The wife he married through an arranged marriage is so sweet, Mr. Lu can't control himself.

There's no way to flip it over.

My throat feels choked up.

It was choking and painful.

My eyes seem to hurt a little too.

If she could live her life again, her mother would still want this baby...

After a while, Gu Zhi's fingers moved again.

Then turn the page.

Look ahead.

I finally saw the day she got lost.

Her mother wrote:

"Waaaaah, I'm so sorry! I lost my baby!"

"What if she suffers!"

"I want to find my baby!"

"I must find my baby!"

Starting with this one, the handwriting becomes very blurry.

It seems to have been wet with tears at that time.

Gu Zhi knew that her mother must have written it while crying.

And sure enough, after she went missing, her mother couldn't stop thinking about her.

Her diary is also full of stories about her.

There wasn't a single day in her diary that didn't include her.

Gu Zhi's movements as she flipped through her diary became increasingly slow.

But I still saw her diary entry from the day her mother was diagnosed with depression.

"I was diagnosed with depression today."

"It's very serious."

"The doctor also said that I have a very strong suicidal tendency."

"Waaah, I can't die!"

"I'll take my medicine obediently!"

"I haven't found my baby yet!"

Since being diagnosed with depression, her mother has written the line, "I can't die, I haven't found my baby yet!" at the end of every diary entry.

Gu Zhi's eyes hurt even more.

But I still kept reading.

Before I knew it, I saw another article:

"I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been taking my medication properly, but I feel even more like dying."

"Sometimes I can't even control myself."

"By the time I realized it, I had already committed suicide."

"Luckily, my dad had people watching me every day, otherwise I would have died."

"I can't die!"

"I haven't found my baby yet!"

After reading several more diary entries, I finally saw:

"I might as well just die, I'm in so much pain, sob sob."

"But I can't die!"

"I haven't found my baby yet!"

Seeing this, Gu Zhi's eyes hurt even more.

My throat also felt choked and very painful.

She seemed to sense how much pain her mother had been in.

She even wanted to say something, hoping that her mother could just be freed from this burden.

However, it can be seen from these diaries.

It was indeed because her mother didn't receive the real medicine that her condition worsened step by step, ultimately leading to her successful suicide.

Until she read her mother's last diary entry:

"I'm going to die."

"I can't go on living."

"I'm so sorry to my dad, I'm so sorry to my mom, and most of all, I'm so sorry to my baby!"

"I've wronged everyone..."

"Baby, are you no longer in this world?"

"Why can't Mom find you...?"

"Waaah..."

"How about Mom comes to find you...?"

"Mommy misses you so much, baby..."

"Please come back to your mother's side..."

"If Mom dies."

"Baby, Mommy deserves to die."

"Mom has lost you."

"How could your mother lose you?"

"How could a mother lose her child?"

"My mother doesn't deserve to be a mother..."

"Waaah, Mom doesn't deserve it..."

"If you're in heaven, and Mommy goes to heaven, will you come find Mommy?"

"No, no, Mom can come to you too."

"But what if you were still alive?"

What if no one contacts you anymore?

"Waaah... Mom, what should I do... what should I do..."

"Mom is in so much pain..."

Then there is nothing.

There were no more words after that.

Gu Zhi's eyes also turned completely red at that moment.

But his eyes remained fixed on the diary entry.

He unconsciously murmured to himself:

"Mommy, the baby is still alive."

"The baby is here."

"Baby... doesn't have a mother anymore..."

Tears didn't spill from my eyes, but they completely blinded them.

Gu Zhi could see nothing anymore.

Not a single word in the diary can be seen anymore.

She was stunned.

She had forgotten when she last cried.

It seems very, very small.

She was so young that she forgot how old she was.

After a long while, she hurriedly wiped away the tears in her eyes and kept smiling as she said:

"A day is a day, whether you're happy or unhappy, Gu Zhi... no, baby, you must be happy every day!"

"May you be happy every day!"

But for some reason, the tears just kept flowing.

But she kept smiling and reminding herself:

"A day is a day, whether you're happy or unhappy, so baby, may you be happy every day!"

It took Gu Zhi a while to stop crying.

No more tears flowed.

But I still couldn't feel happy.

She suddenly remembered that Lu Yanshen had told her "he's in the study" before he went upstairs.

Gu Zhi immediately seemed to have found something to do, which distracted her.

She closed the diary and placed it on the sofa before going upstairs to find Lu Yanshen.

As soon as she reached the second floor, she saw that the study door was wide open.

It's not closed at all.

Her heart warmed instantly.

For some reason, she felt that Lu Yanshen understood her better than she understood herself.

This warmth gave her a sense of joy and energy.

I can be happy again.

She immediately shouted joyfully, "Lu Yanshen!"

He rushed into the study like a whirlwind.

Lu Yanshen appeared to still be sitting at his desk, reading the letters his grandfathers had written to him.

But actually, he had been drifting off at times.

Since it was a diary, he felt that it must have contained many of his mother-in-law's innermost thoughts.

These things must have touched Gu Zhi's heart deeply.

He was worried about Gu Zhi.

I was afraid Gu Zhi would be sad.

I'm afraid Gu Zhi will cry.

Although he had never seen Gu Zhi cry.

I've never seen Gu Zhi sad.

At most, I've only ever seen Gu Zhi looking sullen and aggrieved, saying that she's feeling uncomfortable.

When Gu Zhi went upstairs, Lu Yanshen was so lost in thought that he didn't notice anything.

He only got up immediately after Gu Zhi called out.

He wanted to stride out of the study and find Gu Zhi.

Little did he know, just as he stood up, Gu Zhi rushed in and threw herself into his arms.

Holding his waist, her fair face tilted up, her eyes crinkling:

"Lu Yanshen, I'm sad today~"

She acted coquettishly.

But her eyes were red, clearly she had been crying.

Lu Yanshen felt sorry for him.

He immediately lowered his head and gently kissed her eyes repeatedly.

And with each kiss, he would gently coax her:

"Our baby isn't sad. My mother-in-law doesn't want our baby to be sad either."

He wished he could take on all her sorrows.

"Mmm~" Gu Zhi was extremely pleased.

I have a soft heart.

It's warm too.

Even my body felt warm.

After Lu Yanshen sat down again, Gu Zhi straddled his lap and lay on top of him, being held by him in an extremely gentle embrace.

Lu Yanshen seemed to be comforting her.

He would occasionally kiss the top of her head.

Gu Zhi felt extremely relieved.

Nestled in Lu Yanshen's arms for a while, Gu Zhi finally whispered, "Husband, my mother loves me very much."

Lu Yanshen tightened his grip on her arm even more.

He kissed the top of her head tenderly before softly replying, "Yes, Mother-in-law loves our baby very much."