My girlfriend was reborn.

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I don't like my older sister.

Although we are twin sisters, we are completely different.

She is cheerful, lively, talkative, and knows how to be charming. From birth, she has attracted everyone's attention, including her father's.

In contrast, I am gloomy, timid, and taciturn, afraid to express my thoughts. It's as if she stole all these wonderful qualities from me at birth.

If we didn't look exactly alike, people would probably doubt that we're actually Dad's children.

Oh, right, Dad.

I've never seen my mother since I can remember, and it wasn't until later that I learned she had passed away long ago.

My father is gentle most of the time, but he becomes sad and silent when my mother is mentioned, and sometimes he will secretly hide and cry.

At this time, the older sister would stand up and comfort her father, acting like a little adult.

As for me, all I could do was cry along with my dad.

I don't know why, but looking at him makes me feel very sad, like I've eaten a bitter melon or a rotten apple.

But later, Dad changed.

Yes, ever since he took the two of us to the film set and we played two roles.

Nature.

My older sister performed very well. She was able to communicate with the adults freely, recite the lines the director asked her to say, and could smile or become serious at any time. She could burst into tears in three seconds as soon as she received the instruction, and could also stop crying immediately.

I am different.

Seeing so many people makes me nervous. I forget my lines and don't know what expression to make. Even if the director tells me what to do again and again, I can't remember it and I always make mistakes.

I hate acting.

But Dad likes it very much.

Or rather, he really wanted us to act.

I heard that my mother used to be a very talented actress, but she gave up her career to be with my father and had my sister and me. She loves us very much.

Therefore, Dad hopes that we can carry on Mom's legacy and become excellent actors as well.

However, it seems that only the older sister can inherit it.

It's impossible for me.

Because of the fame of our first movie and my father's connections, we received many acting opportunities later on, and by elementary school, we had already become well-known child stars.

Actually, I know.

The child star is the older sister.

I'm just an accessory.

The adults on several film sets have said this.

They said my acting was terrible and that I was nervous on stage. If it weren't for the fact that we're twins, they definitely wouldn't have cast me.

I'm able to continue acting entirely because of my sister.

The same applies at school.

Everyone loves the older sister because she always has a smile on her face, as warm and gentle as the sun. Just being by her side gives you endless energy.

She has excellent grades, is good at sports, and can sing and dance. Her teachers like her very much.

But even an older sister like this has areas she can't take care of.

For example, some students in the class may be isolated because of their personality, grades, or family circumstances.

As everyone's friend and older sister, she naturally can't consider everyone's thoughts. In their eyes, it's as if she's ignoring them who are being bullied.

but.

One day after school.

I saw it.

The older sister secretly took the milk candy and went to comfort the girl who was being bullied, saying she wanted to be her friend.

"Don't worry, I definitely won't let my sister bully you."

"Thank you, Lu Qian."

That's what the girl said to her sister.

After she left, I crawled out from behind the corner. When my sister saw me, she stuck out her tongue and made a face.

Why do you say you are me?

I don't understand.

"Because she'll think Lu Bai is the one who bullies her. If I care about her, I'll definitely be seen as hypocritical. But you're perfect for her, A-Qian."

The older sister smiled.

"Besides, don't you not have many friends? This way, won't you gain a friend?"

At that moment, I couldn't say a word.

I don't like my older sister.

Because, even in the area of kindness, she far surpasses me.

I became friends with that girl, He Mu.

Because in her eyes, Lu Qian was a gentle and brave girl, so I gradually began to learn to act like an older sister and help her drive away those bullies.

I am not a qualified actor and cannot play those roles well.

But I spend every day with my sister, and I know all her little habits.

Therefore, I can only play the role of a good older sister.

My sister was very happy when she found out.

We started playing a game called "Switch Identity," and my sister said it would help me improve my acting skills.

Sometimes, we would dress up in each other's clothes and pretend to be each other, so much so that even Dad couldn't tell us apart.

When I was playing the older sister, I felt like I really became a lot braver.

I can chat and laugh with everyone around me, and I can accept everyone's gaze. Even my studies and sports have improved a lot.

Because in my heart, my older sister is such an amazing person.

When my sister was playing me, she would quietly stay to the side, either sleeping or reading random books.

Actually, I envy you.

One day, after we switched back, my sister suddenly said this to me.

Why do you envy me?

I do not understand.

My sister has everything I want, but she says that instead.

"Because, you see, I've been expected to achieve great things since I was little, right? In everyone's eyes, I should be the all-powerful, always sunny, cheerful, sensible, and well-behaved Lu Bai, shouldn't I?"

I don't know if it's just my imagination, but the setting sun made her profile look a little lonely.

"I shouldn't throw tantrums, I shouldn't be willful, I shouldn't be depressed, I shouldn't make mistakes. My performances should be the best, my studies and sports should be excellent, I should be a perfect girl, and everyone thinks so."

"But I'm really tired."

My sister looked at me.

"Ah Qian, I envy you. You don't have to work so hard, you're allowed to make mistakes, and you don't have to think about the future."

"So, when I was playing you, I was really happy. I could do what I wanted to do, without having to cater to others. I could play with whoever I wanted, and my friends would treat me sincerely, instead of gathering around me because of my fame."

She spoke these words with great anticipation.

It was at that time that I found out.

For so many years, while I've envied my sister, she's also been envying me.

In other people's eyes, my sister is still the same outstanding sister, and I am still the same burden I was.

But for us, we became the most important person to each other.

One summer vacation.

We went back to our hometown.

While playing hide-and-seek with the children in town, I accidentally hid too well and was forgotten in the ruins. When I woke up, it was already dark.

All I could do was cry in place.

At that moment, someone found me.

He said his name was Zhou Heming.

He could conjure up snacks anytime, and he seemed fearless. He told me that if I didn't want to act, I shouldn't act, and he would hold my hand and let me fall asleep peacefully.

He said he would find me.

For the first time, I felt that there were things in my life besides acting.

I told my sister about it.

"A-Qian, do you like that boy named Zhou Heming?"

The knowledgeable older sister immediately asked.

I do not know.

"If you like him, go after him. Perfect timing, didn't you make plans to hang out with him tomorrow? Take me with you, I'll help you check him out."

"That's what my sister said with a grin."

"No, what if he falls for you?"

I suddenly felt a sense of emptiness and quickly refused.

"You don't even like him, so why are you so worried?"

The older sister revealed a calm and composed expression.

"How about I impersonate you and help you confess your feelings?"

"no!"

I immediately blushed and grabbed her.

"Okay, just kidding, but it's really nice to have a guy I like."

My sister looked at me and said with some envy.

"Does your sister have a boy she likes?"

I asked out of curiosity.

"No."

She shook her head, a little helpless.

"Nobody knows whether the boy likes me or actor Lu Bai."

"Does it make any difference?"

I don't know why.

"Think about it, is the boy you like because he has good grades, is good at sports, or is popular?"

The older sister countered with a question.

I shook my head.

Although I'm not sure if that counts as liking someone, it's definitely not because of these points that I want to hang out with him.

"I hope to meet a guy who doesn't know I'm an actor or my background, but we just get along normally and we like each other."

After my sister finished speaking, she looked at me.

"So, I envy you, Asahi, you met someone like that."

I turned my face away in embarrassment.

"And he said he wants to make movies, right? So you also have to work hard to become a better actor so you can star in his movies in the future?"

Then the older sister changed the subject.

"Well."

I nodded.

Although I may never be as good as my sister, I have definitely had the idea of performing well.

"Then I'll help you train your acting skills properly, so you can scare him when the time comes, hehe."

That day, we talked a lot about Zhou Heming.

This is the first time I've felt that I'm much luckier than my sister.

Unfortunately, my dad took us to the city for filming early the next morning, and I couldn't keep my promise to him; I didn't even have time to make a phone call.

In the time that followed, I practiced my acting skills continuously in order to fulfill my promise to Zhou Heming.

Sometimes I would even pretend to be the older sister and interact with the crew.

I'm starting to realize that acting isn't such a bad thing anymore.

Being able to immerse yourself in the life of a completely different person, participate in her life, and feel her experiences is something that ordinary people cannot experience.

Looking forward to summer vacation and to seeing him, I returned to my hometown again.

This year, there will be a ceremony for the Mysterious Lord.

I don't know much about this, but my sister told me it's a performance-based sacrificial ceremony.

She was chosen as the Mysterious Ruler.

I went to find Zhou Heming immediately.

Unfortunately, his family said he and his parents went on a trip and probably won't be returning to their hometown this year.

I felt a little disappointed.

After all, we are just kids.

That day, my father took me away, and I couldn't keep the appointment.

So I don't blame him for not keeping his promise.

Then, I went home and suggested to my sister that I take her place as Xuanjun so she could go out and play.

Anyway, I don't have anyone here I want to hang out with.

My sister was very happy and readily agreed.

The day of the ceremony.

I dressed up as the older sister, wearing Xuanjun's clothes, and was carried out in a sedan chair.

The older sister followed behind the group, playing and frolicking with the other children.

Uncle Lu Ban was filming a documentary nearby, and there were many tourists and villagers, making it a lively scene.

That should have been a beautiful day.

until.

The earth cracked open, mountains collapsed, and torrential rain poured down.

With almost no time to react, the flash flood swept down.

My group and I were swept away. All I can remember is that the uncle carrying the sedan chair used his last strength to lift me out of the water, allowing me to grab onto a tree trunk and drift with the current. When I looked back, he was already gone.

Before I could even cry, I was swept down into the forest at the foot of the mountain, where I got caught on a tree branch and dared not move.

By the time the floodwaters receded and the ground was exposed, it was almost dark.

I dared not wander off, and then I heard someone calling my name.

At first I thought it was a wild animal, a wolf or a bear or something, but then I realized it was my sister's voice.

I responded to her.

After a while, we were finally reunited.

"That's great. If something had happened to you, I don't know how I would have been able to go on living."

My sister hugged me and burst into tears.

She felt that it was because she made me play the role of Xuanjun that I was in danger, so she felt very guilty and went with the adults to look for me in the mountains, and then encountered the second flash flood.

We found a large rock and hid on it.

The nights in the mountains are cold and dark.

We snuggled together and talked about things we don't usually say.

We talked about the future.

My sister said that when we both become big stars, I can visit her on set and then pretend to look like her to play pranks.

My sister said she didn't know if my Zhou Heming could distinguish between the two of us. I argued that he wasn't mine.

My sister said that no matter what, you must live well, because there are still people waiting for you, and there are still people you want to see.

My sister said that if we manage to get out of here alive, she wants me to take her to find Zhou Heming. She wants to see what kind of boy he is.

The next day, when I woke up, the surroundings were already submerged by a raging flood.

We clung to each other, not knowing whether we were awaiting rescue or death.

Just then, a lifeboat found us.

As they slowly approached the rock, intending to hand us life rings, a wave crashed in.

My sister and I fell into the water at the same time.

My sister was grabbed by the people on the boat first, and I was swept away.

But she immediately reached out and grabbed my wrist.

At that time, the situation was very critical; even lifeboats could easily capsize in the rapids.

My sister pulled me forcefully toward the lifeboat, and with the help of the people on board, I was pulled up and about to be rescued.

Then, another wave appeared.

The lifeboat nearly capsized.

My sister and I fell into the water at the same time, and at that moment, I was completely in despair.

until.

My sister pulled me back.

If she pushes me back, I'll be swept away, and she can use that to get close to the side of the boat.

However, she pushed me forcefully towards the ship and moved away from the lifeboat herself.

I instinctively turned around to pull her, but I only managed to grab her bracelet, which shattered and fell into the water, just like my sister.

When my sister and I looked at each other for the last time, I saw her mouth moving.

"Live on, and he will find you."

That was the last time I saw my sister alive.

On the lifeboat, my mind went blank. The uncles and aunts next to me asked me questions, but I couldn't say a word.

It wasn't until I returned to the foot of the mountain that I learned of my sister's death.

"I'm sorry, we couldn't save Lu Qian."

The uncle who rescued my father apologized to him.

wrong.

I am Lu Qian.

The one who died was Lu Bai.

I opened my mouth to explain.

but.

A strong emotion stopped me.

Yes.

It should have been Lu Qian who died.

She was Lu Qian, the gloomy, timid, cowardly girl who couldn't even act properly.

The one who should have survived was Lu Bai.

From that moment on.

I know.

Lu Qian is dead.

The one who is still alive is Lu Bai.

It's Lu Bai, who dreams of becoming a big star, is cheerful, lively, and bright, can make friends with anyone, has excellent acting skills, and is good at interpersonal relationships.

But I also know.

not enough.

Although I can briefly play the role of the older sister, I can't do it without being exposed at all.

and so.

I locked myself in my room.

My father, who suffered a mental breakdown due to the accident, has no time to care for me.

My relatives don't dare to bother me.

In that room.

I practiced my sister's way of speaking, her smile, and her movements in front of the mirror again and again.

I know I have to tell a lie that absolutely cannot be exposed by anyone.

I want to become an actor, assuming the identity of Lu Bai.

I must protect my sister's pride.

A lie repeated a thousand times may become the truth.

I discovered that I could perfectly impersonate the older sister, and I could never give myself away even when I was asleep.

Unless, of course, that means Lu Qian's bracelet has been removed.

At those times, I would become uneasy and revert to being Lu Qian, who should have died long ago.

I also discovered.

Because I am the biggest liar, and because I lie all the time, I have gained the ability to see through other people's lies.

I understand everything about how people lie, because that's how I deceived everyone.

A year later, I became Lu Bai.

But perhaps the Lu Qian in her heart hasn't completely died.

I chose to study in Jiangcheng when I was in the third year of junior high school.

Because he was there.

He said he would get into Jiangcheng Middle School, so I chose Jiangcheng Middle School.

But I dare not go looking for him.

I'm worried that once I see him, I won't be able to play the role of the older sister anymore, and I'll make the older sister disappear completely.

For my sister's sake, I must kill Lu Qian with my own hands.

That day.

For the school's year-end party rehearsals, for the next role to be played, and for saying goodbye to Lu Qian.

I practiced the piano in the school's multimedia classroom.

Actually, my sister doesn't know how to play the piano, but Lu Qian does. However, I haven't touched a piano since Lu Qian "died".

then.

What I'm thinking is...

After she finishes playing this piece, Lu Qian will disappear from this world.

From now on, there will only be Lu Bai.

That weak, anxious, and silent Lu Qian, that Lu Qian who loved Zhou Heming, would die completely after that farewell song ended.

Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence.

but.

Fate is sometimes like a mischievous child.

When the piece was almost finished playing.

He showed up.

He found me.

Although he could no longer recognize the girl from that summer, and had even forgotten that memory.

But me.

I recognized him at first glance.

Zhou Heming.

Now, he is Cheng Shuangjiang's boyfriend.

He's a little different from before; he's not as confident or cheerful, but gentle as ever.

He was very fond of the girl named Cheng Shuangjiang, so much so that after making Lu Qian jealous, he also hoped that they could eventually become a couple.

Because Lu Qian is dead, she can no longer find happiness.

Lu Bai had no reason to like Zhou Heming.

Therefore, only Cheng Shuangjiang can make the boy smile again.

I am willing to watch their happiness from the sidelines, because that is also Lu Qian's wish.

however.

Cheng Shuangjiang left him.

To be precise, it was Cheng Shuangjiang, who was reborn, who chose to sacrifice herself in order to save Zhou Heming, who died in the future.

Just like when my sister sacrificed herself to save me from meeting Zhou Heming.

Looking at the lonely Zhou Heming.

I think.

Even if I can't stay by his side as Lu Qian, wouldn't it be okay to accompany him as Lu Bai?
To meet him, fall in love, get married, become family, and spend the rest of our lives together.

As long as he can be happy, what does it matter if Lu Bai is by his side?

But what I didn't expect was.

In the end, he figured it out.

*
When did you figure it out?

Lu Bai stared blankly at Zhou Heming.

"You said that you fell in love with me when I found you. I've been thinking about it, and the only time I can think of it is when I was a child and I found Lu Qian."

Zhou Heming answered.

"But actually I wasn't quite sure at that time. It was only after we were swept away by the flash flood and I saw your reaction that I truly realized that you were Lu Qian."

"Speaking of which, I should have realized it a long time ago. In that part of the story in One Hundred Years of Solitude, the twins were mixed up at birth, lived their lives with the wrong names, and then their coffins were mixed up when they died. In the end, no one knew which one was who."

"Just like Lu Bai and Lu Qian."

Upon hearing Zhou Heming's words, Lu Bai's eyes suddenly reddened. She opened her mouth, but couldn't utter a single word.

“I can probably guess why you did this, so I would say that it’s enough. You can do it without being trapped by anyone’s expectations, even if that person is your younger self.”

Zhou Heming said softly.

“Lu Bai is very successful now. You have fulfilled her wish, protected her pride, and let everyone know that Lu Bai is a true actor.”

"Is it really okay?"

Lu Bai's voice choked with emotion.

"Did I really protect my sister's pride?"

"of course."

Zhou Heming smiled and gently brushed a strand of hair that had fallen beside Lu Bai's ear.

"I made a wish, at least in front of me, that you could stop pretending and live honestly. I want to see you without any pretense, with your flaws, your bad points, your embarrassing moments. I want to touch your true self, so..."

Lu Bai looked at Zhou Heming.

At this moment.

She felt as if she had returned to that night eight years ago.

In that dark, desolate, and bleak ruin, the girl curled up and wept.

until.

A hand was placed on her head.

"A-Qian".

This long-lost name has been revived after a long, cold, and lonely period.

Lu Qian, who had been dead for many years, was reborn at this moment.

She looked up and saw the boy's clear smile, just like when they first met.

"Got you."

He said.