How Am I Still Alive?

["On the thirty-seventh day of the journey, the Holy Order's supplies are running low, but we still haven't found any sign of the next torch"

"... Aker mutated, right in front of my eyes, he twisted into a lump of flesh in an instant, and was shot dead by the knight on the spot. Is it because of food? Is there not enough 'light', or is it simply lost determined to keep going.”

"...Great, we finally found the promised land in the ancient book. We got a clean water source, there are only a few low-level monsters outside, it is not too difficult to deal with, the most important thing is that we found the 'torch ', ah, what a perfect light, I had a good sleep last night, I actually dreamed but the thought of going back, walking the path of pain all over again, I just..."

"The head of the knights said that this is our new territory in the future, and he is our new lord. Although everyone is a little hesitant, no one objects. Or, everyone is looking forward to it\