown down in an instant, without even blinking an eye..."

"I've found it now. It turns out that the fiery demon was doing things in accordance with the savior's methods."

Hearing Sai Feier's words, Chen Yue trembled all over. "I know that if I apologize to you, you will only feel mocked... I can let you stab me with a knife, just to make you feel better."

[Saifei didn't stab you as you asked; she just fought you to protect the spark of the Trick Titan. The outcome was the same this time; you still got the spark.]

With Sai Fei'er's words now in your mind, the fire within you burns even more intensely, as if it has reached your very heart.

Eternal regression: 345. Based on all observations from Eternal Regression 1 to 345, it is believed that the subject Kayserina has a higher probability than Kayserina. Note the risk of fitting, as the subject's mind may be potentially impaired.

Administrator's comment: He has a greater potential than Kaerslana to greatly amplify the Iron Curtain's destructive tendencies. Ignore this and continue observation.

Lai Gushi silently observed Chen Yue's performance in the Eternal Cycle from the administrator's room. He did not expect that this sudden variable would be the best nourishment for the Iron Curtain. Perhaps he really could destroy Bo Shi Zun.

……

Eternal Return: 9008, the 9000th attack by target Kayue Slana on the scepter's interior failed. The life cycles of the twelve Goldborn end sequentially, with the rate showing an increasing trend. The rollback calculation process for target Kayue Slana is underway.

Note: It is believed that the object's strategy has been perfectly matched by the eighth eternal regression, and it is noted that the object's mind is partially damaged and there is an irreversible risk.

Administrator instructions received: Stop alerting about the risk of mental impairment.

Eternal Return: ...

[In the 121408th cycle, the ending is still the same. You can't change anything at all. You try every method, but it's all like a script. No matter how you change it, it will happen in the same direction. It's like water flowing downhill. No matter how you change it, it will only flow downhill and not uphill.]

This is a cycle of endless rebirths, and the seeds of deceit cannot deceive you. The burning fire within you constantly tells you that you have already been through countless cycles.

You know that Wan Di, as a demigod of conflict, has absolutely no chance of obtaining his fire through peaceful means, but you still persuade him to try to obtain the fire peacefully, even if it's just once.

What greets you is the same as always, the same despair, the only constant being that the fire within you burns even hotter.

In the 300497th reincarnation, facing the demigod of death, Xia Die, you feel that you are more like the Grim Reaper than she is, because your hands are already stained with the blood of countless others.

If it's the same as before, even if you try to obtain it peacefully, you'll still end up facing each other with swords drawn, experiencing the same despair. What remains unchanged is the ever-burning fire within you. You don't know how many of those fires there are; you only know that no matter how high their temperature, they can't burn away the despair in your heart. You only feel your humanity diminishing, as if you're almost treating them like the ants that Ke Xia spoke of.

[In the 1000587th reincarnation, your mind begins to falter. At first, you hear the voices of your companions, then those voices become clearer, as they express their resentment at those you killed. Eventually, they appear before you, demanding your life. No one shares this burden with you. After being tormented by them, you are like a lone wild beast. Once you regain consciousness, you silently lick your wounds, only to begin the next reincarnation, repeating the same despair...]

[In the 1500003rd reincarnation, even the gentle and warm-hearted Kaze Violet will feel fear towards you. She will still try to dissuade you as always, the fading light in her eyes the same as in countless reincarnations. She endures the erosion of the black tide while supporting the shattered sky, yet, just like in countless reincarnations, she still wants to bring you back and heal you.]

"What I can do... Your Excellency Chen Yue." Feng Jin's voice sounded very strained. The Black Tide had already eroded her, and her body was in constant pain.

"As a demigod of the sky, the healer of the Courtyard of Dusk... I will surely be able to heal you, until..."

"Kaze no Sumire... thank you. I don't need treatment. The Black Tide... is engulfing you. You don't need to seek treatment from me, the... executioner."

I want to be selfish... and hope you'll hurl the most vicious insults at me, or... stab me with a knife, so that when I face you in this illusion, my heart... will feel a little better.

Chen Yue's voice was devoid of any emotion, as if she were numb.

"Give me the fire. I will end all this as soon as possible."

"Heh... How can that be..." Feng Jin's voice trembled incessantly. "I can't... show a sorrowful face when facing patients tormented by pain. Besides... I don't think you're an executioner. You want to obtain the flame peacefully for everyone."

"Feng Jin... thank you for still believing in me... countless times... countless times, you've given me the same answer. I am the most selfish of the Golden Blood, and I have always felt guilty for betraying your trust."

Chen Yue still cannot forgive Feng Jin for having to escort the two sparks alone while he, for his own selfish reasons, caused her to lose her life. Now, he has faced her with swords countless times.

[Just like the previous cycle, Feng Jin is unwilling to relinquish the flame, choosing instead to merge with the sky and fight to the end. It's still the same ending... No matter what you say, it won't change...]

As the flames of Feng Jin merged into your body, it felt like your body had reached a critical point. Chen Yue's face was covered in blood, and blood began to flow from her mouth and nose. However, at this moment, there was no pain on Chen Yue's face; instead, there was a sense of relief.

In truth, Chen Yue couldn't figure out what he was doing. He was supposed to save all his companions, but instead, he was killing them one by one. Even after recalling the voice's words, he still couldn't understand what he was doing.

He seems to be a contradictory person. He wants to save them, yet he kills them one by one. He considers himself selfish, yet he can't bring himself to kill them. He knows they can't peacefully pass the fire to him, yet he patiently tries to dissuade them time and time again. Even though his body is already burning from the fire, he can still speak calmly.

But he couldn't help it; he couldn't be completely selfish.

He was clearly selfish, yet he selflessly gave them chances time and time again.

But if he is selfless, he treats those outside his circle like ants.

Chen Yue discovered that he himself seemed to be a lucid madman; his humanity hadn't disappeared, but he couldn't fully present it to his companions.

No one understood or helped Chen Yue, so he just made do and continued like that.

No one told the Golden Descendants the real truth, so they continued in this painful way.

Neither side can alleviate their own suffering, nor can they alleviate the suffering of the other.

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