Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

The problem of giving everything to someone else and becoming almost like a pet is not entirely unsolvable; if the partner is noble, it can be resolved on its own.

—But what does the title "panty fanatic" mean?

It's really strange. I haven't encountered anything related to this in the past few decades of my life, but now I've received a special title.

This means that all of my previous life experiences combined are not as meaningful as these few minutes now.

That is indeed the case.

My previous thoughts were indeed somewhat biased.

Ignoring the fact that you are also a person who needs emotional support, the feeling of being ignored by others and not being able to find status and meaning is really painful, as if your heart is about to stop beating and someone is choking you.

Instead of chasing after something that doesn't suit your taste, it's better to follow your heart and wander freely like the wind.

I wonder how Alicia is doing now?

How are you doing?

Will they continue with their perfect life?

That should be the case, after all, even a flawless fairy in paradise shouldn't be restrained by people.

Traveling with someone whose personality is fundamentally different from yours is not just a torment for one person; all the problems are shared by both.

There's no need for her to worry about any of this; how could Alicia's life possibly be dimmed by this?

There's no room for concern anymore.

I guess I'll spend the rest of my life with Vervi.

Given the girl's condition, there's no way they can be separated even for a moment. If they're separated even for a little while, the girl's emotions will collapse, she'll become withdrawn, and she'll be unable to recover.

That flawless girl, that fairy-like beauty as lovely as a flower, couldn't possibly be spying on me with a camera. Even Wilvi is more likely; perhaps she knew so much about me before by spying on me.

……

……

Sitting alone in the bathroom, staring at the cold, incandescent light bulb on the ceiling, you can no longer deceive yourself by keeping your veil closed.

All the masks you wore were shattered at this moment, all your illusions were broken, and you were utterly crushed by emotions that could no longer be suppressed, leaving only fragments deeply embedded in every part of your body.

【pain……】

It means pain in the literal sense.

[The urge to breathe felt tangible, almost unbearable, as if blades were flowing through my veins into every part of my body.]

Now you can finally understand why some people choose self-harm? Why some people use weapons to violate their survival instincts and harm themselves?

[—Because this stems from an instinctive self-preservation mentality.]

[Use physical pain to alleviate mental anguish.]

The boy has already left.

The boy who appeared before you like a hero from a fairy tale the moment he was born, whom you've never been apart from, has left.

The boy who seemed so close, who would never leave you, is no longer here.

how so? !

Another corner of the world.

As Alicia entered the private room of the coffee shop, she felt a sense of oppression, pain, and sorrow emanating from her heartbeat... as if she were carrying a burden of ten thousand tons.

The fingertips pressed indentations into the fruit, and the barely audible thumping sound revealed the girl's vitality.

At this moment, however, this burst of energy seemed somewhat listless.

It was as if the song, as melodious as a bird's song, was mixed with discordant notes; the flowers, which should have been swaying in the wind, were ruffled by the huge gale.

I have never experienced such a feeling before.

On the journey of the flawless girl, a perfect journey that is equally lovely and witty, there is almost nothing dirty or sordid, no sorrow that cannot be changed, and no beauty that is destined to fade away.

Everything can be turned around by the goddess from the stars and moon; tragedy will be rewritten, enemies will be defeated, and calamities will be eradicated.

Even knowing that he would bring disaster to the town, he could only set sail alone.

Forced to leave the orphanage that adopted her, the small town where she grew up, the teachers who always treated the children with kindness, and every simple and honest resident.

Back then, in those still-immature young hearts, what I harbored most was the excitement of being able to travel the world like the protagonists in fairy tales, searching for my own paradise and my own happy land.

Only...

The only thing I wasn't sad about...

As a result, the girl, who considered herself human, even for a time forgot about negative emotions, and her understanding of them stopped at a superficial level of disappointment.

until……

Jiangcheng has left you forever.

He didn't even see you again, nor did he seek your blessing. He said goodbye and left without a trace of lingering affection in his eyes, like a free bird that never returns to the cage that confines it.

[And what were those people you invited to the banquet, those who came to Jiangcheng's birthday party, doing as the boy was about to leave?]

They were applauding.

The applause was thunderous; even you, sitting in the bathroom, could hear it clearly. Your back was pressed against the wall, and you could even feel a slight vibration.

You're alone in the bathroom, withdrawn and isolated, while they applaud, celebrating the reasons for your withdrawal, and offering blessings you wouldn't want to receive.

No words can describe it all; for the first time, you felt the inadequacy of your vocabulary.

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There are pictures here, which can be viewed after the updated version

There are pictures here, which can be viewed after the updated version

There are pictures here, which can be viewed after the updated version

35. Only Alicia remained in the same place.

If I absolutely must describe it, if I absolutely must explain it, whether using words, metaphors, or anything else, then there is only…

[—Just like Jiangcheng.]

[Your feelings right now are the same as Jiang Cheng's.]

Being ignored, disregarded, with no one caring about your true thoughts or anything... it's a feeling that makes you extremely uncomfortable and disgusted.

You've never experienced such a painful and unpleasant feeling in your entire life.

Like a small boat adrift in a giant wave, you are completely unable to catch your breath under the pressure of the current, endlessly being covered, crushed, and squeezed all over, with no chance to choose what to do.

This was just one instance of being ignored. After the applause and well wishes ended, they quickly noticed your absence, began searching for you, and showed concern for you. Their smiles were genuine; they were even happier than before.

Because the boy who annoyed them and kept following you disappeared.

【yes. 】

This is perfectly normal.

In their eyes, you are so perfect, so flawless, so unattainable, like a god, that even touching you is a sin.

[Those flowers, like fairies, pure as daughters of God, descended from the stars and moon.]

Forget daydreaming, even glancing at you is a huge taboo. Being able to be with you, to smell even a trace of your fragrance, is an immense blessing.

[No one dares to imagine the deeper implications, no one dares to think about them in this way.]

Because this is blasphemy, the greatest blasphemy.

How can someone as perfect as you be approached? Everyone should be your devotee, offering everything beneath that pink skirt.

This is the first reaction of most people; it's an unimaginable charm.

Even if they become moths drawn to flames in the future.

[Your suspicious emergence amidst the Second Herrscher's calamity meant few dared to attack you, and many even harbored different thoughts.]

Even Mebius only talked about it; although the other party might really want to, they would never actually dare to attack you.

That was a concentration camp for geniuses, a UN-organized moth-to-a-flame program. Anyone who could come here possessed exceptional talent and willpower; even a random janitor could probably earn a PhD from a prestigious university.

[Even those who are practically at the pinnacle of humanity are influenced by an ethereal charm, captivated by the flawlessness of a young girl, let alone...]

These still-developing geniuses were rescued by you from the lowest points in their lives.

How could one not harbor a fairytale-like idea of ​​a prince rescuing a princess, even knowing one's own position and daring not to disrespect her?

What I still embrace in my heart is the dream of divine salvation for myself and for the salvation of ignorant mortals.

[I was completely captivated at first sight, utterly unable to tear myself away.]

[Until they discovered that a boy named Jiang Cheng was with you, until they discovered that the boy named Jiang Cheng was even living with you and traveling together, you had never been separated from the boy in your life since childhood.]

【how……】

[How can this be…]

How can anyone live with you?!

How could anyone blaspheme against the gods like this!

How can just one city like Jiangcheng be a suitable match?

From this perspective, even a talented person is considered unqualified if they cannot completely surpass you in some aspect.

No matter how great or capable someone is, they can only be considered a deputy at best.

Moreover, the boy is not a capable person.

[He was neither foolish nor stupid; it's just that, in the eyes of these disillusioned political and business tycoons, he was no different from an ordinary person.]

Even an ordinary person might know how to spell the word "effort," but this young man has always been content with mediocrity and a simple life.

[Even though this is how it should be, this is normal.]

[Without your interference, this is the kind of life a young person should be living.]