Type-Moon: Root Seiko

God does not love those who commit suicide.

Therefore, as the daughter of a sinner, she should not receive God's love and must atone for her sins.

Her father named her "Karen," entrusted her to the local church, and then disappeared.

She was raised by a very senior old nun—conservative, harsh, and mean; almost every description of a wicked mother-in-law in a fairy tale could be used to describe her.

But Karen knew she wasn't a bad person.

She's just pitiful.

Strictly adhere to the doctrines, fear sin and evil, and strive to stay away from all evil in the world through devout prayer.

The village church considered her, the daughter of a sinner, a hot potato, and the fact that she was willing to take in the offspring of a sinner already showed that she was a kind person.

So even though she showed no tenderness to toddlers who had just learned to walk and treated herself like a slave owner, Karen didn't feel there was anything wrong with it.

Especially the way she looked at me.

Those eyes, though trying to erase their emotions, couldn't hide the deep disgust and fear within.

How pitiful, Karen thought.

She was afraid of a child who was not even knee-high.

He was terrified by his inexplicable loathing and by his delusion that he wanted to strangle the sinner's daughter immediately.

The fear flickering in her eyes evoked a peculiar emotion in Karen.

To understand what that feeling was like, it was something that happened when Karen was a little older.

She eventually learned that it was "pleasure".

It's an emotion that makes you unconsciously relax your cheeks, want to laugh, and feel light and carefree.

Seeing others like lost lambs, I feel disgusted with my own weakness.

A person with a conscience is also terrified by this inexplicable aversion to themselves, and continues to repent for their demonic malice, hoping to be forgiven...

It's so interesting how the human heart can be such a restless thing.

...That's why I can't understand that man.

A man named Luo Zhen.

Despite not believing in or respecting God, they came to the church.

He has no God in his eyes, no Virgin Mary.

Only myself.

He negotiated the price with the old nun, saying he wanted to adopt or buy himself.

The stern old nun immediately berated him as a devil and expelled the inexplicable young man from the church.

...Then, he raided the church at night.

Karen did not see the nun one last time.

Luo Zhen only told her that the nun was dead.

He didn't say why he died or why he was killed.

Much later, Karen learned that the nun had indeed been possessed by a demon.

Because of my own mistakes, because I am a 'masochistic medium'.

The human heart is so riddled with holes, with countless cracks that allow demonic tendencies to invade, accumulate, and slowly grow into evil.

And simply by existing, one can accelerate this process.

Let the demonic energy gather quickly, and concentrate the malice of those around you onto yourself.

The old nun simply had nowhere to vent her frustrations.

The demonic nature, malice, and evil thoughts that had been suppressed throughout her life were originally just a tiny prejudice, no bigger than the eye of a pinhole, that "she is the daughter of a sinner."

Just because she adopted her, an infant in swaddling clothes, this evil thought grew and expanded endlessly, eventually turning her into a demon.

Chapter 23 Tonight Will Be Crazy

"That's my fault," Karen thought.

She was truly the daughter of a sinner, and had become a sinner herself.

And I didn't even feel any guilt.

Without shame or remorse.

I'm really broken.

What kind of parents could give birth to a devil like herself? Karen was also a little curious.

Although she felt no guilt, Karen still felt a little regretful.

Since I'm going to die anyway, I want to witness the moment the nun dies with my own eyes.

Do devout believers with a conscience like nuns feel fear in the final moments of their lives? Do they want to ask for life?

Did your mother feel fear at the moment she committed suicide? And why did she commit suicide?

...It's such a pity that I didn't get to see the moment they died.

Then the man who killed the nun abducted himself, the devil.

Yet he gave himself everything unconditionally.

He fed himself warm food and bought himself brand new clothes.

She even hugged herself tightly, again and again, with as much force as possible, yet afraid of hurting herself.

These were all firsts for Karen, experiencing temperatures and sensations she had never known before.

The way he looked at himself was completely different from how the nun looked at him.

There was no aversion, and even less self-fear arising from aversion.

His gaze was so intense, something Karen had never felt in her life, and she had no idea how to name it.

He knew perfectly well that he was a flawed, born defective being, and that he was a devil.

Even though her existence was of no benefit to him, she did not ask herself to atone for her sins.

But they just inexplicably hug themselves, giving themselves warmth and food, as if they want to give themselves all the good things in the world.

Karen realized: this man is an idiot.

Otherwise, there's no way to explain his strange behavior of only giving love unilaterally.

So, how should I respond?

The mother who gave me life.

The father who gave him his name.

The nun who gave me life so far.

One's own creator, perpetrator, and victim.

All that they had given them was completely overturned by this man in just a few days.

This is because the girl named Karen has too little.

It was also because that man named Luo Zhen had given so much.

So, I want to know why.

Why would he give himself so much?

What is that suffocating tightness in my chest that I feel, the one who gave me all this?

Lord.

If you truly exist, if you can hear the voice of this devil.

Then let him have this selfless, boundless, universal love.

They were rewarded.

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After carrying the drowsy and asleep Karen back to her room, Rozen quietly stayed with her for a while.

Luo Zhen gently left her bedroom only after the girl, who was made up of all beautiful things, had fallen into a deep sleep and was breathing long and steady.

In this spacious mansion, Luo Zhen chose the second to last room at the far end as his bedroom.

As soon as Orange arrived today, he moved into the last room, the deepest and darkest corner, just as he had expected.

Youzhu, on the other hand, did the opposite and chose the first room closest to the living room.

Karen's room was next door.

Therefore, as soon as Luo Zhen stepped out, he immediately saw Youzhu peeking out of her room and secretly observing the corridor.