She's a shrewd and sweet woman who transmigrated into a book.

Chapter 168 She must first be herself, then any other identity.
Liu Jingyi felt that when someone like her, who was afraid of death, committed suicide, it was simply because she really didn't want to live anymore.

Liu Jingyi did not answer. Leng Yuchen twitched the corners of his mouth, trying his best to appear well-behaved.

But it's still quite far-fetched, and even a little sad.
"No way?"

Liu Jingyi's mind was in a state of confusion.

Hearing his words of disappointment and pity, she felt very sad too.

"Go buy some things first, then you can stay here for now. We'll see how things go from here to the future."

"it is good."

After the three of them finished shopping, Leng Yuchen insisted on taking her home.

No matter how Liu Jingyi tried to persuade her, she couldn't stop.

This child really loves her very much and listens to her very much.

But some things remain stubbornly ingrained.

Liu Jingyi took Ling'er's hand, raised her other free hand, and gently rubbed his head and touched his face.
"You don't need to do that."

There's no need to constantly consider her feelings.

He doesn't need to pretend to be docile or try to please anyone; he's already done a great job.

He was already a good person; it was her fault, it was all her fault.

She's not a good mother; she's too selfish.

What could the child have done wrong? He's just too much like him.

But how could he possibly control that?

He had no choice!

When Liu Jingyi's fingertips touched his skin, he seemed to freeze in place, his whole body stiffening.

After a long while, he seemed to have taken her words to heart.

The entrance to the alley.

The boy opened his arms and hugged Liu Jingyi tightly.

Like a child, he hugged his mother tightly.

He was already taller than her. He gently rested his chin on her shoulder, quietly enjoying the moment.

A mother's scent is always sweet.

He had never held him so closely, so tightly, before.

She always physically abused him, showing her disgust.

Never before have I felt so quiet, able to reach out and hold her like this.

Leng Yuchen felt that he was really easy to satisfy.

A single touch, a single hug, can make him feel that everything has meaning.

His heart calmed down.

He suddenly lost control and hugged her very tightly.

Leng Yuchen's hoarse voice came through, "Remember me forever, okay?"

Always remember him.

Always and always.

He didn't know how long he could stay here, or how long he would stay.

Leng Yuchen himself was not sure.

He knew she was not divorced, had not been humiliated, and had not been abused.

She is living a good life.

Although he was no longer there, she had a pair of adorable twins.

Her smile was so radiant.

At that moment, he felt that it was good that he didn't exist.

At least that way, Jingyi wouldn't have to suffer so much.

As long as Mom is always this happy.

Enough.

Liu Jingyi felt her neck was wet; her tears fell, icy cold.

She gently hugged him, nodded, and whispered, "Okay."

A hug is worth a thousand words.

After an unknown amount of time, Leng Yuchen released her. His face showed no sadness or grief, and there was no indication that he had cried. As Liu Jingyi left, she refrained from looking back, only tightly holding Ling'er's hand.

Leng Ling glanced back at her brother standing at the door. He saw her gaze and smiled at her.

It's a genuine, heartfelt smile, a smile that comes from the heart, a smile you have to laugh for.

Although Leng Ling didn't laugh, she slightly opened her mouth and silently called out "Brother".

When they looked at each other, they both understood what the other was thinking.

As they walked out of the alley, Leng Ling asked,
"Mom, you like your brother, don't you!"

In her past life, Ling'er and Sheng'er did not exist, but she felt that Ling'er seemed to know about Leng Yuchen's existence.

She acted as if she knew him quite well.

She couldn't lie to Ling'er that she didn't like him.

"Ling'er, do you know this brother? You don't like this brother, do you?"

Leng Ling lowered her head; she couldn't lie to her mother.
"Well, it's not that I dislike him, it's just that I feel like he'll take my mother away from me."

Liu Jingyi squatted down, looking at her daughter in surprise.

"Ling'er, where have I seen you before?"

"In my dream, it was Mom."

"In my dream, there was neither me nor my brother, only my mother and that brother."

“Your brother is so pitiful. The mother in your dream is different from you, even though she has the same face. She doesn’t have a father either.”

Liu Jingyi was stunned, so Ling'er also had a dream and saw her in such a despicable state.

She felt a strange, indescribable discomfort.

She sighed, picked up her daughter, and said softly, "No, Mommy won't be taken away, but it's true that Mommy didn't do a good job. Mommy is sorry to your brother."

"Mom can't explain it to you either, because Mom can't explain everything that's happening right now."

"However, Ling'er, you don't need to force yourself. Nothing is more important than your happiness, understand?"

After all, that's just who she is.

Nothing is more important than making her happy.

People often say she's selfish, even if they don't say it out loud, they'll say it behind her back.

She was described as a selfish woman.

She neglects her family, isn't wholeheartedly devoted to her husband, and doesn't give her all to her children.

But that's just the kind of person she is.

She was never bound by anything.

She has to be herself first, and only then can she be someone's wife and the mother of their children.

If she doesn't even have a self, then why did she come into this world?

She is an individual.

Liu Jingyi hopes her child will be like that too.

If you don't want to compromise, then don't compromise.

Don't compromise your principles.

Don't care too much about what others think.

They just need to be themselves.

Leng Ling was silent for a moment, then raised her small face and spoke softly but very earnestly.
"If Mom is happy, I am happy."

Liu Jingyi felt a lump in her throat and couldn't help but kiss her.

"Ling'er, you're still a child. Don't think too much. Mom will handle adult matters. Just live each day carefree, okay?"

Leng Ling nodded and said in a coquettish tone, "Mommy, can you kiss me again?"

She has been feeling anxious and uncertain these past few days. Although she has only dreamed about him once, she knows that the brother is pitiful and she is afraid that her mother will be taken away by him.

She was terrified that she would wake up one morning to find that she and her brother were gone.

Liu Jingyi kissed her several more times, laughing as she spoke.

"Is this okay?"

Leng Ling felt very satisfied, as sweet as if she had eaten candy.

She said happily,

"Mmm, Mom, I love you so much."

Liu Jingyi pinched her little face, "Mommy loves you very much too."