The unattainable beauty was driven to depravity and madness by a wicked seed.

Chen Jingmo glanced at Shi Qianqiu, a sneer on his face, his words dripping with arrogance. He was clearly emotional, yet his eyes were bloodshot. "Does anyone know about our relationship? Does anyone know we used to be in love?"

He sat on the bed, his fingers gripping the sheets tightly, and murmured, "Kissing, hugging, sleeping together, none of that matters. Why should I have to be careful not to hold your hand in public? Why do you only give me a little kindness, yet make me feel happy and anxious for so long?"

"You said I was too young back then, and that my so-called liking was just a passing fancy. I understand. You had your reasons for going abroad, and you had your reasons for everything. I understand all of that, but I can't get over it, Shi Qianqiu. Back then, my world revolved around you being good to me... Was your kindness to me voluntary? Or was it because I forced you?"

If it's because of coercion.

Chen Jingmo should jump off the building right now.

Not alive anymore.

Shi Qianqiu knelt on the bed to hug Chen Jingmo, her voice a little hoarse, "Of course it was my own choice. You didn't force me, and I never felt like I was forced. I'm sorry for making you suffer so much."

After being comforted, Chen Jingmo began to chuckle. He hugged her back and asked, "Shi Qianqiu, do I look like a madman right now? I don't want to say these things, but I can usually hold back."

I'm just sick.

But I'm taking medication now.

I'll get better soon. I really, really don't want to pass on my negative emotions to you.

"How could that be? My dear, you're not crazy. You've just suffered too many grievances. You have every right to confide in me."

He couldn't remember what Chen Jingmo said after that. He developed a high fever that night. When Shi Qianqiu was awakened by the sweat on his body, he was unconsciously clutching Shi Qianqiu's clothes, begging him not to go abroad. He said he was wrong and shouldn't have kissed him. He repeated "I'm sorry" over and over again, feeling lost and helpless. He also said that many people bullied him. In the end, he gave up on himself and admitted that he was bad and had a black heart.

Shi Qianqiu took a warm towel to wipe Chen Jingmo's body, then held him on her lap and patted him to lull him to sleep.

One o'clock in the morning.

He received a message from Zhao Han.

The other party said that Chen Jingmo would go to the hospital regularly for a period of time to see a psychiatrist, and even sent her medical records.

After reading it, Shi Qianqiu put her phone aside, hugged Chen Jingmo, and tried to soothe his anxiety, but her own breathing became increasingly erratic.

The next morning at 10:00 AM.

When Chen Jingmo woke up, Shi Qianqiu was taking a shower in the bathroom. His mind was blank, as if he had been punched. He grabbed the thermos on the bedside table, drank a few sips of water, and then got up to go outside to find his crossbody bag. However, he smelled a trace of smoke and saw four cigarette butts in the ashtray.

"...When did you learn to smoke? How come you're more addicted than me?"

Chen Jingmo couldn't find his crossbody bag and was trying hard to remember where he had put it when he heard footsteps. Shi Qianqiu walked over with a medicine bottle in one hand and a glass of water in the other. Chen Jingmo froze instantly, his fingers clenching into a fist, and he preemptively said, "Who gave you permission to touch my things!"

"Sorry, it won't happen again. What stage is your baby at now? Should we give him one or two?"

"None of your business! Give it back!" Chen Jingmo shouted.

It seems that this can cover up their panic.

But after Shi Qianqiu put the things on the table and came over to hug him, his emotions suddenly broke down, and he couldn't say a word for a long time.

"Sweetie, what are you thinking about every time you hide to take your medicine? Doesn't it make you feel sad?"

Do you still want me?

Their trembling voices collided.

I can't tell who shed tears first, nor whose heart aches more. At this moment, all I want to do is stop talking and hug each other tightly.

Although Shi Qianqiu had already discovered that Chen Jingmo was taking medicine, he still avoided it every time, probably because he didn't want to appear so vulnerable.

Later, Shi Qianqiu held him on her lap and listened to him cry for two hours straight. She could only reluctantly agree to let him stay by her side. After that, Shi Qianqiu kept all the medicine and gave it to him on time every time.

After just one week, Chen Jingmo felt that his sleep had improved. During this period, he received 40 video calls from Lu Sui, 32 video calls from Jiang Xiu, and 5 phone calls from Fang Chi.

There's no Chen Yunting in the list because he's been blocked.

There was no message from Chen Ziqiu either, because he was too embarrassed to message Chen Jingmo, let alone video call him.

On Monday, Shi Qianqiu wanted to take Chen Jingmo to the hospital for a follow-up examination, but Chen Jingmo refused, saying that she was already cured and didn't want to embarrass herself. Shi Qianqiu said that she had arranged a private doctor and there wouldn't be many people, so Chen Jingmo reluctantly agreed.

He's genuinely sad when he's sad, but quite happy when he's not.

He was in a good mood until he got to the department door, but as soon as he went in, he burst into tears like an idiot. Luckily, Shi Qianqiu was waiting outside, otherwise he would have felt embarrassed.

The company is now under Zhao Han's full management, and he has adapted to the life of working overtime late into the night while drinking goji berry tea.

They all wanted to visit Chen Jingmo, but Chen Jingmo wouldn't allow it. Lu Sui kept saying she missed him, which made him feel more and more like Lu Sui was a left-behind child.

Everything was moving in a positive direction, except for Chen Yunting and Chen Ziqiu, both of whom were blaming themselves. Chen Yunting's hair had even turned half white, and Fang Chi described him as having gone from not young to old.

All of this changed after Chen Jingmo jumped into the river. He often thought that he should have jumped into the river sooner, so that he could have been with Shi Qianqiu much earlier and wouldn't have had to go through so many sad things later.

But there's no such thing as knowing beforehand in this world.

To cheer Chen Jingmo up, Shi Qianqiu would make many travel plans and take him on trips, filling her camera with his photos. Chen Jingmo no longer cared about anything, kissing and hugging whenever he wanted, and occasionally receiving blessings from many people.

When he has an attack, Chen Jingmo will hide, but Shi Qianqiu will always patiently find him, hold him in her arms, and kiss and hug him. Occasionally, she will be so angry by Chen Jingmo's words that she will sit on the balcony and smoke.

This afternoon, Chen Yunting came over. Chen Jingmo wanted to give him a piece of her mind, but looking at his tired eyes and half-gray hair, she swallowed the rest of her words after only a few sharp retorts and went back to her room to sulk.

After being kissed and hurt by Shi Qianqiu, she finally had a place to vent her anger. She said that Shi Qianqiu was rough and didn't know his own strength. When she glanced at him, she said that he was too hot-tempered and needed to drink some loofah soup.

Shi Qianqiu chuckled, pinched his cheek, and asked, "Why are you getting angry with me?"

"Is that not allowed?"

"Fine." Shi Qianqiu pressed Chen Jingmo down onto the bed. "But I don't want to drink loofah soup. Can I have something else instead?"

"What else?"