Am I being simulated by their love affair.

Chapter 576 Not in Love

The next morning, Jun Matsue woke up very early, with the sound of torrential rain in his ears.

The dense raindrops pattered against the roof and leaves, sounding muffled through the window. He turned his head; the pale yellow curtains let in a hazy, off-white light, with faint, indistinct shadows flowing down their surface.

The boy turned his face to the other side, and Mochizuki Haruka lay quietly beside him. The girl lay on her side, her sleeping posture slightly curled up, with messy strands of hair sticking to her fair cheeks. Her expression was serene, with a hint of fatigue in her eyes, and her breathing was soft and quiet.

"She's just like a kitten," the thought popped into Jun Matsue's mind.

The sky outside the window brightened a little, but the relentless rain showed no sign of stopping. The bedroom was dim in the early morning, making it difficult to distinguish the light from the shadows. He quietly observed the girl's sleeping face.

The two didn't fall asleep until after 11 p.m. last night. Perhaps due to her natural sensitivity, Mochizuki Haruka's stamina was severely lacking compared to the boy's. For the sake of the girl's health, Matsueda Jun took turns resting until late at night before finally being completely satisfied.

Even so, Mochizuki Haruka started lying still halfway through, letting the boy do whatever he wanted. After the exercise was over, Matsueda Jun carried her to the bathroom, washing her up as the water flowed over her smooth, delicate skin.

The bed was soaked and could no longer be slept on, which is why the boy could see her peaceful sleeping face on the pillow at this moment.

A strange warmth welled up in his heart, and as he idly counted the girl's thick eyelashes, Jun Matsuoka felt even the sound of rain outside the window slow down.

He always cherishes his time, but now he is unwilling to pick up his phone on the bedside table to see what time it is.

Seemingly sensing the boy's gaze, Mochizuki Haruka's eyelashes trembled slightly. She groggily opened her eyes and squinted at the boy in front of her.

“…Pine branch?” she murmured, calling his name.

"I'm here." Jun Matsue felt the room brighten up instantly.

"I'm out of strength..." The girl rolled over and snuggled closer to the boy. "If you still want it, you can do it yourself..."

"...It's already morning." Matsueda Jun was indeed hard, but it was just a physiological phenomenon.

"Is it morning?" Mochizuki Haruka asked softly, turning over to face him in the blankets, feeling each other's body temperature.

"what time is it now?"

The boy then picked up his phone from beside the bed. "It's just past 6:30."

"...Why is Songzhi awake so early?" The girl rubbed her eyes. "Wouldn't it be better to sleep a little longer?"

Jun Matsue smiled. "Once I'm awake, I'm not sleepy at all."

Although he didn't get much sleep, he felt refreshed, perhaps because he had released most of his pent-up desires last night.

"I'm going to sleep a little longer, I feel so tired."

Mochizuki Haruka closed her eyes again, and rubbed her head against the boy's chin.

"It's all your fault for being so rough last night. I have no strength left in my body now."

"Wake me up when you get to school..."

Today is Saturday, and they still have to go to school for half a day. Jun Matsue turned his head and glanced at the tightly drawn curtains. The blurry light and shadow flowed even more rapidly, and the dense sound of rain enveloped them.

“I’ll ask for leave for you.” He picked up the girl’s phone. “You definitely need to rest today, and with such heavy rain, the school will probably notify everyone that classes are suspended.”

"...What about the pine branches?"

Mochizuki Haruka regained some of her senses. She propped herself up slightly, revealing her fair shoulders and collarbone, and stared at the boy's face illuminated by the phone screen.

Jun Matsue paused for a moment, "If the school doesn't notify me, I'll go and take a look first."

"There's no food left in the fridge. I'll be going out eventually anyway, so I'll just leave early."

“My body isn’t that weak.” The girl pouted slightly, gazing into the boy’s calm eyes. “Do you want to see Tomatsu Yuka?” she suddenly asked.

The boy nodded. "I need to break up with her."

If he had some hesitation before, then after last night, Jun Matsue had no reason to hesitate anymore.

Mochizuki Haruka wasn't surprised, but there wasn't much joy on her face either. The girl's bare shoulders shrank back under the covers.

"Whatever, whether you break up or not is irrelevant to me."

Now it was Matsueda Jun's turn to be surprised. He was ready to date Mochizuki, but the girl who had urged him to break up with her was now saying she didn't care.

"……What's the meaning?"

"It means exactly what it says." Mochizuki Haruka pouted. "Whether you break up or not is up to you, because I don't plan to be your girlfriend right now."

The ambiguous and blurry light suddenly disappeared from the room, and Matsueda Jun finally woke up completely from the erotic reverie of the previous night. He frowned, and his gaze towards the girl became more scrutinizing.

"I don't mean a one-night stand!" The boy's gaze made the girl a little flustered, and she quickly explained.

She pressed herself closer to the boy's body, "Hey, Pine, I have a question for you."

"If I were to date you now, could you guarantee you wouldn't break up with me?"

Jun Matsue paused, and the image of Maki Yami's sorrowful smile flashed through his mind.

...But Wangyue is different from her senior, he told himself.

So the boy quickly spoke up, "I think it's up to you to decide."

"Really?" The joy in Mochizuki Haruka's eyes wasn't particularly intense.

"If Tomatsu Yuka says to you, just like I did back then, 'You're all I have left,' can you just leave her behind?"

The room was filled with the low, chaotic sound of rain.

"If Yosei Kurusu announces on stage that she has someone she likes, would you let her take all the abuse from the fans alone?"

The girl's unwavering determination made it even harder for Jun Matsueda to speak.

“Matsue, you like me, but there are other people in your heart.” Mochizuki Haruka hugged his arm tighter. “Before I’m sure you like me, of course I can be indifferent.”

People are always like this; once they get something, they want more. The young girl wasn't some detached philosopher, but of course, she was no exception.

"But if I were in a relationship with you, I would definitely be even more concerned and insecure—"

"If you become closer to them, will your feelings for me diminish? Will Tomatsu Tomohana or Kurusu Yosei take my place one day?"

Matsueda Jun's silence at this moment was precisely the reason why Mochizuki Haruka rejected him; it proved that the girl's worries were not unfounded.

"So unless Songzhi can guarantee that he won't break up with me, I won't date you."

Despite saying this, Mochizuki Haruka nestled against the boy's chest with deep affection.

She tilted her head back and met Jun Matsue's frozen gaze.

"I don't want to be your next ex-girlfriend."

(End of this chapter)