After returning home with the child, her ex-husband knelt down and gently coaxed her.

His posture was somewhat humble.

An Ning's shoulders trembled slightly, her breathing became labored, and her eyes suddenly welled up with tears.

His handsome face gradually blurred in my vision.

She bit her lip tightly and did not answer.

"Is it hard to answer?" he asked in a lower voice. "I just need one answer, is that so difficult?"

She lowered her eyes, and tears suddenly fell, crystal clear.

Lu Xiyan raised his hand to catch it, tears spreading across his palm. He suddenly tightened his grip and chuckled softly.

He truly hated the woman in front of him!

Why can she just leave whenever she wants, disappear whenever she wants, and come back whenever she wants? She treats him like a dog!

After she dumped him and left decisively, he didn't even have the courage to step into the house!

Why is it that she can move in so calmly and face everything from the past so peacefully?

He laughed in exasperation, then raised his hand and pressed down on the back of her head for a deep kiss.

An Ning was suddenly startled, and as the world spun around her, she was pressed against the wall, her lips being fiercely sealed.

The bitter taste of alcohol hits the tip of the tongue.

Lu Xiyan held the back of her head with one hand and pinched her waist with the other, his tall body enveloping her as he kissed her fiercely.

The actions are violent, devoid of any warmth, and consist only of possession and plunder.

An Ning felt a sharp pain on her lips and her brows furrowed slightly.

The smell of blood spread between their teeth.

Lu Xiyan completely lost control, wishing he could tear her apart and put her inside his belly.

"pain......"

An Ning braced herself against his shoulders and suddenly grabbed his shirt. "You bit me..."

Lu Xiyan didn't stop, he held her even tighter, brutally robbing the thin oxygen from her chest.

It was like venting, without any tenderness.

An Ning knew his hatred. If this could make him feel a little better, a little pain wouldn't matter.

Anning slowly loosened her grip on his shirt and obediently let him kiss her.

Sensing that she had stopped struggling, the man finally regained his composure, gently kissing her lips, his voice trembling, "Anning, does it hurt too?"

He pulled away from her lips, pressed his forehead against hers, and said, "Do you know how much it hurts for me?"

"Even if you've raised a dog for two years, you'll still have feelings for it. How can you just say you don't want it anymore?!"

His tears suddenly fell, landing on Anning's nose and slowly sliding down.

An Ning's breathing trembled, her heart felt like it was being pierced by needles.

"......sorry."

"I don't need your apologies!"

Lu Xiyan's voice was hoarse, "I love you to the extreme, without ever considering gains or losses; this is my greatest courage. I've always believed that as long as we love each other, we can overcome any obstacle, even if the sky falls, love will still be there..."

"I can honestly say that my love for you is something I can be proud of, and I have a clear conscience." His hand slid down to An Ning's clenched hand, took it in his palm, and placed it on his chest.

His eyes were deep and unfathomable, like the ocean, surging with passion. "An Ning, shouldn't you feel guilty towards me?"

His heart was pounding fast and strong, making An Ning's palms go numb.

Tears streamed down her face as she felt his body heat seeping through the fabric of her clothes.

Do I feel guilty?

Of course there are.

The person she wronged the most in her life was Lu Xiyan.

But she didn't even have the courage to raise her hand to hug him.

"You dumped me the moment before you went to Jining to have a child with another man. Anning, what do you take me for?!"

An Ning looked up at him incredulously, "You investigated?"

Her eyes were filled with tears, and she looked pitiful.

Lu Xiyan gave a self-deprecating laugh, his eyes reddening. "I really wish I hadn't investigated. I even ridiculously wondered if An Xian was my child with you! If he were my son, would it prove that you still have a shred of affection for me? Would I still have a chance...?"

At this point, his throat tightened and his eyes welled up with tears.

He lowered his head, his voice hoarse beyond belief, "An Ning, since you've used me for two years, why not continue using me... I've said it before, I'll give you whatever you want—money, power, status... I can steal, fight, and take it all..."

"I truly considered giving you everything..."

"But why..." He looked up, his eyes bloodshot, "You don't want any of it?"

"Lu Xiyan..." An Ning sobbed uncontrollably, "You're drunk... please don't do this..."

She would rather he arrogantly declare his intention to take revenge on her than bear to see him so humble.

"I'm perfectly sober." Lu Xiyan gripped her shoulders tightly, meeting her red eyes.

He felt heartbroken whenever she cried.

He gently touched her cheek and carefully wiped away her tears.

He asked, "Ningning...why don't you love me?"

"During my hardest year, I begged you to come back like a beggar. I called you and texted you, I searched for you frantically... I hoped you would turn around and look at me... see how badly I was doing, and ask you to have some pity on me?"

"But you disappeared completely, that was so heartless."

He lowered his head, tears streaming down his face.

"To be honest, I'm really disappointed in you. I'm such a fucking idiot, I still hoped you would love me."

An Ning trembled all over, her breathing stopped, and only a throbbing pain came from her heart.

Lu Xiyan's voice was hoarse, "When you reappeared in Jinghai, I thought you had changed your mind and would come looking for me, but you didn't."

"Your mother is hospitalized, you need money, and when you were desperate, I thought you would come to me, but you didn't!"

"You won't even say a kind word to me... Even though I'm the one you abandoned and discarded..."

He cupped her tear-streaked face in his hands, his voice soft, "All I've ever wanted is a sincere apology from you. If you just say you were wrong, if you regret leaving me, I can forgive you completely. Just say the word, and I can let bygones be bygones..."

Even if you don't love me, I'll accept it...

"Ningning..." His fingers gently caressed her hot, soft lips, his eyes pleading, "Since you've already taken advantage of me, why not take advantage of me to the end, for a lifetime? Wouldn't that be better?"