Rebirth of Chinese Entertainment, the Diary of a 95 Flower

"I'm sorry, I couldn't give my past self a student life full of security." Yang Chaoyue's voice was breathy.

Jiang Yang did not disturb Yang Chaoyue and let Yang Chaoyue continue talking.

He put his fingers together and gently patted Yang Chaoyue's hand.

He tilted his head to look.

Yang Chaoyue rested her cheek on his shoulder and closed her eyes.

Tears slid down her jawline.

She dared not open her eyes, afraid that if she did, she would see her past self reflected in the mirror against the wall.

Yang Chaoyue forced a relaxed smile: "When I was a student, I was particularly afraid of being alone. I always wanted to hang out with others. I don't know why, but I was just very insecure. Every time I walked with my classmates, I was always worried that my shoelaces would come undone."

"When I found my shoelaces were untied, I didn't dare to squat down and tie them, because I knew no one would wait for me."

Jiang Yang listened silently.

In a variety show in my previous life, Xu Zhisheng said something similar, and I never expected that Yang Chaoyue would have the same experience.

Yang Chaoyue's moist eyelashes trembled.

His lips trembled involuntarily.

Feeling uneasy.

She opened her eyes, and through her blurry tears, looked in the mirror.

I saw a scene from my student days, wearing a faded school uniform, walking down the street with my classmates.

I pretended that I could chat with my classmates.

Squat down to tie your shoelaces.

Looking up, I realized that everyone had already gone far away, their figures blurred in the sunset, and no one was waiting for me.

That time, I don't know why, I tied my shoelaces for a long time, until my fingers were shaking.

"If I could go back to that time, I would hold the hand of my student self and tell her..."

"Tell her what?"

“Tell him…don’t be afraid, I’ll wait for you.”

A smile tugged at the corner of Yang Chaoyue's mouth.

A suppressed sob escaped from his throat.

It's just a thought.

I understand that time cannot be turned back.

Everyone moves forward; no one can go back to the past.

"Yang-ge, back then, I always wondered if I was walking too slowly, which is why no one waited for me?"

"It's not your problem."

Jiang Yang comforted him softly.

Yang Chaoyue's lower lip trembled: "At that time, I was walking alongside everyone, dragging my untied shoelaces, pretending not to see them. I was afraid of tripping over my own shoelaces, so I walked very carefully. I was even more afraid that if I squatted down to tie my shoelaces and looked up, I would see that everyone had already gone far away."

A sob came from his throat.

There was a pause of several seconds.

Yang Chaoyue continued, "The saddest thing was that once I noticed that someone noticed my shoelaces were untied. Actually, many people noticed, but everyone tacitly pretended not to see it. No one reminded me. We just walked away chatting and laughing, and no one paid any attention to me."

Looking back.

That's how my student days were.

Shoelaces that are dragging, shoes with untied laces.

Except for the time when a boy in my class told me that his mother didn't want him anymore, I picked up a broom and hit him back.

The rest of the time, I just watched other people's expressions and that was it.

"After that, I learned a way to tie my shoelaces quickly, so quickly that I could tie them in a second and catch up with everyone as soon as I squatted down."

A few seconds of silence. Yang Chaoyue tried to calm himself down, slowing his speech and softening his voice: "Then, I don't know when, I started to stop caring about it. I stopped deliberately saying things I didn't want to say just to make myself seem like I belonged. When I found my shoelaces were untied, I didn't need to tie them quickly because I knew that there were people around me who were willing to wait for me."

Jiang Yang noticed that Yang Chaoyue's hand moved slightly as he gently patted it.

She tightened her grip on his hand little by little: "I'm really doing pretty well right now."

Jiang Yang understood that Yang Chaoyue was referring to himself.

That's really outrageous these days.

Number one in arguing with the boss.

Yang Chaoyue smiled when he met Jiang Yang's gaze.

There was actually more to say, but they didn't say it in front of Jiang Yang.

That seems pretentious.

After signing the contract, I returned to my room and went to the bathroom.

I gaze at myself in the mirror.

Many people came to mind.

It's not just Jiangyang.

There's also Zhao Jinmai, who always wants to grow up; Tian Xiwei, who was bullied at school; and Liu Haochun, who has a lot on his mind...

Familiar faces flashed through my mind.

She took out her phone and opened her private photo album.

My gaze was fixed on a low-resolution missing person poster.

It was the missing person notice that Sister Yan, who had helped her before, sent her.

The picture above shows Yan Jie's younger sister, who was abducted by human traffickers.

After signing with Jiangyang Company as an artist, I drifted further and further away from Sister Yan's life, and we may never have any contact again.

But it won't hinder my future. When I can help Sister Yan, I'll quietly help her from behind the scenes.

If I hadn't worn the chiffon dress I borrowed from Sister Yan on the day of the interview, my fate might not have changed.

I will never see this share of the actor's contract, which is worth a full 210,000.

I've had enough of the pain of being separated from my family.

I don't want my old friend to suffer like this.

If you can help, then help.

Yang Chaoyue's shoulders relaxed slightly as he spoke the words he hadn't said before: "Chaoyue, there will always be people left behind in this world... but at least you can look back and find them."

"Help them tie up their loose shoelaces."

Because I had been caught in the rain, I wanted to hold an umbrella for someone else.

The last sentence was spoken softly, but with power.

These words will forever remain buried in my heart, and I will never tell anyone, because I know that others cannot understand or comprehend my feelings.

Only after being drunk do you know how strong the wine is; only after loving do you know how deep the affection is.

Others cannot write your poems, just as you cannot write someone else's dreams.

Sometimes I'm really happy, but I feel like I'm about to break. Luckily, my friends are all together. We squeeze together, stick together, and then I don't break.

Jiang Yang carefully put away the contract signed by Yang Chaoyue. In the [Beautiful Girl Battle 4] group, he received a message from Zhao Jinmai: ["I really want to grow taller. I'm so afraid of being short in the future. By the way, I just saw on the internet that there's a procedure called limb lengthening surgery abroad. Do you guys know about this surgery?"]
Jiang Yang pushed open the door and went out. He saw the message and typed a reply: [“I know, Mai Mai, you want to have this surgery?”]
Zhao Jinmai replied: [“I’d like to, but I don’t know if it’s reliable. I heard that it can make you grow ten centimeters taller after the procedure, but I don’t know if it’s true.”]
Jiang Yang got into the car: ["It's true. The good news is I can grow ten centimeters taller, the bad news is I won't look taller in a wheelchair."]
After sending the message, I started the car.

Zhao Jinmai replied: [“Xiao Jiang, you scared me.”]
Yang Chaoyue chimed in: ["Brother Yang, don't scare Mai Mai. The bad news isn't that bad. Buying a height-increasing wheelchair will solve the problem."]
Yang Chaoyue then sent a message: ["And there's more good news: I don't need to check the weather forecast anymore, because my leg pain is more accurate than the weather forecast."]
Zhao Jinmai understood that Jiang Yang and Yang Chaoyue were trying to dissuade her from undergoing the bone-lengthening surgery.

I never actually intended to do it.

I just wanted to find a topic to talk about.

A line of text was typed in the chat box: [“Xiao Jiang, come see me off, hurry up.”] (End of this chapter)