He looked up at the noticeably dimmer moonlight and slowly spoke, as if he had something on his mind.

"I think we should say something..."

"We're sleeping in the same place, so there must be some kind of fate between us..."

Kavi was met with Mu Xian's silence.

If it weren't for the fact that the body supporting Bu Yanshan was still rising and falling with breath, Kavi would have thought that Mu Xian was already dead.

After shifting his gaze away from Mu Xian, Kavi continued speaking to himself.

"What exactly is this thing called an ideal?"

"It wasn't until I left the Order of the Church that I realized many things were not as simple as I had imagined."

"Can you understand?"

"Probably not..."

"After all, I tried my best just to blend in with the crowd."

In the darkness of night, Mu Xian slowly opened his eyes.

Clutching the silent goodness tightly in his hand, Mu Xian could see another version of himself in the corner reacting rather strongly.

-ideal...

—Give it your all...

Chapter 151 Shattered Ideals

Mu Xian stood up from the lawn.

Perhaps to give himself time to think, Mu Xian patted his robe.

The filming was a bit slow... but also very meticulous.

-ideal...

—I should say it's a wish.

Upon reflection, the so-called wish seems far removed from Mu Xian's reality.

So far that Mu Xian had almost forgotten what his feelings were when he obtained the Eye of God.

"To integrate... what's the point of integrating...?"

Mu Xian continued patting his robe and said, "Anyway, we're not the same kind of people."

Mu Xian's response surprised Kavi somewhat, as he had previously thought Mu Xian was the kind of person who was taciturn.

However, with Mu Xian's response, Kavi was able to continue speaking to some extent.

"When you're alone, even freshly cooked rice tastes cold."

Mu Xian realized that he seemed to be seeing another version of himself.

Of course, not the one in sight who has conjunctivitis, the one that's an eyesore.

However, Mu Xian is somewhat irritable right now.

He looked at Kavi in ​​front of him, as if he could see the guy slowly turning into sand under the cherry blossom tree...

"Really."

This frustration made Mu Xian's tone impatient: "As long as the food is edible, isn't that enough?"

"He's exactly the same as that guy, Elheisen..."

Kavi suddenly laughed: "Luckily, this is the first time I've met you."

"If two Elhesen were nagging in my ear at the same time, I might not be able to win the argument."

Mu Xian wasn't interested in Elhesen, whom he mentioned, and immediately stopped what he was doing.

He was thinking about how to phrase it in a more tactful way.

"Often, our so-called ideals don't turn out as we wish..."

Mu Xian left it at that, not wanting to use his own experience as corroborating evidence.

After all, no matter what Mu Xian says, there's always a suspicion that he's trying to gain sympathy.

Mu Xian also deeply disliked others' pity and sympathy.

At this point, Mu Xian looked at Kavi and noticed that Kavi had a dejected expression on his face.

"Of course I know that!"

"However, I am somewhat unafraid of death."

"Compared to the disillusionment of becoming someone who doesn't know why they're living, I'd rather die with my ideals in my heart."

Even if it breaks into pieces... I will pick them up and put them back together piece by piece.

"It's an ideal that belongs only to me, and only I am qualified to cherish it."

Kavi showed a peculiar expression after saying this.

His expression wasn't firm; it sounded more like he was discussing what to eat for dinner.

Determination is revealed at the very beginning of making a decision; after that, all that remains is the habit formed through perseverance.

Only by getting used to persisting day after day, only by getting used to every failure...

And then... he died completely, clinging to his so-called dream...

"I really envy you."

Mu Xian looked at Kavi like ashes that had been burned out looked at fireworks that were still burning.

—But I wish you all the best too...

Looking at Kavi in ​​front of him, Mu Xian was no longer sleepy.

Perhaps when Mu Xian met him before, she and he had a lot to talk about.

But right now, Mu Xian just feels uncomfortable.

As Mu Xian shifted his gaze from Kavi, he seemed to recall his thoughts when he first obtained the Eye of God.

—Back then, I probably wanted to protect everyone on the ship.

"Sir, what are you doing here?"

The sound broke Mu Xian's concentration, and he looked in the direction of the sound.

She was the dancer from before the Grand Bazaar, and probably one of the very few people in Sumeru City who believed in the Grass God.

Mu Xian remembered watching her rehearsal.

However, despite the long preparations for the Dance of the Flower Goddess, the Great Sage ultimately ordered it to be stopped.

Mu Xian remembered hearing Naxi Da mention the dancer's name.

“Nilu…”

Mu Xian uttered the name that Naxi Da had told him.

"Is this your name?"

"I didn't expect you to know my name, sir!"

Nilu was somewhat surprised that Mu Xian could pronounce the name correctly.

Light appeared in both of her eyes, and then she spoke.

"Thank you so much for helping me with my sprained ankle back then, sir... If it weren't for you..."

"But speaking of which, sir, why aren't you with Miss Catherine?"

These words startled Mu Xian, who then realized that Nilu was referring to Naxida.

"Why are there still people outside so late?"

Kavi's voice came from behind Mu Xian.

As Kavi walked to Mu Xian's side, he happened to see Nilu standing in front of Mu Xian.

The eyes showed some doubt, but the doubt quickly turned into understanding.

"Could it be..."

"Were you also kicked out by your roommate, so you're spending the night here?!"

“That’s not the case.” Nilu shook her head and then said, “Everyone in the Grand Bazaar and the leader need all sorts of necessities.”

"I volunteered to go out and buy it."

"I didn't expect we needed to buy so many things."

"I was busy working on it for a while, and by the time I finished, it was already so late."

After finishing her sentence, Nil lowered her head dejectedly, while Kavi seemed to have noticed the doubt in Nil's words and couldn't help but stroke his chin.

"Shopping? What can you buy so late at night..."

Before he could finish speaking, Kavi was given a cold glance by Mu Xian.

Of course, you can't buy much at night; she's clearly hiding something.

Mu Xian didn't care, after all, to Nilu, he was just a stranger she had met once.

It's understandable to be somewhat wary of strangers.

"that..."

Nilu seemed to have thought of something, her gaze shifting between Mu Xian and Kavi.

"Why are you all here so late?"

"What else could it be..."

Upon hearing Nilu's words, Kavi immediately became angry.

"My roommate took all the keys, so I can't even get into the house!"

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