Am I being simulated by their love affair.

Chapter 38 The Outbreak of Act Three
"How did you find out?"

Mochizuki Haruka listened to her own words like a bystander, and the tone reminded her of the night when Matsueda Jun left in her dream.

"This company is owned by a friend of the dean's grandmother. Mochizuki, remember to have your subordinates do a thorough investigation next time." Matsueda Jun reminded her kindly.

"Thank you for the reminder. I will pay attention next time." Mochizuki Haruka responded expressionlessly.

"So, Mochizuki Haruka-san, don't you have anything to explain to me?"

Jun Matsueda was looking at the scenery outside the window. Lightning flashed and all the picture frames turned white.

"What else is there to explain? What I did was done, and it's wrong is wrong, but I won't regret it." The girl lowered her head, and Matsueda Jun couldn't see her expression.

"Why are you so obsessed with me?" Matsueda Jun stood up and sat down at the seat farthest away from Mochizuki Haruka.

There was only the sound of rain in the study, and the girl didn't speak.

What should I say? Should I tell him that he saved me from the abyss? Or should I tell him that I was once obsessed with him, loved him to the point of losing everything, and then was abandoned by him, and then my love turned to hate?

The girl's self-esteem did not allow her to say that. She did not accept that Mochizuki Haruka could be herself.

Mochizuki Haruka didn't want to tell him about the system, didn't want to tell him about their love-hate relationship in the simulation. She had been trying to treat this memory as a dream, as if if she spoke it out loud, the memory would no longer be a memory, the simulation would no longer be a simulation, but would gradually become reality. She didn't want this to happen.

Although she was in the study, Wang Yueyao felt like she was back in her bedroom, that dark, warm room where all time had been stagnant. It had once been like a mother's womb, giving her the most primitive sense of security in life, but later it had become like a prison, imprisoning all her pain and making it impossible for her to escape.

Can the sound of rain speak for her?

The girl wondered if there was another way. Perhaps she simply hadn't given Matsueda enough. If she gave him enough, he would be moved and willingly stay with her.

Name a price, she said to Matsueda Jun in her heart.

"I admit that there are indeed problems with my approach." Mochizuki Haruka finally spoke.

"I just want you to stay within the reach of the Mochizuki family. Because you are too important to me, I can't stand any accidents happening to you." Her voice trembled a little. The girl probably rarely spoke from a weak position like this.

Only you will see me crying at the bottom of the abyss, only you will reach out to save me, only you can save me.

"Safety issues like car accidents, or being abducted by a woman who appears out of nowhere, are absolutely unacceptable."

What would I do if you disappeared? What could I do?
"So I just hope you can stay by my side. As long as you can stay here, in Mitaka City for the time being, you can do whatever you want. I will protect you and nothing will happen. If you want a job, I will give you a job. If you want money, I will give you money. If you want power and status, it's okay for you to inherit the Mochizuki family in the future."

I can give you anything as long as you stay with me. Stay with me, wait for the possible moment to come, and then save me, okay?

Mochizuki Haruka raised her head and looked at Matsueda Jun with hope, but the boy just held his chin and watched the rain hitting the pine branches outside the window.

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"I didn't try to hinder you from the beginning."

"Did I show any kindness to you? It's all about work, isn't it good to work under the name of the Mochizuki family?"

"You rejected all my temptations. What can I do?"

"What do you want? Can I move the entire orphanage to Mochizuki's house for you?"

The weakness in the girl's voice gradually disappeared, but her voice became more trembling, as if she was outside, enduring the cold and harsh beating of heavy rain.

"What do you want?! Tell me!" Her voice drowned out the thunder in the distance. "Don't treat me with such indifference!"

It sounded more like a complaint than a question. Mochizuki Haruka leaned against the bookshelf beside her for support. Matsueda Jun finally turned to look at Mochizuki Haruka.

"Don't act like a victim. It's obviously my life that is disturbed and my interests are violated every time, why do you always act so hurt?" He sighed.

"Just because I'm showing you kindness, just because of this face," he slapped his face very hard, "does that mean I have to take on all your affection and emotions, and be responsible for your presumptuous expectations and disappointments?"

Jun Matsueda's voice was not loud, but it was deafening to Haruka Mochizuki, and her body trembled.

"Mr. Mochizuki Haruka, you said you wanted to be my friend and told me not to fake smile or say anything hypocritical in front of you. I remember everything."

"I did that too. I thought if I did that to you, you would do the same to me. Because isn't that the way it is in friendship or love?"

Jun Matsueda's tone was always gentle, but his words were as sharp as needles.

Actually, she wasn't lying. Rather than lying, Mochizuki Haruka would rather say nothing at all.

"Regarding your question, I just want to say, Mochizuki Haruka-san, I don't know if this is your subconscious thought, but you seem to want to control my life. No matter how you treat other people, I will never allow this."

The sound of rain continued, and the round study seemed like the only remaining land, surrounded by a black ocean.

Mochizuki Haruka awaits his verdict.

"Mochizuki Haruka, you helped me when I was suspended from school, and I'm very grateful for that. Although I don't really care about it, I could just transfer to another school, but you did help me."

"I will always remember all the kindness and goodwill shown to me, and I will never forget it until I die." Jun Matsueda is grateful for his previous hyperthymesia.

"Let's just let this matter and your previous help cancel each other out. There's no need to talk about us being friends anymore."

It's funny to say, it hasn't been long since Jun Matsueda entered Uegaoka High School, and the thing he seems to have experienced most is building and then destroying relationships.

"And don't try to control me in any way, or we won't even be able to be normal classmates."

"It's my freedom to go wherever I want, and you have no right to tell me what to do."

No one spoke or moved. The rain outside the window got heavier. Mitaka City had never seen such heavy rain this year. The rain hit the window glass and made it shake constantly.

The windows that originally resembled oil paintings began to tremble, as if the painter's emotions were placed in the work, and his soul wanted to break out of the frame.

Jun Matsueda was a little worried about the situation in the welfare home. He stood up and prepared to leave the study, but Haruka Mochizuki stood there without moving.

".impossible."

He turned around. "What did you say?"

"I said no way. I won't let you leave me."

"Okay." Jun Matsueda just smiled nonchalantly and opened the door of the study.

"Are you planning to run away?" Mochizuki Haruka's question made Matsueda Jun stop.

The girl looked at Matsueda Jun's back, with a determined look in her eyes as if she was asking a question even though she knew the answer.

Maybe he and I are destined to be entangled in the wrong ways, the girl thought sadly.

(End of this chapter)