I write a diary in anime/manga crossovers

"I have emotions too!"

Listening quietly, Amamiya Ren sighed slightly.

"It seems that the story is indeed a story."

"In reality, there are no girls who continue to give opportunities despite facing so many things."

He could fully understand Ran Mouri's emotional outburst at this moment.

First, she found out about Kudo's concealment of the secret from her, and then she discovered Kudo's "selfish" feelings towards her.

Then I learned that in the future there would be another Irene Adler who would meet Kudo's fate later. Any girl would be emotional about such a thing.

What's more, Mao Lilan herself is not a girl who can be so generous.

It is normal to feel jealous when you know that there are other girls around the boy you like.

It is normal to be angry when you know that the boy you like will have a girl by his side in the future who shares the same destiny and direction of endeavor.

"Mori, this is just my own understanding. What I said afterwards has nothing to do with Kudo."

Amamiya Ren thought about it for a moment and then made a correction to his subsequent words.

"I think Kudo didn't think he would encounter such a big thing before he was hit by that stick."

"That's only natural. If he knew he would encounter something like that, he definitely wouldn't have rushed forward so impulsively."

"He just did what he liked to do out of habit, just like a normal 17-year-old boy."

"It's just that his life was too smooth sailing in the past. He didn't know there was such a thing as a sap, and he also forgot that bad people won't reason with him."

"He's like the protagonist in a passionate anime, always liking the unknown and enjoying exploration."

"Actually, these characteristics are quite normal wherever they are placed."

"And think about Kudo's situation."

"Having received an elite education since childhood, he has understood many things from a young age. Furthermore, his father was a seasoned detective, and through his words and deeds, he naturally developed a keen desire to explore the unknown."

"He could say he didn't do it on purpose."

"Or maybe he just can't be so accurate when it comes to emotional issues."

"It's a normal thing for a boy."

"Besides, you're childhood sweethearts, and since you don't deny the title of 'Kudo Couple' in school, you're clearly a couple to outsiders."

“But it’s still a little bit off.”

"Kudo himself knows that he's a little short of the mark, so there are some things he really wants to say, but some concerns and uneasiness prevent him from saying them."

"Perhaps this is what Kudo is facing: constantly retreating due to a series of emotions, such as nervousness, concern, and anxiety."

"..."

Mao Lilan listened to these words very carefully and seriously.

She could fully understand what Amemiya meant.

I also remembered how Shinichi would sometimes be conflicted but swallow the words that were on the tip of his tongue.

But she couldn't help laughing.

“A lot of times.”

"From what I remember, there were many times when Shinichi wanted to say something but couldn't."

"But, enough is enough."

"If you can't say it, you can't say it."

"He had no chance to say it then, and he has no chance to say it now, and he will never be able to say it in the future."

When she said these words, she only felt that her mood was particularly calm.

Shinichi no longer has the chance to say those words now, so they will not have any more relationship in the future.

Moreover, at this moment she truly realized how correct Sonoko's past advice to her was.

She and Shinichi have different values.

There's no point forcing them to be together.

Some things are destined not to change.

"Xiaolan, this is good!"

"Don't think about that Kudo guy, just pretend that work doesn't exist."

"And didn't he already commit suicide as 'Kudo Shinichi'? Just treat him as if he's dead."

"Well, that's what I planned too."

Listening to Sonoko's words, Mao Lilan also agreed deeply with them.

No need to think about Shinichi.

He has already made his decision, so there is no need to think about changing the result.

Anyway, Aunt Yukiko and Uncle Kudo have already nailed Shinichi's identity to the sword.

She believed that the identity of the person seeking death must be so perfect that the people in that organization would not be able to find any fault with it.

In that case, she would just treat Shinichi as dead.

Don't think about anything else.

"After making this decision, I feel much better."

"It felt like a stone was always blocking my heart."

"Now, I feel much better."

Mao Lilan relaxed completely.

Now she is relaxed.

She knew that her current condition was not completely healed, and some things could not be let go just like that.

But she felt she could let it go.

As long as Shinichi doesn't appear in front of her again, there will be time for everything to change, and time to get used to the fact that Shinichi will never come back.

"Amamiya, do you think it's a good thing that I chose to let go?"

“I can’t answer that question.”

"But if that's what you really think, then everything needs to be considered based on you."

"Don't think about the so-called story, this is a choice you need to make."

"Well, thank you."

PS: There is one more update, it will be later

Chapter 51 is too ridiculous and not worth reading

Amamiya Ren did not interfere with Ran Mouri's choice, and even described Kudo's condition from an objective perspective.

This also gives Mao Lirando another chance to choose.

Unfortunately, regardless of whether there is this opportunity or not, Ran Mouri seems to have made a choice that is completely opposite to the original story.

Such a choice may be contrary to human nature, but it is more in line with human nature.

"Amamiya, what's our story like from now on?"

"What do you want to know, Suzuki-san?"

"Hmm~ Xiaolan and mine."

"Actually, both Maori-san and you had a lot of scenes in the beginning."

"Mori isn't simply kindhearted, but rather has many interesting aspects. For example, she has some natural attributes. Rather than being the perfect heroine, she has a bit of a comedic talent."

"But later in the story, Maori's role becomes a mascot."

"Ah, this isn't just Mori-san. It's also true for Miyano Shiho, who we met earlier in the story."

"Her initial role was to provide Kudo with clues about the organization and to provide guidance for the protagonist's team."

"But later in the story, her role is not much different from that of a navigator. She just provides Kudo with some information."

"Wow! This is too much of a downgrade."

It’s hard to imagine how the roles of the two heroines became mascots and information lookups.

Suzuki Sonoko could imagine to what extent Xiaolan's story was diluted in the later stages of the story.

"what about me?"

"Suzuki-san's story has quite a lot of content."

"However, the direction in which most of the subsequent stories unfold still starts from the fact that Suzuki's family is wealthy."

"...Ah, suddenly I don't feel so surprised anymore."

After hearing this, she felt that she had found a position that suited her.