Rebirth of a Doctor Without Regrets

As soon as the bell rang signaling the end of the surgery, Wang Xiao immediately took off her scrubs and rushed out of the operating room.

After hearing about this from the nurse, he felt deeply guilty and uneasy, and all he wanted to do was find Zhang Baoping immediately and apologize to him.

If he hadn't insisted on changing the channel, Zhang Baoping wouldn't have ended up having his assistant qualification revoked.

He first went to the doctor's office but didn't see Zhang Baoping. Then he went to the resident physician's rest room, which was empty except for a few scattered medical records.

They even asked the nurses at the nurses' station, and everyone said they had never seen Zhang Baoping.

The more she couldn't find it, the more panicked Wang Xiao became, and an ominous premonition gradually welled up in her heart.

"You mean Zhang Baoping, the one who looks a bit dazed? I think I saw him heading towards the inpatient building just now," said a cleaning lady who was passing by.

Wang Xiao ran towards the inpatient building.

He knew all too well what losing his assistantship meant for a resident physician.

That meant years of hard work had gone down the drain, and all hope for the future had been extinguished.

Especially for someone like Zhang Baoping, a master's graduate from Chunda University, who spent three years at the Second Affiliated Hospital before finally getting the chance to speak, and now facing such a setback, it's inevitable that he might get stuck in a rut.

The inpatient building has 28 floors, and Wang Xiao indeed saw a figure on the rooftop.

Wang Xiao hurriedly took the elevator straight to the rooftop. As he watched the floor number increase on the display screen, his anger grew stronger and stronger.

He was furious at Shen Hao's nitpicking and making a mountain out of a molehill, and furious that he used Zhang Baoping to vent his anger and warn him.

What angered him even more was that he ruined a young man's future without distinguishing right from wrong.

Wang Xiao didn't stop until he reached the entrance of the 28th-floor rooftop.

The iron gate to the rooftop was ajar, and a cold wind carrying the smell of tobacco drifted out from inside.

He gently pushed open the door and saw Zhang Baoping standing on the edge of the rooftop with his back to him.

She was thin and frail, like a leaf that could be blown away by the wind at any moment.

"Baoping!" Wang Xiao's heart leaped into her throat. She rushed over, opened her arms, and hugged him tightly. "Don't be impulsive! Let's talk this out. Don't do anything rash, please don't jump!"

Zhang Baoping struggled to push Wang Xiao away, slowly turned around, his face showing only a numb calm.

He held a cigarette between his fingers, his eyes vacant amidst the swirling smoke, a bitter smile playing on his lips: "Wang Xiao, are you crazy? I didn't want to jump."

Wang Xiao's heart eased slightly, but she still stared intently at him, afraid he might do something extreme: "It's good that you didn't want to jump, it's good that you didn't want to jump... You scared me to death, I looked everywhere for you and couldn't find you, I thought you..."

Zhang Baoping smiled, turned around, and looked downstairs again.

The winter sun shone pale and cold, casting its light on the hospital buildings.

The streets in the distance were bustling with traffic, but the light couldn't penetrate the despair in his eyes.

He took a drag of his cigarette, inhaled the smoke into his throat, coughed violently a few times, and then slowly said, "I just wanted to come up here for a smoke, to take one last look at this hospital, and then I'll leave."

"Go? Where are you going?" Wang Xiao asked hurriedly.

"Leaving the Second Hospital," Zhang Baoping said calmly, but with a resolute determination, "I've made up my mind to become a pharmaceutical representative."

Anyway, I graduated from Chunda University and wasted three years of my youth at the Second Affiliated Hospital. I didn't achieve anything, I didn't learn any real skills, and I was even disqualified from going on stage. There's no point in continuing."

He laughed self-deprecatingly, his eyes filled with resentment and helplessness: "I did my best to get into Chunda University for my master's degree, hoping to work in a top-tier hospital like the Second Affiliated Hospital and become an excellent surgeon, but what happened?"

After three years, I'm still just a resident who can only perform retractions and hasn't even had the chance to operate independently. I've calculated it; someone like me will probably have to wait until I'm thirty-five to get a palliative attending physician position, and then that'll be my life.

Looking at his lonely figure, Wang Xiao felt a deep empathy for him.

"Baoping, I'm sorry, it's all my fault," Wang Xiao said, her voice full of self-blame. "If I hadn't asked you to change the channel, you wouldn't have been targeted by Shen Hao, and you wouldn't be in this situation today."

"Wait a little longer, give me some more time. I will definitely find a way to deal with Shen Hao and help you regain your position as assistant. Let's study hard together, and we'll have our chance to succeed."

Zhang Baoping shook his head, turned around, patted Wang Xiao on the shoulder, his tone devoid of any resentment, only a faint sense of relief.

"Wang Xiao, it has nothing to do with you, I don't blame you. In the end, it's my own fault for being useless, mediocre, and not hardworking enough. Even without you, Shen Hao never gave me a chance."

"Besides, my mind is made up," he said, extinguishing the cigarette butt in his hand, throwing it on the ground, and grinding it hard with his foot.

"I don't want to suffer here anymore. These days without any hope are too torturous. Although being a pharmaceutical representative means having to be out in the open and begging for favors, you earn more and you don't have to put up with this kind of treatment anymore. Maybe that's the path that's right for me."

Wang Xiao wanted to persuade him further, but seeing Zhang Baoping's determined eyes, she swallowed back the words that were on the tip of her tongue.

He knew that Zhang Baoping had completely given up hope, and there was no point in trying to persuade him anymore.

At that moment, he clearly felt that he was the one who had harmed Zhang Baoping, caused him to give up his dream of becoming a doctor, and caused him to leave the place where he had worked hard for many years.

The guilt he felt towards Zhang Baoping instantly transformed into a raging fury towards Shen Hao.

He carefully recalled the attending physicians under Shen Hao's command.

Those attending physicians who could work independently and assist Shen Hao in performing complex surgeries were basically either recruited from the county hospital or were undergraduates from unknown, poor schools, with mediocre qualifications and average abilities.

Those master's and doctoral graduates from Chung Hsin University and Beijing Medical University, despite their outstanding talent and solid foundation, are relegated to the bottom and can only do menial tasks such as preoperative preparation and retraction. They have very few opportunities to even go on stage.

Shen Hao always says things like "Everyone has a chance" and "If you persevere, you'll eventually succeed," but in reality, he's making the opposite choice!

He gave the limited surgical and learning opportunities to those who were mediocre and unable to learn real skills. Even if he gave them the opportunity, they would never amount to anything and would only ever be his assistants, never threatening his position.

He deliberately suppressed talented and capable young people, preventing them from having the opportunity to learn and grow, and from taking charge of their own affairs, thus firmly maintaining his advantage as a "surgical genius" and his say in the Department of Cardiac Surgery at Chung Hsin University Second Affiliated Hospital.

None of this was a coincidence, nor was it a so-called "training of new talent," but rather Shen Hao's selfish motives!

He feared that talented young people would surpass him and that his position would be threatened, so he resorted to such despicable means to suppress dissent and control the entire treatment team.

Having figured all this out, Wang Xiao felt he could no longer endure it in silence.

It's time to challenge Shen Hao's authority head-on, break his unreasonable rules, and reclaim our own learning opportunities and growth space.

After seeing Zhang Baoping off and watching his lonely figure disappear at the hospital entrance, Wang Xiao took a deep breath, suppressing the anger and guilt in his heart. However, to challenge Shen Hao, courage alone was not enough; he also needed sufficient strength and confidence.

I heard Lin Xi was promoted to chief resident this year?

It's time to make good use of the white moonlight.