Am I being simulated by their love affair.

Chapter 453 The Romance Ends
Jun Matsue opened the window, and a fresh breeze blew into the room, making the girl, who was crying so hard she felt suffocated, feel a little better.

"Thank you." Yamami Maki's voice was unusually weak.

"You've been crying so hard your snot is coming out." The boy smiled, and the girl turned her face away shyly.

He picked up a tissue from the room and handed it to his senior, then walked towards the door.

"Matsushi." Yamami Maki thought the boy was leaving, and she began to feel anxious.

"I'll go buy you a bottle of water." Jun Matsue waved his hand, indicating that she could rest assured.

When he returned to the room with the bottled water, the girl had already wiped the dirt off her face. Her beauty looked somewhat haggard, which only made her more pitiful.

"Even if you're afraid I won't be there for you when you're sad, do you still want to break up?" the boy asked gently.

Yamami Maki did not reply, but her silence itself was an answer.

Jun Matsuoka sat down beside her. The room was dimly lit without the lights on, except for the brightly lit window, which looked like a glowing oil painting.

"I really don't understand." Matsueda Jun's anger turned into a helpless frustration. "Why aren't you willing to try to change things, senior?"

"Because... I just want to have a normal relationship." Yami Maki bit her lip.

"Perhaps for Matsueda, 'change' is something that can be accomplished by making up one's mind. I know that this is how Yuka and Mochizuki changed."

Those two guys had indeed contacted the senior student. Matsueda Jun felt even more helpless.

"But you are all so strong, while I am so weak that even making a decision requires all my strength."

She had argued with her father before, and today she wanted to refuse all of this on behalf of Matsueda Jun in front of him.

“Matsueda-kun.” The girl wiped her eyes. “I’ve lived in the Yamami family for almost twenty years.”

“I’m not talking about the long-established Yami family, but my parents, brothers and sisters, all people with the surname Yami.”

“My father is very old-fashioned and has a deep belief in the family’s beliefs, so he is very biased. If my brother has problems with his studies or is not in a good state, my father will immediately go to find out what’s wrong and ask my brother what’s going on.”

“He showed less concern for my sister and me. When I was little, I was quite resentful of that and thought I must behave well in the future and surprise my dad.”

"But I've already fulfilled that wish with Matsueda-kun's help," Yami Maki smiled at the boy. "Last time in the biology competition, my score was even higher than Kokoro-chan's, and they were all shocked!"

However, Jun Matsue was not happy. His senior's calm tone made him feel as if she were a patient having a final burst of energy before death, and he could clearly sense that something was fading away.

“I was young and immature back then, and I used to hate my brother, but that hatred has long since disappeared—he has been married for three years and can only come back once every few months to oversee overseas business. We are not from the same world.”

“Dad really went too far today. I’ve never been close to him since I was little. It was he and Grandpa who opposed my learning to paint.”

"But when I started learning to play, he was the one who helped me choose my first clarinet—its silver keys were shiny, elegant, and beautiful."

Yamami Maki's expression grew calmer and calmer. "My mother doesn't let me eat spicy food because she wants me to be mindful of my image, but otherwise, she'll make whatever I want to eat."

"My cooking skills have always been terrible because my mom spoiled me."

As Jun Matsuoka watched the dim light stream into the room through the window frame, his anger and confusion were gradually replaced by a sense of helpless melancholy.

Perhaps it wasn't that the senior was too weak, but rather that they were too special—whether it was herself, Mochizuki Haruka, or Tomatsu Yuka, none of them had normal family relationships.

The girl started wiping her eyes again. "In the end, it's because my feelings for someone are just ordinary feelings."

"I lack awareness and the courage of Yuka and Mochizuki, so I can only stand still and can't make a choice."

“Didn’t you choose to abandon me?” Jun Matsue suddenly asked.

Even if it's rationally acceptable, reason can never convince emotion. Yamami Maki paused, then laughed, nodding with a particularly desolate expression.

“Matsue-kun, I regret it now. My sister didn’t want to talk to me about her husband until after she got married. If I had known that dating you would make you suffer like this…”

"Even if it would be very, very heartbreaking, I would not choose to start all of this."

"..." Matsueda Jun remained silent for a long time. The light from the window shone on the seats in front of the two of them, the seats where Yami Kazuaki had left.

"Even if I'm with other people, you're okay with it?"

The girl's breathing became rapid, whether from the sobs that she couldn't stop crying or from being unable to accept the question the boy had asked.

"Then let's just break up?" Jun Matsue continued to ask.

".Um."

Yamami Maki's voice was faint yet clear.

Jun Matsue closed his eyes; at that moment, he had an urge to smash everything in front of him to pieces.

However, he held back and took out his phone to call Wang Yuehua.

"Is something wrong, Songzhi? My grade meeting just ended, and I need to go see the homeroom teacher next," Auntie asked with a smile.

"It's nothing. Remember to have Mochizuki register in the access control system before you move, so it will be easier for her to come and go from the apartment."

"Okay, I understand." The woman paused for a moment before speaking, as if sensing something, "Remember not to wander off. I'll come find Xiaoyao and we can play together after the meeting~"

"no problem."

He put down his phone. Beside him, Yamami Maki closed her eyes tightly, her eyelashes trembling in the dim light. The girl's heart was on the verge of collapse.

However, tears still streamed down her face. Jun Matsue picked up a tissue and wiped away her tears one last time.

"Senior, I really want to understand you, but I've really given so much."

"On the night of my farewell performance, I felt like I was about to give up on everything."

"But the next morning, you told me that you had given up on me."

The girl's tears flowed again, quickly soaking the tissue and making Matsueda Jun's fingers cold. He threw the bitterly soaked tissue into the trash can.

Before leaving the room, he turned around and took one last look at Yamami Maki.

"I do not regret."

This was his answer to the girl.

He has changed a lot, but he doesn't regret it.

Jun Matsue closed the door and calmly walked toward the teaching building. From the room next door, separated by a wall, came the heartbreaking sobs of a young girl.

He looked out into the corridor; the sky had cleared and was incomprehensibly bright.

"All I really wanted was to have a normal, ordinary relationship."

Surrounded by sunlight, Jun Matsue felt somewhat dazed.

(End of this chapter)