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Chapter 389 Selfishness is Happiness

Chapter 389 Selfishness is Happiness
The girl, with her back to the gloomy sky outside the window, wept softly in Matsueda Jun's arms.

For Maki Yami, her high school life, which was about to end, was originally fulfilling and satisfying.

Haneoka High School in Mitaka City was an unexpected interlude in her life; the girl tried, failed, and succeeded. Yamami Maki accepted these novel and unfamiliar experiences with a calm and accepting attitude, like watching a movie, ready to greet the ending with a mix of melancholy and anticipation.

However, Tomatsu Yuka's anger and tears were like a sharp knife, mercilessly slicing through the screen in front of Yamami Maki, allowing her to glimpse her own selfishness and ugliness.

Jun Matsue gently patted his senior's back to soothe her emotions. The boy looked out the window at the continuous rain, having not heard the cicadas for several days.

After the girl's crying gradually subsided, and she silently breathed against his shoulder, Jun Matsueda finally spoke.

"Does the senior regret it now?"

Yamami Maki's body, which had been rising and falling with her breathing, stopped abruptly. She looked up, her expression somewhat bewildered.

"What do you mean?"

"Does the senior regret choosing me now?" Jun Matsue looked into the girl's eyes.

Because of the senior's stubbornness, even now, the two are not in a romantic relationship, so he did not use the word "dating" or similar terms.

Yamami Maki shook her head slowly but firmly.

"I was very happy when I was with Songzhi, happier than I had ever been before, so I have no regrets."

"But Yuka is so sad and upset now, and it's all my fault."

"Maybe things would have turned out better if we hadn't hidden it from her."

"Or I could be more rational and wait until after graduation to get closer to Songzhi."

The girl did have regrets, but she only regretted not finding the best solution, which led to the breakdown of her relationship with Yuka.

Matsueda Jun finally breathed a sigh of relief. "In that case, you don't need to ask me what to do."

"I won't give up on my senior. Does she intend to give up on me?"

Yamami Maki shook her head more decisively, shifting her gaze elsewhere and avoiding eye contact with the boy.

"But Yuka."

“Given Matsu’s current state, you two definitely can’t be friends,” Jun Matsueda calmly pointed out this reality.

Despite saying that, he did not relay Tomatsu Yuka's "I hate her" to his senior—Matsueda Jun did not intend to play the role of a mouthpiece for the time being, lest the girls' relationship become even worse because of him.

The girl's shoulders hunched, as if the cold rain outside had seeped into her body. She lowered her head, hugged her arms, and didn't know what to say.

The boy put his hands on her shoulders and said, "Tomatsu is angry right now. Going to her now might just provoke her."

"We can only consider how to deal with it after everyone has calmed down for a while."

This is Jun Matsueda's answer: accept reality.

The deed is done, and there is no other way but to accept it. In fact, he doesn't think it's all a bad thing—his relationship with his senior was bound to be exposed sooner or later, and the new beginning that Yami Maki was looking forward to after graduation was just wishful thinking, because Tomatsu Yuka is not the kind of person who would give up easily.

So since it's bound to erupt sooner or later, revealing it before its destructive power continues to build might be a good choice.

"But I'm sorry to Yuka," the girl murmured, her conscience constantly questioning her these past few days.

"Does the senior feel sorry for taking away the person the junior likes, or does she feel sorry for deceiving the junior?" the boy asked calmly.

“Yes, I have them all.” She lowered her head even further.

Matsueda Jun sighed, and suddenly slapped his hands against the girl's face. Yami Maki looked up in surprise, her face, which had been squeezed and deformed, looked cute and confused.

"Senior, would you be happy if you gave me to Tomatsu?" the boy said softly. "That would be fair to her, but would it be fair to me and to yourself?" The girl blinked, and some color returned to her pupils.

“There is no right or wrong in love,” Jun Matsueda continued. “Or rather, people are all selfish.”

"Compared to the happiness of others, our own happiness is always put first. This is the base principle of humankind."

"Perhaps someone can transcend this standard; such a person is a saint, and it certainly won't be us."

He vigorously rubbed the girl's face, and Yami Maki did not resist, but just listened silently to what the boy said.

"Senior, has someone ever told you that family is the most important thing, and everything should be done in service of the family?"

Jun Matsue asked the question that had been bothering him all along.

This is a great opportunity. He wants to correct not only Yami Maki's views on love, but more importantly, her values and outlook on life.

Only in this way can he see more of the girl's smiling face.

Maki Yami nodded. From childhood to adulthood, this was what her parents, grandparents, and tutors had all told her.

Jun Matsueda leaned close to the girl's face, their foreheads touching. Maki Yami could even feel the air currents created by the boy's eyelashes fluttering.

“That’s not how it is.” He stared into the girl’s eyes and said, word by word.

"Yamami Maki, your own happiness is the most important thing."

“I know that even if I say this to you now, your opinion won’t change immediately.”

Jun Matsue is very self-aware; the values and beliefs that his senior had formed over more than ten years of education could not be changed by just one sentence from him.

"But I still hope that you can keep this sentence firmly in mind."

"Whether it's school, major, hobbies, or life direction, love and marriage, what matters more than considering others is what you want to do yourself."

"So even if you stole the person Tomatsu liked, you weren't wrong."

"Moreover, I do not belong to Tomatsu Tomoka, nor to Yamami Maki."

"This is a multiple-choice question. I chose you myself, and you are just responding to my choice."

The boy released his hands, and Yamami Maki didn't make any further movements; she seemed to be stunned on the spot.

"I don't know," the girl said, somewhat confused.

Her grandfather and father both told her that the prosperity of the family is the happiness of its members.

The teachers also told her that giving is the most important thing, and that noble people always have others in their hearts.

"You'll know once you try it."

Jun Matsue suddenly had a strange feeling that he was a demon tempting the purest nun to fall.

"The secret to happiness is freedom, and the secret to freedom is courage."

"Perhaps the significance of meeting my senior is to tell you this."

You have the right to pursue your own happiness.